Feeling tearful tonight

[GeorgieTheGorgeousGoat]

No clue why! I’ve had a nice week, children are well behaved and doing school work nicely, I’m not able to work so I’m pottering about, we’ve managed a walk in the local fields most days, DH is working and doing all the shopping/errands on his commute.

But tonight I just feel so weepy. DH is working late tonight so not here and ds1 has just brought me a cup of tea. I will probably go to bed soon.

Is anyone else feeling like this randomly?

Is anyone around to chat? Just about crap. I’m feeling on the verge of a panic attack.

I can chat OP. What are you fave films or tv shows? Of all time?

Yesterday for me was the low point, I think brought on by the boredom and nothing to do but listen to my own thoughts. I feel like I'm in prison

Thank you.

I’m a lover of the two extremes. Anything funny and real crime stuff. Comedy and tragedy. I’ve just watched Tiger King on Netflix. You?

I’m watching The Next on bbc catch up. It’s pretty good at taking my mind off it.

Otherwise it does feel like a horribl dream that I can’t wake up from.

I’m feeling really light headed tonight. This Boris news has really scared me.

Nest not next. Sorry.

Oh same here! I’m a bit obsessed with true crime. I head about that Tiger King this morning, it’s on my list!

I feel the same tonight 💖 You’re definitely not alone with this.

Yep me too. Some days it's like everything is normal but then I remember and get a sinking feeling in my gut.
Particularly tearful tonight. Can't imagine ever getting back to 'normal' and feel really sad about that

Just googled The Nest, looks really good!

I’ve been ok ish. Stressed but managing. Up to finding out two days ago that my child’s teacher has had it pretty bad a few days after school finished. Now I am so incredibly close to a panic attack I don’t know what to do. I’m stuck in DD’s bedroom crying and having terrible chest pains. It’s been 16 days since contact with teacher but DD spent the whole week at school with him. I don’t know how long my mental heath can continue with the unknown. We are all well at the moment but surely we can’t all escape this.

Oh I saw Martin Compston being interviewed about this but missed the title of the show. I’ll add that to my list of things to watch, thanks.

Not doing great either. I tend to compartmentalise and it’s just been one thing after another. I’m always the one finding out how others are. Always. Never the other way round. It’s just a lot.

So I’m joining you for a bit. Will keep an eye on the thread as I eat chocolate and watch trash.

I’m sorry so many of you are also feeling awful. It’s just so real isn’t it? I’ve got really awful stomach cramps too which I know is anxiety.

@GeorgieTheGorgeousGoat definitely anxiety. I’m sorry. :( I’ve had digestive issues too. And let’s not go near the lack of sleep. lol.

An old colleague's of mine, her mum died on the weekend of this awful virus. She was 81.
This news tonight about our PM has made me feel awful. It's scary horrible times.

About a month ago I was just starting to feel smug that I finally felt like my anxiety was under control for the first time in my life. It’s something I’ve never spoken to anyone about and it has made me really ill my whole life. Now it’s spiralling out of control. It irritates my asthma and gives me symptoms of the virus with terrible breathing, cough, upset stomach. I have constant chest pain. I’ve completely avoided the news and been very careful about what I read on here. Tonight it’s caught up with me though.

Yes digestive issues are awful aren’t they, and a knot in the stomach constantly. I think a lot of people are truly in the grip of anxiety right now. We really can only take things bit by bit and distract ourselves I think.

Pretty anxious here too. Its the not having any certainty about the world that is unsettling me though i realise that sounds a bit dramatic.
I need to go to Tesco tomorrow, not left the house since last tuesday except for the garden and im building it up and building it up in my head.Its just Tesco fgs, ive been there thousands of times but it is filling me with panic.

I suffer with anxiety so I'm trying to keep it in check for my LOs sake but it's so hard.

Was saying to DH that I've gone round in a circle. When the virus first landed I was very much lock us down now! Close the schools now! I took my kids out a week early. Then I settled a bit - went to the supermarket and local shops without worrying too much. Now I'm back round again...terrified we might get the virus. All logic that we would most likely be ok has gone out of the window!!
We are doing everything we can to avoid going out. We've managed to get delivery of fruit, veg, milk and bread from a supplier who would normally be supplying schools, sundries from approved food and there's a meat supplier we are planning on using when we need some more meat. Eggs direct (in bulk) from a restaurant supplier. We've ordered Ribena in bulk direct from who makes it (my drinks choice right now - I'm pregnant).

I've been okay today, it seems to come in waves. Since hearing the news about Boris has sent me back again. It's such a worrying time, for me it's not being in control and not knowing what's going to happen, how long this will go on. When I am having a bad day I have chest pains and then convince myself I have corona. I just wish things would go back to normal
to everyone

I dont cry, have a reputation with the family for being as hard as nails, some people think there is something wrong with me as I dont show emotion, but . . . I cant seem to stop crying the last couple of days, in private i might add, Boris set me off again tonight.
Let it out, these are exceptional times

I'm so shocked by the news about Boris too. I don't know why, it's not like politicians are immune or anything. But it just shows what crazy uncertain times these are.

I cried a lot yesterday, it was ds's birthday and the pressure to have fun and be happy for family on facetime was just too much. We're calmer today, had a nice day.
But if I stop and think too much I get in a panic again.
We just need to live in the day don't we, but I find that really hard.
I had a nice day, the kids had a nice day, everyone close to me is still healthy. That's a good thing. (But my brain is racing away about what might happen tomorrow or the day after or the week after. I can't stop it)

Yes, i had calmed down a bit but this news has panicked me, thats probably why they tried to play his condition down. Really hope he pulls through.