bubbly1973's IUI online diary

[bubbly1973]

i am doing this online diary in the hope that it will help anyone who is going through it or are about to go through it. Oneday it will be hidden away in the archives and will be found by someone who is desperatly seeking information or another womans experience and find this diary helpful..if i can help one person then i will be happy

please feel free to post on this thread, if you have any comments or you just want to give me support id be most grateful

so here we go firstly something about me and dh

we had iui done a few years ago, conceived but sadly ended in a miscarriage,
went for our 2nd go straight away and conceived and now we have a beautiful little boy who is going to be 3 in june.

My periods are very irregular, anything from 35 to 45 days. I have cysts on my ovaries so am not ovulating, i thought after having a baby this would correct itself, but unfortunately it hasnt

I am 31, i am a smoker, non vegetarian, weigh nearly 8stone
dh is 32, non smoker, non vegetarian, his sperms are not extremly high in numbers but sufficient enough

iui explained

right so will post this and begin my diary....

delgirl, thank you, thank you so so much for that post, i spent quite a few hours on the internet googling for all this information, but didnt find any that was relevant to me, you have posted what i needed to know, so thank you!! so for now i feel okay, dont feel too bad after reading what you have written...should i let myself go downhill, i will ring them monday other than that i will wait to see what happens with this cycle

by the way...have you had your new arrival...i should go and look on the other board shouldnt i

louise, glad you will be around next thursday ,...you also have a few extra days to study, so make sure you get stuck in

delgirl, i looked over at the other board, my message is 'only' nearly a month late huh

day 24

temp 36.7

today i been in a much better mood, at about 3ish i had what felt like a stitch on my left hand side for about an hour on and off, apart from that i feel 'normal' today

so thats it for today, tomorrow is day 9 past ovulation...will i feel any symptons? hmmm

Sorry I havnt been on for ages but my friends baby ahs been in hosp and my kids have had a bug but Im back for a bit today. Must study!!
Glad to hear you are a bitmore relaxed about things. Why dont you treat yourself to a nice facial or manicure or something else just for you? I think you deserve it!

day 25

temp 36.8

another day nearly over, boobs feel tingly, but i think thats the cyclogest, either that or its in my head because sometimes they dont feel nothing, then other times they do

i want this week to be over as fast as possible, its bloody torture...im almost sure it hasnt worked, but theres always that hopeful chance that perhaps it has

im getting to the stage where i cant wait to get up in the morning so that i can see if my temp has gone up...the higher it rises the better as its a possibility that being pregnant is causing that....if that start slowly going down, then i will take that as a sign that this cycle hasnt worked

mood swings today...one minute happy, next minute i want to kill the driver in front of me for going so slow, i want to rip his/her head off and try to shove it in the exhaust pipe!!!

well thats it for today

louise, i hope your friends baby gets better soon, and hope your kids are over there bug, you need to revise, a bit hard to do if you are nursing them!!

will post tomorrow now

day 26

temp 36.7

ooo temp gone down, hard not to read anything into it!!

i have to be honest here...i honestly dont think it has worked, i dont feel no twinges no sore boobs, no tearful moments, put it this way, i will be surprised if they tell me its positive, but if they say its negative i wont be shocked even though i will be gutted and probably cry my eyes out for a bit!

so tomorrow, its white underwear for me, 'knickerwatching week' waiting and expecting af to rear her ugly head, looking out for signs of her so i can prepare myself and get it over with as the sooner i see her the sooner she puts me out of my misery and i can look forward to the next go

this post sounds like im down, but i have had a lovely day today and am happy, i almost have put it all out of my head today

anyway, will post again tomorrow
bye for now

Hi Bubbly, just thought Id send you a post to see how you are feeling today. I had a bit of a bad day. Droped out of uni!

day 27

temp 36.8

nothing to report, feel normal will post tomorrow to say the same

louise, im going to start a thread on 'chat' as id like to chat to you hun

Bubbly, Please don't be disheartened, wishing your and dp lots of luck and just letting you know that I'm thinking of you. A few years ago a close friend of mine went through a similar treatment and in the run up to the test she had no symptoms whatsoever..she tested positiove and is the proud mummy to a 7year old girl, also has a boy whos 2 conceived naturally. So what I'm trying to say is you won't know until you know.

Maybe if you do have some symptoms you are so scared to read to much into it that you are just ignoring them? Or like kcemum said you might not have any at all.

