Emmsys Onwards & Upwards part VII - hand-holders and hair-strokers welcome!

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Shiny new thread for us

The race is on for the first BFP!

Afternoon lovelies, it's very quiet today.

I had my sweep done, it was a little uncomfortable but not too bad, I'm 2cm dilated so far. The midwife is ringing up this afternoon to see if I can have an induction either Friday or Saturday, that's if I don't go before then. Was feeling a wee bit fed up earlier, but now quite positive as I know I will meet optimus very soon can't wait

Im here vjay having problems with the computer so cant post much ...thought when i saw your post you had news for us!!! roll on the weekend

My sil, the one is due on the same day has just post on fb that she can feel here baby kick nothing for me...but say that she is in her third so you normally feel it sooner im trying not to worry about appt on thursday, ive become obessesed with my uterus and its position keep thinking something is wrong but hey thats what previous mc does for us...

neeko how you doing hun? hopefully it will be good news for the both of us on thursday.........

Just dropping in briefly - have done a spinning class this morning and steam cleaned the sofas and bits and pieces downstairs, as we need to return the borrowed cleaner tomorrow

Loads more housework to do, but I really can't be bothered - am about to head out for an afternoon in a pub garden I think

Hope everyone is having a good day - will be back later for news of Optimus

jools you must be having my 'burst' of energy for me , cos I've not had it

barbie you do feel babies kick sooner with your second/thirds and so on, though I wasn't sure at the time it was baby I thought it was wind you will feel babba soon enough

jools i came home to a lovely clean villa due to the fact the maid has been...best £10 i spend each week

Would love love love to go to a beer garden
Its still too hot to enjoy outside....im paler than if i lived in england!.

vjay thanks, i know you are right...just one more thing to worry about though...phew the list never ends does it

Well 2 hours after my sweep I had a small 'show', but nothing else since, no contractions yet. The midwife has just rang though and I'm booked in for induction Thursday morning , I'm so pleased, of course I'd like to go sooner and on my own, but at least I know I will be started off on Thursday. I have to go in the night before so I'm there ready to go.

Ooh fingers crossed, you might go into labour tonight VJay

Thanks annie, i'm so excited at the moment, I'm bouncing away on my ball

Vjay you've had a show..... I predict you will pop tonight, in the wee small hours!

Well I've just got back from a lovely weekend in Camber Sands, building sandcastles, watching the circus & eating far too much. I'm trying not to think about the fact that my boobs no longer hurt at all & focusing on the fact that my temp is still up & I've not had any bleeding >. I'm nearly 6 weeks now & in the last two pregnancies the baby had either died or I'd already had lots of bleeding.

Barbie I too would love to go to a beer garden. We've just come back from a local festival & we went to the Pimms tent & I drank diet coke, booooo! Today has been a glorious day, I think it's the last one this year though as it's supposed to be turning Autumnal tomorrow.

Neeko I'm so with you mentally on Thursday. What time is your appointment? I won't give you any more mantras because they don't seem to work for you! Correct me if I'm wrong but I think you might also be worried because GG, Vjay, Blue & myself have all had 2 mc's before being pregnant now & you think that you might not have had your 'quota' yet. Well there are plenty on here that have had one & have gone onto having a healthy pregnancy so try & get that out of your head. We are both going to be holding our newborns in April - now get that into your head!

Jools I hope you managed to relax in the beer garden after all that hard work. Glad you are experimenting with the upsuck theory - I have a feeling you won't be spending much time in beer gardens in the not-too-distant future & it has noting to do with the weather turning!

Waves to all the other Emmsy's lovelies, will have time to post properly tomorrow.

vjay my stomach just done a wee leap when I read about your show.........oh I'm excited for you. So optimus will be showing his face very soon and by the end of the week we will have our first graduate, that's news we have been waiting a long time to hear, keep bouncing away.

neeko hope you get some good news on Thurs, blue sums up well how m/c makes us feel in any subsequent pregs. Symptoms do play cruel tricks on us and I hope that's all that's going on with you atm, will be thinking about you Thurs.

