The continuing adventures of The First Time Frolickers!!!!

[pixiestix]

Somebody come and join me quick, I'm lonely!!

Sky27 TTC#1 cycle 3 UCL 24? CD91
chico193 TTC#1 cycle 4 UCL36 CD69
Stellybelly TTC#1 cycle 1 UCL? CD53
Hamsterlover TTC#1 cycle 1 UCL34 CD46
CJ2007 TTC#1 cycle 5 UCL26/7 CD36
claireinthecommunity TTC#1 cycle 6 UCL29-31 CD28
WhiteRoses TTC#1 Cycle 2 UCL23-49 CD26
YorkshireTeaDrinker TTC#1 Cycle 13 UCL 30 CD23
Muser TTC#1 cycle 2 UCL30 CD21
honeymoo TTC#1 cycle2 UCL? CD20
aly323 TTC#1 cycle 4 UCL 30-? CD16
addie81 TTC#1 Cycle 2 UCL 27 CD16
Calyx TTC#1 cycle 6 UCL 25-26 CD14
bunnygirl80 TTC#1 cycle 2 UCL 29 CD14
chalky3 TTC#1 cycle 4 UCL40 CD12
vix206 TTC#1 cycle 2 UCL 27 CD11
Ozziegirly TTC#1 cycle UCL 27 CD10
blueberry noo TTC#1 cycle 2 UCL 31-32 CD8
pixiestix TTC#1 cycle 6 UCL28 CD6
Kaloki TTC#1 cycle 2 UCL ? CD5
Zippys TTC#1 cycle 7 UCL34 CD4
Homebound TTC#1 cycle 4 UCL 30-32 CD2
NovemberAli TTC#1 Cycle 2 UCL 30-34 CD2
kkas TTC#1 Cycle 5 UCL?? CD2
Confuseddoiordonti TTC#1 Cycle 1 UCL 27-28
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Graduates:
Trying4Baby1 BFP 21Aug
Kaystar BFP 27Aug
Pepperonipizza BFP 12Sep
Fulhamgirl BFP 18Sep
Ladyemmalou83 BFP 13Oct
bluesnowfalcon BFP 14 Oct
Spirael BFP 7 Nov
Curlycasper BFP 11 Nov
TishTosh21 BFP ???
Sevans BFP 15 Nov
EmsieRo BFP 16 Nov

i saw that too pixie i'm worry too. hope you're ok whiteroses

She had her doctors appointment yesterday didnt she, did she post on the graduates after that?

All of her posts say: message withdrawn at posters request. This is worrying.

Have just checked the graduates thread and the last posts from WhiteRoses were early yesterday morning. Oh dear, hope she's ok.

Sorry - very innocent explanation - totally mortified to have caused any worry. Going to write a longer post now (to explain) but wanted to posst this first to stop you worrying! Sorry!

Oh the relief!
So glad you are alright. I fear I may have just outed myself as a cyber-stalker though I was really panicking!

Ugh, just read through your posts about me there... Ugh, I'm so embarrassed that I worried you...

What happened was, after my midwife appointment yesterday, I went to see my mum. We were talking about the pregnancy, and she started telling me about this marvellous site called "Mumsnet". And apparently she's a member. Never dreamed that would be the case, seeing as she only learned how to send an e-mail a couple of years ago. Anyway, she joined the special needs forum but was saying that she's pretty sure there's a pregnancy forum too and I should really have a look, cause it'd be a great source of support. Said if her back wasn't bad and she was able to get out of the bed, she'd show me - she's sure there would be a lot of other first-time-mums on there, and people due around the same time as me. I suddenly thought of my mum trawling through the forums and coming across my posts - particularly the ones about EWCM and BDing! So I thought I'd try and delete the ones that I wouldn't like her to read, or that I thought would make her put 2 and 2 together about WhiteRoses being her daughter. Anyway, I started doing that this morning (says it takes up to 24hrs to remove posts) and fell asleep halfway through - I've been so tired with this pregnancy, it's ridiculous. Anyway, woke up (about half an hour ago ) and saw the panic I'd caused. As I say, I'm completely mortified!

