I'm also in the middle of the 4-20 day period and a bit fucked off because I'd thought that once past the first few days with no sign of a headache I could relax and not give any more thought to rare side effects. I probably could relax a bit more if the news about this would just stop evolving. A known risk is one thing - you get your head round it, you put it in perspective, you move on from thinking about it. But the constant drip drip of bad news is making me jumpy as I subconsciously anticipate the next bit of worrying information that might be about to come out.
Arguing that the AZ vaccination programme is a sound public health decision (which it clearly is) isn't actually that helpful to someone at a personal level, who is balancing only individual risks. The odds seem very clearly to be on the side of any one individual not being harmed by the vaccine, but a few days ago the chance was one in millions and now it's higher already and those of us who've recently had this vaccine have now got symptoms as vague as a headache to keep an eye out for. I think people not in that position might appreciate that this progression is genuinely a bit unsettling.
For each of us individuals waiting for 20 days, the odds are overwhelmingly in favour of us being absolutely fine. Let's hold on to that thought, and hope also that that's it, there's not going to be anything worse to find out about the vaccine (although if there is, we'll cope with that too). It's OK to be a bit unsettled and worried by it all though - most medicines, side effects and all, don't have new opinions on side effects plastered all over the news after you've already started taking them.