Emmsy's weebles continue to grow.. Onwards & upwards

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Come on over, its cosy now mermaid has bought the throws and insulated the greenhouse

Will be back for catch up after DS is in bed x

Well done Blue
Hope Barbie's not offended and everyone makes their way here.

I got my letter in today inviting me to go for my swine flu jab. Petrified to go and petrified not to. Advice anyone?

Hello all
Thanks for the new homes! Bit of a me post I'm afraid - I feel crap!! Really icky and knackered and whilst I don't think I'm worried about booking in tomorrow or the fact that tomorrow will be 10 +5 ( same date as MC last time), however I did manage to dream about bleeding last night!!
Sorry - hope everyones well and great news 4ever. All this pram talk is interesting - I'm in a odd place, cos if I was pregnant, I'd be needing to buy all my equipment again as I got rid of all the old stuff once I had finished with it. Having said that, this time round, should I need to , I shall be making use of NCT sales and ebay!

Phew! that took longer as had to do Tesco online order - mega tedious!

Barbie - thanks for starting new thread and hope you've found us. You'll see from the posts why we are here and do think conception is best place as you get lots of randoms in 'Chat' and as someone said, we are welcome to new small panters who may not find us in chat... Great to hear you had a fab time with your friends and enjoyed exploring Dubai all over again. at bugaboo price - can you not ask Gwyneth Paltrow for her old one ?

LBM - feeling rubbish is good, Try not to worry about your dream, its just your subconcious clearing out your anxieties. Hope all goes well at your booking in tomorrow, your stealthly getting to 12-weeks slowly but surely

Talking of which - uber delighted for you 4ever and another week closer to your 12-week scan. Told DH all about your history whilst we washed DS tonight, he was full of admiration for you and your DH and how you just kept ploughing on . I think you're having a boy too!

Hey Neeko - well done for getting half-way there - yay! Not long now til your scan and you'll be romping into the thrid trimester before you know it! re: swine flu, I'm not getting it whilst i'm pg. Spoke to my boss (ex Head of Midwifery) who advised me not to but I'm further on than you... Her reason was just the cautious not taking anything during pg if you can avoid it...

Sabs - I must apologise as I meant to comment on your lovely long post twice before and forgot . Your Indian traditions were so interesting to read . Saara is still gorgeous and hope you and her are settling back at home. Did your DH get the cot built?

Fading fast here zzzzz, so I'll sign off. Had much hilarity earlier taking photos of DS in the baby car seat we brought down from loft tonight. Also brought 'tummy tub' baby bath down which gave me goosebumps thinking lo will be bobbing about in it soon (but not too soon I hope).

Bloody hell girls, i had to change my shoes from flats in to hiking boots and stop in the corner shop on route to find a location map

Glad you are all happier with the new home....i do hope we can find some new recruits and get back to a chatty lively thread...

We bought a pram last night, the lady selling had purchased it on a friends recommendation but didnt like it so her husband bought her a new quinney. I think she had a few problems with her new baby and has been spending the last few months back and forth to the hospital and just put the pram away. We got it for £300! So last night i was desperatly texting everyone in dubai to see if we could store in in their houses for the next few weeks cos my mum has freaked me out about having it in the house!

iggy im really really sorry about the old thread title i hope you like this one and will be back soon

blue our tummy tub is being bought over from uk for us, cant get one here anywhere.

lbm feeling crap is good! long may it continue, in the nicest possible sense of course!

jools happy birthday for one of the days this week....we need a white board so i can remember! Hope cornwall isnt too damp and cold for you, although i do love walking around the cobbled streets all wrapped up warm. There i go again dreaming of winter, wet, dark streets with inviting shop windows all lit up brightly, my wooley hat...holding hands while christmas shopping, Hot chocolate on bonfire night, wellies, jumping in puddles while walking the dog through the woods or on dartmoor i wanna come home!!!!!!!!!!

The sad fact is it really is so true. Im dreading christmas. Its going to be the first one ever away from home. We are so family orientated its going to break my heart this year only being able to skype them. Im trying hard not to think of it, its still so warm here that it feels like the middle of summer so in my mind i have months left....gosh im hormonal, the tears of streaming down my face!

neeko re the swine flu jab. We dont get it over here but i did ask my doctor about it. She did say she wouldnt bother nd she wouldnt recommend when pregnant, but thats just her thoughts and i cant remember the reasons she thought this. Is swine flu still very rife in the uk, it seems to have gone quiet over here?

Right off to get ready for another boring day at work. Hope everyone finds us soon xxxxx

Morning lovely lovely girls- sorry I've been a bit quiet last couple of days..life has suddenly become manic as dh and I are both doing courses so have to do some studying in the evenings and I'm having to cook dinner dh usually always does it as he is a fab cook, but he at least pretended to enjoy the burnt sausages last night Honestly, why did I ever think I could be a Mum..I'm gonna need to dig out my Tana Ramsay cookbook and actually learn about some stuff!

