I felt frustrated and upset about what was happening over in Iraq, Syria, Yemen, Afghanistan and the Congo, Rwanda, Rohingya genocides at the time. I was cowed and overwhelmed by the Holocaust museum in Berlin and reassured myself that it must have been 'a different time'. I work in a predominantly Muslim city and thought Islamophobia reached its peak after 9/11 but was becoming much less toxic in the UK.
But never, in all 3 decades of being aware of and watching/reading about geo political conflict have I ever experienced the psychological interplay between seeing some of the images in this war and the feeling of being absolutely helpless. There have also been posters on here that have posted with such an intense, dismissive and arrogant superiority and have gaslighted posters in such a way that I am now convinced that there are more dark triad personalities on the loose in the world than I imagined. The posters who think they are absolutely right and won't encounter any nuance or historical context are chilling. It has also blown apart any notion I had that those on the left or right of politics have any high ground. How a forum called 'Mumsnet' can have produced written statements that I have encountered in the last 6 weeks I will never know.
However, there have been a cohort of about 5-6 posters who have consistently, calmly and brilliantly posted facts, evidence and avoided being baited and just reminded everyone every day that children are dying and it is not okay. I salute them.