30s TTC Inc: Rolling out BESH practice across our flagship monthly diffment projects - Blue Sky thinking for a paradigm shift vis-a-vis droids and wooden spoons.

[Muser]

We're getting serious this time BESHies. Welcome to the Palace, where the emphasis is on sophistication. Cast your eyes over the plush carpet, admire the oh-so-carefully worn leather armchairs with sidetables and little green lamps. We have the Bonds of the ages as barstaff, waiting to serve martinis and the finest champagne.

To your left you'll see the Pit, which hopefully we won't be needing much. To your right the Cave of Gloom, and straight ahead we have our special space for the 2WOOFL. You'll find beanbags and gym balls there, the walls have been specially painted to allow you to write your symptoms up and wipe them off if they disappear. It's all the rage for Blue Sky thinking these days. And there are donuts and coffee to keep you going as you try to shift that paradigm.

Formation Pacing is definitely the way forward. I am currently pacing for em both with my arms behind my back, a la Churchill in the war office. Gut is also attempting to mimic him

Waaaah, time between droid and TTC is dreary. BABY: NOW!

Yo yo yo muther fucker biatches!!! (OK, too much Snoop Doop da Loop at Glasto).

Had a fabulous time! Got sunburnt to a crisp, too much lipbalm = lip like Angelina x 47, burning sensation under nose from too much Vick to deal with toilets (Dear God), & yep, scorps you must've seen my tat!!! Really, really enjoyed the festival, but not as much as I enjoyed having a poo when I came home .

Just been catching up here before pootling over to the deli. Great news about casp hey? That brought a smile to my chapped lips. Also cunty finally waters broken, will constantly stalk for more updates.

Sorry the recent differs are worrying, but all tests seem to be good so far, non?

scorps sorry this wasn't your month. But summer is young, & I think you like to be individual so you don't want to be joining everyone else in the June diffment plan, do you?

cass glad you had a good hol, sounds lovely!

C*mping didn't bring on the droid for me, so I'm now on day 30. Last 3 months have been 31 day cycles, so we'll see what the rest of the week brings. Glasto actually gave me sommat else to think about, so menkal seems to have left me........for now anyway.

Here, have some left over poppers & a bottle of eau de Glasto toilette.

LOZZA! I thought a strange smell of burnt burgers and patchouli had wafted in Glad you had an ace time. Love the poo comment - used to think adults were weird when they talked dreamily about 'a good clear-out', but you get to a certain age and having a really good shit in your own toilet is a true highlight of life, innit!

And yes, Teh Scorps is a renegade! Really wanting a July diffment - cos this month will be my 1 yr TTC anniv and I think it's about fucking time I won

BTW, The C-word didn't bring on the droid and you're at the end of a cycle with no sign of the metal bastard yet? Am I allowed to get excited?

Sorry chaps. Am in a bubble of hardcore mentallism.

Bloods came back good. EPU should be contacting me for scan soon,am expecting to have it next week when I am 6 weeks +. if nothing by end of week I will harrass them.

Problem is I am completely and utterly freaked out that something has gone wrong since friday's bloods. Am just not convinced I really still feel pg (and I sort of felt very pg before...) and sadly, nothing any of you lovely lot say is going to convince me,right at this moment, that I haven't had another mmc.

So I'm not really talking right now...hopefully this will pass and I'll be wrong and stuff. That would be nice.

Will report if I have anything to actually report.

Headbutts x

Waaaaaah, TYF's cousin is all over FB with the baybee-lurve: "Is there anything sweeter than kisses from your baby?". I wouldn't know, please stop rubbing it in!

I worry that everyone in RL can tell I'm baybee-desperate but won't say anything to my face. Yesterday, friend's DH came into my work and just got their DS out of his buggy and thrust him into my arms, with a cheery 'there you go' (most people I know automatically plonk their babies on me as soon as they see me, and not cos they need the loo or summat). I thought I was hiding my crazed needs pretty well but I guess I shouldn't stop making jokes about kidnapping the various DC of pals every 5 mins

I know nothing I can say can reassure you. But just wanted to try anyway. My symptoms have come and gone over the week, driving me menkul. One day I'll have constant nausea and a hungover feeling, the next day I'll feel absolutely normal. Today is a normal day. It's hard not to despair. I hope you get your scan soon lovely.

