Just MC...Long haul, short haul, ranting, weeping, laughing all encouraged. Oldies and newbies very welcome

[liahgen66]

Ok, feel a bit scared actually starting the new thread but here we are, for however long (or short) our time here may be.

Off you go ladies. Welcome () one and all.

Morning all, great Tigger needed a laugh! Just checking in before work.. have a good day all. x

That was great, that totally cheered me up!!

I went to a workout class this morning and started crying because my frickin period suddenly got much heavier today and ran all down my leg. It was so humiliating!! Flashbacks to New Year and the whole sorry story. Got a hot bath and a cup of tea off DH out of it though, and got a free doughnut and coffee from Krispy Kreme so things are looking up!!

Gah - less than two days to the weekend, thank god.

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Forgot to say welcome to Elmmum , and big hugs to Wannabe, sorry about your Mum, sounds like an emotional, and poignant, time.

I'm trying to do the list, apologies if I miss people's updates?

Thursday:
Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD51
northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD42
Liahgen66 TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 (post mc) CD42
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD38
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD38
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD36
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD32
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD30
Slimyak TTC #2 UCL 26 cycle 2 CD29
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD27
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD26
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD26
SarahMumtoAlex TTC#2 UCL28 Cycle 6 CD24
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD22
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD21
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD21
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD18
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD18
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD17
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD15
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle11 CD14
Newcastle16 TTC#1 UCL 26-28 cycle1 CD14
albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD11
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD11
Pollyanna TTC#6 UCL27 cycle1 CD9
BunnyBaby TTC #3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD7
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 12 CD7
slimyak TTC#2 UCL 26 cycle 3 CD6
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 12 CD5
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 4 CD5
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 4 CD5
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD2
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD2
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 10 CD2

PENDING STATS
westyorkshiregirl TTC#? UCL? cycle? CD?
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle WTF CD?
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF
Urd TTC#3 UCL28 cycle WTF
Mummy369 TTC#4 UCL 26-30 CD51 cycle WTF for sure
meatntattypie
GinaFB
Newcastle16
Elmmum

WTTC
Muser TTC#1 EP 18/02/10 on 3 month wait
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010
redandyellowandpinkandgreen BFP 6th March 2010
floweringcurrant BFP 8th March 2010

Thanks girls.

In other news I think I might be getting addicted to testing for pregnancy even though I know its probably not going to have happened.. thank goodness Boots have the 'saver' range of tests. I know its barmy, Im havent told DH, so that proves that I know its barmy as he would tell me off! Keep looking at my still much more swollen than it should be belly and wondering.. in reality I know its salt and vinger crips, chocolate and wine in there! Ha ha.

Well Ladies the red Tide of Doom got me this morning. I've never had such a short period in my life. Suspect its perimenopause and that doesn't increase my joy. Completely with you Goodluckbear both on the trying to convince yourself it isn't and on the sense of mc all over again. Trying to just get on with it and certainly appreciated tiggers funnies. All the same I think I'll take myself off the stats list, I need to focus less on all this. Good luck to you all

Thursday:
Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD51
northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD42
Liahgen66 TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 (post mc) CD42
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD38
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD38
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD36
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD32
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD30
Slimyak TTC #2 UCL 26 cycle 2 CD29
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD27
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD26
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD26
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD22
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD21
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD21
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD18
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD18
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD17
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD15
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle11 CD14
Newcastle16 TTC#1 UCL 26-28 cycle1 CD14
albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD11
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD11
Pollyanna TTC#6 UCL27 cycle1 CD9
BunnyBaby TTC #3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD7
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 12 CD7
slimyak TTC#2 UCL 26 cycle 3 CD6
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 12 CD5
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 4 CD5
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 4 CD5
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD2
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD2
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 10 CD2

PENDING STATS
westyorkshiregirl TTC#? UCL? cycle? CD?
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle WTF CD?
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF
Urd TTC#3 UCL28 cycle WTF
Mummy369 TTC#4 UCL 26-30 CD51 cycle WTF for sure
meatntattypie
GinaFB
Newcastle16
Elmmum

WTTC
Muser TTC#1 EP 18/02/10 on 3 month wait
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010
redandyellowandpinkandgreen BFP 6th March 2010
floweringcurrant BFP 8th March 2010

HI Ladies,

Hope you are all well. This page just helps me so much - just been catching up and it's good (in an odd way) to hear other women thinking about what I'm thinking about.

