bubbly1973's IUI online diary

[bubbly1973]

i am doing this online diary in the hope that it will help anyone who is going through it or are about to go through it. Oneday it will be hidden away in the archives and will be found by someone who is desperatly seeking information or another womans experience and find this diary helpful..if i can help one person then i will be happy

please feel free to post on this thread, if you have any comments or you just want to give me support id be most grateful

so here we go firstly something about me and dh

we had iui done a few years ago, conceived but sadly ended in a miscarriage,
went for our 2nd go straight away and conceived and now we have a beautiful little boy who is going to be 3 in june.

My periods are very irregular, anything from 35 to 45 days. I have cysts on my ovaries so am not ovulating, i thought after having a baby this would correct itself, but unfortunately it hasnt

I am 31, i am a smoker, non vegetarian, weigh nearly 8stone
dh is 32, non smoker, non vegetarian, his sperms are not extremly high in numbers but sufficient enough

iui explained

right so will post this and begin my diary....

day one..been to the clinic today the drugs they have given me are as follows

suprecur (suprefact) 0.3ml (to stop premature ovulation)
menopur 75iu (to stimulate the ovaries to produce eggs)

the nurses were lovely, its a bit daunting trying to remember how to take the injections, but i remember feeling like that before.

they wrote down for me how much i need to take, and showed me how to take the injections to refresh my memory

blinkin cost me £175 for those prescriptions

we couldnt have it done on nhs as the guidelines are that if you have one child then your not eligible for free treatment

i been panicking all morning as i thought af was appearing yesterday as i had brown watery discharge so rang them up to book appointment to come in for injections

then i woke up this morning and arrrgghhh no period, but hour before i had to leave for appt, there she came

when i got to the hospital i told them af didnt go full on till this morning so they have classed today as day one.

i been scared that they would turn me away as in a fortnight its bank holiday and they are shut so if i needed to be inseminated then it would be no good

last month they couldnt do it cos of easter holidays, i was gutted, been waiting since september, and with one thing and another they havent been able to start the treatment, thankfully they can this time, nurse said its just one holiday so that dont matter whereas easter they were off friday and monday

right well i am waiting for a call at 2.00 to confirm that the blood which they took off me this morning is fine, and that hormone levels are okay to start treatment.

so 5 minutes and i will know definitly

Just wanted to say good luck with everything bubbly and hope it isn't too long before you are joining one of the ante natal threads. Fingers crossed for you

Good luck - fingers crossed - will be following this

will be reading wth interest.. I had my stunning beautiful adorable DD via IUI on my second attempt...

first one was a text book cycle.. 2 perfect follies, responded well to treatment, hormoness all pefect -- end in BFN...

second one hormones were wrong, did not respond to drugs, increased them, then over responded, they were jsut about to cancel cycle but went for it anyway.. DH dropped his sample pot but it ended in BFP and said treasure... I also had a 3 year old and I reckon he was the reason it worked as he was with me when I was inseminated... he kissed my tummy after the treatment and made a wish... now have perfect family.... still get very emotional over it... so I genuinly do wish you well!

PS If you can go for acupuncture -- I did for 2nd cycle!!

thank you everyone for your lovely messages

mancmum, i have heard about doing acupunture, but i am very paranoid that i dont do anything different this time round than i did last time

my theory at the moment is, what ever i was doing when i conceived with ds must have done the trick, so wont change anything this time around

infact i wish i done a diary first time round so i can remember exactly what i did and how i felt

the clinic rang me this afternoon to say i can take my injections as of tomorrow...so excuse me everyone if sometime in the week i become a hormonal bitch

will post again tomorrow night on day 2 of my cycle

day 2

well, i been taking my temperature the past few months to see a pattern developing, i remember it helping me a lot last time

i use this
fertility friend, the free version

so today my temp was 36.2

i decided to do the same as last time, which is to take my injections at 5.30pm

dh told me that tomorrow and saturday he wont be here to give me my injections cos he is working

so today i decided i would be brave enough to inject myself,....i couldnt do it, i chickened out

so dh did it, i had one injection today, suprecur (suprefact) 0.3ml (to stop premature ovulation)

tomorrow i will go to my sil's house, she will do my injections

oh yeh i remembered how i coped with the pain...i squeezed my cheeks at the same time as making noo noo noise from the back of my throat,

i take my injections in my belly, i could have done them on my thigh but decided more fat on belly

right well thats its for today, i been cutting down on the fags, last night i had 2 glasses of wine for the last time...way to paranoid now, will be careful what i eat.

been taking my folic acid too

oh yeh nearly forgot, i knew there was a reason why we were getting knock backs since september and only now have started the treatment

cos you see, today i felt like a right plonker, i tripped and fell off my garden step...bang crash, right on my belly onto the floor! (good job i wasnt pregnant!!)

day 3

temp 35.9

had both injections today, had to go to sil's house, was a tad embarassed doing the noo noo noise, but hey, what the hell, anything to get through it!!

