I know IABU but I am totally fed up of lockdown

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So. I know I have an awful lot to be thankful for. My family are all in good health, we have no change in our income (yet), my husband is able to work from home, we have a big garden and had plenty of nice weather to enjoy it. There's just us two and our toddler in our house. We're a lot more fortunate than many.

But... I quite honestly don't know how much longer I can stand it. I'm grieving our old life, missing my parents so much, and finding it SO HARD to keep my toddler occupied at home.

I just want to go back to normal 😭 and it doesn't look like there will be a "normal" for a while. It's all just so uncertain and indefinite. It feels like there is nothing to look forward to any more and every day is a chore.

Anyone want to offer some solidarity?

If everyone follows the rules , it will be less
Damage for all

Could all the people feeling dismissive perhaps notice that some people are talking about being actually suicidal here, not just a bit bored and grumpy? You do t have to have much sympathy or reading comprehension but at least try to summon a tiny bit of both here. Or go and start your own thread, nobody’s asked you to pile on to this one.

@Foxglade, do you think we WILL be going back to school afer May half term?

I'm at wits end as well, have a man 8 yr old with autism and adhd, I'm high risk so not even been going for a walk, we are in a small 2 bed flat with no outside access. He's going crazy all day, every day and I'm not very much far behind him.

This lock down is very challenging
However Covid -19 (as WHO have said) is “wreaking havoc all over the world, worse than any terrorist “ also the government have said it is savage ... so as much as I’m totally challenged by it as is the rest of the world .. I think it is totally justified

I needed to read this thread. Thank you.

Remember you are SAFE AT HOME. NOT STUCK AT HOME.

Only not everyone is safe at home. I'm starting to think my kids aren't safe at home because my pstd symptoms from being raped and my attachment issues from my own shitty childhood are back. I can't stand physical contact or noise. I can't sleep and I don't to eat. I think the last thing I ate was yesterday lunchtime, but can't be sure (I am feeding the kids obviously but even the thought of food revolts me). I certainly don't feel safe and I'm terrified I'm becoming my own mother because I'd rather die first.

Back at the start of March, I was happy, organised, studying for another degree, doing lots of activities with my kids, planning holidays...now it's just a black hole with a voice in my head telling me to kill myself.

I am missing family, friends and colleagues, I have been working from home for six weeks and today is my first day on furlough leave. Today is also the day I should have come back from my two week holiday abroad-my first holiday abroad since 2004. Yes I am feeling down but I am only really starting today because I have had continuous phone calls to make until today.

I'm getting fed up am shielding cause high risk due to having severe asthma if I get it I won't survive. Just received a letter saying i shouldn't be shielding and to follow social distancing despite the fact even doctor thinks i won't survive it but not able to get any help so am shielding but can't get all the meds i need. I'm stupid enough to follow the letter they sent after the advice i've had from gp. Plus now doctor thinks i have pneumonia again but can't confirm without chest xray but it is treating it as pneumonia with steroids again, antibiotics, stronger inhalers and night time tablet to help with asthma and if no improvement in couple days wants me in hospital and chest xray and other tests which can't do as have 2 kids and can't get hold of their father to look after them. Been trying for few days cause suspected it was. Been referred to asthma clinic for more tricky cases for severe asthma, and yet been told not to shield???? Even cold or flu could be screwed never mind this.

Yes I'm sick of being stuck in, lucky I work from home anyway, kids are happy enough. Would love to be able to go for a walk, although not possible due to shielding and even if I did as the letter said couldn't social distance effectively with one my sons as he is autistic and cause all his meltdowns, just impossible situation. Atm even getting out of breath just going up the stairs to the bathroom so couldn't manage a walk anyway.

Think its the worry and stress getting to me more atm whether or not I can get food slots, plus washing machine broke down, worse timing and the daily pain not helping cause can't get all my meds I need.

@LostDesire

Your comment is very much my opinion.

I am a single mum with DS 13 and DD 11. DS introvert, quite enjoying staying in but doesn't want to do school work. DD extrovert, missing school, her friends, being outside, being active, struggling with work. I WFH 3 days a week (PA to a team of 14).

I too am absolutely sick of lock down. I just want to pop to the shops, see my family, see my friends, support my friend who is in a far worse position than me and I can't do it.

But ... we need to carry on. Follow the rules so this doesn't become the new normal. Stay in unless we have to. Stay away from people ... and yes eat far too much cake, chocolate, biscuits (maybe its just me eating too much )

But we can still be annoyed

*i'm not stupid enough

What scared me today was realisation that my work at NHS will never be the same.

We were trying so hard to fix long waiting times and now that will be an impossible dream. We will never be back to pre Covid normal for years

And I want to hug my mum

I was OK, but it's starting to get to me now. I was close to tears today, when I came across the maps and guide books that we'd used for our holiday in France last summer. As I put them away, I found myself wondering when - or indeed if - we'll ever be able to use them again.