Had my GP appt went okay although I burst into tears which was embarrassing. I'm ready to TTC again, so DH and I tried last night but unfortunately didn't work which is quite frustrating for us both - just so much pressure and also scary since the MC. We both don't want it to become an issue but it's difficult. So difficult and here I am in work and noone has a clue what's going on in my head. I have no motivation for work either.

Oh dear, bit of a day on here today.

Did think about passing round the s but from yesterday's conversation I don't suppose you'd thank me? Well, maybe you would, so here's some chunks of lovely rich, dark chocolate... I think it's supposed to help boost endorphins and make us all happier.

Weight's a bit of an issue for me, but the other way around. I lost weight whilst pg last time, was a bit of a worry, but apparently can sometimes be normal, but of course I know now that it wasn't... kept kidding myself I was starting to get a pregnant tummy but the scales kept going down. So I'm really happy to have put on 2 kilos in the past month. ok, ok, you can all hate me, but I'm really happy. I've gained the weight with lots of healthy food, not too many skipped breakfasts and trying to keep the stress levels down.

I'm totally with you on the concentration HappyGirl1, really struggling with that -- must get back to work, everything taking me twice as long as normal just now so if I don't make myself get on with it I'll be working all night......... (btw bursting into tears with GP not so bad, I held it together then lost it with the receptionist on my way out! Tears and frustration and anger, she must have thought I was a mad woman. Hmmm, actually, she was probably right)

GLB so sorry to hear about your experience at fitness class I thought the same was going to happen to me on a very delayed train last week was so much heavier than I'd ever expected and I cried with relief when there was an unlocked loo at the station. It does for sure bring it all back.

Oh, and I'm with the campaign to outlaw auntie flo... like the instead

Must do some work, too much procrastinating

waves to all

happygirl sorry it is all so shit for you at the moment. I know how you feel about work -there is so much going on in my head while I am there, that I can't get into it at all. Plus someone in my very small team announced their pregnancy yesterday - I had spotted it before my mc, but still it is difficult to cope with. I don't really even feel happy for her - I'm so evil.

I'm at home with a bug today though - feeling awful. I just felt a pain in my right side that I have decided must be ov pains so the main thing I am thinking about now is will I be able to swi tonight. It doesn't take long for this to take over your life really. (I will have to try to fool dh that I have recovered - I can't think I will be irresistable like this!).

lucky you on the weight thing alba - i have never been like that unfortunately.

Hi sarahmumtoalex I also had two dodgy cycles last one was 10 days. I Just put it down to hormones all over place as now not spotting so do feel more normal ( at last). Not sure how long since your mc as I'm quite new here.

happygirl1 please go easy on yourself. Dh and I decided to have once Af - oops I mean before we tried again so it means we haven't actually done the whole penatrive thing yet .

We've just been warming up to it and I've found that so much easier. Don't feel like you have to try this month if it feels a bit weird for you and your partner. We all get back on the horse at our own pace.

I really hope you feel better about it all soon and can be a true happy girl again .

I listened to my Zita West CD last night when she tells you how cosy your womb is and how healthy your eggs are - blah blah.

All I could think was, yes my bloody womb is so cosy that even when my little one stopped at 8 weeks it hung around for another 4!!!

I did find the CD relaxing and I'm trying to be positive that I will soon be nurturing another embryo.

The only problem with being period is - if people get angry we'll all think they've got their period - all very confusing for this poor old Hippy .

Must do my Tescos on-line shop now - that's what i really logged on for!

Can I ask you all your opinion please. The private consultant that i saw in december said the following:-

I wont make any assumptions about you I am a man of fact.

I will be doing blood test at 7 and 21 days as well as scans.

I will present you with my finding at the end of all that.

He then did a complete about turn. Looked at the fact that I had endometriosis, looked at my age, said the lining of my womb looked a bit thin, thought I had a cyst and told me my chances of conceiving natural were minimal!!!

I then got a BFP 1 week later.

Oh yeah and He told me that the cyst I had might be a tumour so I had a £100 blood test to rule out anything sinister.

My GP said that what he thought was a cyst was probably the corpus luteum!! She said he just failed to spot an early pregnancy and made assumptions about me.

Anyway, we didn't pay him and he didn't chase for the money until I had my MMC and then miraculously a reminder for £350 came throught the post (he also works at the hospital so I think he knew I'd miscarried).

