emmsys room...only a few left...we WILL graduate the final few :-)

[QueenyEisGotTheBall]

hi ladies
here is a nice new thread with some nice brand spanking new bags of baby dust....
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i will bring our list over in a sec after i have linked
COME ON GIRLS WE WILL GET TO THAT ANTENATAL THREAD BEFORE EMMSY POPS!!!!!!!
xx ei xx

Hi Lovely Ladies. Can I just be a bit selfish for a moment and say AAAAARRRGGGGGHHHH the frickin' Evil Witch got me this morning. Am so bloody upset. Feeling incredibly down . Am allowing myself one day in which to wallow in my pool of self pity. DH trying to be all upbeat about it and philosophical and all I can think about is that we've 'wasted' another bloody month and why the hell didn't we just got for it after the last mc when I was super fertile. I feel old and knackered at 38 and can hear my sodding biological clock ticking so damn loudly that it's almost deafening. So back to the top of the board for me.

I bought my BBT thermometer today and my OPK's so will start temping tomorrow. Can someone give me the website for fertility friend and I'll go sign up there. I think I'm just going to have to tell DH that this month it's going to be a military strike with Pre Seed, no booze and as much grapefruity juice as I can chug. No romance, just get in and bloody naplam me man!!!!

Sorry guys for being so grumpy. I know that in the whole scheme of things I'm really lucky as have 2 lovely DD's. But everyone on here knows how bloody heartbreaking it is to start/extend your family when it's the one thing that you truely truely want and it keep eluding you. Sigh.

If anyone finds my sense of humour, could they post it back to me please

here you go Georgie This should lead you to the main page of fertility Friend It's so terribly frustrating Won't be long though, did you manage ok with your girls?

Hi ladies. I've just come back from a lovely week in Spain. Very sad to come back to such bad news. Huge, huge, huge hugs to you Mollie. A truly awful thing to happen . I hope this terrible event kick starts some really pro-active care for you.

I'd better go and read through what you've all been up to .

I have my booking in tomorrow. I'll be glad to be in the system. Roll on my 12 week scan.

Evening all! It's been very quiet in here today.
HTGG So sorry to hear AF got you Hope you feel a bit better tonight. I'm sure the temping, OPKs and everything else will mean that this month is your month. Fingers crossed for you.
Mollie Hope you get signed off for a bit longer. I shouldn't think it will be a problem under the circumstances. Hope you put your feet up today - the DIY can wait.
The christening went very well yesterday and all the children were very well behaved. Even my godson (7 months) didn't scream when the priest poured the water over his head We also got some sunshine in the afternoon so thanks for sending it over everybody!
Hope everybody had a good BH Monday. Nothing exciting here - DH had to go in to work and I've got a lot on at the moment too so I worked a normal day more or less.

Welcome back Yarnie We wondered where you were - we'd all forgotten you'd gone away like Teehee. Hope you had a wonderful relaxing time.
Hope all goes well tomorrow

hi girls
georgie sorry TEW got you grab some choccie and watch a good romcom and wallow tonight FF is good and rather cheap to join do you do your temp? it could help you get a better idea of your cycle (FWIW my first cycle temping i got a BFP it ended badly but i think the temping has alot to do with my positive so it does work) good luck with this cycle
hope by the virtual silence that everyone has enjoyed their BH monday
xx ei xx

Hi ladies,
Just a very quick one from me. We've just got in from my sister's house where we spent the day so need to put DD to bed.
Yarnie Helllooo!! Lovely to have you back.
HTGG I'm so sorry she got you but I'm really looking forward to having another chart to nose at. Sending you lots of babydust for this cycle.

Goodnight all. Hope you all enjoyed your BH.

Evening lovely ladies, sorry to have been awol for a few days. Thank you for your lovely birthday wishes, sorry for not replying sooner, and sorry in advance that this looks set to be yet another 'me me me' -post rant from me...

