I’m not doing this shit anymore

[struggling8888]

I’ve had enough!!!!!!! I’m sick to death of walking around my boring area, sick of the muddy fucking park and having to feed my baby in the cold because we’re not allowed indoors.

I hate the fact we’ve gone into mass fucking hysteria over a virus where 1/3 of people who get it don’t even realize and the vast majority of others get mild flu symptoms AT MOST.

I thought the vaccine was going to be our way out of this shit but no - suddenly there are new variants, it’s not good enough for the whole of the UK to be vaccinated - the WHOLE WORLD has to be vaccinated before we’re truly safe, and we’re now aiming for zero fucking Covid which was NEVER the original aim.

I just want family and friends to come round my house, indoors. I want to go to shops and sit in a cafe and not have to stand in a bloody queue to get in. I want someone to take my baby off me for one bloody afternoon so I can have a bit of peace and quiet.

I thought I’d feel better now the warmer weather’s here but I don’t at all. DP and I had a row earlier because he said it’s hard for him too and it’s not all about me. I never said it was, but surely I’m allowed to have a rant about how shit this is to my own partner?!!

I want the madness to end, now.

Having a wry smile that people for whom this too shall pass, struggling with Covid restrictions and lockdowns have a meltdown asking when this will end, not realising this is real life, all their life for a whole load of people and nobody gives a shit or wants to change it.

@Tanfastic this is untrue they don't know of it will and results from Israel are showing positive results !

Well of course everyone wants the same but it's my understanding that a lot of hospitals are still overwhelmed and people in their forties and fifties are dying so it serious. I know a lot of people who have had it and many have long term ongoing problems. This is going to have huge implications for the NHs going forwards as well as all the backlog of operations that have built up. My 21 year old son had very mild symptoms but is now still incredibly fatigued and has no sense of smell 4 months later. He is a student and struggling to keep up with Uni work and has had to give up his part time job. It is not a mild illness for so many.
The end is in sight with the vaccine roll out.
I have just been for a walk at our local country park, it was hard to social distance as it was so packed . Gangs of kids ( seven or eight ) clearly not all from the same household walking closely together, No one seems to be sticking to the rules anymore.

Well I can understand wanting to get away from it all

The vaccines do slow transmission, they do prevent death and serious illness for most people

Yes full return to easy international travel is a few years off but the uk vaccination program does get us there , providing we don't screw it up

And I stopped feeling quite so sorry for you.

I don’t care. I’m at rock bottom mentally anyway, so you can’t make me feel any worse than I already do.

Of course, you're pissed off. So are we all. But we can't change the fact that we're in a Pandemic that is killing people. It WILL be over at some point; until then, all we can do is follow the rules and plod on.

Well said struggling

The UN has told Israel that they should be providing vaccines for the Palestinians. To date only 5K Palestinians have been vaccinated out of 4.5 million.

@struggling8888

I’m at rock bottom mentally. I think the fact it’s nicer weather and that hasn’t changed anything for me has really brought it home. I was banking on spring to feel better and it just hasn’t happened.

Spring isn’t really here yet and I think it will feel better when it arrives. Like you, I’ve had a belly full of this - and my lockdowns have been relatively painless. A lot of us are reaching the end of our tethers. I keep telling myself we’re on the home stretch now but if the goalposts suddenly - or even gradually - move to being completely covid free, all bets are off. I suspect those of us who feel that are a majority too.

@struggling8888

Be grateful you're not mourning the loss of someone you love.

I’ve lost plenty of people I love - just not to Covid.

Fast moving thread.

I meant well said re the above

We need to see what is happening in Israel as we are doing well with the vacation programme, and the news from there seems very positive.

I know it is tough @struggling8888. I found it tough when DS was a baby and there was no pandemic then. But you then read a post like @BonnesVacances and you understand why we are doing what we are

Hopefully, there is now a light at the end of the tunnel for most of us.

Because the vaccine does not stop transmission, so you could pass it to your mum, then your mum could pass it to someone who hasn't had it.

Why is this repeated so often on MN when it is regularly reported that actually it does reduce transmission? It's on the front page of the BBC website today, for example.

Don't worry, OP. It will be over soon one way or another. Vaccines involved huge investments, nobody would ever admit it wasn't effective irrespective of the results. Also people are way too frustrated to obey for much longer.

I have a theory that we start to give up, when we know we can.

People that have fought after an accident that suddenly crash or go into stock when help arrives/they go to hospital....for example. It's because subconsciously their mind knows that other people will save them/help them.

It's the same with this, the end is...just...so ....near ...our brains are giving up on keeping us going.

In the last two weeks everyone in my house has had a breakdown of some sort. Including my husband, who normally is Mr Stable...Mr laissez-faire.

Today my 8 year old sobbed for so long and so hard, I had to change my t-shirt. This girl hasn't cried more than 5 times in the last 2 years. She is the happiest human being anyone has ever met normally. But today, she couldn't, she couldn't do anything but sob into my neck, which made me sob. All because "she wants Covid to go" and she misses her friends. Her teaches.

So yes, whilst I'm very sorry for everyone who's suffered due to Covid. That doesn't stop it being fucking awful for the rest of us.

