Hello All!
Been a follower of the TTC community for about 4 years now. TTC my second currently.
I just feel I need to post and word vomit a bit as I doubt my other half will want me to keep going over the same conversation over and over again, and I know everyone here is on their own emotional rollercoaster!
Now I’m a regular 28/29 day cycle kinda girl. To the point where you can plan a holiday around my cycle! I am now on day 33 which is unheard of for me. One thing I noted was that normally I have really achey boobs at some point in the TTW, this month none. I did think that was a nice change!
It’s Tuesday today (Day 33) and on Friday(Day 29)/Saturday(Day 30) and Sunday(Day 31) I had awful period pains. They made me feel ill, a bit sick and exhausted. I don’t normally get period pains that painful and for that long. This prompted me to take a test on Sunday. It came up negative ☹️. Queue the feeling miserable and upset. I ended up having a day time nap which is also unlike me.
I also went down the rabbit hole of googling late implantation pain etc. hoping and praying that the pain was indeed that!
Now nothing. I’m too scared to test again. I honestly don’t feel like I can test again and see another negative. It really upset me Sunday and just can’t do it to myself again. I think I’m just going to wait. I honestly feel like my body is just being cruel to me and I’m going to just start my period late. And probably just in time for my holiday this weekend just to be extra cruel!
Hope it’s ok I ranted. Anyone else in this group 4 years and TTC? Sending baby dust to you all as I know how much we all want that little baby.
P.s we are looking at private IVF for the new year and fingers crossed we meet the criteria. We’ve tried all the hacks to get pregnant. Name it we’ve tried. Tests a couple of years ago suggest other half’s lazy sperm. I had a c section 5 years ago which probably doesn’t go in my favour.