Everything went fine with the midwife. Well, suppose it could've gone better. Went in and she had a student there - didn't ask me if I minded. Then started telling the student that they don't normally see women ("them") when "they're" this early but it'd be a waste of time sending me away now and re-booking an appointment for next week. But normally there's no point cause there's such a high risk of miscarriage before 6wks. (All said about me, not to me.) Then she went through the forms, making assumptions most of the time. Got quite a few things wrong. I.e. my date of birth, the hospital I wanted to go to, my emergency contact, my nationality... She didn't even ask me if I had someone I felt would support me through the birth - just ticked yes. Assumed I didn't take/have never taken drugs - true but she wasn't to know... Anyway. I wasn't impressed. I had to ask her about scans. She says I'll get one at 11-12wks and then she "can't remember" if the hospital I've chosen does a 20wk one or not. I asked would my medical condition impact on the number of scans. She said yes, I'll definitely get one extra one at 34wks, maybe more, if they feel they need to keep a close eye. She told the student that I'll have consultant-led care cause I'm high risk cause of my medical condition. I asked what was my increased risk of miscarriage due to my medical condition. She didn't know - 15% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage and mine's more likely to. No reassurance that I'm doing other things right - i.e. not smoking/drinking/eating well, etc. She was horrible. Anyway. I've another appointment with a different midwife in 2wks time. Hopefully that'll be better.

Aside from that, blood test results were back. Confirmed pregnancy (yay! It's not all been in my head!). Also confirmed that my thyroid (stable pre-pregnancy) is now very underactive again. That's not a good thing. But they've changed my medication and in 6-8wks, when my system's used to the new dose, they'll test me again. Will monitor it closely. So fingers crossed. Always knew that was likely to be the case.

Okay, going to post this now, cause it's stupidly long (as usual!)

Again, REALLY sorry for worrying you all...

Ugh, Pixie - I'm SO sorry! It's such a stupid reason as well!

I'm just glad you are ok!
But... Your midwife is a BITCH!!!!!! And she's tutoring other people, how worrying is that?! Thank God you get to try another one out in two weeks time. Grrrr. What a COW!!!

so so glad you are ok, its amazing how concerned you can feel for someone you havent actually met in rl. shows what a god send mn is.

Agree with pixie what a cow Lets hope the next one is better.

Oh thank goodness for that! So pleased you are still with us WhiteRoses

Agree with pixie and zippy, that midwife is a cow! Unfortunately, with my medical history, I've come across a few bitch nurses in my time - the caring profession eh?!!...

Just realised that i too have justed outed myself as a bit of a cyber stalker at least we can be stalkers together

Don't apologise Whiteroses the fact that you are ok is the main thing (now I sound like I am mothering you!)

I hope your thyroid sorts itself out and the meds work. I think sometimes people in the mediclal profession need to wake up and realise what they are saying and how hurtful it can be.

Anyway better get back to work but just so so glad you are ok

You're so nice Pixie -

Yeh, she was my mum's midwife when she had my sister, and, although Mum described her as "blunt", she did like her. Having said that (small town), I know a few years ago, she was wanting to retire (her husband told Mum) but then, next thing we knew, their house was reposessed and shortly afterwards, she kicked her husband out. So maybe there's more to it than meets the eye. Still think she was out of order though.

Anyway, Bunny - like your thinking about cycle 3! They "third time lucky" and "lucky seven" so maybe there's something in it! Hopefully you don't have to wait till cycle 7 though!

Sad about that couple, living apart for the first nine months of their baby's life. Still, I suppose the main thing is that the baby won't remember.
Kkas - sounds like February will be a more positive month. When's DH going to the reflexologist?

Pixie - sorry to hear you were having a bad day yesterday. I'm exactly the same though. It's hard to relax and be happy when you know the risks... Are you going to go to the doctor soon? Have you told anyone? (Mum in particular?)

Seablue - months one and two we went for every other day without fail, every day if possible. Month three, we stopped trying/didn't prevent it. Only BD'd a few times in the whole month (when we felt like it - not when I thought I was ovulating). That's when I got the BFP! Go figure! Seems to me like it's just pure fluke!

Addie - sorry I can't help - I've never temped... Hope someone else is able to though...

Fudge - sorry about AF.

misshoohaa - sorry I spelled your name wrong - missed the second a!

Yorkshire - that was good that you got DH's results back... Have you phoned about yours yet?