My work colleague commited suicide. Because he's single, and his parents bubbled with his sister who had a new born. He' was furloughed. For months the only interaction he had was via a computer screen. This otherwise fit and healthy young man, in his fucking 20s still, who loved life....gave in.

It's done. I'm done. My bloody 8 year old baby is done.

OP have a very un Mumsnet hug

And anyone who comes on here to to bitch that other people have it worse? Fuck off. It's not needed. And we'll be so far into a MH crisis in 6 months there won't be a recovery, if people aren't allowed to talk, aren't allowed to rail and moan and scream and cry when they need to. So yes, I'm heart sore for those directly impacted cause of Covid. But Covid doesn't stop other people having illness and tragedy and a life.

I hope the poster who said life will be unrecognizable in eight weeks is right. But it’s hard when there’s no definite end goal in sight. I hope we get some concrete answers tomorrow.

But most of all I want everything to go back to normal for everyone else so they can all live happily ever after and stop whingeing about living the life I've lived for the past 5 year yes, your life sounds incredibly difficult and I wish your daughter the best of health, however its OK for people to moan or rant about their lives right now. Im a palliative care nurse, I know how hard this has been on people and seen families utterly broken. I know my life is nowhere near as bad by any stretch of the imagination. I also understand that people can just want a moan and a rant from time to time and that's OK too.

@BonnesVacances

I hear you OP. I just want DD(19) to be able to get out of bed 10 months after getting Covid. I want DS(16) to be able to go back to school without worrying he's going to bring the coronavirus home again without realising he had it, and reinfect her. Ditto DH who's a teacher. I want DD to get the vaccine so she's protected but the GP won't give it to her yet. I want to rewind a year to when DD only had ME and not the heart condition now she has as well. But most of all I want everything to go back to normal for everyone else so they can all live happily ever after and stop whingeing about living the life I've lived for the past 5 years.

I hear you. It's strange watching the world have to live our life. And not like it.

That's desperately sad about your work colleague just frustrated, and everything you said in your post resonates with me

@JustFrustrated sorry about your daughter and that is so sad about your work colleague. Just beyond heart-breaking.

@JustFrustrated

I have a theory that we start to give up, when we know we can.

People that have fought after an accident that suddenly crash or go into stock when help arrives/they go to hospital....for example. It's because subconsciously their mind knows that other people will save them/help them.

It's the same with this, the end is...just...so ....near ...our brains are giving up on keeping us going.

In the last two weeks everyone in my house has had a breakdown of some sort. Including my husband, who normally is Mr Stable...Mr laissez-faire.

Today my 8 year old sobbed for so long and so hard, I had to change my t-shirt. This girl hasn't cried more than 5 times in the last 2 years. She is the happiest human being anyone has ever met normally. But today, she couldn't, she couldn't do anything but sob into my neck, which made me sob. All because "she wants Covid to go" and she misses her friends. Her teaches.

So yes, whilst I'm very sorry for everyone who's suffered due to Covid. That doesn't stop it being fucking awful for the rest of us.

My work colleague commited suicide. Because he's single, and his parents bubbled with his sister who had a new born. He' was furloughed. For months the only interaction he had was via a computer screen. This otherwise fit and healthy young man, in his fucking 20s still, who loved life....gave in.

It's done. I'm done. My bloody 8 year old baby is done.

OP have a very un Mumsnet hug

And anyone who comes on here to to bitch that other people have it worse? Fuck off. It's not needed. And we'll be so far into a MH crisis in 6 months there won't be a recovery, if people aren't allowed to talk, aren't allowed to rail and moan and scream and cry when they need to. So yes, I'm heart sore for those directly impacted cause of Covid. But Covid doesn't stop other people having illness and tragedy and a life.

@JustFrustrated my eyes filled up reading your post. Your poor daughter and poor you. And your poor colleague. This is all so fucking awful and anyone who can't understand that it's actually affected people who might not be affected by the actual disease itself must have had an empathy bypass.

Your poor little girl :(

Remember that awful poster who thought that the average primary school child should be able to isolate on their own in the bedroom for 10 days? Jesus Christ.

Plenty of things have / are wrong in my life but I don't wish my tribulations on others

And I am very sorry for BonnesVacance too of course. I’m just feeling the lowest I ever have done right now. I think the row with my other half has made me really upset and I feel like a shit mum because I’ve struggled to cope with the baby today and he’s had to take him.

It's okay to struggle with the baby and your dp have to step in. He's your baby's parent too

OP I couldn’t agree with you more. I’m am well and truly sick to death of this now. I’m fed up of not seeing friends and family. I’m so bored. Haven’t seen my mum since September (she’s 300 miles away). My kids are missing all of their activities and I can’t tell you how sick I am of teaching teenagers on Teams. Not one of them will show their face or speak. The most they’ll do is type in the chat box. It’s like I’m talking into the abyss. I’m also dreading going back to school though - moaning at kids to keep masks on and being in freezing classroom where all the work going flying if it’s winding or the kids get rained on. I just want to be warm and teach normally again. I’m with you, can’t take much more.