Hi mls glad you had a lovely weekend, and are focusing on the positives. My boobs have went days being so sore I could cry and then a week of nothing. Maybe time to think about getting a padded kitchen table........ouch.

Thanks for the reassurance MM if none of us had had a mc then we probably wouldn't think twice about loss of sore boobs etc. but having a mc really mucks you up.

mls after a m/c we all go through every emotion possible, one day we feel quite positive and then all it takes is a slight thought about a symptom we haven't noticed that day to trigger the doubts, the cruelest part is that never leaves you in any future pregnancies. The best thing about a thread like this is we all understand the fears and paranoia when others in RL are thinking we are/ should be over our m/cs. Try to keep in mind all of us who are further on in our pregs have all had the same fears you are feeling atm................it does get slightly better.

Evening lovelies
Just been catching up with you all. Was also v sad to read the emails from our iggy and ginger but of course totally understand where they are and hoping they'll come back smiling more soon..

LovelyNeeko so sorry to see you are worrying so hold onto that little hope you have and Thursday will be here soon. Remember you saw a clear heartbeat at the last scan, and most of us never saw that with our LLOs so it is a good sign. Chin up.

Hoping and Weeble (I'm still loving that name for you too much!) looooving the positive attitudes girls. I too have been feeling this week 'it will happen' so I need to stop stressing so much.

Vjay I'm extremely excited for you!!

Big waves to Curly who I know is lurking on her posh phone, and hi to Moon if you are lurking - thinking about you lots x

Sabs didn't see you post this week - hope all's well with you and baby

Well girls, my last day in work was surprisingly upbeat; everyone was surprised at how smiley I was (me most of all!) I just really knew it was the right thing to be doing. I have interviews on Thurs and Fri for part-time work, Thurs is the one I really want so do cross fingers and say prayers am also hoping the theory of inconvenience might play into this - get a new job and of course I will be pregnant! But I am loving not worrying about it all so much this month, even losing count of my days.

Catch you all next week (ha, I sound like I'm in a sitcom!) when I'll probably find you on part VIII and cooing over our new cyber-nephew, yay! xxx

LovelyNeeko - please don't worry, I'm sure it will be fine. In all 3 of my pregnancies, the signs went at about 10 weeks and in 2 of the 3 , I had lovely babies at the end. Hope Thursday makes you smile

I'm not sure who mentioned the chinese lanterns? Think it might have been 4ever? Planned to set one off at the weekend for my LLO, but the rain conspired against us - we were away camping and we'd walked up this little hill which would have been the perfect site. I planned to come back with DH and the kids at dusk to set it off but it started raining at 4pm and carried on all evening, so no lantern for us! Ah well, maybe another day as they really are fantastic - saw loads being set of at a festival the other weekend

Morning all!

Very excited to hear about your show Vjay, keep us posted!

LBM thinking of you for your EDD.

Waves to Cupcake, hugs to Neeko and MLS.

Just off to work for my TWO DAY WEEK!!! I booked thursday off for my EDD and ended up booking friday too. DH is home for thursday and half of friday too. Not really got a plan for thursday yet.

hi all

oohh im soo excited for vjay hope all us well and little optimus is on his way.

im off for another week just phone docs . ive got my booking in appt this afternoon dh cant come with me oh well i can tell the midwife how i feel without him there lol. i think im 9+1 ish

Hi Gracie hope you're hanging in there? Ill be holding your hand on thursday..

Welcome back Bakinqueen! Nice to see another small pnated lady still here! Hope all that bd was succesful!

Big waves & hello to mrsmermaid! I went to nans in worthing with dh on fri/sat & saw a sign on beach for local fish/birds & they had mermaids purses on there! Now I know!!!

Glad baby movement must be very reassuring mm

Dress sounds gorgeous Blue! Why not wear in labour!?!?

