The expectation management (or lack of) is the real issue.
I was not happy about DS going back to school because the most obvious place for transmission for the forseeable is schools.
But i could reconsile that with the fact that it probably wasn't going to be too long before we got ours.
Now im back to the anxiety of watching cases (they are already going back up where I am - they have been for a week) and that feeling of dread and uncertainty about whether we will get the call from school or get sick ourselves.
On top of this increasingly seeing people do stupid high risk stuff hasn't helped combined with friends who are booked in for next week taking the attitude that its all over now without a thought about us. The Alright Jack stuff has really upset me.
It means probably another 6 to 8 weeks of staying home.
It means we can't plan holudays etc, when all our close friends now can, with a reasonable degree of confidence that it will probably be ok.
Its the limbo effect that it creates that bothers me.
Im not begrudging anyone who has had it, but this just feels cruel and its utterly sole destroying really.
Ive been pretty measured and not over optimistic throughout. I thought if there was to be a supply crunch it would hit in March not April. So thats hard too.
Its just shit.