Emmsy's onwards and upwards part three...laughter and tears, it's all here!

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Hold on, here we go again!

Hum,
Buzz,
Click click
Hum

Monitor blinks, glows
Processor thrums happily

Fingers fly across the keyboard
"Hi how are you?"
"I'm fine been waiting for you"
Smile spreads wide across my face

Her words appear slowly
Full of humor and warmth
A cyber smile, a virtual laugh
Silent yet I hear

Realizing it's time to go,
a somatic sensation warms me

"I hope to chat again soon"
"Till then good bye"

Click click
Buzz
Silence

I found this and thought of us!......

Sorry for those who are missing out on bank hol, VJ do you get them when we don't to make up for it?

im glad il will be working with you tho gracie its my first shift back on sunday night as a married woman . the weakends and bank holidays mean nothing to us do they gracie

Pinky if you're lurking - Hello!

Hello just dashing in & out... using my Dads antiquated computer. Had a really really stressful day today. I've beem relaxed all week & for some reason as soon as I woke up I was gripped by an absolute blood-curdling fear. I mean I've literally spent the whole day with my heart feeling like its hammering out of my chest & my pulse racing. I've been convinced all day that something bad is going to happen, I even packed pads for my weekend away, just in case. I've chilled out a bit now but feeling quite scared still & wish I could go back to my calm state of mind. I guess this is what happens when you get pregnant after a miscarriage.

Anyway, I won't harp on about it as I know I'm really very fortunate.

Love to you all.

ahh mls i hope you are ok . i think everyone who has had a mc are felt with fear untill they hold their lo in their arms . i know i will feel scared whenever i get a bfp again. i really hope you enjoy your weekend away and dont get to stressed . big hugs xxxxx

Thanks MrsKate, when I was in the thick of it all today I thought about you guys & how much we have all helped each other. I was suddenly struck by a very strong feeling that I'm not on my own in all this & I could really feel the power of all the virtual hand-holding. Everyone on our lovely thread means the world to me.

i couldnt have coped without you girls .we have a really lucky threead i think we care so much about each other xxxxxxxx

Hello Lovely ladies. I have been promising myself a visit to MN all day and it has kept me going with my marking (160 down, 230 to go! ) I totally agree with the sentiment that knowing you lot are there makes everything a bit better. I wish my RL friends understood me the way you lot do, but if they had any idea about all my obsessing since m/c they'd probably disown me! Suffice to say I hope it's many years before I even think about losing you lot as a support network. Could we start Gransnet??? MLS always here

Hope you're all having a great bank holiday. I'm off too since I'm a jammie teacher (sorry VJay) Cupcake I did test on wed faaaar too early and BFN. Total waste of test. Don't feel remotely pg so think I might try to wait until next weekend. fairly sure that AF will get me before then though.

I'm really looking forward to other success stories though.
Sorry for the general post. Promise normal service will resume once marking finished.
Sending big non-MN hugs to all.
P.S. H to Ginger - glad you felt this lovely thread pulling you back.
Scorpio are you still out there? Haven't heard from you in a wee while. Hope you're ok.

MLS let me give you a hug. I know I'd be scared to death in your position! Its so unfair that we can't just enjoy being pregnant anymore. You, MrsKate and Neeko are so right, I'd never have got through the last few months without you lot to support me, make me laugh and make me realise I'm (almost) normal!

Neeko what are you like, testing on was it day 21??? Put the tests away or I'll have to confiscate them!

Just wanted to say the what you are feeling mls is totally normal, it's really crap that we can't sit back and enjoy the pregnancy, well the first few months anyway, but as time moves on it gets a little easier. I'm enjoying mine now, but if I don't feel lo kick for a while the fear starts to creep in. Just remember, and I don't mean this to sound cold hearted, there is nothing you can do. This thought actually kept me sane. Here's my hand

Happy weekend ladies! Ive got a lovely looong weekend off as i dont work Fridays or Tuesdays so 5 whole days off work!! (sorry VJay !) Its pants isnt it when it seems everyone is off work apart from you. Hope you have fun sorting your baby stuff out.

Hello Ginger-I dont think we have 'spoke' either. Hope you well.

Neeko-Hope the 2ww isnt going too slowly for you.

Gracie and MrsKate- Hope your Bank Hol shifts arent too streneous and pass quickly. Hows the (non) symptom spotting going ladies??

