been ttc#1 forever (and a bit longer) ....

[nomoremagnolia]

Thought it was time for a new thread - we're almost out of room on the original one

I am still lurking nomore Hope you are well.

PS. I didn't think you were bossy at all - helpful, yes. Bossy, nope.

xx

hehe I can be quite bossy though!
I think I am the only one left keeping this thread alive, everyone else seems to have migrated to the No 1 (or 2 or 3 or 4) babies thread now. Maybe we should let this one die a quiet death?

No, I am still lurking to and waiting hopefully for updates .

PS Aidan is still doing well and we are still breastfeeding (hoorah) he is 20 wks tomorrow!

Don't let it die out nomore - I'll re-join (hope you remember me?) I've been on AC thread but I've been a bit quiet full stop since the MC in Jan. Trying to get healthy and lose some weight before I get on the IVF rollercoaster again. All my real world friends have graduated now so (one due next week, other had a beautiful boy 3.5 weeks ago and another has just popped out no.3! ) Feel bad going on to them about my woes and to be honest the pity and watching my feelings all the time (yes they are lovely friends) kills me too! iykwim?

M2O - sorry your L&D results weren't what you were hopping for but you are right there are loads of success stories so keep your chin up - you know what you are dealing with now and the doc you have been referred to sounds great.

Hello Gilly how you doing?

Hello too to all the lurking graduates!!

Hi mowmi of course I remember you from the AC thread. I didn't realise you had a m/c in Jan I had an ectopic in Nov and everything's been put on hold because of that. My follow up appt from the post-ep l&d isn't til mid July but after that I think we'll be back on the ivf again, maybe we'll be cycling together in a couple of months?

Sorry to hear that nomore I'll keep you company because I don't feel like I have a lot to add to AC thread at the moment (except congratulations - they're on such a roll over there at the moment ) because I'm not doing much but trying to lose weight!!

My consultant sat me down after the miscarriage and told me the IVF cycle had been perfect and the only thing she was worried about was my BMI throwing my hormones out of kilter and making my pcos worse! I've promised to get my BMI down to 30 before I go back - I'm currently at 33. She's totally right but it was a smack in the mouth at the time. Been to Zita West Clinic to see a nutritionist who gave me some great pointers on losing weight, getting more healthy and controlling hormones / pcos - was all going great (lost a stone) but have put about half back on following my holiday to egypt!! Ah well back on it with avengence now!

Had a hellish night - my little puppy has been so poorly! Just taken him to the vet and they've kept him in to be safe because he's a bit dehydrated. He jumped in a stream which is green with algea and took a big drink! didn't think much of it until he went all quiet on me yesterday and started throwing up! I've been up every couple of hours checking on him (yes he is soooo my surrogate baby!)

Hope all is good with you - yes we may end up as cycle buddies!

x

for puppy - hope he's on the mends soon. My cats are my surrogate babies too, I know how you feel!
I haven't really been on the AC thread for the past year, though I was stalking LondonLottie once I knew she was doing IVF again, but apart from that I've been sitting here watching everyone else (except gilly ) graduating. Not that I wouldn't want them to graduate of course, it just serves as a reminder of time passing me by, one minute people are announcing a bfp the next the baby's here and another 9 months have passed and I'm still stuck here. Sorry I'm feeling a bit 'left behind' today!

I totally know what you mean - my 4 closest friends all have children now - one has just popped out no.3!! I work with 2 of the girls and that has been hard (One has just had the most beautiful baby boy and the other is due on Friday) watching the 2 of them bloom whilst struggling with the mc has been really tough - seeing them everyday was really difficult. Its almost gone past jealousy... I just feel like it's still so far away for me!
I understand feeling left behind!

I am bit behind on you - was the ectopic pregnancy following IVF?

Where in the world are you? I'm in Surrey (lovely and sunny today!)

The ectopic was on a natural (well with Clomid) cycle, I had asked for more Clomid while we waited to save the money for another go at IVF. So far we've only had our NHS cycle (which was this time last year) I know what you mean about it being past jealousy, I just get depressed that so much time has passed and we're no further forward. My DSis is pg (which is great news as she's had 3 m/c and I'm not at all jealous of her, I'm really pleased for her) but I am very aware that by xmas she'll have her baby and I really want to be pg by then as otherwise it'll be more than a whole year we'll have wasted standing still/going round in circles in ttc terms.

