emmsys room...only a few left...we WILL graduate the final few :-)

[QueenyEisGotTheBall]

hi ladies
here is a nice new thread with some nice brand spanking new bags of baby dust....
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i will bring our list over in a sec after i have linked
COME ON GIRLS WE WILL GET TO THAT ANTENATAL THREAD BEFORE EMMSY POPS!!!!!!!
xx ei xx

And my boobs are no longer sore

Hey Sparkly. I think that brown blood is ok. That's old blood. I think you only have to be concerned if it's bright red. Sypmtoms come and go so not having sore boobs might not neccessarily mean anything. Can you put your feet up for the rest of the evening? And is there an EPU near you that you can get to tomorrow. When I had my 2nd m/c the cramps were very intense, to the point where pain killers weren't even taking the edge off. More like labour pains and the blood was bright red and gushing. It could just be your ligaments stretching? or would you have been due your period round about now? What ever it is, we're here. Hope to god that everything is ok tomorrow. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yarnie Fab fab fab news about the scan. And you're out of the danger zone. How you feeling? Are you walking around thinking, OMG I'm having a baby?!

Sparkly Please ring the EPU, you won't relax until you see beanie waving at you, I'm sure everything will be fine hun, but please promise me you will call just to put your mind at rest. Huge hugs coming your way x

I'll ring EPU tomorrow.
Mollie Can you come on msn? xxx

I'm on hun x

Sparkly Hope you can get to an EPU sharpish. I'm sure everything is tickety boo. Rest easy and we'll be here for you.

Sparkly I'm thinking of you hun, text me in the morning when you've been to EPU xxxx

Well I did it, I managed to tell the parents [phew] They were very disappointed. What I don't understand is they said they need to find someone else ASAP. Strange when Mum's at home on maternity leave Probably a guilt trip. So 6 weeks to go!

Yarnie Gorgeous scan picture! and a very dashing couple underneath You will make one beautiful baby I'm so excited our due dates are so close! Are you coming to the meet-up? I've forgotten again when it is. I'll be there though!

Will you all be watching that breast-feeding doc at 10 on C4?

hi girls
sparkly so sorry to hear of your friends cat it isnt silly at all to feel drained. you are offering alot of your emotional strength to him which is very draining
sorry to hear of your spotting also take care of yourself and get down t6o the epu as soon as you can to get checked out. text me to let me know how you get on {{{{{{hugs}}}}}}
yarnie lovely news on your scan it makes it more real somehow i think i agree with fruity that you and your dp will make beautiful babies
fruity how do you feel now that you have been able to tell your mindees parents that they have their notice? is it a releif? i feel as if i havent spoken to you for ages
i put my temps in for the past few days and FF has given me solid strong lines so that makes me 3dpo and we have timed it quite well aswell well see what comes of this then if anythin of course
hi to everyone else
xx ei xx

Sparkly Sorry wasn't around yesterday but hope you have got to EPAU today and haven't had any more bleeding. Remember period type pains are quite normal at this time but I totally understand why you are worried. I am off work today and will be at home if you need a chat. Take care

Morning ladies

Sparkly I hope you're ok?

Ei oooh 3dpo!!! Sounds good to me

I got a text from the mindee's dad last night saying could I email mindee's last day "IT would be good to know tonight if possible, as need to move quickly obviously" Eh? Your wife is AT HOME ALL DAY ON MATERNITY LEAVE FFS!!!!!

Anyway, I feel much better now, the mum was fine when I picked up this morning, didn't even mention it

Everyone good today?

Morning all,
Didn't have anymore brown last night but have had quite a lot more this morning when I wiped...am trying to get through to GP now. Hoping I won't have to wait all day for a scan.

Sparkly Wishing you all the luck in the world, thinking positive thoughts for you hun x
Fruity So glad it went well and you didn't need me to do it for you See it's always worse than you think it's going to be
Teehee How are you doing?
EI Glad to hear you're finally on the 2WW, let's start symptom spotting

I have now caught up properly. So morning everyone.

Yarnie Yey re your scan. I feeling of calm descends for a while once you've seen that heartbeat. lol at you bladder control, know what you mean. Last 2 times I have been I have been so desperate it has hurts when they put the scanner on and they calmly say "Oh you've got a very full bladder" - mmm you don't say!

Fruity Amazed that your mindees mum is off work and they are so desperate to find someone else. Well done you - these things always seems worse than they are.

Ei Fingers crossed, sounding good though and I bet if you have an appointment you'll fall - that's just typical

Scully Your christining food sounds fab - I miss sushi

Hope everyone else is OK - Went for dinner with my BF last night for a good chinwag and have my Dad coming for lunch. I love working 4 days a week.

