Just MC and ready to try again? Pack your cake, wine and tightie whities and join us for more ranting, weeping and most of all, laughing. All welcome (Part2)

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Nice clean thread for us - may there be many a BFP on here

Evening all
viv hope you get a more definite answer tomorrow x

lady and digi also on the bonkers 2ww train- boobs feel slightly bigger, feeling occasionally nauseous and sense of smell slightly sharper, plus odd twinges. I am clearly insane as only actually 7dpo as ov'ed late this month. Am enjoying the fantasy at the moment and testing compulsion has only just started, managed to resist so far though- hopefully wait until thurs.

muser and jolls glad to hear it's business time...!

battery I am trying hard not to put my life o hold every 2ww as I go bonkers enough as it is- and wine is my friend... But totally up to you - can understand why you'd want to abstain to be on the safe side.

ivy so sorry to hear your news- it's devastating. Welcome to the thread- feel free to vent and rant anytime!!!

Viv, the day the RTD was due I tested and got a very, very faint line that appeared after ten minutes, which I just decided was inconclusive, but the next day I got a proper line, so you never know...
ivy, sorry you're here but welcome, it's a good place to be when you are going through this.
Lady, Clareanna and digital I'm hoping that this week goes by very quickly for you. Cramps does sound positive digital and lady, even if it is not every day and clareanna, a good array of symptoms too, at leats it gives you something to think about!
Muser and Jollster, get cracking and happy SWI-ing.
batteryhen I'm glad you took everyone's advice and took the antibiotics, hope you get well soon. Magic8 I'm glad you're on the mend.
Hi everyone else, hope you've all had good weekends x x

Hi all

Glad I am not the only one going mad with the 2ww!! It's hopeless, I've been trying not to get my hopes up but it sooooo hard. Have sore boobs (but always get them around now), am feeling a bit nauseous but I know from past experience how easy it is to make yourself feel sick by thinking about feeling sick . Am 9 or 10dpo I think but kind of want to wait and see if I get 18 high temps but I don't think I'll be able to wait that long...

Fingers crossed for viv, clareanna, lady and digi, and welcome Ivy. I've found posting here v.v. helpful, I hope you find it the same.

Morning all xx

Bless you all for your lovely optimism - sadly, I don't think it's happening, to be honest.

Did another test before I went to bed last night, and got another (evap?) line after about 20 minutes.

Got up this morning, did another with fmu and still nothing after 10 mins - plus have started with the browny cm, so I reckon I'm out.

Really really REALLY peed off with it all. DH is being so lovely and optimistic about next time being our time, but I'm just royally fucked off now.

Plus, we're off on hols a week on Saturday with all my family, which means the key dates for ov will be while we're away. Not sure how condusive our family villa will be for regular SWI...

Grump grump grump. To top it off, I've got to fly to bloody Zurich today to present at a meeting. Double grump grump grump.

Anyway, hope everyone has better starts to the week. Welcome to ivy - I'm so sorry you're here. (And please don't think I'm usually this miserable!)

xxxx

viv Poor you, what crap to start the week. Don't be disheartened, you will get your baby - like we all will.

Sorry its not much to cheer you up, but do try and enjoy your holiday - it might happen for you - you will just have to be very quiet on the SWI front! Hugs to you.

P.s Until RTD arrives - its not over!

thanks so much for the lovely welcomes, everyone.
I keep going from absolutely hopeless to excited and back again.. I am pretty sure I ovd at the weekend, so it's 2WW time..
I never thought I'd end up in this place - so desperately ttc.... when we were working on Raptor we took it so casually, just letting nature take its course. I couldn't understand the BBT/EWCM/OPK/2WW/SS crowd. Weird how things change. I've got addicted to poas, and with every -ve HPT and ov test I get more desperate... grrrrr.

viv arsicles. thinking of you. xxxx

so busy its all i can do to keep up with reading you guys!!

have just had second RTD since ERPC and it was back to normal - 28 day cycle, ovulated CD15 then RTD heavy for 3 days light for 1, so if my arse of a company would let me start my new job (and we had the house move out of the way, and DS was sorted in new nursery, and life was less crazy) I would start TTC again, but as it is I will carry on WTTC for now, at leas things are back to normal cycle wise

at least am only doing any real work today and thursday this week (working from home the other two - ie taking DS to London Zoo for birthday on company money, then having manicure and pedicure Friday while DS has playdate with therapists kids!!)

OK I'm going to war - time to go buy the thermometer and maths it up. I've had enough of having to bonk allll month in the hope of getting lucky and need to know exactly when I ovulate for my own peace of mind.

Am due at the doctors again this week for my weight and I'm going to try to write the most persuasive "help me with anything at all that you can" letter that I can to try to get over to him just how low the infertility and miscarriage have dragged me - it won't do any good, they still won't help - but at least I've tried.

Have just stupidly tested with an internet cheapie far far too early in the stupid hope that I might have gotten pregnant again straight after the mc... negative of course.

I'm here now after many weeks of lurking. Got the (physical) all clear after natural management of MMC of twins on Friday. They stopped growing at 8wks +1 but I didn't loose them till bang on 12wks.

Like you all here I just want to be a mummy. This was my first pregnancy and I don't want it to be my last! I know it's early days but I'm veering between wanting to "go for it NOW" and holding off till I feel stronger (my body feels knackered!). I know we can't predict what'll happen next time but if it goes wrong again and we tried straight away I wonder if I'd be plagued by "my body wasn't readyish thoughts"?

We were VERY lucky to conceive first time (although I did use CB OPK and should prob thank it). I managed to escape medical intervention with this MC - might not be so lucky next time. It's so f**king confusing!!!!

