I know IABU but I am totally fed up of lockdown

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So. I know I have an awful lot to be thankful for. My family are all in good health, we have no change in our income (yet), my husband is able to work from home, we have a big garden and had plenty of nice weather to enjoy it. There's just us two and our toddler in our house. We're a lot more fortunate than many.

But... I quite honestly don't know how much longer I can stand it. I'm grieving our old life, missing my parents so much, and finding it SO HARD to keep my toddler occupied at home.

I just want to go back to normal 😭 and it doesn't look like there will be a "normal" for a while. It's all just so uncertain and indefinite. It feels like there is nothing to look forward to any more and every day is a chore.

Anyone want to offer some solidarity?

Really really sick of it here too. WFH with small children has been absolutely brutal, I finally got a few hours off this week and it’s helped a bit but everything feels so, so overwhelming. Even when I rationally know that this is not forever and some time in the not-too-distant future we’ll be looking back on it from our regular lives again, it feels like endless awfulness right now.

Wobble your own head, Pasghetti. One of the best things people can do for their mental health is to acknowledge what they’re actually feeling rather than cram it all under the carpet of #soblessed.

" I obviously made some sort of error and got a roasting off a supermarket employee"

oh dear. I feel very ...vague....today and I need to go the supermarket but haven't got enough brain in really.

@Pasghetti give my head a wobble ? Fuck you. I haven't had an actual conversation ie not phone or virtual with a person for more than six weeks. Exchanging pleasantries with someone behind the till in the chemist or Tesco is as close as I've got. I haven't had any physical contact with anyone for more than six weeks. There is a reason solitary confinement is a punishment. I'm better off than many but to say give your head a wobble to people like me who are struggling and need to talk is fucking rude.

I will not apologise for being miserable, pissed off and for missing my life.

Bored,bored, bored pretty much sums it up for me.

DC are desperate to go back to school, I'm missing my friends who I normally see at least a couple of times a month for wine and pizza, missing my parents who are stuck abroad, missing going into work and chatting with colleagues and sad we might not be able to go on holiday this year.

Certainly not here to make people feel worse. Peace out quite seriously I'll probably be back in a week or two losing my head over something and you can all stand and go

Those last two were hmm and grin not sure why they turned into more flowers 🤔

We've actually just seen another human, they do still exist!!! The window cleaner has just been, so that's one thing off the list to do for me!!

As far as he's concerned, it's business as usual now and the gardener who does our hedges has started back up this week, they've had enough and are back at it, so he's coming on Friday. Two jobs off the list. Result!!!

Yup. A 6 year old, twin 4 year olds, one with asd. No garden, just a little courtyard, small house, dh wfh, I'm out the house 4 days a week.

The dc are being brilliant but they're watching so much tv.

We're all so BORED!

Doesn't help that our one neighbour is having a steady stream of visitors all the time. Makes it all the harder to explain to the dc why we can't see anyone.

can't stop crying. help. I already had a diazepam last night.

I am getting really fed up of it.
We are lucky that we haven't been effected financially, live very rurally, have 3 acres to walk around and so far, nobody I know has contracted it (and I pray it stays that way) but I have had enough of being 'shut in'.
I am fed up that all my maternity leave plans have been cancelled and I am so angry that my mum hasn't been able to support me in the first few weeks of having my first baby like she wanted because we are in different households.
I understand why we have to have the lockdown but that doesn't mean I have to like it!
Hoping they relax some of the rules soon and lets us get back some semblance of normality 🤞🏻

ah, Lilac It is just really really shit right now. But it WILL get better even when it’s hard to believe that. We’ll get our lives back.

Lilac, a virtual hand hold for you. I feel like that too, and have for a while now. Lockdown is brutal in ways you might never even think of before you experience it.

I am a little heartened to read that some more food outlets (Greggs etc.) are testing the waters now by opening a few of their shops for takeaway only. In May I think, and just a few at first in the Newcastle area to see how it goes. Costa have apparently done similarly with a select few of their branches in Manchester and Bristol, so I have heard.

