i ned some hand holding and distraction...

[PandaEis]

hi

for those who dont know me, im a long term TTCer (2.5 yers and counting) i have had 6 MCs 5 being in the last 2.5 years and i have a blood disorder to 'explain' this track record

so... to the reason for me posting

DH and i decided to take a ttc break after our 6th MC in january and since then my cycles have regulated again from 31 days to 27-28 days. i have had 4 cycles straight of 27-28 days and then this current cycle i was expecting AF to arrive around 29-30th may. i am still waiting i have got VERY sore (.)(.)'s and i feel really tired but cant sleep i was EXACTLY like this when i was pregnant with my DD(4yo)

i am scared to test as my most recent MCs have happened between week 5-6 and i dont want to see BFN either

so basically i just wondered if there is anyone around to distract me from obsessing over whether i am pregnant or not cos i need to take my mind off it

[handholding emoticon]

Not sure anything will distract you - you've had quite the time of it from what you say!

I'd go out and get the box set of '24'.....can't fail to keep you occupied!

I'm sorry I can't be more help!!

EI!!!!!!!! So good to see you!

Bloody hell woman you've been through it these last two years!

Have had 2 mc's since ttc#2 (10 months now), can't imagine how much more heartache you've been through. But well done for getting back on the wagon - it's a difficult decision to put yourself through the anxiety again.

I'm about 13dpo. Waiting for my first period since the last mc back in April. Was hoping we'd got lucky again, but not feeling it at all. Especially compared to your symptoms.

How old is your dd now? Ds is 22 months . It's gone so fast.

thanks

im watching goonies at the minute so thats helping

hey DG long time no speak!!

so sorry about the MCs its shite isnt it wow i cant believe A is 22 months already!! amazing how fast they grow isnt it

I know! He's a proper little boy now. Must upload some recent piccies once I get on the laptop.

So you don't want to test because it could be a bfn? Sounds unlikely. What's the ultimate symptom that'll make you crack?

its a bit of not wanting a BFN and sounds silly but i dont want to see BFP and be worrying over possible MC etc i think if i started with nausea after aother week or so then i would test then but i think AF might show her face before then DH has said he wants to see what happens and we are pretty skint too so i havent got much cash to waste on tests either

when is AF due for you?

I can understand that. I'm sort of in the opposite, where I want to find out as soon as possible so that if it do have another mc I can get all the tests done to find out if there's something causing a problem.

Did you find out whether your blood disorder could be treated in order to reduce the risk of future miscarriages?

So have already seen two depressing bfn's on 10 and 12dpo (yesterday). It's looking unlikely that I'll get a bfp this time as I don't feel anything like I did in my previous pregnancies. Not sure exactly the day that af is due, Tuesday or Wednesday maybe.

Hiya Eis,

I 'knew' you on one of the TTC threads years ago, I'm so sorry to read how things have panned out

As far as a distraction - a holiday is always good

Wen do you think you will hold out till?

In the spirit of WIMBEWAIF reunited, I couldn't pass by and not post!!

I never come on here any more but something led me to check out the boards - and now I know it was so I could be a distraction to you Ei whilst you're waiting to test!

I am now 4yrs in to the TTC journey, and on my second round of IUI (first ended in mc in March). I actually have my scan tomorrow to see if the injections have had the right effect, so will need some hand holding myself!!

DG I'm sorry to hear of your recent mc's. Your little boy is complete cutey - I can't believe he's already 22months!

oh PnM i have wondered how you were so sorry to hear about the MC glad cycle 2 IUI is underway though

hi dis i remember you i reckon a holiday would be good excep for the lack of cash and holiday allowance in work lol

DG i take asprin daily and high dose folic acid but i was taking those with the last few PG/MCs so how much effect it has had is subjective really

PnM so good to see you too. Sorry to hear about your mc. The very best of luck with your scan, what stage are you at (sorry am not familiar with iui process)?

Hi Panda - not sure if you will remember chatting to me previously, I am a recurrent miscarrier too. I just had my seventh m/c in a row but it was a chemical pregnancy and part of me wishes I had not tested early and I might not have known. So I do know where you are coming from. IF I could stop testing and try to get through the first few weeks without knowing I would feel much happier.

I know we are supposed to be distracting you here but can I ask why you are not being given heprin injections rather than just asprin????

Anyway our job here is to distract you, so after watching the goonies, what was your next plan of action....? Are you the creative arty type? How about go bake a cake, I am sure your dd will love it tomorrow, and if you are premenstral then I recommend making it a chocolate one! But then my solution to most stressful situations is chocolate!

