Something wrong with me, loving lockdown

[Coronackered]

I love that nobody coming toy door, I live that I don't feel obligated to visit family, only thing I'm hating is they're phoning me more often. I have a lovely family what is wrong with me 😭

On weekdays I am too shattered after hours at the screen.

Don't ask why I am looking at a screen now, but I feel worse after just sitting in my house all day working than I do walking to and from the office to do the same.

Other than that I am enjoying the peace. If my parents get ill I will be very worried, would I be allowed to care for them? They have done it for others and are old themselves now.

however, I want lockdown to end because of the economy and the emotional impact on many

Absolutely. I may be finding positives in it but that doesn't mean I am not hoping and praying for it to end/no longer be needed, as soon as possible.

I think this is the difference between people who feel like they have gained some much-needed control over their lives (eg where demands of employer, family, friends etc have reduced the amount of pleasing-yourself time to an unbearable extent) through the lockdown (and I don’t mean that it is all fun eg getting a food shop done is difficult for all of us), and those for whom it has removed control over their lives. I really get it - I would really be quite ok with the situation if I weren’t facing a birth and Mat leave with a toddler and nowhere to go and no visitors for months on end. I am perfectly capable of entertaining myself at home and I’m happy in my own company. But for me this has taken away the things I would have put in place to make a tiring and stressful time easier, so I can’t enjoy it.

@Coronackered I was basing it on your post where you said I live that I don't feel obligated to visit family, only thing I'm hating is they're phoning me more often. I have a lovely family what is wrong with me

I assumed this meant elderly relatives. I'm sorry for the loss of your mum.

I think if you had put your opening post /title that you work frontline NHS so you love coming home to recover from that, without further pressure, that would read very differently.

As it is it struck a very bad note with me as did many of the follow-up posts from people which read as gloating that they don't hav e to go and do things.

Thank you for the work you do.

@AutumnRose1 Scarlett - I run but haven't dared go out late at night in my rough area. I'm too clumsy to run at night really anyway. But it's interesting that you are seeing lots of people. I hope you are okay and can find a way to make things work for you flowers

Thank you so much. It's quieter at night than during the day, but I live in a densely populated part of London so even with people staggering their daily exercise, there's always a few people around.

I will survive (I hope, for my kids' sake if not my own) but the weight of it all has hit me hard today.

And it seems you’re intent on taking it out on strangers on the internet.

@ScarlettBlaize

Congratulations in making this thread all about you. Well done!

If someone makes another positive thread will you follow and drag that one down too?

It's an open forum, @OhCaptain. Interacting with 'strangers on the internet' is kind of in its nature.

@EightNineTen It's not about me. It's about the literal billions of people around the world who are suffering. Finding the silver lining in a bad situation is great. Saying you are 'loving' a world of pain and suffering isn't.

I’d be alright if I wasn’t surrounded by people. I have Aspergers and frankly, my head is in a total tailspin. I know we have to do this but FFS, I struggle massively with “closeness” all the time.

I would quite like it too if I didn’t have 3 young children at home to try and educate and entertain. And if it didn’t have to worry about my oh going into the nhs to work everyday.
If would sleep in, binge watch box sets, read my book, home exercise videos, the garden, declutter and deep clean the house. It would be amazing but impossible with the kids around.

I’m pleased for the people who are enjoying it. I’m not particularly but il be ok.

What I don’t like is that it’s turned the world into one giant Instagram.

I’m getting hundreds of photos and videos under the guise of ‘help’ and ‘look at we are doing see it’s not bad maybe you can too’.

When in fact they are in the main, people with huge back gardens or land showing off. People taking pictures of their kids working peacefully in the freshly decorated extension. It’s all so staged it makes me . It is not the time for this shit you fuckers, get back to counting your baked beans and screaming at your DH. When this is all over I will have my revenge, I have lots of time to plan it.........

Ok Scarlett. I think that's possibly another reason for my relief, I was meaning my hoard of brothers/sisters etc.. they are all fab but we did spend so much time together nursing mum it's nice to get a break from them 🤣 I'm sure I'll miss them soon😁

Of course it's about you @ScarlettBlaize and your attempt at twisting things others have said.

I was enjoying most of this thread before you took it over and have tried to make it a personal woe is me, what about me, offloading space whilst insulting just about everyone else on it with your completely off beam, insulting and ridiculous comments.

OP, thanks for your work, thanks for the thread and I completely see why time alone is great for you.

I’m not finding it too bad. I definitely enjoy being a ‘homebody’ and there is something nice about being creative with what’s in the cupboards for food etc. Also enjoying Netflix, reading and naps.

Only being able to go out once makes me do it, and make the most of it, with a walk or a jog.

I will be happy when we get ‘back to normal’ but I’m not struggling and happy to do this a good while longer. Especially knowing it could save lives.

Thank you autumn, hope everyone doing ok. I feel lucky although stressful working I am getting paid so no money worries (apart from the usual 😁) so I'm a lot better off than a lot. Counting blessings for sure.

Can’t say I’m hating it!

Home is comfortable and warm, I can do all my work from home. DS isn’t at nursery obviously so getting more time with him. Reckon he’ll be walking in the next few weeks so won’t miss his first steps like I probably would have if he was at nursery.

No commute so got extra time in bed in the morning.

@whiskybysidedoor you sound like such an unhappy person , that’s it’s making me sad . Not everyone with a freshly decorated extension have screaming partners ! Some of us just probably just get on with whatever life throws at us. Like I said upthread, we had a very stressful last few months . I am lucky to be paid a naice salary but there are somethings we sacrificed on like family time during the week and having to work really long hours .We struggled a lot on this however we made the most by going on nice holidays and making our home comfortable and lovely for us . I try to focus on my positives to get me through life , prior to that I was a really anxious person. I change the things that I can . It’s an awful situation the world is going through but I’m doing my bit by staying Indoors , keeping on working to help contribute through taxes and focus on the fact that we are getting some nice quality family time in our lovely, painted extension. It won’t last forever .

Whilst reading through this thread @ScarlettBlaize I was just thinking that you do come across as quite a selfish person and I agree with other posters, that you’ve made this all about you and your situation.

We all have struggles in life, I’m sorry you have an ED, I greatly suffer with my mental health but it wouldn’t even occur to me to have a go at the people on here who are finding the positives out of this situation.

I thought is was actually quite nice to read such a positive thread ..... until you started making it all about you and your life.

I mean seriously why did you bother with this thread? If I was you I would’ve just ignored it and gone onto another one that suited me.

As it is it struck a very bad note with me as did many of the follow-up posts from people which read as gloating that they don't hav e to go and do things.

Oh ignore all the miserable fuckers. They'd be miserable lockdown or no lockdown. I think finding positivity in bad situations is a lovely character trait.

Scarlett, I’m sorry you are having a shit time, but don’t take it out on everyone here. The OP said she’s loving lockdown, not that she thinks everyone else should be too, or that the current circumstances aren’t, in general, nightmarish.

I’m enjoying the enforced family time, as well. Doesn’t mean I’m not desperately worried about those less fortunate than me, who might be homeless, or out of work, or trapped at home with young children in a tiny flat. But I am able to empathise with them while enjoying that, for me personally, lockdown is a blessed relief from situations I find stressful.

It will get boring eventually

That’s really judgmental. It also assumes a norm that suits some suits all or should suit all. For many it won’t get boring at all. Many will discover that they love the isolation and solitude in a world that normally forces us to be extroverts against our natures.

It will get boring eventually
those of us with rich inner lives are less prone to boredom:)