Feeling tearful tonight

[GeorgieTheGorgeousGoat]

No clue why! I’ve had a nice week, children are well behaved and doing school work nicely, I’m not able to work so I’m pottering about, we’ve managed a walk in the local fields most days, DH is working and doing all the shopping/errands on his commute.

But tonight I just feel so weepy. DH is working late tonight so not here and ds1 has just brought me a cup of tea. I will probably go to bed soon.

Is anyone else feeling like this randomly?

I was putting my tearfulness all week down to my stupid period showing up but perhaps it’s just the underlying sadness for those who have lost loved ones and the stress of the situation we are in.

to us all.

Yes, feeling worried today and tearful. I live alone and feel lonely although IRL I say I am fine.

Today has been hard for me. I feel disconnected and edgy. My DH said there was death in the air which really freaked me out.

Mundane things are comforting then I remember what's going on. The boredom, restriction on activities, worry and feeling of helplessness as it unfolds. Also feeling guilty as I'm not doing anything positive for the national effort except staying at home.

I can't really engage with the children beyond watching TV with them, obviously making their meals etc and playing a few games. My heart's not in it.

It's a headfuck.

OH died in Feb. Being on my own is so hard. It would have been hard anyway. I just want a hug - but no-one can give me one, much as I know my family would wish to.

@Mischance I'm so sorry for your loss

I'm having a little cry most days at the moment.

I just feel so sad for the state of the world, the people suffering, the suddeness of the lives we used to have being turned so upside down.

I find having a bit of time outside doing some gardening helps me. I can focus on something normal and enjoyable for a while so the awfulness fades away for a bit.

Mischance - big hug to you

I've felt very emotional today and have been rather weepy. I think it's a mixture of worry about my dc's, the start of what should be the Easter holidays and complete uncertainty over our future as our work has stopped.

It wasn't helped by the head teacher of my ds school doing a virtual assembly which just punctuated how things are so different for our dc's. My dd also wanted to watch some Disney films that I haven't seen since they were little. Also watching the "one show" and they had a singalong to "you are my sunshine" which my dm used to sing to my dc. I havent seen my mum and dad isnce January and am kicking myself that I kept putting off as we were all suffering from colds at the time. Must admit I'm a bit if a mess today. 😭😭😭

💐 To everyone. I’m sending a virtual hug to anybody who needs one and, let’s be honest, I think a lot of us probably do. I woke up at 4am this morning, wide awake with thoughts rushing through my mind. I’m scared to get ill and die, to leave my disabled children on their own. I’m scared for my widowed mum who I can’t even hug, she’s finding things really tough as she’s so lonely without my dad and now has no company at all. I’m scared my kids will fall ill or worse (can’t even type the words) and I’m scared that DH could get infected at work (key worker) and either pass it on to us or not survive himself. This is just horrendous and the news is almost unbearable. Apparently the husband of the young nurse who died hugged her and whispered “Don’t worry about the kids” and then he saw a tear fall down his wife’s cheek. 😢 Absolutely heartbreaking to read. I can feel the panic building in me, I’m trying to be positive for my children but it’s so hard.

Mischance 💐 for your loss. You’re in my thoughts.

Thank you.

Mischance, are there family or friends you can talk to on the phone?

I've been feeling up and down all week, not overly unusual for me ( I've had anxiety for years) but it's particularly bad at the moment

Like a previous poster I don't cope well with the unknown - would be much better if there was an end date, impossible I know!

I've also got a knobhead Ex who is expecting to have DS next weekend. Merging 3 families in one, including my asthmatic DS. Oh and he's not practicing social distancing as " he can't at work so it doesn't apply to him " . Last weekend he just turned up even though I said I wasn't happy, I'm guessing he'll do the same again next week

So sorry @Mischance

Can I lighten your mood? DH is an intensive care consultant. He took three patients off ventilators today. Three lives saved. We will get through this.

Oh Daffodil that’s wonderful news. Thank you for sharing it. Please say a big thank you to your DH and his colleagues. They are all amazing.

Hugs & 💐to everyone. Very emotional at the mo & working myself up about other stuff even more than usual ( I am a big worrier at the best of times). One of our bunnies was eating out of the patio pots today & after he’d finished, I found a mushroom/toadstool & was frantic that he’d nibbled it. He seems fine & I went out again at about 11.30 to check on him then came back in & burst into tears. I’m sure if he had eaten any we’d see signs of it pretty quickly. He never eats out of those pots usually & I hadn’t thought to check what was in them as they’ve been under water for quite a few weeks.
Anyway, sending love & positive thoughts to you all ❤️

That's lovely news @Daffodil101 , thanks for sharing it with us

@Daffodil101 thank you for sharing 🌷 & please thank your wonderful DH for being there for everyone 👏🏻😘

@GeorgieTheGorgeousGoat. I haven’t cried - I think if I start, I might not stop. I’m trying to get practical things in place (will etc) but I’m going around in circles and soending too much time on here ‘arguing with stupid’. I need to stop doing that. It’s not helping my blood pressure.

I hope you feel a bit better in the morning x

Good morning, how are you all?

Sorry I disappeared, I went to bed and slept ok. Not amazing but good enough! I got up this morning with Dd and headed out for an early walk to blow the cobwebs away. Dh is now doing is all a cooked breakfast before heading off to work again.

I’m feeling better, a bit fragile but just taking small steps. I’ve done all the chores this morning so later I can watch some crap on Netflix.

Have a good day everyone

Skybluepink123 - I do talk to family on phone, and I am very lucky that I live somewhere beautiful with lively views to sustain me - but the absence of physical contact is a challenge.

Daffodil101 - such good news. Wonderful.

I've had a few times when I've sat and cried thinking about things that are happening and yesterday my oh got really upset after seeing about the nurses who died ,today I want to cry and my anxiety is through the roof I have to go food shopping and normally need my oh or daughter with me I've been good at hiding it but now it's not possible

Please try not to watch the news. Two nurses died yesterday. I found that terrifying because my husband is front line.

Then I tried to put it in context. Nurses are part of the general population. They may have contracted the virus elsewhere, not at work. I don’t think there was a suggestion that they caught it at work, though I could be wrong.

The implication is that they caught the virus in the line of duty. Lots of things are implied, doesn’t make them true. The media has much to answer for, though on the other hand, scaring the public is doubtless part of the battle plan.

I had a massive sob yesterday. It came from nowhere. Poor DS 9 saw me and started crying as he thought something bad had happened. He brought me a tissue and said “you never cry”. I’m a single mum with no family around. I think we are all internalizing the awful news and constant onslaught of info. Combined with our own circumstances, it’s causing a lot of undersrnadlable emotion. Today, I put on my makeup and jewelry and will head out for a walk in my area.