Hello, I am still lurking too. Baby is fine - 28 weeks now, but I am not doing as well because my stepfather died a couple of weeks ago. It was cancer so we were expecting it but I had been hoping that he would be here long enough to see the baby. Anyway I know I am really lucky to have her - sorry to hear some of you are still having such a hard time .

On a more positive note I have bought the Bee in yellow and I love it!

((A&B)) Sorry to hear about your stepfather However 'expected' it's still the hardest thing to lose someone close.
Tell me more about the bee, I've been seeing a few more of them around now and am starting to think I like the look of it...

Thanks nomore.

The Bee is great - it's really easy to push and steer. Folding up is quite straightforward too. You don't have to remove the seat unit whichever way it's facing and it folds up quite small. Also I got the Maxi Cosi car seat and the adapters and I was really surprised how easy it was to use because you don't have to remove the seat unit to attach it, which I thought you would have to (it looks like you do in the Mothercare photo's). I got the baby nest too (in black) and that looks nice and cosy and fits on easily, though you probably don't really need it because the seat does go almost completely flat so I'm not sure how necessary the head support is (e.g. compared with a pram). The only thing that was quite difficult was changing the seat round from forward to rearward facing - you probably wouldn't want to do that on a regular basis as it took a few minutes, but I guess you wouldn't need to anyway.

We had a 10% discount voucher for Mothercare (there are several around on the internet) so it cost about £340, then £60 for the nest and £28 for the car seat adapters, but we should also get another 5% back through Quidco, which is another £20 saving. The car seat was then £95 from Kiddicare. So total cost of about £500, which I know is high when you can spend under £200 on a Maclaren and a cheaper car seat but I really wanted the rear facing option.

Wow that was a long post! Sorry to everyone who's not interested in buggies!

Hi all

Ohhhh Gilly... your post rang so true for me about the passage of time. Its been so long for us since we started on this path. Although Im pregnant now I still don't have that baby yet and I hate how my life has been on hold for so long whilst others have cruised through this phase and have 4yrs olds and 2nd children! Crazy! I hate being one of the 'unlucky' ones!
I was looking on FB the other day and it makes me incredibly sad and jealous of all the pictures and stories people tell about their kids. It should be me joining in too... but it isn't! Very painful! So although its hard to believe that it will happen for you, it will. I really didn't think I would be pregnant again and certainly not get to 34 weeks, but here I am. Still a bit bitter but getting there Hopefully this little one will heal some of the wounds Always here for you (((BIG HUGS))

AppleAndBlackberry - so sorry to hear about your stepdad
Glad u are enjoying your Bee... wow 28 weeks... thats amazing how time flies!

nomoremagnolia - I have some spare clomid if you want it, I could pop it in the post to you.

mowmi - Big hugs.. Its very hard. Your in good company here.. Sorry to hear about your MC

kd73 - BLimey KD can't believe Aiden is 20 weeks... big cuddles from me.

I'm at the consultants tomorrow and going to push for an induction at 37 weeks, which is 3 weeks away. Im mentally on the edge, thinking I might lose this one as well (crazy I know), think this pregnancy lark is far too long! Fingers crossed he will agree simply on keeping my sanity. Don't get me wrong I was quite positive but getting very nervous now and things keep catching me up from losing Bertie... if that makes sense

Sorry to be all negative... will update you on what the consultant says and hopefully the scan will make me more positive

Lots of love to everyone Rah Xxxx

Oh Rah you poor thing, I can't say I know how you feel about Bertie and this pg but I understand that it's hard for you. I hope that your new baby brings some healing, though I know she won't (and shouldn't) replace Bertie. Thanks for the offer of the Clomid, I might take you up on that, I'll email you on FB. I really try to think of people like you and Ready when I feel it'll never happen, you're my reminder that it does happen, even after years of heartache.

I am so pleased to see the thread has resurrected itself, I know how painful it was when everyone else seemed to have no trouble conceiving and I stood apart.