What things do you like in stressful situations, perhaps we could join in a virtual stress-busting party here!

Anyway, it is good to see you again here.

Ei - have any other investigations been done regarding your recurrent mc's? I know from my own experience that my pct are not keen on investigating mc, the best my fertility nurse could offer up was "it's just bad luck". Hmmmmm.

What will make you crack and test? I can understand totally why you don't want to...... Will you wait until after 6wks? It's almost a week over your 28days now, isn't it?

DG, I have to take clomid tablets days 2-6 and inject Puregon (basically human follicle stimulating hormone) on days 5, 7 and 9. Tomorrow is day 10 - where they find out whether the meds have stimulated the follicles enough (or, conversely, too much). If the meds have worked I then get to inject Pregnyl, which basically gets the egg to 'pop', and then insem occurs 36 hours after the injection.

Is all way too much medical nastiness and I have hormones galore running around my body at the moment!

Will be thinking positive thoughts for you for midweek!

rainbow i remember you so sorry about your CP i have to take the asprin daily as normal and wheni get BFP i have asprin and heparin from 6weeks onward but up to now i seem to get to just before 6 weeks and then MC so im not far along enough to start the injections!! its been frustration central!!

im just scared to test being honest...it means i have to accept the stress and worry that goes along with pregnancy or stare at a BFN and wasted cash that goes hand in hand with the other side of things i cant be bothered and i dont know whether i want to face it yet

Oh Ei I know exactly how you feel. I knew things weren't right after the last IUI but I had to test anyway (hospital rules) and I just had to go through the whole limbo thing for about 2 weeks whilst my body did its 'thing'.

Is truely horrible for you and crap that, what essentially should be a happy time, is actually very very stressful.

I take it they wont let you start the injections before 6 weeks? I would've thought they'd be monitoring you much more closely.

Come with me on a virtual holiday - am off to the Bahamas (in my dreams!) so I don't have to go through the indignity of a dildocam today!! In fact, I think I might suggest that to the nurse - they should at least have a poster above the bed!

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morning PnM good luck with dildocam today i hope its going to get you a drink first i hope thing are going well and you can move onto the next injection stage

i will have a date with dildocam in a week or so if things go right...i am trying to convince myself that testing is the way forward DH gets paid thursday so im gonna go and buy one then i think...

AF still absent and boobs MASSIVE...have had a bit of a funny tummy today and a funny taste in my mouth... im obsessing over my symptoms now

i am now 9 days late...given my track record though that may mean nothing

Hey ei if I make it to Thursday I'll test with you.

Good luck today PnM

wow I have never been to the Bahama's before, the beaches look fantastic, whose taking the race down to the beach..... weeeeehhhhhhaaaa!

I need massive distraction now, I did the stupid stupid thing of testing early..... and yep a positive again..... arrrrggggg.....

picknmix -hope the cam thing went ok earlier.

Panda - keep not testing it is the right thing to do.

Now back to our Bahama's dream, is that a handsom young man heading our way with a tray of icecold drinks I see???

Hey Ei!!!
How are you feeling? Fingers crossed for you

still no AF and my boobs are still sore

PnM how was dildocam? hope things were looking good

rainbow did i read that you got a BFP?? congratulations did you test early?

at turk

Dildocam went ok but very undignified and a very big reminder just how medical this all is!

Follicles not big enough so have to go back for another scan on Wed...

I understanfd it must be a nerve wracking time for you Rainbow so am wishing you the best of luck.

Ei I am quietly hopeful for you, roll on payday so you buy a test - would offer to send you one but they are banned from our house now until actual D Day cos I have no self control!

Did someone mention ice cold drinks? Mojitos all round but be careful not to get sand in the jug!

Hellooooooo there Ei!

How would you like distracting?

I've brought back some delicious Turkish Delight back Oh, nope, sorry, I've eaten it all.
What about a game of hangman? Charades? That one might be difficult online

I Spy?
Animals and Vegetables? (my personal fave)

Cmon PnM's follicles!

ei Any updates today? Boobs still sore?

Am utterly confused. Had major pre-af signs yesterday. Then woke up without those symptoms. Did hpt. Another bfn. So spent all day waiting for it. But nada. And no pre-af symptoms either. Am supposedly 15dpo today.

hi ladies

yep symptoms galore here

sore boobs, no AF, i have had some niggly cramps today and i am sovery tired!! i need to get a test i think...still kinda scared though we will see though

PnM sorry the folicles were not as big as they should be but hopefully big things will happen tomorrow

rainbow how are you today?? have you tested again?

DG sorry to hear about the BFN 15DPO eh? i hope something happens for you (not AF though)

hi frazzled