With my ds2 I didnt have anything. Not even a missed period. I only knew he was there as Family Planning told me id have to test 14days after taking the morning after pill. Im convinced she was a witch docter and cursed me!!

day 28

temp 36.6

felt nothing all day, but tonight i feel my ovaries hurt...huh? whats all that about, this is how they feel when i ovulate! very strange

kcemum, louise your messages really meant a lot to me, i was feeling down, but have perked up a bit so thank you, you are quite right ofcourse, i should just wait till my results before i completly give up

well just one more day to go, will post tomorrow

day 29

temp 36.6

well today i had what looks like the beginning of af this afternoon....i dont feel nothing at all, its like i almost expected it so not a shock, dissapointed yes, but not cried and whaled like i thought i would

its stopped now, nothing there, but not kidding myself thats its implantation bleeding as it was watery but red not brown...

the very first time i did the iui exactly the same thing happened, the clinic still wanted me in for a pregnancy test the next day so went, only to find out that it was positive but had very very low hcg levels (the hormone level reading that tells you your pregnant)

so tomorrow i go in for a pregnancy test, i will either be told its negative or that its positive but with low hcg levels...either way i would class it as a failed cycle

but on the bright side, theres always a next go

so will post tomorrow to say for definite whats happened, post about 4ish, i will know the results at about 2.30ish, dh comes home at 3 and i have to pick him up, so when i get back will tell you my results

bye for now

sorry i should say that the last time hcg levels were really low i miscarried, it wasnt the cycle where i had ds, as the levels were very high when i had my second iui where i got pg with ds
hope that all makes sense

Bubbly, really dont know what to say to comfort you today as I know about the hormone levels and stuff. It happened to my friend just recently. But that doesnt mean that it will happen again. I had a bleed every couple of weeks with DS2 and I had an afwul pregnancy but a beautiful healthy son. Just think positive.
x x x

Bubbly Im here to say good luck and I will be here later. I have wine and hankies ready for tonight. Hope you need both. Good luck!!
x x x

OOps you wont be able to have the wine so I will let you now how good it is!

Good luck Bubbly! I really hope you get a good result from this.

Good luck Bubbly, I'll catch up with you later.

thank you everyone for your kind messages, however, what i already knew was confirmed by a telephone call earlier on today to say it was negative.

im not sad, just dissapointed, as i expected this, so i will wait till my next cycle till i do it again, i wont write another diary, but will update on this thread should i have any news, im on the wine and have bought a packet of fags which i intend to smoke (chain smoke outside actually) because once those fags are gone, i AM going to give up, to give it the best chance possible to conceive

i will eat healthy and stay off things like coke which i am addicted to (the drink..not the drugs!!)

at least then if the next 2 cycles fail i can look back and say that i give it my best shot

so once again, thank you for your support, especially louise and kcemum,

i am off in the garden to drink and get merry and look forward to life, enjoying the most precious thing in the world to me which is my ds,...im greatful that iui worked for me before as i wouldnt have a beautiful boy otherwise, i could be completely childless which i am not for which i am very greatful

im babbling now arent i

okay well take care everyone, thanks for reading my diary, and if theres anything in here that has helped anyone, then what i tried to achieve by doing this was worth it

thanks once again for all your support everyone

Oh Bubbly

You enjoy your drink and your fags!!

Nice to hear you being so realistic about things and not letting it get you really down.

Good luck for next time and I'll keep an eye on this thread for the happy announcement.

So sorry Bubbly, Relax and enjoy the wine, spend some quality time with dh and ds, Better luck for next time- will keep checking this thread. If you need to talk you can contact me on here. Jx

Iam so so sorry. Im also sorry I wasnt here for you when you posted.

I will keep my fingers crossed for the next time and hope it works for you.

Enjoy your wine and dont forget Im here if you need to talk or support while you quit!

Hugs
Louise
x x x

hiya all, just an update to finish off this diary

had 2nd iui treatment in June, this time we were only just lucky, nearly over stimulated again but they gave me the hcg injection to stop it...the treatment never worked, i personally dont think eggs were ready and they released them..

i was sure it may have worked when i had sore boobs a couple of days after insemination but af came 2 days early and sore boobs dissapeared,

third and final treatment done in sept, this time they gave me a different drug, called puregon, instead of menopur, had a lot of eggs but only 3 large ones so they were happy with that,
on insemination day i asked how many sperms dh had, he had 16million and on my 2nd iui cycle he had 36million

yet again i had sore boobs a couple of days after insemination, and they dissapeared 1 day before af was due...i cried so much the day i went in to have blood taken for a pregnancy test,

i cried even more at 2pm when they gave me my results, but a different cry, a cry of happiness as they told me the words i so longed to hear, that im pregnant

im 13weeks on thursday due june,

the only thing different on this cycle is that i was on puregon, i took pregnacare from 1st day of cycle, and gave up smoking completely on day of insemination...wont ever know which one of these factors helped us
i hope this diary will help anyone out there who has to go through what i did, i was ready to throw the towel in but decided to finish the 3rd treatment, im so glad i did, but you do need to draw the line somewhere, for us we decided if we didnt get pregnant after 3rd go, we would just hope a miracle would happen soon, i feel very blessed to be able to be pregnant again and thank god so much, i wish you ladies all the very best in ttc and truly hope you get that positive test you have all been waiting for soon

Haven't seen your diary before but was in Conception as I'm on clomid atm. Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS. I will go back and read your story with interest. Hope everything goes well.

how timely this is for me. I'm on day 7 of 1st attempt at IUI, trying to be positive but not really expecting it to work first time.

Thanks bubbly, I will bookmark this and read it sometime when I am less rushed.