How selfish would this be?

[Jourdain11]

I just need a sounding board because I don't trust my own judgement any more and don't want to freak out my family and friends, many of whom are already struggling at this difficult time...

So as not to drip-feed: I'm not very health-anxious and have been coping okay with the Covid-19 situation up till now. We had a case at work very early in proceesinfa and got locked down. Husband is a PS teacher and working this week. We have been reasonably sensible and socially isolated, but of course we're all getting exposure through him!

My dilemma is this: for the last about 4 weeks, I've been really wiped out. Really exhausted, achey, weak. I've also been getting lots of nosebleeds (unusual) and people have been commenting that I look really pale and asking if I lost weight. I've actually lost about a stone, but it may be lack of appetite.

Of course, I looked up my symptoms and got worried ... so made an appointment with the GP, telephone (natch) and spoke to a GP who I've never seen before, who said this is classic anxiety, everyone is anxious, to practise breathing techniques and mindfulness, etc. He may well be right, but my issue is... I haven't been feeling that anxious. I'm generally quite a day-by-day person and haven't felt this as hard as many others.

I tried the relaxation.. but basically, I'm just concerned it might be more. And I'm now scared that if I wait till I can get a face-to-face, some time in the long and far distant future (!!!) it might be "too late". Blah blah blah. You get what I'm saying.

My GP surgery are saying absolute no face-to-face and they can refer me for IAPTs but it will be a long wait. If I think I need something quicker, I should go to the local hospital Urgent Treatment. And I'm almost at the point where I will go....... but it seems so bloody selfish to go at a time like this?

I just don't know. So please, any thoughts will help!

Yes - Go. The worst that can happen is I'll waste little bit of NHS time and piss off some overworked staff.

No - Don't go. I'm being selfish and ridiculous to contemplate it!

Thx v much à l'avance.

Crossing fingers, toes and anything else I can contort for you Jourdain! Hope you’re feeling as ok as can be expected.

All good here. So blummin hot in London! To break the golden rule of support- “I know how you feel” I had an enlarged spleen after glandular fever and it was the horriblest feeling- sort of a full up stinging sensation. Lovely to hear from you

Oh no, poor you! I have utmost sympathy - and yes, that is EXACTLY what it feels like!

Yes, London is hot! Especially in our top floor flat. We have all the windows open, so it will be easy pickings for any burglars - providing they are very good at climbing

Fingers crossed the agile cat burglars stay away! Thank you for your sympathy- it was 30 years ago 😳

Hi Jourdain,

Good to catch up with you and hear that things are slightly on the up!

I thought that was a picture of the saffron cake too and was 😳😳 especially as you mentioned a dishcloth!

Are the dc still in the SW?

for shrunk spleen!

Urgh, still so hot! Hope you’re well dear @Jourdain11

Ha ha! Sorry for all the cake/cushion confusion . It’s the way stupid MN puts the photo up before the text. Grr. Would have made more sense at the end of the post

Thinking of you Jourdain

Sorry, realised I’ve name changed since then - RUSU here!

I read the initial post from ages ago and so glad you went to get medical help! I’m a doctor and your initial post screamed red flags. Hope you’re doing ok xx

Hiya, sorry for the silence! All is going okay, thank you. I'm waiting on my bone marrow biopsy result (hopefully today...) to learn how we are going to proceed. The DC came back on Monday and everything has been going okay so far! I hope everyone's been doing okay. I'm sorry I didn't do any updates recently, but I thought the thread had more or less died
Enjoy your Friday, everyone!

Lovely to have your children back!

@Jourdain11
Stay well ma chère

Just wanted to say hi and I hope things are still going ok. You're not forgotten!

Hello Thank you for thinking of me! All is going okay, thanks, and I hope you're all doing fine too and not suffering too much with lockdown fatigue. I'm back in hospital at the moment for more chemo but should be getting out tomorrow afternoon, all being well. Yay!

Thanks again for the kind messages on this now slightly dead (and totally corona-irrelevant) thread!

Lovely to hear from you again, Jourdain, fingers crossed you are out tomorrow and back with the DCs! Will not forget about you - and often send you all good thoughts and wishes!

Thank you! I'm crossing my fingers too

Hi Jourdain! Hope you’re enjoying the slightly cooler weather How are you?

I just hunted all the way through my watched threads page to find this thread, and check how you are. I am glad things are going well, and hope they continue to do so.

Another one delurking to wish you well.

Hello, sorry I've not been updating. Thank you for checking in on me! I'm actually doing okay and recovered much quicker from my last chemo than the previous ones. Just crossing fingers that it has done the trick!!

All my hair has gone now, but I still have my eyelashes and eyebrows. Long may it continue to be the case - although I think it does actually look a bit weird!!

Lovely to hear from you!

Here's hoping the journey with your unwanted companion is short and it leaves you to continue your future without it

Glad you’re feeling okay. Will have everything crossed for great results for you. Didn’t mean to imply you ought to update at all. Just wanted to let you know your thread has really stayed with me and you’re in my thoughts

So glad to see your update and wanted to send you health giving vibes across the internet xx