Sparkly Hope you get through to GP quickly and get referred for a scan. Keeping everything crossed for you. Let us know how you get on.
Fruity Pleased the encounter with the parents went well. It all sounds a bit strange tbh - perhaps mindee's Mum has got used to having just the baby at home and doesn't want to have to cope with 2 of them? Who knows!
Ei Fingers crossed that you got the egg this month
Hope everybody else is OK.

Seeing GP at 1020. I phoned the EPU and they said I need a referal but am unlikely to be seen until Friday. We may try to book in for a private scan if they will see us quickly but we'll see what happens.

Sparkly I think the private scan is a good idea, having to wait til Friday will drive you insane
Georgie How are you feeling today, still poorly?
Kate Where are you, you OK?

Sparkly Just wanted to say am thinking of you and hope that everything goes ok today and that you can get a scan. If not NHS then private. Can totally understand what you're going through. (((((((Hugs))))))) to you.

Fruity Well done for telling mindees parents. FFS it's not the end of the world looking after 2. But then again, don't know what their situation is. Anyhoo, you've done everything by the book so no need to feel guilty at all. Would love to meet at Wacky Warehouse. But can only do Wed morn, so how about 24th Sept?

Mollie Feeling better today thanks. But also a bit as was starting to think that my 'symptoms' (queasy, gone off coffee) might have been pg symptoms. Sigh. Think it was just the cold making me feel really ill. You coping ok with being back at work?

Ei Have got fingers crossed for you. Have totally messed up my charting this month so have given up. Have just booked to go and see my accupuncturist in a couple of weeks to see whether he can wave his magic wand over me (so to speak ). How's work going? Still enjoying it?

Emmsy Kate Where are you?

Scully Send me over some sushi . Hmmmmm, mouth watering at thought of it. Might order some tonight as DH out.

Opps, better go, DD2 needs the potty!

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Hi all,
Back from doc. He won't refer me as it's only a threatened m/c at the moment. I have to stay in bed for 3 days after my last bleed and just keep my fingers crossed. My next door neighbour who is a GP is furious with him and thinks I should be referred. I asked her about going for a private scan but she seems to think I need to get in on the NHS so they can monitor my HcG levels. She suggested I phone the midwifery unit this pm but it's unlikely I'll be seen before Friday. Doc said I should see him again tomorrow if I want to. Not really sure what to do at the moment.

Sparkly at your GP. Are you still bleeding now? Can you not self-refer to the EPU? That's what they are there for after all!Personally I would go for the private scan for peace of mind - you can always have the NHS stuff as well. You need Kate - she knows more about the hcg stuff than I do but I didn't think it was as crucial at this stage in a pg as early on. I may be wrong though There are some wise ladies on the Knickercheckers thread here who will be more than willing to help if you post. (((Hugs))) to you at this difficult time

Sparkly What a tosser your GP is. Same as cricri, thought you could just self refer to EPU, that's what St George's in Tooting does (and beleive me I've spent far too long there). Are you able to rest up? Can anyone help with DD? Sorry, I feel so helpless. Would jump in car and drive to Wales if I could. Just keep talking to us. And try and get in for private scan as well. I know that the anxiety is horrible. I feel for you so much. ((((((Hugs)))))).

Hello lovely ladies! I've missed you all!

Sparkly Am SO at you GP and his crapness. What an absolute load of codswallop (hope use of "codswallop" in a sentence gave you the vaguest hint of a smile)
Ok. Here goes. Listen to Dr Kate

1. Staying in bed will make no difference whatsoever. It will not make any difference to your Bean, but by all means do it if you want to. I stayed in bed for a day after bleeding last time because although I knew it was 99.9% a waste of time I needed to feel I had given my LO every possible chance to stick. It may make you think that the bleeding has stopped because when you are laying down it "pools" at the top of your vagina, hence when you got up this morning there seemed to be a lot there when you wiped. It's unlikely to have been a sudden bleed imo, especially if it was brown blood, just came from the fact that you'd been laying down for a while then got up. So if you do decide to stay in bed don't be scared if there suddenly seems to be more bleeding when you get up.
2. My most important advice, DO NOT HAVE HCG TESTS DONE UNLESS YOU SEE A CONSULTANT WHO GIVES YOU A GOOD REASON WHY YOU SHOULD. They are NOT reliable at your stage of pg. If you have them done and the levels rise, great. But if they don't that doesn't necessarily mean ANYTHING and will cause you VASTLY increased amounts of worry.
3. Book a private scan. For as soon as possible. That's the only way to tell how beanie is doing. {{{Hugs}}} to you, I so wish I could come and hold your hand. Am more than happy to give you my mobile number (any of you come to that) via facebook if you want a chat.

Thing is GPs are exactly that, general practitioners. They are not specialists in early pregnancy, and sometimes that is what we all expect them to be. Does that make sense?

