Hi all
Have been lurking and not posting for a week or two so owe you all a namecheck and here goes.
Firstly to Idream, I?m so sorry that you were unlucky this time. You worked so hard to get Freddie safely on board, and were so calm and restrained during the 2WW, it feels as though you should have been rewarded. Take some solace in a hot choccie and whatever you fancy, hope you are able to pick yourself up again in a couple of days. FWIW I endorse what the ladies have been saying about the job opportunity at work ? when you are ready, go for it and try not to let the expectation that they might be funny about your TTC put you off. They should see that you are the best rocket scientist if they have any sense! But I know what you mean when you feel it is unfair that your reproductive history should be a factor at work when it isn?t for anyone else ? I keep thinking that too. My boss knows relatively rather a lot about my uterus and innermost hopes and fears and that really doesn?t seem right!?!
The rest of the rollcall I shall tackle in alphabetical order and forgive me if I miss anyone out please. Think I?ll hand round a box of Guylian seashells while you are all reading ? tuck in!
Amber sorry that your clomid cycle was a bust but good to hear you have plans for IUI this time. When do you have your first scan for that?
Welcome Angelberg, I think you?ve only posted once but you said you were having EC last week so hope you have also had a successful ET by now and are waiting patiently.
BB how did the trial run go with the drugs? I can?t imagine how frustrating it must be trying to do assisted conception in your position but it sounds like getting some drugs may be the solution and hopefully will get Mr BB where he needs to be. Well done for continuing to sound rational and understanding when it must be really challenging for you. Hope your treatment can get moving now.
Hooray Dueling! So pleased to hear that your scan went well and you saw the heartbeat and the bubba was measuring right for the dates. You mentioned you?d had a few stresses before it but I hope everything has calmed down and that you can now relax a bit, Mrs Worrywort.
Hello and welcome Frosticle, have you made any enquiries about the clinics that might be able to help you? Hope they have been able to give you some encouragement ? let us know what they say.
GGG more condolences for your BFN, I?m sorry as it seemed everything went so unbelievably well with the egg growing and embies. As you say, you have a very good stockpile of frosties and somewhere in there is your future baby! I know you said you will take a little break before FET so hello for now and do come back when you are getting ready to start again. Hope you are feeling OK.
Poor Ginger too, we had a bad run of bad luck on here and I?m so sorry you were amongst it. Hope your investigations into donor eggs are encouraging you, if that?s the route you think you might take now. How are you feeling?
Horton it must be difficult to know whether to draw a line under this cycle or keep going in the hope that your response improves. Perhaps the former is better, although hugely disappointing, since it saves you the money and the emotional energy that could mean it?s a bigger fall later if it did come to nothing. But it must be difficult to make the call for yourself. I think from memory you were on a mild stim approach this time, has your doctor said whether this was a misjudgement on their part or just one of those things? If you decide to keep going, eat a few eggs and get lots of protein on board as much as you can to help boost those follies.
Italian I?m really pleased to see you still posting on here. We wouldn?t want to lose you. Sounds as though you have had a hard few weeks and although the idea of you in a floral pinny dabbing your eyes is very cute, it?s so sad to hear that you have been feeling sad. I hope your DH gives you lots of cuddles and comfort, and your little girl too. Don?t try to rush getting over it, it was a hard knock and you had to keep yourself hoping and focused for such a long time, with disappointments in between, that it would floor a rhinoceros, let alone a slip of a greyhound like you! You have been so strong and brave. Great news that you are thinking about adoption and making some enquiries, I do think this sounds like a good course for you as another donor egg attempt would be a huge undertaking. I would be pretty daunted by it too, so any qualms and worries you have about how it will go and how you?ll manage are totally natural. Although a 6 month wait must seem really frustrating, it is probably a good idea to shift your brain out of the TTC mode and into the adoption mode. Do you know anyone in real life who?s adopted a child? Do you think it would be useful to talk to someone and ask a few questions?
I had better move on before this turns into an essay...!
Hello Penguin and I?m really pleased to hear that you are on the brink of starting another cycle. I presume it?s FET this time? Good luck for the scan this week, let us know how it goes and I hope you are on track to start downregging next week.
Penfold how are you getting on? Have you got a scan coming up soon to check that everything is well? I can imagine you feel as though you can?t stop holding your breath until you know it is OK so I hope they will be able to do that very soon.
MM congrats on leaving work and being a lady of leisure! Don?t suppose there?s much leisure in planning to emigrate though! Are you having to get your OH organised and packed? I think you said he was leaving next week so I would imagine you?ve got bags and stuff all over the place waiting to be organised. Good news that you can fit in another cycle before you go, and planning the move will help keep you focused on things other than the 2WW.
Kiwi well done for telling Cruella about the baby and great that she was (reasonably) fine about it. Must be a bit of a weight off your mind now that it?s in the open.
Hi again KC11 - I think we overlapped on here at the end of last year as I certainly remember your name. Hope the stimming is going well so far, and you are counting the days to your time off work! I?m intrigued as to what do you do, given that it is high powered and stressful...you don?t work in Idream?s rocket factory do you? Perhaps you are Gordon Brown?s PR coach? I can imagine that being stressful! But then you would be giving that up permanently in a few days, not just for a few weeks...
Apologies to anyone I?ve missed. Not much news from me really. Currently in the middle of the wait to get results back from our blood tests with the m/c specialist ? we go back in 3 weeks. I am being patient and not giving it any thought otherwise I?d be angsting over how slowly 6 weeks pass. Have been trying naturally in the meantime and had a really top-notch cycle in terms of the timing of our attempts but after a few days of allowing myself to get hopes up, started spotting yesterday and it?s been continuing today so I think it?s another big fat . Here comes a rant...
I AM BORED. I am so bored with waiting for AF to come, waiting for AF to stop, having boring sex that neither of us can be bothered with, waiting for ovulation, waiting to test...my whole life has been one big long queue for a baby for the last 2.5 years! I am also bored with being the only childless couple in most of our social get-togethers with friends and family, and bored with no one knowing what to say to us because they know we are trying, they know we have lost babies, and they daren?t mention anything to do with it. All they can think of is talking about our home renovation, and that is BORING too because it?s been going on for 6 months and still has another couple to run! (Plus it just reminds me how expensive and stressful it is, and everyone asks the same farking questions all the time anyway so I get bored repeating myself).
I will console myself that if another cycle is just starting now, it could be the last one before we do ICSI. We should get our test results in the middle of it and then, if all is well (if!), it could finally be our time to get started on this and stop just thinking about it. I will carry on trying to think positively and eat well and distract myself with other stuff, and then perhaps it will be our turn, and our house that is too big for two people will finally have another person sharing it.
and chocolate all round for a lovely group of laydeez.