Would you pay him £350 for seeing me and telling me absolutely nothing of interest or relevance??? He is supposed to be the expert in my area!!!

Well that is extremely frustrating HippyChick! So many contradictions there.. I am a bit superstitious so I would probably pay him but I don't think he deserves it!

How ridiculous that he thought it was a cyst when it was the corpus luteum!! That's just not exactly an expert opinion. Oh dear.

Interested to hear though how you got the private consultant? I'd quite like to do that but haven't been able to find much info on it.

Ps thanks for your note on TTC again.. we are both ready and I actually think if we manage to try just once it'll make DH in particular feel a bit more positive. Well fingers crossed anyhow, it's so so tough this MC business. Noone out there has any idea how much it affects you

Pollyanna your not evil that's perfectly natural believe me.. I'm sure everyone would say the same.. hope you feel better soon and you manage to trick DH that you are better! Hope it works for you and me tonight then .. would be good to have some happy news to end the week on tomorrow!

I just asked my GP to recommend someone (ha bloody ha) booked the appointment at the local aspire (used to be bupa) hospital.

Then my GP wrote a letter of referal. You tell the hospital that you have no medical cover but are self funding. You get an appointment immediately BUT they charge between 150 - 200 quid for each time they see you and extra if they do a scan etc.

They will require a credit card to hold for security(ahh that's a point I forgot about that. Maybe he will just take his flippin' money if I don't pay up soon arrgghh) .

Why does everything go wrong? I MC'ed 19th January and was listening to the radio on the way to work this morning and heard an advert reminding people to keep their tax disc in date.

Cue me realisation that my road tax expired on Jan 31st!! OMG the horror - like we need a £150 bill right now, or a fine, or the car clamped, or impounded... And I definitely didn't get a renewal reminder.. When I got home, can't find the log book, suspect the new one (when we moved house) never got sent..

Rang Mum in floods of tears to come to my rescue [wobbly] I couldn't even cope with the idea of phoning them - well, couldn't anyway as house phone on the blink and it's an 0870 number!

Evening all feel a bit behind on the thread, pesky work getting in the way of mnet. Bad work! Hope everyone is doing as fine as can be. Muser glad to hear those levels are dropping, that must be a big relief. Hippy that stupid twunt of a consultant sounds like a right plonker. Grrrrr. Can't do angry face as I might get bumped to the bottom of the list!

Off to get a glass of wine and catch up properly. Cheers all!

Thanks for the warm welcome all. I suspect this thread is going to keep me going through the next few months of decision-making.

Big wave to all - too many people to namecheck!

My stats are, er, I'm not sure. First day of my last period was Dec 19th, I started miscarrying at 10weeks pregnant, just finishing now. So no idea when next period will be. And not sure when we'll start TTC.

Question... what does AF stand for? It seems to mean period but can't fathom quite how

ElmMum, welcome sorry you are here and sorry for your loss. You will find solace here, the ladies are faboolus.

AF is Aunt Flo but we are currently campaigning to replace it with or RTD (red tide of doom)!

SarahMumtoAlex Hope you're OK and that the last was just a blip. Thinking of you.

DH got results from Docs today and apparently he has good sperm count and motility but the morphology isn't brilliant. She said this isn't anything to worry about as I'm getting pg, the beans just aren't sticking.

Good to know we're both OK, slightly irritating that the beans aren't sticking in my slack womb though !

Hi all

Hippy consultant sounds crap, would be tempted to complain to someone maybe? Not sure who or how that works mind...

Hi to everyone new (this thread moves so quickly can?t seem to keep up with new names), will just say ElfMum your last RTD was the same as mine, I mc at 8,2, started Valentines Day and now waiting to see what happens, the mc bleeding lasted a week and cycle really is WTF, don?t think I have ovulated or that I?m approaching a RTD*, have no signs of anything as far as I've noticed! I had a natural mc (never again), can anyone offer experience of how long it took for everything to get back to normal?

*Much prefer RTD to AF as you may have noticed

Mummy269 - why does everything go wrong, couldn?t agree more. Have had enough of it recently: mc, dog in vets repeatedly and has had to have 2 general anaesthetics, and was told Monday that someone in my department of four at work will be made redundant and that the three posts with responsibility are being merged (so one person gets the higher role and the others become mainscale). Timing is rubbish, was told Monday. Had just begun to feel a little bit more positive after the mc, start of some nicer weather and feeling like maybe there was some hope and now I?ve been knocked back to feeling miserable and worried ? and I can?t get motivated to do anything and am feeling stressed/like I can't cope and really tired again. Grrrr. The fact I also put a bit of weight on doesn?t help how miserable I am feeling .