Will post more in a sec, just want to you get this asap if you're still online. Sending lots of love xx

Well ladies. I'm afraid the reason I haven't been posting is because I have been having a truly horrible time .

The wedding was rubbish, not that it really matters. But the weather was awful, which wouldn't have mattered if the bride and groom had relaxed and got on with it. But they were the most uptight, highly srtung, snappy 'happy couple' you could never ever wish to meet. I could go on, but there's not much point. It was ok I guess, and Georgie I did indeed get monumentally pissed and throw a good few shapes on the dance floor!

The fun really started after we got back Sunday night...
I have a really bad habit at the moment of not opening my post . So I thought I'd be a good girl and open fri and sat's on sunday night ... There was a letter from my GP about my smear. It was basically a standard letter but said that any follow up appts would be handled by the colposcopy dept at the hospital, and I just couldn't believe they send that if everything is fine. So you know that horrible feeling, like a cold hand has snuck in and grabbed your stomach? Well that was me. Cancer has always been just about my biggest fear. I know an unusually large number of women who have died from it, all at a young age, so cue near-panic and an almost totally sleepless night. DH was wonderful though.
On Monday I phoned the GP. When I EVENTUALLY got to speak to a nurse about 3 hours later, she said that the smear showed some border-line changes and that I would be referred to the hospital to have it re-done. So I called to hosp to try to make an appt. And was told I coudn't as they didn't have my paperwork. So you can imagine how that felt, being told there was a problem and not being able to do anything about it. Luckily the receptionist at my GPs surgery (Who I will never call a F-ing Nazi again) phoned the hospital and bollocked them for me. The hospital called me back and let me book an appt for this morning at 9am...
So I went down there, which was truly horrible. It's the hospital where I had my first mc and where we went for our early scans with Thomas.
I saw a consultant and 'assumed the position'... He said the test had shown early changes in the inside of my cervix, which makes it harder to treat etc (surprise bloody surprise...) He repeated the test and agreed to do a biopsy at the same time. Normally they'd repeat the test, wait 6-8 weeks for the results, then perform the biopsies if necessary and then wait ANOTHER 6-8 weeks for the results. No thank you. So they did both today.

I just can't believe this is happening to me. Haven't we had enought to cope with? It feels like some sort of sick joke.

I was absolutely in bits when I left the hospital so I phoned my GP to see if I could get an appt, just to talk it through really. I saw a very nice GP who was ok I guess. She was very reassuring about the implications of the whole smear thing which was good. I said to her that I didn't know what I expected her to be able to do and she said there was nothing she could do. I said I already knew that. Then I cried. All pretty crap.

Oh, and I got ANOTHER parking ticket on monday...

Fucking hope life gets better than this! Does anyone have a spare life they'd be interested in swapping with me? ()

So sorry for the me-me-me rant AGAIN . Please don't think I'm not interested in what any of you are up to, cos I really am.
I'm very of your weekend Georgie, sounds like heaven!
Emmsy I hope you're resting pretty lady
Yarnie I love your scan pic! Can't believe something so tiny can be so cute!
Ei chin up gorgeous. It WILL happen for you. It's happened before with your beautiful DD, it will happen again. Healthy and well lovely lady. Am keeping everything crossed that this is your month
Teehee and Cricri do you both live in Suffolk? Are you coming for the meet-up on 20th? COME COME COME
Piper so sorry TEW got you. Cowbag. Her, not you.
Scully Gold coast. . Where are you from originally? There or here? There I think?
Mollie hello beautiful Glad work are being supportive, but I can imagine how hard it makes it. It's all just rubbish isn't it?

And just in case this monster post wasn't long enough, 2 more things:
I have my fist accupuncture session on Friday and Hypnotherapy next tuesday. Thank god.
DH and I were most definitely NOT careful this weekend. In fact, you could say I got napalmed . God only knows what it will mean if I fall pg this month. I'm guessing maybe I can't as they actually opened my cervix today and scraped around the INSIDE of it. Just imagine how pleasant that was... But what if I am...? Oh good. Something else to worry about

Hope you're still awake. Finished now

Oh Kate, sounds like you've been having a shit time too. Lots of hugs to you.

Thank you all for your posts. Have tried to rest this pm and caught up on some sleep from last night. Spotting is still the same after I've been to the toilet.

DP is trying to book a private scan but their lines are ALWAYS BUSY!!! It's so annoying. I can only find one clinic in Cardiff which prob means I won't get scanned today.

I phoned a different hospital directly and they said they needed a GP referral but would only get pain killers for now and might not be scanned until Monday. I'm amazed at how routine they treat all this..there doesn't seem to be anything empathy at all.

Sparkly that always gets me too. The lack of empathy I mean. . And it can make such a difference. Glad your DP is being supportive though. Give me the number, I'll keep trying them for you too! 023 92 ... I miss Cardiff We're all here for you lovely. xx