Have had a really up & down few days.. Birthday and friday were crap days at work, even managed to get a parking ticket on thursday to really seal it. But we went out with some friends in the evening which was good. A good friend of mine (the one who so generously took me for tea at the ritz recently, think I told you?) had her baby on my birthday. Obviuously I am thrilled for her, but I was feeling very up & down anyway, and somehow that just about pushed me over the edge, together with the crap day I was having anyway. I thought I would be heavily pg by now, due in about 4 weeks. but instead AF showed up today....
DH took me away for 2 nights as my birthday present, got back this afternoon, and yet all day I've been feeling crap (physically) and SO ANGRY with almost everyone for no reason. When we were out yesterday I saw one of those dreadful T Shirts, "does my bump look big in this" I know I'd never wear one anyway, but still....
God I can moan can't I??!?! We went to a lovely hotel, gorgeous food etc, and yet all I can think about is waiting for my test results, whether today marks the start of the first cycle we'll be allowed to ttc, what the naturopathic review will say this week, how much money we've spent recently (clue: much too much) and a million other unhelpful things.... On one hand I'm so worried they'll say we need to wait another 6 months before trying or something even more hideous, but on the other, if they say we can go ahead, that's the start of a whole other emotional disaster...
Going to go to bed in a minute, am not making myself feel any better ranting like this, and I suspect I am not making any sense either . Just feel like I am not coping - loads of work I should have done but I have NO motivation, house is like an absolute bomb site and FULL of dust as we have the decorators here. Know I should feel better as we've just had a little escape, but somehow I don't.

Will try much harder to post something more useful and less self-centred tomorrow ladies ... night night xx

HTGG CD2 Cycle 3 TTC#3 (MMC Nov07/MC Mar08)
Kate2179 CD2 ttc#1 (mmc Nov 07 & mc April 08)
QueenyEi 35.85° CD11 cycle 10 ?DPO TTC#2 (CP april 08 & june 08)
scully CD15 Cycle 4 TTC#3 (m/c Apr08 & Aug07)
Piper 36.29° CD25 TTC#1
Molliemooma

Emmsy1 31 weeks pg, EDD 23 Oct
cricri 30 weeks pg, EDD 1 November
Mibbes 25 weeks pg, EDD 6 December
Fruity 10 weeks pg, EDD 22nd March
Yarnie 9 weeks pg, EDD 26th March
Teeheelaydee 7 weeks pg, EDD 12th April
Sparkly 7 weeks pg, EDD April 10th-13th

Hiya ladies, no major news here, managed to bd with dh last night before dd2 came to visit And I've booked him in for Wed and Fri as well
Sorry to hear your both feeling so down Kate and HTGG, if I've updated the stats correctly, then you are cycle buddies this month, hope it brings good news for all of us
Mollie, I wasn't sure where you want to be on the list right now, so have just added your name to the bottom & maybe you can add to it when you're ready?
Gorgeous sunny day here today, I dropped the car for a service after taking dd1 to school, so dd2 and I had a 45min walk home. I need to go and pick it up sometime in the next 3hrs, not sure if I'll walk or catch a bus back to the garage. Walk would do me good, but dd2 does love a bus ride

Morning everyone. Thanks for the support. And so sorry to rant. I gave myself a stern talking to last night and decided that I work best when I have a plan. So at 2am this morning I came up with my battle strategy . We'll see whether it works or not.

Fruity Thanks for the link, I'll go on later and sign up. Took my temp this morning. We'll see what FF throws back at me.

Kate I completely understand what you're going through. I'm feeling incredibly pissed off at the world. It's a horrible feeling. Only way that I can deal with it is to vent, wallow (for a limited time!) and then work out what I need to do to make myself feel better. For me at the moment, it' small things like eating well, exercising (power walking or cycling with REALLY loud music and Tae-Bo that helps release the anger!) and also a damn good cry!). We will be lucky honey. Sometimes, perfection takes a little longer. Hugs to you. It's been a tough year.

Mollie How's it going love? Have you managed to get signed off from work for a little longer? You're in a fragile state at the moment, mentally and physically and a little TLC will go a long way. I wish i had a magic wand that I could wave to make it all go away. Hugs to you too.

Scully Ahh, you've stolen the sunshine. Give it back please! My Ma and Pa are over in Oz in Sept for 6 weeks. Kimberly Mountains, Perth, and Sydney I think. They love it and would happily move over if it wasn't for the grand-daughters. Obviously I play not part in it all!

Yarnie Welcome back! We missed you. Glad everything still going well for you.

Sparkly How's the MS? Still going strong or tailing off a bit?

Emmsy Not long for you now! Am geting rather excited for out first baby's arrival! Can I have first cuddle please?!

CriCri Mibbes How's things with you girls? Hope your bumps are baking away nicely.

Ei I can't read charts for toffee, so not sure if yours is good or bad, but any symptoms?

