The Hopeful Hearts Circle 1 - December 2025🎄💖

[Iris2024]

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Welcome to a wishful December 🎄🤍💞

AF came full blown today 😢 almost out the blue. Trying not to be too disheartened as I didn't do any OPK's this month and was semi hoping the stronger Pregnacare would delay my ovulation by a day or too but I have a feeling it didn't and DH was away. Cracking open the wine tonight and now just big fingers crossed he's back in time to try again next month. I'm getting on a bit and although my fertility tests have me ok for my age I am conscious I am getting older.

Oh @EsssaI know that feeling too well. I think calling on Monday to see if you can get any further clarity would be a good idea. I’ll remain hopeful for you.

@ThisHangryTigersorry AF is here. Enjoy the wine!!

@SausageRoll90fingers crossed for you this cycle too

Well that was a short wait. AF arrived with cramps and full migraine at 10dpo 😔 I knew chances were slim this cycle but I still feel gutted.
Maybe march will being more luck 🙏🏻

I’m still going to keep up to date with this thread and with you all if that’s ok 🩷

@essa how confusing for you and a head fck! I really don’t understand how the test went so dark and faded again. I’m so sorry 😞

@ThisHangryTiger I’m so sorry AF has arrived. Enjoy your wine and sending you so much baby dust for next cycle!

I’m now 6 days post trigger shot so 5/6 DPO

The progesterone is giving me quite strong symptoms this month, but the trigger already seems to be out of my system as my pregnancy tests are negative (I always test out the trigger)

Normally it takes 10 days for the trigger to go for me, so I don’t know if that’s a bad sign or not? Either way I’m not feeling too hopeful for this month sadly x

After initially feeling so optimistic for this cycle, my expectations have plummeted. I'm 10dpo this morning. Had more spotting after sex last night. Negative test this morning.

I feel like an absolute idiot for getting my hopes up. Back to work today after a week off and dreading that too. Working day likely to be taken up with the Government white paper on SEND. All feels very heavy and hopeless today.

Hello hormones!

@Taysonic never any shame in getting your hopes up, we're all guilty of it. Sending you a big hug today ❤

@Taysonicit’s not over until AF arrives. Keep the hope. I know how exhausting and all consuming TTC is though. You feel like it takes over your life and rules how you feel. I hope work is busy enough to keep your mind from thinking about it too much today. I’ve been off work since my miscarriage. I’m due back this week and I’m not sure if I’m ready to go back. I have quite a stressful job and although physically the miscarriage is over, mentally I’m not sure if I’m recovered enough to be dealing with other people’s problems yet. So the thought of what to do is stressing me today.

I had lots of EWCM the past couple of days but that’s gone now and ovulation tests were low so I don’t think I’ve ovulated yet. Kind of in no mans land at the moment

@Taysonic 10dpo is still early, I know it can so so hard not to plummet and lose all hope ❤️

Oh @Fullofconfusion , firstly - really think it is needed to have time off work following a miscarriage. I think you need it. How has this morning gone so far? (Do you work from home or in a specific location?). If it feels too rushed and it's not going well, it's absolutely fine to ring the Drs and say you need more time. Call it at a day at lunchtime if you need to. I really hope its gone better than you thought, but although that you feel supported enough to take a step back if that's right for you.

And thanks @LuckyDuck93 - I feel like we've been on these forums together for a long time now, and I'd absolutely love it if we were pregnant at the same time. It always means a lot to me when you comment. How are things going with you? Hope it's all starting to feel more real and that everything is progressing uneventfully!

I've been having some back and forth chat with ChatGPT today (!!!!). It's amazingly reassuring and helps me stay rational. It may well still be too early to test. Despite having some spotting after sex a couple of times now, it hasn't progressed into a period yet. I'll be keeping a close eye on it today.

It didn't help that yesterday should have been the due date of our second loss. Thankfully, the date didn't hit me as hard as the first loss' due date. But, it doesn't help.

@Taysonic it really would be, I keep my fingers crossed for you every month! ChatGPT has been my saviour these last few weeks too, it doesn't judge me and calms me down, who'd have thought 😅
I'm doing ok, generally feel rotten but also appreciate feeling that way, I still dont really believe it, even after a scan!

Awwww @Taysonic your one of the reasons I’ll be staying and checking… you more than most deserve this for everything you have been through.

This little phrase I would often tell myself when I was trying and really struggling …

Trust the soul that chooses you ❤️

Also a little note I wrote to myself in my notes a few months ago and hope you find some comfort

I heard a line today, trust the soul that chooses you. How beautiful is that? I will trust that you will find us and choose us ❤️ we lost but I do believe that we will gain. And when you’re here we will understand this and you’ll be the right one to choose us. I feel that you are coming… I feel it. I feel really emotional today but also a flurry of excitement because I just know you are on your way! And I can’t wait xxx

@Iris2024that’s beautiful.

@TaysonicI’ve extended my time off for another week. Thank you for checking in. I feel like we do a good job of supporting each other on here.

@Iris2024 that is really gorgeous - thank you so much for sharing. It really resonates.