Anyway... 4ever just wanted to add another massive phew and yay! for you!! Honestly, I've been smiling since Monday..it just feels you're getting ever closer to holding your LO and I'm so pleased for you. I know, I admit I've felt guilty that just one scan put my mind at rest and you've already had what, 5? But it will be sooo worth it my lovely. My hand's still here to hold

Loving the new thread, and yes Neeko I agree MN changing is pants! I have all my threads (ok all 2 of them) under 'I'm watching' too and do not like the changes!
Iggy no need to apologise we totally get where you're coming from! (and secret 'eep' for you and Moon and MLS on the non-2ww) so glad you're feeling cheerful. Don't forget you're lovely.
I was just thinking last night that our BFPs always seem to have come in batches.. 2 or 3 girlies together to get through it all with some company..so I'm sure it will happen like that again within the next couple of months and I can't wait

LBM another hand for you to hold here too as you're up to the point you lost your poor LO last time.. well done for getting this far with barely a wobble, head in sand is definitely the way to go!

Sabs GORGEOUS pic of Saara, I showed my dh too she is sooo cute! Hope all the family loved her at the wedding.

Vjay poor Ajay with his jabs glad it's over with now though! Lion how are you and Arlo doing too?

Awww barbie I loved your description of Christmas in the UK, beautiful. You'll be back before too long! I'm a total home girl too so Christmas away from family would be so hard- but it comes round again so quickly.

My edd on Monday was ok. Didn't even mention it to dh as I knew he probably wouldn't respond in a way that was appropriate! I'm sure it would have been very different if scan had been bad news on Friday but as it is, I feel quite at peace with it all. (and Neeko no need to apologise! There are so many dates to remember here!)

I know this is becoming a super-long post but one more story- my Mum told me the other day that she found out she was expecting my bro a couple of days before we went to America for 6 months... and she didn't get one single checkup til she was back in the UK 7 months pregnant!! She was like 'well I'd had 2 healthy pregnancies before, what is there to worry about' Couldn't help but think of us girls and how we could never do that!

Right, better do some work

lol blue I've just finished my online tesco shop too, and well done on the new thread

oh barbie I know what you mean about the homesickness at Christmas, I'm not too bad now as I've done it for the last 3 Christmases, but you're even further than me. Try and look at it like an adventure, plus it's the last one with just you and dh, so do something you wouldn't usually do to make it special. Our 1st one away we went for a walk on the beach whci was different for us because there are no beaches back home, and we took some lovely pics of ds1 and used them for his thankyou letters

lbm glad you are feeling yukky cos it means everything is as it should be

neeko I have no advice on the jab sorry, but speak to your midwife about all your concerns.

cupcake glad your edd went by peacefully

Well Ajay didn't sleep through last night, so the previous night was a blip, but he was still very good

Just bringing the list over.
Vjay where is home for you then?

Commando/small pants
iggypiggy
MLS
Mermaid
hoping
jools
bakingqueen
Bluemoon
gingermumi

Medium pants
littlebellsmum BFP 11th Oct
4ever BFP 22nd Sept
cupcake BFP 11th Sept

Big pants
Anniebigpants due 01/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 18/12/09
mm1509 due 05/01/10
GracieGirl due 06/02/10
Curly due 07/02/10
BarbieBigPants due 20/02/10
Neeko due 23/03/10
MrsKate due 05/04/2010

Saggy Pants
VJay 01/09/2009 BOY! ALEXANDER JAMES 8lb 6oz
Lionstar 27/09/2009 BOY! ARLO BRYN 9lb 5oz
Sabs 30/09/09 GIRL! SAARA 9lb

cupcake I'm from Cheshire and most of my family live there, then there's some in London. But I do like where I am now

LBM In a way it's nice to see you having a wee bit of a wobble cos it shows those hormones are kicking in Hope today has been a better day for you.

Blue I'm completely undecided now re the swine flu thing. My instinct is not to, my DH's instinct is to and I keep thinking about potentially leaving my DD motherless

Barbie Congrats on your pram! Bet it's got you quite excited.

Cupcake Hi. well done for coping with your EDD. Are you 12 weeks yet?

Vjay At 8-9 weeks(?) even one night through is good going. What a boy you've got.

I've hit the 20 week tiredness wall. Just want to sleep and sleep and sleep and everyone at work is irritating me!

Ooh MNHQ has changed the I'm watching bit again - much better!

Knock knock??? hello, may I come in? Is there room in Mermaid?s greenhouse for one more? Could I have a glass of wine please? oh is that a bottle of vodka I spy over there ? ah yes that?ll do, no don?t bother about the mixer I?ll have it neat!