We started the pregnancare tabs again yesterday (used Santogen the last time - am slightly superstitious hence the switch... and this time have decided we'll BOTH take supplements) so I guess there's def something telling me we should give it a go (just not sure whether it's my heart or my head at this point).

Not a positive opener/introduction I know - apologies. I think you ladies are FABULOUS and have had a real boost reading your thread over the last few weeks - thank you.

I think I'm just terrified at becoming whole heartedly focused on babymaking (although reading this back it looks like I already am!)Who knows if I'll lurk/put myself out there over time - for now I might just need some hand holding to start the process!!

viv big pile of arse - sorry it seems like it's not happened this month. Give 'em hell in Zurich - hope it goes well. As for hols - I think long siestas will be in order - or late night walks on the beach....

cheepz so pleased you are having a bit more of a relaxing time and enjoying life - your diary sounds bliss!

empty big hug - good luck with the docs. good plan to go in with a game plan, let us know how you get on

mummyMcKT quite a fw of us have gone on self imposed WTTC sessions, and all of us can understand the desperation to be pregnant again, coupled with the fear of it all going wrong again. Just do whatever feels right for you and DH, something that helped me was to and try to plan in a few nice things to do / places to go to fill up your diary with new dates and plans to look forward to. It is a real rollercoaster and we'll be here for you whatever you decide.

dorcas & wyg big waves - how are you feeling?

lucy this morning I ripped my bathroom cabinet apart looking for an elderly PG test that I thought was lurking in there. quite relieved I couldn't find one as it is still way too early (thanks Jolls for that site link!) am now plotting when I will get to the shops and purchase them. No (imaginary) symptoms today - other than a bit bloated.
ho hum...

viv bollox. Can you get pissed in Zurich on expenses?

cheepz lucky you with 28 day cycles. Hope your notice period flies by.

mummym welcome again. Am also on pregnacare, started dh on them too but I seem to have got through mine quicker than he has .

Glad there are plenty of other 2ww mentalists to join in the fun. So far today (at 8dpo), nothing. Maybe a little twinge, and maybe I feel a bit hungrier than usual but really nothing that's getting my hopes up. Boobies are remarkably resilient to the near constant head bashing I got last night from a very unsettled ds.
I had no symptoms other than an implantation bleed (at 7dpo) with my last pg but seeing as that ended badly I don't see 'no symptoms' as a good thing.

Digital Your pregnacare comment about your DH made me laugh Thankyou

Viv so sorry

empty you go girl!!!

mummymckt big hug to you - it was my first pg too, and I so desperately want to be a mum too!

welcome Ivy sorry you find yourself here, but hopefully we can support you and you'll have a few laughs along the way.

In 'Bleeding Towers' news, i have had another little respite (but am afraid to post it might be stopping in case I jinx it) another blood test (results later - please let it be below 20!) and doc was lovely this morning, reckons things should return to normal in next five days and that I amy not get AF on due date, but if it goes ove to see doc.

I also have a 'phased return to work' note, so i get to go back gradually from today

OK I have bumper sized book of TCOYF, thermometer and I'm not afraid to use it. If I can narrow down when I ovulate, and if indeed my ovulation's returned at least - it might reduce the window we have to be at it like rabbits for at least.

Hello - sneaky post from work. I am actually going mad. Stark raving. I have recently purchased an OPK, and am now becoming obsessed. I peed on the thing today. Its a big fat NO. I last had SWI on Sunday as DP is in Germany. I am aware I need to sqeeze out an egg, but nothing is happening. I swear I can feel the little swimmers dying off one by one.

The thing is I am off on this hen weekend on Friday - DP has been told he has a long weekend off and will be in the UK - just when I am heading out of it. Am franky a bit pissed off - - obsessed + pissed off = not a good day!

empty sounds like you are well prepared!You go girl...

mummymckt - glad you found your way over here, its a good thread to be on

digital - bet I can give you a run for your money on the 2ww mentalist stakes ....I am approaching 2 ww, had SWI on Sunday - and did PG test today am ashamed to admit that......

batteryhen - I did a test today, and it's less than three weeks since I miscarried.

ok need some help please!! I know i havent been on here much - had a mad week. but...
I was due AF yesterday, I have been feeling for days like I was about to get it. sore boobs, cramps and sore back.
but havent had flu like symptoms which is what happened to me when i was preg with DD and i have convinced myself that is "my" telltale sign. also i havent had alot more discharge like creamy white, which is also something else im sure i had with both pregnancies, (successful and not)

I had a BFN on the friday morn but it was 3 days early.

Im too scared to test again incase its negative.

what should i do?? should i just wait it out?
i feel like a crazy person.

Emptyshell go for it! I too am starting to do temping, but I keep forgetting to take my temps first thing in the morning.

sarahmia I don't know what to advise, I know how difficult it is to wait - it can drive you crazy!. Maybe get an early indicator test, wait a couple more days and then test? didn't want to read and run.

ta

sarahmia I would probably advise you not to test just yet, but then, if it was me, I would poas anyway. good luck to you!

i know i keep "forgetting" to test with my FMU and then convince myself its silly to test at a random time in the day cos it wont give a "real" response anyway! i really think i AM crazy!

all I can say, lovely ladies, is FUCK and I think that word is perfectly justified in my circumstances.

Today's HCG reading up to 108, so am booked in for methopoison in the morning

hairy

Bollocks.

So sorry hon,

hugs to you

thanks battery I feel sick and sad now and I had been doing so well in going back to work today and feeling better.

I just have this nagging feelling it's the wrong thing to do but I can't go on like this.