Poor Vjay roll on thurs! Hate to make you but my bf who was due on llo 1st birthday (& same day as Lion and Sabs 26th sept) had her little girl 5wks early last thurs! She went on mat leave same day as I should of (21st) & thought she had 5wks still! Both doing well & genuine feeling of and proudness for her! As we were away at my nans we are meeting her tonight after work & cant wait! Does help that it wasnt on my 2nd llo birthday but really happy for her & no sense of obviously gutted Im not having my 4th lo next tues & we could hang out on mat leave together but cest la vie. No more torturing myself with the 'what could of beens' is my philosophy...

Mrskate hope you're not so sick now but its all nice & healthy - embrace that toilet bowl!

MLS having an edd is great - roll on the scan - hb can be seen at 6wks, I saw 3 of mine at 6wks..

Hang in there with the positivity Hoping - Im still with ya...! Also forgetting what 'day' im on & all that crap too! V healthy mindset to be getting into!

Hope 40th plans are going well Jools you lovely lady! - Am at cornwall! You sound in a good place at the mo.. Keep it up - I'll dish out one of Mermaids gold stars on her behalf!

Barbie your tourist day in Dubai brought back v happy honeymoon memories! I luuuuurve it there!

Neeko hon hope you're meltdown is subsiding & your chucking up as we speak? 2 sleeps til thursday..

Cupcake you sound in a great place hon, the weekly visits doing you the power of good! Congrats on your great escape from the rat race - lets hope for great things in your new beginnings! x

Very sad to see Ginger and Iggy ducking out for a bit, but totally relate. Not many of us small panters left now...

Nice to see you LBS it was me that mentioned the lanterns, sorry you never got to use one & hope the day passed as well as it could.. Im not sure am gonna use them after all as have too many dates this month (2 edds, 2yr anniversary of 1st loss & dads birthday) I might end up setting fire to my local common if I did all them...!

Undoubtedly forgotten a few of you so big All good in Weebleworld Been off work since last weds so that was fab! BF had her little girl 5wks early last thurs & felt really good about it, as with edds/anniversarys etc its often the build up thats worse, I was dreading sept, but as said gotta stop torturing myself with 'what ifs' and enjoy the here & now! Went to worthing on fri & had lovely break by the sea at my nans, long walks, fish & chips & quailty dh time, on sun we cycled to church & I prayed for us all on here , then we had bbq at MIL with whole family (the one cloudy day!) but great to all get together, yest we just chilled in the garden, perfect! Feelin in a good place. Glad I sorted work, ttc on backseat, when it happens it happens. I have a scan on thurs at diff medical centre so good to have fresh eyes on it as it were! Just wanna check all ok, last scan was feb after mc so doubt anythings changed, but wanna check no reason for delays in ttc, still waiting on result of smear & had abnormal cells removed a few years back so once I get my clean bill of health its just a case of totally relaxing & hoping that by xmas, or even our birthdays in spring, we get our little dream! No pressure, chilled out, laid back & taking it slow.... xxxxx

4ever bucket load of stars for you
glad you had such a lovely sounding weekend.

It has taken us all a long time to get/go where we are (some of us had better hurry up -vjay)

neeko hang on hard girl - back at work, change in routine, more stress, early mornings are all going to make symptons etc a little different. Thinking of you.xx

vjay foot is tapping in time to your ball bouncing come on Optimus

sorry to be brief, still in dressing gown making most of the few days before the school run starts.

kate yeah to booking in

LBM Thinking of you today. Hope it's not as bad as you expect. hold your loved one's close and let the tears out if you need to. Big hug!

Thanks for all your supportive messages. They do help but I'm not up to replying individually. I see thursday is a big day on here for a number of reasons. Thinking of you all.
Lovely to see the zen-like small panters. I salute your strength.

Vjay Hope your show has come to fruition.