Claire - you were feeling tired? That's the only sure way you'd know I'm pregnant - feel like I could sleep round the clock! Or maybe you just had a busy day? When are you testing anyway?

Calyx - to hear about row with DH... That's not on! It's sort of the opposite in our house. I cook and I've had the week off. Huge pile of dishes there now, which I'd love not to have to do, but think it'd be totally unfair for him to come in tonight and have to do them. (He could have done them last night though! After all, I may not be "working" but I have been pretty busy growing his baby! ) Lol!

Drew - lol at all your research! My DH told me I was obsessed! Haha! Have you ever had bleeding like that before? I didn't realise implantation could last that long... I had a small bleed on CD30 that has been put down to implantation. (BFP on CD32.) It was only a tiny amount though. Bright red when I wiped after going to the toilet, but not enough to have marked my underwear.

Zippy's - my EDD is four days after my mum's when she had me... As soon as this apple pip's ears are working, it'll be getting a serious talking to... NOBODY'S allowed to hijack MY birthday! I claimed it first! Lol!

Pixie - lol! I've never even told DH what EWCM is!

Actually, I feel a bit cheated by my EWCM... I had it (unmistakably) on CD19 and CD21. But going by the Clearblue Digital pregnancy test, I had already conceived by CD17! Any guesses as to what that was all about?!

Pixie, Zippy, Kkas and Claire - sooooo sorry again for worrying you!

Zippy and Claire - you posted while was typing that. It is actually really nice to think that people who've never met me were that concerned...

The thing is, I think the reason I feel so embarrassed is that I know I'd have been stalking and worrying too if it was any of you, but I just didn't think. It said 24hrs till the posts would be removed, and I just could not keep my eyes open... Anyway, need to try and be a bit more careful with what I say now, I think. Don't think Mum would ever end up on this thread, but on the other one... Imagine if she had read up about me ambushing DH, etc! Ugh!

D'you know, I'm always very conscious about revealing too much about myself on MN, however, on this thread I'm surprisingly open, sometimes to the point where I wonder who's reading it!

Feeling tired, yes I did wonder if it could be an early symptom WhiteRoses, but I'm quite often very tired due to the meds that I'm taking, so probably nothing to read into there.

Re testing, I'm planning on waiting for AF to be a no show, then I'll test around the 30th. I don't feel any different to last month though, so I 'm not holding out too much hope.

That sounded really miserable - I'm not, I just don't want to get all excited that I could be PG and then have AF arrive.

Me again!, no need to be sorry for worrying us WhiteRoses, just so pleased that everything is ok with you

glad you're alright whiteroses

WhiteRoses - I haven't told anyone but DH as yet. I'm only 4+1 today, so the (tentative) plan is that I will call the doctor in about a week, when AF is really late, and then I might book an early scan at about 8 weeks. I've been really encouraged by Curly and Spiraels experiences with those and think it would be a big weight off my mind to see the little bean in action! If that goes ok, I will then [take a deep breath] attempt to tell my mother!! [shitting self emoticon!!!!!] I don't really want to go down that road if its all going to end in tears very early on . But am trying to think positive thoughts - i.e soft little fuzzy headed baby thoughts!!!

Evening all! Well AF has left the building, I'm now OV testing every day at the moment as I have NO idea as to when I'll ovulate. Also checking CM as well as BBT. Gosh sorry it's a bit TMI, but where else am I going to talk about this stuff. Work was a lot better today, the end is in sight for this course and I won't have to see the group again for a good long while. Although I'm now worrying about my next course. Oh well at least I can greet this one with a smile on my face and a skip in my step .

DH has been so lovely this week, I've been getting home late and he has cooked nearly every night this week. I feel very lucky to have him at times like this. Anyway sappy moment over, I hope you're all having good evenings.

Bunny Snap, I felt a bit more like myself today as well. It was lovely to be able to smile at people at work without thinking muderous thoughts.

Drewsgirl EWCM is disgusting but at least it's a clue as to whats going on down there in my nether regions. But you did make me giggle.

Zippys I did look good, my new blusher is fab and someone told me I was looking well today. Although it kind of made me wonder if I was looking unwell before . LOL. Had a much better day today though.

