Just had mammoth catch up and its only been one day since I've been on
monkey. Really hope the lovely supportive posts choccie (so touching...) and Jools have written have given you some direction and feeling less alone... Imagine if you were you're best friend, you wouldn't be expecting her to have bounced back only a few months after having to give birth to her longed for but lost little one . You are still in the raw stages of grief and have to be kind to yourself. I really hope anti-d's help you move forward a little bit. You have such a great DH, treasure him and your DS and lean on them with all your weight to help you get through this and onto happier times. You are never far away from my thoughts..
Don't know if ayone was listening to Radio 2 today. They were talking about a health board in England not allowing the word 'angels' to be printed on a compassion pack put together for parents of still born and miscarried babies for fear of upsetting aethiests who don't believe in them - x 1000! But the reason I'm saying all this is the Mum who set it up lost her baby at full term, the day before she was due to give birth two years ago. I was on my way to Tesco at the time and had to sit in car park lisetening to her story and it was heartbreaking, her pain and loss was palpable . The loss of a baby whether at 6 weeks or 40 weeks is heartbreaking and should never ever be belittled or forgotten about..
So monkey - you are doing so so well, but please take all the help and care you can, you deserve nothing less xx
4ever - thanks for sharing you BS, just amazing [smile. Made my 26 hour labour seem like two pants and he's out! Really emotional at your saying "she's alive"... but your poor fango!!
cupcake - honey forgot to hi five you last time. You sound like you have great support re: the BF. Hope the nipple heals soon and well done to getting out the house. What pram did you go for? Yes I am a pram addict!
Vjay - at your DS1. I can so pictur eyou screaming into your phone/camera bursting with proud mummy emotions!! I LOVE Jilly Cooper and have read all the Rupert Campbell-Black ones bar the last one I think . Rivals is my favourite sooo much shagging .
Neeks - not long til DH is off on hols .
MLS - lol at your DH getting wined and dined but missing footie - well he is Scottish though so probably doesn't give a hoot! My sister is off down to court no. 1 on Sat... Ben didn't need anything from doc other than eye drops. He just had a wee cold. Fingers crossed no sign of pox so BF immunity must have passed over - yay!
Barbie - just want to cart you off to bed - not with me obviously but with hot chocolate. Have you tried th enumber one tip of trying to space D's feeds out to 4-hourly between 7am and 7pm? The theory is that they then take more at each feed and need less during the night... Do you feed her somewhere quiet during the day or is she easily distracted and comes off boob?
LBM - you are so right Pampers so pong of urine after the event but huggies have always leaked for me. funny my SIL has opposite problem, pampers always leak for her. Must be something in the wrist action of doing them up!
IggY - hope you're enjoying every minute of your pre-baby ML. Savour it, paint your nails, read magazines, watch films, sleep, sleep, sleep
Jools - hope you've not disappeared into MLS's web link!
sabs and curly - at you and your girls meeting up! Bet you were all over talking and breathless to begin with!
All good here. Gorgeous weather so been out in garden every day since we got back from Aviemore. DH is off until Monday . It was DS1 'graduation' from playgroup this morning, not a dry eye in the hall! Off to pre-school in August - (we do pre-school at 4 then school at 5 up here in jockland...)
Oh and my utterly delicious Benjamin is 6 months old today . Still up once a night for milk but weaning going well and going to up the ante next week - or savoury week as it will be - sweet potato and turnip here we come - walls be afraid, be very afriad.