Im really glad you've given yourself some extra time @Fullofconfusion - is there anything we can do this week to help with the grieving process?

I'm still in limbo land... 11dpo today. And I think I've had a faint positive on a FRER. I don't usually use FRERs but bought some on a whim and a second line definitely came up within the time line. Took an Early Clear Blue digital at the same time but that said negative so... Just going to wait it out for 48 hours and see what Thursday brings.

I have emailed the fertility team to say what's happened and to ask if they'd need a more definitive positive test before beginning the progesterone.

Doesn't feel like a congratulations or a celebration is required yet... Just... Need time to go quickly this week!

@Fullofconfusion I am so glad you could take some extra time off, you totally should focus on treating yourself. Sending big hugs your way.

@Taysonic I think that it's normal, clearblue tests take more time. I'm keeping eveything crossed for you.

Oh my goodness, that would be wonderful news! I had my bloods done for the GP this morning, not sure what exactly, I think this one is thyroid and blood sugars etc. Got my pelvic scan booked… for April Acupuncturist said last night that things were feeling better and I do think that some of that changes I have put in place are having an effect on my general wellbeing, my energy which has been through the floor ever since I had my first, is starting to come back, some of my aches and pains are less achy. So even if I don’t ever get pregnant, atleast I’ll be healthier!

That all sounds like amazing progress in the right direction @overwork - something ChatGPT said to me yesterday (apologies if all the water in the world runs out, I've been heavily chatting to AI this week!) said about thinking about trying to conceive as moving towards pregnancy and preparing for it rather than a black and white 'it worked/it didn't work' mentality. A way of reframing any negatives into positives I suppose: learning more, preparing your body physically, preparing mentally... Sounds like everything you're doing aligns with that too.

Yes I think that’s really wise, and everything that you are doing now is putting you into a better place for the future anyway.
I remember another of the ‘older’ Mums who got pregnant a few months ago saying how all the extra sex had really made her and her partner reconnect and have some fun. Sadly we’re a world away from in this house, it just feels like another slog to do to get to the goal, so the next thing I’d like to work on is getting some spontaneity and fun back into our sex life, not just being focussed on conceiving from it

100%! I think it helps that my partner is younger (🤭 🤭 🤭) but making sex feel special and a chance to bond and not just linked to ovulation is the key when it becomes a long TTC journey. We were lucky this month that my fertile window was over Valentines so was a perfect excuse for a new lingerie set!

I think I read somewhere to plan something special for one of the attempts during the fertile window to help keep things feeling fresh.

Okay, need a little bit of a handhold in advance of tomorrow morning...

Had an email back from the fertility team to say that if I continue to test positive tomorrow morning, they will prescribe progesterone straight away. I've had a few more positive tests today (still fairly faint in my opinion for being 12dpo but it's easy to compare on here) so I'm feeling fairly optimistic tomorrow will be positive too but just... it would mean a lot to me if it showed up on a digital tomorrow. To have the words in writing will make me believe it more.

I can't imagine this pregnancy will last... but I'll damn sure do all I can to try.

Giving you a handhold!

Remember lines can be stronger for others - it's all down to the day you implanted. I've read that implantation can be often be 10dpo, which in that case it makes sense that the lines are still faint as it takes time to build. The fact there is a line gives a lot of hope though so try and hold on to that.

Really really really hope it works out for you, and you get to see that magical word on your digital tomorrow 💜xx

We’re all hoping for those words with you!

Ah @TaysonicI really do have everything crossed for you, hopefully those tests continue to darken. It’s reassuring that the fertility team have said they will give you progesterone too 💕 keep us updated.

My update is that the recurrent miscarriage consultant knows that I’m pregnant and that my scan showed it’s where it should be. They want me to have another scan at around 8 weeks, so that’s booked for the 9th March. I definitely could not have waited for another at 10-12 weeks. It’s still such early days so I’m trying to be really positive but it’s so scary. I also have had waves of nausea now, had to tell my manager as I was not able to go into the office today - my commute is nearly two hours, so I didn’t want to tell them so early but felt like I needed a proper excuse (they are quite strict with us doing our in office days).

Keeping everything crossed for you @Taysonic🤞🏻

Some good news from me- had an early scan today and all is well so we are moving in the right direction!

@Taysonicwe’re all with you. Remember 12 dpo is super early so the lines won’t be super dark yet. I’ve got everything crossed for you.

@Blondepeachthat’s good news. I think the early scans can help you feel much more reassured so that’s good that you’ve been offered them.

@lepoissonMgreat news for you too.

I’m just spending some time with my little boy this week. It’s half term here. I’m still not feeling great mentally but I think the company is helping a bit. We’ve had a full day today and same again tomorrow so that’ll keep my mind busy.

I also have no idea what’s happening with my body. I miscarried on 4th Feb. I had EWCM on Saturday but LH tests not showing much. Lots of cramps yesterday (like bad enough that I was doubled over) but no sign of AF yet. So I have no idea where I am in my cycle or if I’ve ovulated or not. I suppose it’s helpful in that I can’t obsess over how many DPOs I am and if I should be testing 😂 looking for the bright side here!