MLS-Hope you ok. Its a massive rollercoaster ride pregnancy post miscarriage and unfortunately you may have many days where you suddenly feel its all going to happen again, but just try and relax. I can go days and i start to relax a little, then suddenly i feel panicky and feel something is 'not right' and feel all sad, but by the next day i feel 'im sure everything is ok'. Just breathe deeply, we are all here rooting for you.

LBM-Congratulations on getting your new job.

Welcome to cupoftea and iggypiggy-we havent 'met' yet, but as i still lurk on the mc threads i 'recognise you from there.

Waves to everyone else, hope all our other lovely ladies are well.

As others have said, i really appreciate all the support we get and give on this thread, i dont know what i would have done without you all, from my darkest days of mc to now and onwards. Thats the only 'good' thing to have come out of my mc, if i hadnt have had that i wouldnt have found you all, trhough i still wish i didnt have to go through that. I hope that we go on for many more years-Emmsys-the Golden Years-good thread title for our mature years eh?

Well im 12 weeks today, roll on Thursday, scan day! Im really really nervous about it. Ive played out both scenarios in my head-the 'im so sorry' and the 'and theres the heartbeat', im really praying for a good outcome.

congratulations annie 12 weeks!!! It has gone fast, maybe not for you though

Thanks VJay-Yes it hasn't dragged too much for me, but maybe that could be down to my head-in-the-sand attitude, self preservation.

morning everyone xxx

wow annie 12 weeks that has gone so fast hope scan goes well .

im trying so hard not to symptom spot but its annoying me lol why are the symptoms for pg the same for af

Quiet thread today, obviously everyones out enjoying the bank holiday sunshine whilst I've been asleep.

Annie 12 weeks does seem to have gone fast, though probably not for you. Only 5 sleeps till your scan.

I'm not symptom spotting yet, its only day 20 and I didn't ovulate till day 17. I'm borrowing Annie's head in the sand attitude and trying to ignore it all for at least another week.

Poor Kate its so hard trying to be patient, only a few more days till you'll know.

Waves to Vjay. Scorpio you are very quiet, is everything ok?

OMG I've not been on here for hours and nothing's happened? Where are you all? I've had a bumper marking day and managed 100!
Feeling quite bad as my bf (with the same EDD as I had) had her 20wk scan last week and didn't tell me for fear of upsetting me. I'm touched that she cares about my feelings but I AM excited for her and want to be there for her throughout her pg and beyond. Anyway the baby's fine and I'll be an auntie again in a few months.
Hope you're all well and doing something fun.

P.S. I had fizzy nipples earlier

I'm still here Neeko! But just off to work again. Just done a 24hr shift turn around so I'm not quite on the planet (finished nights at 7:30am yesterday morning, start day shift at 7am today). Oh yes and on 2 nights again tomorrow. Well done for getting all that marking done between you symptom spotting.

Annie 4 sleeps till your scan now.

Happy first Wedding Anniversary Barbie!!!

hi all

hope everyone is enjoying the sunshine .

happy anniversary too barbie

im sick of waiting Arrgghh i want to be day 40 so i can test i am having some sypmtoms they could be nothing . xxxxxx

Hi all. Happy anniversary to Barbie. Hope you have a special day.
phew Gracie you must be shattered! I don't know how you do it.
Kate won't be long now and should be worth the wait.
DH has gone and won't be back til Fri , MIL has taken DD to give me peace to mark and I came straight on here Honestly, just having a quick coffee break.
Hope you're all well.

i really hope it is neeko

il be joining gracie at work this eve and tomorrow so il kept her company lol

Don't work too hard and NO symptom spotting on the job

il try not to for both . but withing bank holiday i can imagne it may be busy

At least that means no time for symptom spotting! I'm going back to the marking now. Catch up later. Have a good shift.

Hi girls, I was expecting pages but wow, you really were quiet on this lovely sunny day!

I have spent the most lovely day at my goddaughter's baptism and 1st birthday party - she is just the most lovely, content, gorgeous little thing and I wanted to take her home It's so special to be her godmother but can't wait for one of my own!

Neeko tut tut with the testing but well done on all that marking!
Happy anniversary Barbie!
Congrats annie on 12 weeks that is fab, and MLS sorry to hear about your panicky day hope the rest of the weekend was better.
Jools, cos you might be lurking- hope you're enjoying your weekend away!

Everybody else, happy symptom spotting! I'm not quite at that stage yet...should be bding tonight but DH has already fallen asleep behind me...!