from now on i have to take both drugs, the first one didnt hurt at at but the second one did

i figured out why...i think all the potching around trying to suck up all the fluid from the bottle, made the needle a bit blunt so by the time it went into me, it hurt ouch!

ds said 'have you got the baby' aww bless him, he is also very good at waking up and shoving the thermometre into my gob,

its horrible at first doing the injections, about 5pm i start getting butterflies in my belly, then i am nervous so hands shake a bit at 5.30 when im doing the injections...but the actual injections arent too bad so long as i do the noo noo! the worse is the build up to it.

still, another day over, will post tomorrow

day 4
temp 36.1

arrrgggh disaster struck!

sil came over here to give me injections

first one was no problem (the one to help my eggs grow)

but the 2nd one didnt go down too well, (the one to stop me ovulating prematurely)

she got the needle in, injected the drug, then when she pulled it out, blood just oozed out

and now theres a blue lump there

and im paranoid now that the drug came out as well...can it come out when the blood was coming out?

god i hate these injections, not a good omen is it! will have to wait till monday to ring up clinic to find out if that drug worked or did it come out of me no sooner had it gone in me

feel crap now

Dont worry about it. Id imagine stressing wont help you. I think the blood was from the site of the injection and the drug will have gon in deep enough to stay there. well thats my positive opinion and in smiling and they are supposed to be contagious so catch mine and good luck.

It upsets me to think i concieved twice both unplanned and people like yourself go through this. My 2 of my friends are trying to concieve right now and if if its true everything comes in threes I hope yours is the 3rd.

Good Luck again

Just wanted to wish you all the luck in the world and hope that those injections start to become less painful for you - have you tried to take them in your thigh? I had an anti-d injection in my arm which stung like crazy, but then a student midwife suggested I had them in my thigh and I didn't feel it a bit - just a thought

still day 4,- update

okay panic over, thanks to a wonderful helper (thanks donbean )...

i cant believe how i lost it!! heart racing, palms sweaty, god it was awful but i feel heaps better knowing that the drug probably went into my system and didnt seep out along with the blood

so who ever is doing this treatment in future, make note, not to panick or worry if this happens to you (i have done that bit for you!
)

louise, you sound lovely, i dont have a problem with people who didnt try for ages and conceived even if they werent trying...im always genuinly happy when i hear of a pregnancy, always gives me a tingly feeling

browny, thanks for the support, i was thinking of doing it on my thigh, but my thighs dont seem to have no fat on them, i feel theres more on my belly than on my thigh

also paranoya kicks in, i thought of doing it on my thigh then thought aha thats not what i did last time, must must must do it exactly the same this treatment as i did on my other treatment when i concieved ds..i wish i didnt feel like this, its almost like i have to follow a ritual

day 5

temp 35.7

right well tonite im very very p*&^ed off!

infact im so angry i wasnt going to do this diary tonight incase i regret anything i say, but its a diary so here goes, will try and be calm

earlier this morning i reminded dh that he had to give me my injections and not to get drunk...not much to ask is it!!!

so dinner time me and ds went to mil's house, he came over with my injections and he was so drunk he couldnt bloody stand still!

last time i had this treatment, theres a 'midnight injection' that has to be taken in the middle of the cycle to release the egg...he was drunk and didnt come home till 12.15am...i was so so angry i had so much adreline pumping in me i stabbed myself with the injection without thinking and injected it

the next day i wouldnt speak to him all sunday and he spent the whole day grovelling because i told him i wouldnt go ahead with the treatment

so knowing how i felt last time, i cant believe he has gone and got himself drunk when he knows he has to give them to me!!! im livid!

lucky for me sil was also over my mils house so even though she was nervous after yesterdays bleed fiasco she injected the drugs into me, am pleased to say they went in lovely today, no bleed

so there we have it, not a happy bubbly today

cant believe that all i asked is that he dont get drunk, its not much to ask ffs! after everything that happened last time, knowing how sad and stressed out he made me!

i feel like he has no feelings or sympathy for what i have to go through, i dont like taking these injections but get on with it for the sake of having another child, it dont help that he is so selfish and has put his need first! swine!

well he best grovel and he best grovel good tomorrow!

day 6

temp 36.1

well last night i was in a right mood, but thanks to a handful of mumnsetters on chat i ended up having a laugh and forgetting about dhs drunkness

so today he apologised and all is well in bubblys house (i made him apologise at least 6 times before i forgive him! )

my injections hurt today, when sil did them, she was far better at it, but today dh did them and ouch ouch ouch.

i know i mustnt moan too much but it feels a drag to do them, and im not even halfway through it, each day seems to be getting worse

my body knows no difference though, dont feel any different

have a scan on wednesday to see how my eggs are growing

dh wants one of my injections to inject tomatoes...huh? im not even going to begin explaining!

well thats it for now, will write again tomorrow

day 7

temp 36.1 (i think, cos i forgot to make a note of it this morning and cant be bothered to go upstairs and check thermometer!!)

anyway, today i had a lovely suprise..dh came home with a bunch of flowers for me!!!

this is the bloke who doesnt do flowers! and last time i received a bunch was when i gave birth

so i am happy

injections went much better than yesterday, i took some great advice from a few ladies on mumsnet and heres the tip

get a fold of skin and whack it in...dont do it slowly as thats what dh did yesterday and it bloomin hurt!

dh let go of the fold of skin whilst injection was coming out so that bit hurt

tomorrow we should have it down to a tee (sp?)

tomorrow i will know how big my eggs are growing i still dont feel any different though

bye for now

Im so pleased to hear you are happy!! Good luck for tomorro.

