Hi all. Thanks for all your kind wishes.
Hope your Christmas bd'ing worked for you Nicci. I did have alcohol, but peanuts and soft cheese still intact. Hope your ear infection clears up Moo and hope AF arrives for you soon Hayzee and the last Clomid try works.
Apologies for long post, but I'm having a real oh shit, oh shit, oh shit moment that will only make full sense to others who understand ttc. On Tuesday evening, I thought I felt ov pains, temp had dipped on Monday and then rose back to coverline Wednesday and (sorry for tmi) cm went from watery to creamy, so assumed had ov'd on Tuesday, which was CD14 so about right. Had arranged to stay at my ex's house on New Year's Eve and knew there was a chance something might happen, so did an OPK to double check ov already happened and was negative, so when it was obvious something would happen, I explained all this to him (we've been there a few times in the past year so he's beginning to understand ttc now - or rather how to avoid it for him) and told him it was not a green light but more of an amber one in terms of timing, so he'd probably want to use a condom. Couldn't take my temp yesterday morning as at his and things did happen and we didn't use a condom. Last night cm was back to watery and today temp is back down and have just done an OPK and is positive, but cm has disappeared. I did genuinely think ov had happened Tuesday, it's late in the cycle for me to have a positive OPK so I'm wondering whether I'm actually having a anovulatory cycle - I got a positive OPK late when that last happened - or it could be stress delaying it (they say that's common after bereavement). I know it's highly unlikely that one attempt 2 days before ov with a man who's likely to have a low sperm count (38-year-old smoker who also smokes dope) would result in BFP, but if it does I really don't want him to think I tricked him. Trouble is the whole how safe it was conversation happened when we were both a bit drunk the night before so he may not have remembered in the morning when things actually happened - although I did double-check he didn't want to wear a condom and reminded him it was 'amber'. I'd hate to lose his friendship, so should I be upfront with him and tell him now that I got it wrong or should I just wait until I know the outcome? He has previously told me that he 'understands accidents can happen, but if it does he doesn't want to know about it'. Obviously would tell him if I am, but just don't know whether to warn him of the possibility.
On the other hand I would be over the moon for myself if I got a BFP and didn't have to go through the IVF.
Being good friends with an ex is so complicated, especially when you're both still single. Would help of course if I didn't sleep with him!
Good luck everyone. Let's hope 2009 is our year xx.