Well hello lovely ladies, it?s been a long time. Sorry I left it so long but after the events that took place 8 weeks ago I?ve not been able to bear all the pregnancy talk that happens on the thread. Thank you all for keeping me in your thoughts & all of your good wishes that have been passed on to me via the lovely Neeko.

I really feel as though life has given me a good kicking this year. No matter how many times I get kicked into the gutter though I?m always eventually going to come up fighting. With each m/c comes a new determination to fight back, try again & I WILL bloody have another baby.

The actual m/c happened in Scotland & it was all pretty much over within a couple of hours. It was the holiday from hell which wasn?t helped my by bil saying he believed in fate & maybe I?m just not meant to have any more children & then overhearing a conversation instigated by my sil to dh ? she was saying that sooner or later I was just going to have to give up & decide it?s not worth the heartache & just be happy with the dd I already have.

Last week we had an appointment with a consultant who was just brilliant. I couldn?t have any blood tests as I need not to have been pregnant for at least 8 weeks so I?ve got blood tests booked in for when I?m back from my hols in Italy on the 20th. He was such an amazing man, dh & I voiced fears that we?d never spoken to each other about. Dh basically thinks I?m obsessed & the consultant told him in no uncertain terms ?Your wife is not obsessed she merely knows what she wants & if you carry on doing what you are doing I think you will have a healthy baby before long?!

In a way this m/c has been the worst as I?ve lost a big chunk of me. The me that was hopeful, slightly superstitious & unsure about God has gone. I now know that just because I want something really really badly it doesn?t mean I will get it. Just because I pray hard for a miracle doesn?t mean that prayer is worth toffee & just because I live my life in a good way & am kind to others doesn?t mean that that kindness will be re-payed with the thing I desire the most. On the day of my last scan just before my appointment when they told me my baby was dead I saw an old woman with a walking frame shuffling through the hospital car park, obviously lost & confused so dh & I carried her bags & helped her go to where she needed to get to ? I thought surely now I?ve earned enough points to secure a healthy baby? Obviously I was just deceiving myself. Good things don?t happen because you want them to or because you pray for them or because you are a decent person ? they just happen, end of story. I think fate is a load of old bollocks. I thought it was fate that I got pregnant when I did the last time & that it meant something but I was clearly deluded. Now I just accept that whatever happens, happens. There is nothing I can do to change anything ? it will either work out or it wont.

4ever I?m so pleased for you ? I hope you got the email I sent although I think you were on holiday for a week when I sent it.

Cupcake you are such a lovely lady & so deserve that bfp.

Blue I heard about your scare ? what a nightmare. I hope you are managing to think calming thoughts & are looking forward to seeing babyblue a bit earlier than expected.

Neeko thank you for all of your help & support during my ?hermit weeks? you are such a life-line.

Well I see that the cd?s have been taken off of the small pants list but if anyone is interested I?m on cd17 of the first proper cycle since my last mc.

Big waves to all & sorry I?ve not been able to catch up with you all individually.

mls and a massive hug, missed you x

MLS! You've been so missed. Really pleased to see you back and that nearly choked me up you telling me how much I deserve this.. well I think you mega deserve it more than me and I'm praying it will happen.
Sounds like you've had a very philosophical few weeks...you sound in a really healthy place though. And what an ACE consultant.. really makes all the difference I'm sure
You're right, good things do not happen because we are 'good' or bad things because we are 'bad'...crap just happens and maybe somewhere along the line we are supposed to find meaning in it but in the meantime we just have to weeble to an upright position again and help each other find the cocktails Loads of love to you xxx

Neeko yes, am 12 weeks today. Hospital measured me exactly 11+2 which was same as my dates...charting works

Ah mls sweetie! So good to see u back! My heart goes out to u & u have just described many of the emotions iv also battled through but fundamentally comin back to the steely grit & determination that this thing wont beat us, we WILL have our babys & that its not about prayers bein answered or not, nor whether we are good enough people, there is plenty of suffering in this world & in the end the pragmatic & philisophical approach is the only one to take.. What dont kill us makes us stronger & all those cliches that are actually true! Really glad ur gettin the tests & sounds like a great consultant.. Am posting on my pho so will be back on later, just had to say hello again! Big hug, keep strong, keep fightin, keep smiling.. xxx

Hi mls it's good to see you back and so positive

Hey girls..

Glad to see us settled in new home, bit of a palava getting here!!! Was posting on my pho last night hence 3 posts coming out gave up in the end as DH & I 'telly' night with enders & holby so removed the surgically attached phone from hand & left you to it!!!