Piper Do you get to test soon?

Right, better go shower and start my day as I mean to go on. Positive mental attitude and all that. If all else fails, there's always chocolate . xxxxx

Scully very of lovely sunny day! Very cloudy here yesterday and rain came around tea time, looks as though today will be the same! Did you manage the walk,or go with what your DD wanted 'a lovely bus ride'?
Kate I thought that I was over my early m/c's but when the due dates arrived I felt really awful, cant imagine how bad you are feeling, especially as you were so far gone when you lost Thomas.{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} I think that 'other' things are possibly getting on top of you, more so now, because you are still very much in the grieving stage. It's hard to find the 'right' words to make you feel a little better, but carry on ranting/moaning/shouting/screaming on here, what ever it takes to help you through this, we are all here for you and will stand by your side, lots of love to you xxxxxxxxx

Yarnie really glad to hear from you lady, we were all getting worried about you. Sorry you have come home to Mollie's bad news, but were really pleased to have you back xx

HTGG Sorry the 'EW' got you and Kate {{{hugs}}} Glad you are now going to 'temp' and use 'OPK's' its the best and only way forward. Hey, whats this about being old missus!! I am at the very young age of 43 !! xxxx

HTGG all of my children were born at the later stage of life! had my first 2 months before I was 35!! So try not to worry too much about your biological clock xxx

Georgie So sorry TEW got you I've put a big fat cushion over your biological clock so that you can't hear it, hope that helps! Good luck with the temping, hopefully it will bring you some fast results
EI Thanks for your message here and on MC Avengers
Yarnie Lovely to see you back, how many weeks are you now?
CriCri Glad to hear the christening went well and the sunshine got to you in time
Kate I really hope you feel a little better today hun, but pleased you ranted with us, hope it helped? It's understandable to be feeling like you are, so don't beat yourself up about it. You've been through a very traumatic time, and I know this is no consolation but it's going to get worse until you pass the EDD I would have thought So expect to feel like crap, and expect to be angry and expect to cry and then we will be here to pick you back up again and dust you off until the next time, or for the next cycle or for when you have fainted in shock after your BFP!
Scully Thanks for putting me on the list, and LOL at "booking" your DH! Go for it girl
Emmsy Please take it easy, really think you need to share the load with this driving

Saw my GP this morning who was horribly sympathetic and made me cry! Been signed off for 10 days, but took my cert into the office so I could say hi to a few people to break the ice. They made an announcement at a morning meeting that I would be off for a while and why, so they sent me a huge bouquet of flowers, which was a lovely gesture My GP talked to me about the consultants appt, and I have reassured her that I know they might not find a reason and that we may just be having a terrible run of awful bad luck, bless her she was so upset for me.
So onwards and upwards from now on

HTGG - Damn witch. Very sorry she got you . It definitely calls for a round of indulgent eating and drinking.

Kate - It sounds like ranting will probably do you good, get it all off your chest. Like Kate, you should allow yourself a wallow and schedule some self-indulgence. I hope everything comes together for you very quickly.

Scully - Glad to hear you're managing to get the BD in .

Fruity - I bought those Bhoumi jeans! I have no need for them at the moment, but at £30, it seems like a good investment. I hope they fit well.

Mollie - I'm really glad to hear that your GP was so sympathetic. That's exactly the sort of support you need. Still sending you big hugs... I'm 10 weeks tomorrow, thanks for asking.

I had my booking in today with a delightful midwife. I hope they're all as nice as her. I also booked in for the dating scan - two weeks today. I have been looking forward to it for so long and now I'm just nervous and worried(!) Thankfully, DF will be there which is very jammy as he's travelling for most of September, bar a few days here and there.

Hello to everyone else

Ahhhhh Yarnie there you are We were all worried about you. Forgot you were going on holiday
I ordered my pair of Bhoumi Jeans yesterday. I'm already huge (no thanks to biscuits, sweets, and non-stop carbs) so those jeans will be very handy. I like them because they have no panels which are a bit obvious when trying to hide the bump. All my maternity jeans from DS have got huge panels, my belly's not quite big enough to fill them yet. Too big for my regular jeans though so at a bit of a loss as to what to wear at the moment.
We're so close with our dates. I was 10 weeks on Saturday apparently - thought I went up a week on Mondays but I got it wrong so I've gained 2 days

Mollie You must be so relieved to have such a kind and understanding GP. What a lovely thing for your work to do

You know you're all welcome on the BFP thread - if you can face baby talk Be nice to have you all in there now and again

HTGG so sorry she got you hun xx Impressed with your PMA ! And temping will defo help you understand what is going on and give you a new focus - I found it really helpful, hope you do too

Yarnie welcome back - hurray for 12 week scan appt

Kate so sorry things are getting on top of you, how are you feeling today and when is appt ? {{big hugs}} xx

Mollie bless your GP that is so sweet - it is good to hear the positive NHS stories too as there are so many stories of unsympathetic health professionals.