Oh Gin. . Will be checking in lots to see how y'are.

Gin, am always thinking of you. We understand why you're menkulling it and we heart ya (sneaking under your DHB radar, there).

Oh gin I'm sorry you're in such despair. Its understandable that you'll worry after everything you've been through. I hope you get a scan soon, & can be reassured & enjoy your pregnancy.

Take care, xx

Gin! Hang in there lovey, and do try not to worry until you know there's something to worry about Wet-towel-flicks for you in the meantime.

(Apols if have missed other stuff - not caught up properly again - love you all)

I loves ya Gin. Very glad the bloods were good, but will keep pacing for you until you have your scan .

Can understand that Ginny given what you've had to put up with before. And there's nothing I can say, so I won't try. I'll be joining in with the smooches and bear hugs though. And you can't stop me despite being double hard.

Oh Gin-gin-a-mee, have a reassuring face lick. I completely didn't feel pregnant at all for god knows how long - still don't really. Have had a few symptoms here and there which helps occasionally, but I do understand about the crayzee-menkul-panic. However I did a whole lot of googling and there is much talk about not feeling pregnant as being completely NORMAL. You have no droid, good blood results and a BFP - really, that's plenty to cheer about (although I completely understand that it doesn't feel like that)

gin I didn't feel preggo for ages either.

It's a mindfuck, this whole getting a line thing that's fo sho.

proffers chinese burn.

Ginlesswonder STOP THAT!

Very good news about the bloods - now aren't you even going to allow yourself ONE DAY off the menkul merry-go-round?

I do feel you tho - it was my symptoms disappearing that made me decide to trot on down for a scan last Monday, and everything was fine. Panicked again for same reason yesterday, even though I had another scan on Friday (during which I repeatedly insisted that "No...I can't see the fucking heartbeat, thanks very much, can you keep at it for a while, rather than whizzing off on your wheely chair, back to your desk"...saw it in the end)

I love you Cho. Thought it worth mentioning, that's all. What?

Way too much loving going on here

For those of you who aren't lurking in the PESH deli, Ski has been admitted to hospital with pre-eclampsia and will be induced at the weekend...

God Bangers, I knew there was a reason that I hung around this place...Back Off, Muse!! If I can't have her...no one can

Cripes...didn't think Ski was due for another month. Hope baybee will be okay!

ski is due on 22nd July, so yeah, bit early. She will also be distinctly unimpressed at being in hosp!

Thanks all... appreciate it. This is about the time everything went to shit with the mmc... although obv I knew nothing of that for aaaages and also I continued to have symptoms anyway cos of the sac still growing etc...

anyway. I really do feel properly menkul.

Really really appreciate everyone's support, and cheers to vag n cosmo for popping over with kind words n random violence.

Any news on our cunty? We can't really do 'mini...' for her offspring, it just sounds awful!

And I hope ski is okay? I know she really wanted/was expecting a homebirth... most important thing is she and baybee are okay though I guess.

Poor Ski. Hope she's ok. I told her she was drinking, smoking and bare-back-horseriding too much.

By the way I thought Bangers was mine.

Gintonik Thinking of you, and hope you get the reassurances you need.

poor ski, hope she and baybee are OK.

When you pry my cold, dead fingers off her, Aries

MMCs are a bitter pill to swallow Gin, and sometimes you feel like it's just an excercise in 'making it' past the next anniversary, or the next significant stage of development.

I am trying to be positive because I made it past stage of first mc and stage at which embryo died at second mc...this Friday will be the stage at which mmc actually happened, so hoping to beat my previous 'bests', but you know what...loads of people have 2 mc and then go on to a successfull birth, so why the hell shouldn't we?

I'm sure that you will be able to relax a little* when you have a scan showing everything developing as it should, we'll all be rooting for you.

*But still retaining a baseline degree of menty-ness