Big hugs to all who need them and those who just want them. I'm off back to Lurksville which unfortunately neighbours DenialTown and Meltdownland

Can you believe its a year ago that this thread was started??? i was the third person to post on the original thread and found vm and a few others to join us...i think thats why there are so many dates coming up for everyone it would of been my sisters 1st year anniversary on the 5th (if she had bothered to stay married ) and it was today that i had my mmc confirmed and the 15th that i finally had my operation...trying not to dwell but concentrating on the positive and the fact i have come so far in the last year i do hope this gives everyone some hope.

Another story to give you hope....one customer in the spa yesterday bought along her 8 week old boy...first time mummy and 46! she tried for 14 years, had a few mc along the way but fell naturally. I asked her if she ever felt like giving up and she said "in this life you can only dream, if you dont have dreams what have you got to look foward too, or to aim for. Without wanting something so much there isnt much point in waking up every morning"
At which point tears sprung to my eyes as i thought of all of us so had to make excuses to leave she found me later to see if i was ok, ended up talking to her for ages and she even recommend a good hospital

I think i missed the emails from iggy can someone add me to the emmsys list? ill email someone with my email address if thats ok???

Hope everyone is ok....vjay are you pushing yet???

weeble forgot to say, i hope your new doctors find something that the others have missed and is easy to fix...not that i want anything to be wrong but you know what i mean!

just passing through - following barbie's spa lady, reading "the alchemist" at the moment and can recommend it for when the zen state wobbles...all about heading for your dreams despite all the troubles and trials in your path

Ahh Barbie thats definately a very inspirational lady.. These are the things to hold onto... At church on sun the sermon felt like it was written for us! That we'll all come up against horrible things in our lives & doesnt mean we are being punished, but strengthened! One thing Iv always been determined of, is that we will get our baby. Never give up hope - as the name maintains! Hoping may have to read that book!
Is it only a year Barbie? Hope you are hangin in there today & focusing on the what will be rather than the what could of beens... Its 2yrs since my 1st mc on the 14th sept, cant believe its been that long & cant believe I coped for a whole year before I found you girlys! Id just had my 3rd mc when I finally found you all last sept, didnt realise it was still a flegling site at that point! My how we've all grown!

Hey everyone,

Lovely to see everyone back after the Bank Holiday weekend .

Barbie - I remember seeing this thread starting by Emmsy and Ei when I logged on to tell my ante-natal I was bowing out. I was too raw to post but lurked for a couple of months before the inspirational VM invited me to join. It's been a very long year but meeting you guys has made the journey so much better We don't know our own strength half the time... don't you worry about not feeling baby kick. I didn't feel DS until I was 22 weeks and only felt movement at 18 weeks this time. 14 weeks is V.V. early - your SIL baby must have big feet .

Talking of which 4ever - lovely news about your BF and her DD. You sound in such a good place not dwelling but looking forward . A summer baby for you missy! LOL at me giving birth in my dress - that would be getting my money's worth .

Vjay - we're officially on the countdown, its beyond exciting . Hope you go before Thurs but just think by X-Factor on Sat night you'll have your DS2!!!!!!

Neeko - still squeezing your hand. I think the time between a good 8 week scan and next one is the worst as you have hope ("baby has got to 8 weeks!") and are terrified for having that hope ("but it could all go wrong at any time"). I will be thinking about you lots tomorrow night as I know the night before the scan is the worst xx

MLS - great to hear you had a lovely time away building sandcastles. Such good news that you've had no bleeding this time, have you got a date yet for your first scan?

Hi MM - hope your DD is settling back into school. How's the nausea?

Iggy emailed me to say she is feeling much better which is .

Mermaid at you in your dressing gown, I LOVE mine (pink fluffy 20 quid from M&S) and it pains me to peel it off every morning. I hardly have any ironing as I go straight from work clothes to said gown so have no 'evening lounge wear' .

Kate - hope you have a good appointment with the midwife, you're getting to bigpantstown slowly but surely .

Gracie - hope you and your DH have a lovely and poignant day on Thurs and remember to stroke your tummy whilst remembering you LLO.

LBM - sorry your lanterns were rained off, they are beautiful.

Hoping - your reading puts me to shame .

Curly - where are you??????