Once again, lovely to see MLS back xx

Good to see Hoping too & sorry for the BFN sweetie Hang in there, hope you find us ok after all the moves!

Baking good to hear from you last night & also sending you hugs & babydust xx

Iggs hope you doing ok & sorry again!!! xx

Jools where are you girl? Know its not your birthday til monday (as well as some sad dates...) when do you go to Cornwall? Wasnt Barbie sweet trying to organise a cake!!!

Mermaid do you have this stinky nasty cold too then? Its a real beauty aint it?

Bless you Blue for telling your DH about us! Well done for setting up the new home too! xx

Neeko hope all is well with you & you get a chance to put your feet up as much as poss now the super tiredness is hitting you hard... xx

Cupcake bless you too for understanding how 4 scans later Im still not reassured!!!

Barbie I feel for you being homesick & missing it here, tho as Vjay said enjoy it being a totally different last xmas with just the 2 of you, plenty of family festivitys in the years ahead.. xx

Vjay I love that I keep giving you goosebumps! Hope you get to chill a bit after a restless night!

Sabs are you all settled at home now? DH must be loving having the 2 of you to himeslf again, or is he still trying to do the cot?!

Ive been a wobbly old weeble after the daring to be excited & joy of mondays scan, theres always something to take it away & cause anxiety & panic mode within 24 hours or so .. I have got DH stinky cold, its a belter, all in the head, nose streaming, then yest had pains in groin, which I worked out to be lymph nodes, as is normal in a cold that immune will kick in, but cue panic cos the treatment we had was to stop my overactive immunity attacking the baby so worried that due to cold, my immune is gone into overdrive attacking more than just my cold... Trying my best to be positive & stick head in sand & will just have to wait til wait til next scan on monday to be reassured (tho did consider going on fri but think will try & hold out..) If it aint one things its another!!! Wheres that chickensuit gone?

BTW hope the booking in went ok LBM! x

Hey there everyone. I hope our new thread is the source of great news this month and next

mls brave lady I love your spirit, and your consultant For what it's worth I really believe it will happen for you. So to hell with BIL and SIL and anyone else who chooses not to think it will happen for you You can tell your next little one some day that he or she is there because mum and dad refused to give up.

I hope all our small panters and commandos are doing well. Can we have more cycle days listed (though I do understand if some commandos don't want to) so that we can do some of the obsessing for you on the 2ww Fingers crossed for all of you this month xxx

Sorry I haven't been on this week. I have been thinking of you all and was so delighted to get 4evers text To be honest I'm just so fed up, and fed up with myself for feeling like this when I have everything I ever wanted I puked up quite a lot of blood last night when I was getting sick, apparently from puking solidly for the last five months, my spd seems to be getting worse and I'm so tired of worrying about everything. Had a good cry today but have had strong words with myself and I've (almost) remembered how bloody lucky I am. I cant help but smile every time she kicks though

Anyway sorry that turned a bit me me me What I really wanted to do was give everyone a massive hug and also a special one to moon who I always worry about and also to the lovely jools. I know this weekend and Monday will be really hard for you and I'll be thinking of you but I hope that your break and birthday will be the start of very happy times ahead. You deserve it lady xxx

Sorry for the lack of personal posts and lots of love to everyone xxx

Hi.
So glad to see MLS back! I'm sure I've forgotten to tell you loads of stuff about the thread but at least you know the big stuff. I've told you before but I totally agree with Curly that you WILL have your other LO one day (and I'll do all the hoping and watching fate for you)

4ever Oh my, your wobbles are never ending are they? Poor you, as if having the cold when pg isn't hard enough. Don't be embarrassed about giving in early and going for another scan. An early scan is better than a stressed mummy-to-be.

cupcake Happy 12 weeks! Think you might have to share the chickensuit with 4ever before you move into bigpants. At least LBM won't need it as long as we don't hide her bucket and spade!

Curly really to hear you're having such a dreadful time. It's rotten that after trying so hard to get pg you're suffering so much. It's completely understandable that you feel so blue, but hopefully the remaining weeks will go quickly for you.

Jools If you're lurking I want you to know that I'm thinking of you too. I hope you're managing to create happy memories to blot out last year.

Hi neeko there is a chat about the swine flu jab on mumsnet latest, I just saw the title on the right of the screen.

curly so sorry you feel so crap. I felt bloody awful towards the end, I even had to cancel seeing blue who was up my neck of the woods at the time, but it won't be for much longer, and it does all disapear after the birth.

jools I know you are away soon, so have a lovely birthday and a lovely meal at Rick Steins (sp?).

just noticed this, though highly unlikely to be used here

Vjay what IS that???

It's another smiley thing that means 'I have nothing to say on this matter', like I said it won't get used on here we all have plenty to say

Oh I thought it was a baby chick!