I'm quite surprised how well we're still doing. 4 kids (2 primary; 2 secondary) and both of us still working full time. We are lucky that the children entertain each other, but they all actually seem happy and content at the moment.

Yep! Really struggling here. Going through cancer treatment (which would be hard at the best of times but even more so when you can't take anyone with you), home schooling 5 and 7 year old, stroppy 17year old who is furloughed from his engineering apprenticeship and dh still working as front line worker! All in all, pass the whisky 😎 this too shall pass. Stay safe everyone x

I know I'm in the minority by far but I'm really enjoying it. Obviously have worries about health and finances for myself and family/friends, but day to day I'm so much happier.

My children are 8 and 11 so easy to look after. I'm divorced so only me and them to look after. Loads of time to do everything I want to. Miss my family but we catch up daily. I just want to make the most of this time as it will be over soon and we'll be back to reality.

I own my own business so have my own and employees wages to pay, and my sister works directly with Covid patients so her health and that of my vulnerable family members is huge worry. Guess what I mean is that it's not as though I'm carefree.

I'm glad I don't live by the sea as if someone tried to stop me from going down to the waters edge, to just breathe and try to get some perspective on this utter insanity, you would probably see me on the news as I'd snap for sure ! Nothing any of us is feeling at the moment is unreasonable - there is no normal - just got to get through it with the path of least resistance or some shit.

I think we shall find when this is over, and started to recover from everything, that we will have acquired much stronger characters. I know we can't see it at the moment. I used to hear so many stories from an earlier generation about how everyone felt, after the war, that they could cope with absolutely anything. I think we shall find the same, and will be saying to our grandchildren you don't know you're born, we survived the pandemic.

Please please everybody. If you are alive and healthy be happy. If you havent lost a loved one to Covid 19 or know someone who has, you are very lucky. There are so many things you can do with the children Google it if you feel like you have run out of inspiration. We have as a country lost over 20 000 people. If we come out of lockdown too soon, we will hit another high and more lives will be lost. I am loving having my children, two 5 year olds and a 18month old at home and I am on my own! Ok so I have a garden and feel for anyone who hasnt, but sod the schooling unless you can make it fun. They can all catch up. This lockdown wont be for years but weeks and months. I said on here once before; the government should sue China when all this is over. They knew and said nothing for a while! Less lives would have been lost and we would have been out of lockdown sooner. So many fun things to do. Using things you normally recycle to make things with the children of all ages. Each day can have a theme. Catch up on reading or watching a film. Why do children have to be kept entertained? They are perfectly happy playing with mud! Lol. Help them unlock their imagination. Just running around the garden is enough fun for a toddler! Please be patient, This too will pass.

I completely lost my shit today, OP.
I know we have a lot to be thankful for, but my god did I lose my shit today.

I don’t mind lockdown even though I am living upstairs with my ASD son while my elderly father occupies downstairs. I have finally got round to writing my life story for my kids to read one day. I also have time to design crochet patterns as I am trying to get a new business going. I ran an ironing service before lockdown but it was causing me so much pain in my hips that I am really appreciating the break from it.

It’s utter shite, but as they say in the Sopranos....what ya gonna do. Yes, I have re-binged it on lockdown 😬

Each day can have a theme. Catch up on reading or watching a film. Why do children have to be kept entertained? They are perfectly happy playing with mud!

Sadly I can't leave them playing with mud for 8 hours while I do the full-time job I'm trying to do alongside homeschooling and toddler juggling.

It's nice that you are enjoying yourself, honestly I am glad that many people are finding this fun, but please please please give the people who aren't loving it a little bit of space to feel pissed off about what's happened to their lives. The virus isn't listening, it won't come swooping in just because we aren't all walking round smiling all the time.

Why do some people think the lockdown is going to 'work'?

The virus won't magically disappear and lockdown has to start being relaxed in stages.

All the lockdown is about is protecting a totally unprepared NHS and a totally unprepared Government. Nothing more.

And they have the economy up in the process which will hurt millions of people for years to come.

I had a really stressful job, working all hours from home. Had a week's holiday and came back to furlough and no job at the end of it. Because of all the uncertainty and lack of government plan (or communication of it) all new roles seem to either be on hold or stop. Whilst it's giving me opportunity to home school, I need a plan because I need to keep a roof over our heads. I feel completely useless at the moment, there just seems no point to anything. If anyone else mentions fruit picking or Co-op I'm going to ram a strawberry up their noses. Not because I'm lazy or too proud, but a)the nearest fruit farm is a 50 mile round trip and b) the wage that I would pick up as a temporary checkout operator would not pay the bills.