Sparkly it is normal for symptoms to come and go - loads of ladies on my AN thread had that happen.

Fruity how is the knee ?

Sorry for my absence ladies - have been away on a short break with DP to the Lake District which was lovely, our last break as a twosome ! Our hotel did PG treatments so I indulged in a facial and massage - utter bliss. There were so many PG ladies around - ir seemed that everyone had either a pram or a bump and I was saddened by the thought that anyone who was desperately ttc would have felt like their nose was being rubbed in it - I guess lots of women who are too big/far on to fly take a final break in the Lakes. weather was mixed but we managed to go walking and swimming which was very relaxing . Am off up North to see parents and my friend who recently had baby so will be absent again for a few days - this is my final week of annual leave before mat leave in Nov

'talk' when I get back ladies

Kate [hugs] to you. I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. I can't imagine how hard this is for you - I'm sending you so much strength and keeping everything tightly crossed for the test results you want. I get really worked up when I have loads to do and the house is in a mess (I really can't think in a mess!!) but I'm sure you'll start to feel better once the tasks are tackled. Please continue to talk to us. xxxx
Scully Lots and lots of babydust to you!! have you had a + OPK yet? GOOD LUCK!!
HTGG Lovely to see your PMA . I really hope your plan falls into place. No MS here...have been feeling a weeny bit sick occasionally but am tired more than anything.
Mollie I'm so glad you've had a positive experience with your GP and how lovely of your work to send you flowers. Lots of strength to you. Hope you manage to get lots of rest in the next week. xxxx
Yarnie Glad booking in appointment went well. Bet you can't wait for your scan.
Fruity My friend gave me some lovely maternity jeans with adjustable waist which don't look like maternity jeans at all. I need to sort through all my things from my pregnancy with DD.

x-posts Mibbes. Your treatments sounds lovely. Enjoy your time up north!!

Mollie So pleased your GP was sympathetic and what a lovely gesture from work.
Kate So sorry to hear you're feeling so at the moment and that things are getting on top of you. It's only natural and as Mollie said, the closer the EDD the worse it gets (((hugs))) to you and keep posting on here.
Scully Fingers crossed all the BDing works for you this month although at the visit from DD!
Mibbes Your break in the Lake District sounded lovely It seems weird doesn't it to think that it's your last trip away as a twosome. DH and I had that recently too.
Fruity Have you thought about a bump belt to wear over your normal trousers for a few more weeks? I bought one of these and it helped tide me over until I fitted into maternity wear. Although I did buy some JJMMBB trousers with a stretchy panel early on and I more or less lived in those because they were so comfortable.
Yarnie So pleased your mw appt went well. It makes such a difference when they're nice. Not long to go now until your scan. How are you feeling since you came back from holiday?
Hope everybody else is OK

Evening!

Thank you all so much for listening while I ranted yesterday. Ranting didn't exactly make me feel better, but it did give me the impotus to Make A List about what I wanted to achieve today (list making is one of the things I am best at !) Needless to say I have nowhere near completed it, but I have been busy all day and as long as I know I couldn't have done more I am generally fairly satisfied, it's the days when I look back and all I seem to have done is moped around the place that I can't stand. Haven't managed to walk the dog though ...