None of those are yet in my area (the wilds of Essex). I look forward to the day that I can buy a takeaway coffee and slab of nice cake and sit eating it on a park bench by myself. I will imagine that you are with me when I do, but they need to open up first as all around here are still shut.

@LilacTree1 I can't tell you anything other than that this situation is horrendous. We both know it, and there's no point trying to dress it up as anything else. Just hang in there, somehow. Some days are worse than horrendous, and you are having one of them today.

Read @PhilCornwall1 's posts. They are encouraging. I go out every day (because I value my family more than I value obeying The Rules - which would have the potential to leave my children motherless). Every day, there are small signs that people are taking matters into their own hands and finding ways to try to restore small bits of normality (and sod all the "new normal" stuff: we want our lives and livelihoods back, not some shadowy version of them).

@MarginalGain also speaks a lot of sense.

The weather turning hadn't helped , but we need rain.
I'm fed up with not being able to go out to the shops without dancing around people. First world problem , but I didn't mind the supermarket shop before all this and I don't want to get it wrong. It's a pain!

Lilac I got teary in the queue today at Waitrose. No idea why.

Handhold.

thanks everyone

the thing is, I doubt it will get better

once governments worldwide have realised they can get people to behave this way, they will continue.

and the future as per ££ is really really ugly for most of us.

it's a bonus for me that the weather turned, in a tower block fully cladded oven of 400sq foot. I am praying for a cool summer.

Am I missing something here? They've warned us life don't return to normal. You won't be going to the hairdresser, Your kids won't be going back to school before September, clubs don't restart. No summer fetes, no concerts, no sports...I think they've been clear about this so I'm not sure what you're looking forward to exactly?

• It's grief isn't it.

The government are very much sending warning shots that a new normal is coming and it won't be anything like the pre lockdown life and our brains are struggling to come to terms with it.*

I'm glad someone's getting it!

You won't be going to the hairdresser, Your kids won't be going back to school before September, clubs don't restart. No summer fetes, no concerts, no sports...I think they've been clear about this so I'm not sure what you're looking forward to exactly?

Um they haven't said any of that

once governments worldwide have realised they can get people to behave this way, they will continue.

I'm fairly worried about this today.

Not really sure why we should expect that everything will revert to normalcy even post-vaccine. People have been entirely retrained in the way they analyse death, both in principle and in scale, and the kinds of measures that are sensible to take to prevent it.

Am I missing something here?

Yes, you appear to be missing the entire point of the thread. Perhaps start at the beginning and read from there?

Lilac, I'm also praying for a cool summer.

I'm sorry it's so horrible for you. Things will turn , but we're gonna have to live alongside the virus until there is a vaccine. That is the truth and it's hard as I know I don't want to hear it (let alone tell anyone on here! )

Restrictions will lift gradually. Time does go by and things will change.
I'm old and I've never lived through such times. ( I always imagined a nuclear war in the 80s but hopefully that won't ever happen either)
Just take a day at a time.

They've warned us life don't return to normal. You won't be going to the hairdresser, Your kids won't be going back to school before September, clubs don't restart. No summer fetes, no concerts, no sports

I'm sure you don't intend it this way, but it could be interpreted as kicking people with severe lockdown-related MH problems while they're down, @umpteentimes

I get why we have to do it but is doesnt stop it being annoying. We have had most of our freedoms curtailed and whilst that doesnt match up to someone living in a shanti town in an impoverished country , it doesnt mean to say I have no entitlement to say enough already.

I miss my freedom. I miss my mum, my friends , going out, going to work and the kids being at school. I hate the whole NHS worshipping going on and people stood outside their house clapping like brainwashed seals to cover up the government's moronic levels of incompetence, whose propaganda packages up as the 'hero' rhetoric about NHS workers ia nothing more than a method of making it somehow more palatable that so many of them are dying.
I am finding it really difficult to give full time 1 to 1 SEN support to one of my children whilst trying to work. If that makes me 'spoiled ' or lacking resilience then so be it.