Good news barren, glad everything is ok. Here?s hoping for some sticky beans for us all x

269 Mummy369 oops, sorry!

sparklyrainbow that's ok - will have to name change in a couple of weeks anyway to 3 6 10, but can't go backwards!

sparklyrainbow I can't offer any advice at the mo but wanted to let you know that I too mc-ed on valentines day and so far no RTD here either - I'm expecting another 3 week wait or so? Going from what I have heard and I too am feeling a bit low at the mo and feeling fat- maybe it's our hormone levels and come sat we will feel better? Hope so, thinking of you xx

Good Morning Ladies, hope we are all feeling some / even a small bit of positivity today as it's Friday :-)

Sparklyrainbow thinking of you lots, take it really easy and i dont know but somehow it slowly gets better

I'm feeling a very small bit more positive, i got a positive on ov test last night and myself and DH managed to SWI.. even if it doesn't work I think it's a big hurdle as we were both quite nervous so fingers crossed, now back to the waiting game.. such a small chance it would happen with only one SWI but i can't help but hope

Ah Mummy369 - I'm sure it never rains but it pours!!

Friday is pastry day, tuck in. They are virtual pastries, so you can eat lots.

Time to break it down:

• Two hours until lunch (will buy something nice and special as is Friday)
• Then two hours to afternoon tea (nice cup of tea and a biscuit)
• Then two more hours until home time (going to have a nice glass of red when I get home)

Suddenly the day is not so poo!!

Hippy your consultant sounds like my plumber, knows eff all. In fact, maybe he is my plumber in his day job or something. Have a rant at him before you pay, in fact, give me his number and I'll do it, am feisty today!! Giving him a virtual jab to the eyes right now.

Big wave to everyone else, sorry not to namecheck!!

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Afternoon ladies - hope we're all looking forward to the weekend.

So as you know, appeared on Sat/Sun but only lasted until Monday lunchtime. Very light and very quick. Since yesterday morning, I've had a dull and uncomfortable ache on the left side of my pelvis, near where my ovaries would be. Any ideas what it might be?

Just called the doctors to make an appointment but the earliest they can get me in is Tuesday. Obviously I'm not thinking it's pregnancy due to negative test last week and then onset of , but obviously due to my history (and the fact that we're desperately TTC) I'm a bit concerned. Don't want to google for fear of scaring myself silly...

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Hi all,what a week I've had , have not had time to catch up on thread will sit down tonight and read through it properly so sorry not to namecheck.
Well it was my Birthday on Weds - the big 40 and my DD Birthday yesterday (7).To be honest I was absolutely dreading this week, not because of hitting the big 40, but becauseof the MC wasn't up for socialising. Well went back to work on Tues and everyone was brilliant, they had balloons up and really made an effort, they all knew what had happened so probably didn't know what to do for the best, but it was great. We had a glass of champagne and they really took my mind off things. I was going to phone in sick again in the morning, I'm so glad I didn't.My family were great too, really made an effort. My mum has been so great throughout all this. She bought me some chinese lanterns because we watched them all going up in the air New Years Eve (they say you say goodbye to the old and welcome in the new as you let them off). Iknew in my heart why she had bought them.Any way had a lovely two days. My DD had a lovely Birthday, her and my DS(11) never knew about the MC, We found out at the 12 week scan, no heartbeat, we were going to tell them that night- never mind one day.On the night of our Birthdays we let off 2 chinese lanterns which the kids loved. When they were in bed me and my DH got another one out and wroteon it, something that I read on another thread which has stayed with me:
"No name, no face, no date of birth,
No hour of death, no mound of earth,
You never breathed, kicked or cried,
But to us you lived and died."

We let it off, had some tears but it felt right. I'm not writing this to make anyone feel sad, it just helped us, maybe it can help someone else.
We will try and look forward now, I felt so desperate for the last two weeks but this week I feel fine. I know some weeks are going to be bad and vice versa, but if your'e sitting there sad today- happier times will come your way.

Here's to a few more POSITIVES this week. Take care all.xx