Whiteroses I am actually quite shocked at the level of care you received from the midwife today. Their behaviour sounds plain ignorant and makes me feel really angry and shocked. To talk about you like that is horrid! I'm glad you're ok though!!

Pixie I'm sorry that you had a bad day the other day and I hope you're feeling better.

Fudge Sorry about AF as well!!

Feb will be a good month for this thread, so lets arm ourselves with folic acid and BD until the cows come home!

Claire - I'd usually be more conscious than I am about revealing too much, but I know that nobody would be able to figure out who I am, bar my mum, and I never dreamt that she'd be an MN member! I am very open with all of you though... Pretty weird, when you think we've never met...

That's rubbish that your meds make you tired... But you're probably wise, holding off and not getting your hopes up, just in case. I shouldn't be encouraging you!

Thanks Kkas - apologies again!

Pixie - the one thing my doctor advised me to do was to listen to my body and if I'm tired, sleep. If I'm hungry, eat. Aside from looking after yourself in that way, there's not a lot else you can do, so you're as well to relax and just try and keep your mind off nasty things. (Easier said than done!) I had hoped to get an early scan on the NHS cause of my irregular periods and my health condition, but the mdwife dismissed me. (Maybe the next one will be different.) My dad wanted to pay for me to go private, so I could reassure myself, but to be honest, I think I'd only feel better for about ten minutes... Then I'd start thinking about all that could have happened since I'd had the scan! Anyway, if I was getting one, I wouldn't be taking his money! But it was so nice of him, all the same.

Turned that right around there so it was all "me, me, me"!

So anyway, if the worst were to happen (which I'm sure won't), would you not want to tell your mum? Do you think you'd ever tell her? I hope I'm right in thinking that she'll surprise you in the end and will just be really happy for you and very supportive.

Hi Hermya - cross posted!

Glad to hear you sounding so much more positive! Yeh, my midwife was terrible but luckily I'll not see her again now, so it'll all be fine in the end! And it's bound to make me appreciate my "real" midwife, if nothing else!

Hi all, just catching up on everyone's posts - WhiteRoses your midwife sounds like a real delight. You'd think there'd be some basic training on talking to the patient, not about them... grr!

Hermya it's nice your DH is so lovely and supportive. It does really help to have someone looks after you a bit at times, especially cooking lots!

I am already driving myself mad symptom spotting and I'm only 6DPO. Yesterday I was really tired although I'd slept fine the night before - exhausted today too although I had a rubbish night's sleep last night so that might be why. I've had quite a bit of creamy CM which seems to be a pg symptom for some people - and then today I got very light pinky spotting.

Could be early implantation bleeding I guess - but then I do sometimes spot midcycle and before AF - aarrrgghhh! I feel like I can't think about anything else and chances are this is just the first month of many.... I know it's way too early to test but at this rate I will be a gibbering wreck by next Wednesday, which is probably the earliest I could expect AF. And I can't even have a nice big glass of wine to cheer myself up!

Right, rant over, thanks for listening...

Hi all

I can't believe how fast this thread moves - I've been out for the last couple of nights so not had a chance to read/post and I can't believe it's gone up by so many posts! Cant possibly respond to all of them as we'd be here all night, but glad to see you're ok whiteroses! pixie I can't remember if I've said congrats, but brilliant news about the BFP, I am really pleased for you!

Well I'm having a loony moment - my twin sister (who lives on the other side of the world from me - she's nearer to you bunny than she is to me ) posted something on Facebook and I immediately jumped to the 'oh she must be preggers' conclusion and immediately felt very blue. So daft as I would be so happy for her if that is the case but not being able to be with her while she went through all that would be so hard. Plus the whole 'why not me' insania rears it's head and then I feel guilty!!

Anyway, thats my unloading on to you all for tonight. Otherwise things continue as normal in WH-land - on Day 22 and have sore boobs and twingy tum but they are all normal for the betwee OV and AF for me so as much as I would like to go to the clinic next week with a BFP I don't think it's going to happen!

Sorry to go on and on... it's so therapeutic writing to you all though

Pidgin - you deserve a hug! Lol! Totally know where you're coming from - ttc is so ridiculously all-consuming, isn't it?! Bet you'd never have believed it was going to be this way, would you?!