A&B, I am sorry to hear about your stepdad , I hope you are ok.

For those who don't know or have forgotten, I had 2 m/c. The first was lost after 4yrs ttc and 8 wks before my sister gave birth to her daughter and my cousin went onto deliver her son on my due date , the second pg was discovered on the day before my recouperation holiday and was lost over the Christmas/New Year holiday.

Keep hopeful and positive as I am thinking of all of you!

PS Aidan and I are good, apart from a bit of cold which feels an awful lot like man flu to me

Hello ladies.

Rah - It must be so hard for you - I hope your consultant can grant you the induction you want to give you a bit more peace of mind.

KD - I haven't congratulated you on your little boy - so glad you got there in the end.

Gilly - did you get your results back?

A&B & Nomore - hope you are both ok and having a nice weekend (Nomore hope you're feeling a bit brighter?)

I'm still in shock and massive fear of having another miscarriage - was calm but think that was just the shock... DH is the same...
x

Hi Gilly - Try to stay positive - there really is no alternative. I hope all goes smoothly on the house...that should fill some time and help keep you occupied between now and your next appointment!
We moved last summer from flat in to 5 bed house - I know what you mean about a family to fill it - we got a puppy to help fill the gap!

Tell me more about St Gerard!

GP saw me today and she was very reassuring also feel better because conception indicator went up today too. We have a scan booked for 3rd at the clinic we were under for the IVF but the guy who does all the EP scans is the DR who always gives me bad news - "follicles too small, abandon cycle, afraid not viable..." so I don't want him to do it.
Booked at another place for the 5th by which time there should be something to see - can't bear for another "It might just be too early" scenarios - I swear it will break me.

Nomore - how you doing?

Gilly - great news about the house! I'm sure you will have a family to fill it one day.

Hi everyone else - hope you're enjoying the sun

oh Gilly that's really lovely! Thank you - I'm CofE but will happily take anyones prayers and lovely thoughts!!
Are you getting a nice weekend out of your trip to dorset?

Hope everyone else is good?

My conception indicator went up to 3+ weeks yesterday (3 weeks to the day of conception me thinks!) I'm routing for all the good signs I can get.

x

Hi all

mowmi - great news... have everything crossed for you..xx

Gilly - Fab news on the house. Hope your in very quickly.. Hope u had a nice time in Dorset!!
Keep pestering for as many tests as possible. Have you asked about the use of aspirin in your next IVF cycle? Also have you heard of killer cells and use of steroids? It dismissed as inconclusive treatment by some consultants but some women are believed to have a higher level of killer cells that lead to infertility and MC. My consultant was not interested in it when I discussed it with him and said it was all unproven but my GP did lots of research and knew people that were getting treated in clinics in London with a fab success rate. I just think its a good idea to cover all bases.

kd73 - Got to laugh at poor Aiden's man flu... he is starting young!

nomoremagnolia - Thanks for your kind words and make sure you message me about the clomid. Whats your drug protocol for IVF? Do you have to pay for the drugs?

Thanks for asking about my consultants app, well he was called into surgery so I saw his registrar... GRRRR The scan showed the head to be smaller than 2 weeks previously and the measurements seem really out. So she examined me and I was 4/5th engaged at that point. SO she cancelled my next scan and I go for a CTG every Tue and Fri for monitoring. At last CTG head was 3/5th engaged so going down slowly.. She was non committal on an induction and booked me for an app at 37 weeks with my consultant. she kept telling me to relax and enjoy it... ANNOYING! you can always tell the people that never have any problems...

Anyway all looks good, just getting paranoid as nothing is an exact science But if I get my own way it could be about a week and a half to go but suspect he might do it at 38 weeks But that's only 2 weeks +
away...

Love to u all
Rah xxxx

Hi all,
Rah thanks for that, I have emailed you on FB Hope you're well, can't believe in 2-3 weeks your little girl will be here !!!!!
gilly hope you had a nice weekend away
I had the HSG today, it seemed to go ok, the doc said everything was normal but I have NO idea now what's going on, there are even more questions than answers again I'm getting so fed up of not knowing