Good luck for today Bubbly - thinking of you

day 8

temp 36.1

well today i had my scan to see how the eggs are developing

i have 8 follicles on left ovary and 3 follicles on the right ovary

the largest follicle on the left ovary is 9mm and the largest on the right is 12mm

i was a tad worried at first, were they the size they should be at this stage? so i asked the nurse what my sizes were the last time i had treatment and at this stage im right on track

so i am pleased with my scan today, infact the follicles are a tiny bit bigger than last time...i am a bit worried that theres only 3 follicles on the right ovary though, but no point thinking too much about it, better there be a few than too many..too many would mean having to have a follicle reduction or cancel the cycle at worst

i couldnt believe the doctor today though...quite annoyed with him when i think how carelessly he wrote my prescription

you see, i need 2 extra menopur meds because i will run out of them sunday, and my next appt is tuesday

he only went and wrote out a prescription for Puregon!!!...good job i questioned it, he said 'oh yeh, i been so used to writing out prescription for that, i forgot you are on menopur'

imagine if i didnt notice, or if this was my first time and took it that he knows what he is doing and assumed that i am meant to take a different drug half way through cycle!

anyway thats all for now, so my next scan is tuesday afternoon, nurse thinks insemination will take place 2 days later wont really know till scan though

by the way, injections today went down lovely, hurt a bit but nothing like the other day...remember pinch and whack, not forgetting the noo noo noise! although noo noo noise is getting longer each day...now its more like noooooooeeeeeeeaaaarrrrouch!

browny, louise, thank you for your kind messages,

Wow!

I dont exactly know what it means to have 11 folicles but I assume that its good!!

Well done

thank you louise...

...i think 11 follicles is good, but i was thinking about this last night...she counted 11...but i have cycsts on my ovaries...who is to say that some of those cycsts are amongst the 11?

i thought i had better make a note of that, as i would hate for a woman to have had a scan and be distraught at the fact that she may have only 2 follicles on each side!!

so i better make it clear that i dont know if some of those 11 follicles are cycsts but i will find out for you all next tuesday

i wish that i had made a note of how many i had the last time around, ah well, never mind

You seem to be thinking more positivly today. but I have to tell you one of my friends I mentioned earlier on this thread is 10weeks pregnant!!

Im so pleased. Hope you are next.

day 9

temp 36.2

today injections went down great
nothing else to report really apart from i nearly forgot to take them

i have a headache, i had one last night, thump thump thump, in the end i had to go to bed...today the same

i thought it was the drugs, but it appears not

had those tesco cheap blue n white striped plum tomatoes heated up on toast yesterday then headache appeared after lunch

exactly same thing again today!!! so it has to be them, (i ate the other half of tin today for lunch)

so now paranoid that something in them was dodgy, perhaps cos they are cheapy ones from tesco

dh says to put that thought out of my mind
feel stupid for thinking about dodgy tomatos, the metalic substance from the tin giving me a headache damaging my eggs.....when i smoke!
especially as theres more crap in fags than in the tomatoes....talking of which, ive cut down on fags to half of what i was smoking so good

ive decided that if this treatment dont work, i will give up completely...if this treatment does work, i will give up completly anyway

im babbling now

louise, great news about your friend, lets hope the other friend gets pregnant too

Dont knock tescos blue n white tins!! Its all we live on, that or asdas cheap stuff. Some of us can only afford those!

My other friend has been told her only chance is ivf and she cant have it on NHS because her partner has kids to his ex-wife. Shes saving hard.

louise no your right i shouldnt knock them...half my cupboard consists of the cheapy stuff rather than the brand

and since im too tight fisted to throw away good food i will carry on eating it all...maybe not the plum tomotos though!!

it isnt fair is it...i know they have guide lines but surely if your friend doesnt have a child then she should be entitled to a free treatment

i was annoyed at first that i couldnt have another free, but then im glad that i had one free and when i think of the women who have none, then have one free, well its fair enough...afterall if they put me back on the waiting list i would be amongst those who desperatly want 1 child...then id feel a bit guilty that i was infront of the queue and the woman behind me had none at all

I know the guilty feeling. Im a lone parent, on benefits, but only while Im at college n kids arnt in full time school. I desperatly want another baby but I forced myself to have an IUD fitted to stop myself just geting pregnant to my erm, shall we call him bed friend?!?!?

I think to myself Im being selfish when so many people like you self long for children and Im prepared to bring another into this world alone.