My post yesterday must have seemed even more selfish than I realised at the time - I must have written it without going on to the final page of the thread, so Georgie I hadn't seen your post . I'm so sorry TEW got you... But now we are cycle buddies! How's the temping going? Am an addict! Once we start actively ttc I will be back on FF, so I'll see you there, unless you've already graduated It's amazing how much better having a plan can make you feel, I totally agree. If you're interested I would really recommend the naturopathic centre i've been going to in Winchester... Not cheap, but if you're worried about your biological clock they might be worth a visit. They have made a HUGE difference to me, I have never had 28 day cycles in my life - the cycle Thomas was conceived I didn't even OV til day 25 - but since I have been going there I have had a 28 day-er followed by a 27 day one! ! Not suggesting you want to make your cycles shorter, just illustrating what they can do

Well. I had my follow up appt today, and they're really pleased with me And..... I have been given the all clear to ttc as soon as I get the test results from the stufff my consultant has arranged! Woooo Hoooo!! Am horribly nervous, but at the risk of sounding like a total fruitloop (no offence fruity!) I have decided to go for some hypnotherapy...!! I really think it could help me get through this, and frankly I need all the help I can get! Will keep you posted...

Sorry for yet another me-me-me post, I really do appreciate all your support, I think it's about time I was the one handing some out though, rather than just accepting it all the time!

{{{hugs}}} to all

hi ladies
kate so sorry you have felt so down the past few days be kind to yourself and feel entirely free to come on here and vent {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}
mibbes your pamper trip sounds lovely
sparkly glad your symptoms are kicking in now do you feel a bit more reassured?
yarnie wow 10 weeks already and fruity how quickly has that gone!!
fruity thanks for the invite over to the antenatal one but i hope you don't mind if i politely say no for now?? im struggling a little bit with my non preggo state at the mo and i need a little bit of denial in my head (ie noone is preg cos im not) i know how ridiculous that sounds especially written down but i am feeling quite sad thinking about me not being up the duff and having 2 separate failed EDDs to add to my first one and having the thought in my head about how i could have had a full preg and given birth and been BFing my newborn for a few weeks by now in the time it has taken me to fail to conceive a sticky bean does that make sense? i know i sound like a stark raving loon
hope everyone else is doing well
xx ei xx

whoops x-posted kate and cricri kate great news about your results iv heard good things about hypnotherapy for TTc purposes in fact a lady from the 2ww thread has just had her BFP after an EP and CP not using anything, she started the hypnotherapy CD and got her BFP first cycle you may know her from around her name is scaryhairy
hope everyone is doin well
xx ei xx

Ei I have seen Scaryhairy around, didn't know her situation though, that's fantastic for her!

You don't sound like a loon at all, it hits all of us at some time or another, I know exactly what you mean. Mostly I just rely on a large dose of denial to get me though, but the times that doesn't work are really hard. {{{hugs}}} to you xx

Morning girls

Ei I don't blame you at all for feeling like that. I reckon the next person in RL who told me they were pregnant would have got a black eye , well they would have done mentally anyway. I just didn't want any of you to think the bfp thread was exclusively for bfps. I just hope so much that it happens for you really soon, I hate it that you lot are still waiting after all this time. I kind of feel like I should still be on the waiting list seeing as I'm riddled with pcos. Almost like a fraud iyswim? It just doesn't seem fair that you're not all on the grad list with me

Cricri I ha one of those bump belt thingies with DS. I didn't last long with it though (once I strted to get bigger) because my thighs grew so much I couldn't get into my regular jeans at all! I've put a hair band through the loop and around the button this morning Seems to be doing the trick so far, I just hope my zip stays up!

Kate I find it really hard to know what to say as I've never been in your situation before. I'm trying to imagine and I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you.

Mollie I hope you're ok? I'm thinking of you too. Hoping you're managing to get through each day as easily as possible.

Sparkly What was the make of those jeans? Do you remember? How are you feeling?

Mibbes My knee is much better thank you. I can bend it ok now, I'm never wearing flip flops in the rain again though

Emmsy I reckon that's the best time to have children! I hoe you're well and putting your feet up as much as possible. Are the children helping you out at all? Do they know you need a break now and gain?

Right just off to pick up mindee. See you all later x

Fruity, I wore Dorothy Perkins maternity jeans and cords for both pregnancies, they had a button and zip and the adjustable band like children's clothing. Perfect for hiding bumps as they look like normal jeans and I wore them until I was about 7mths pregnant and had grown out of them
Shame Ei, know what you mean, I should have a 6mth old or be 30wks pregnant, and the fact that I'm neither is very annoying. I'm ok until I hear another person is pregnant and then I get the sh*ts for a while, to put it bluntly
Good you've finally got some good news Kate Hopefully you'll be ttc very soon and the rest of us can graduate together
Speaking of, 9.26pm here, dh is watching tv but his presence is about to be requested, once I've finished my glass of wine, of course
Hi to everyone else