been ttc#1 forever (and a bit longer) ....

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Thought it was time for a new thread - we're almost out of room on the original one

Thanks Gilly. I know it will be tough finally getting that BFN again, due to test again on Fri. My body is throwing out half symptoms still , if that makes sense. I went for a drink last night with a friend and I had a sneaky cig and started heaving and been feeling quite sick recently. But I know in my head I'm not pregnant... but it is a confusing time with all those hormones. I'm dreading my first period, but I think that is due to how I felt last time when we lost Bertie. Nothing feels anywhere near as bad as when we lost him. Don't get me wrong this M/C still hurts and it putting so much doubt in my head, but I can still function at least and back at work!

Anyway on that note I better get some work done. XX

Oh Rah I'm really sorry to see your sad news - I was soo hoping that it was one of those miracle stories etc etc... Thinking of you- take care and don't lose heart it will all work out for the best in the end.. {{{hugs}}}

Rah Glad you are surviving, particularly after losing Bertie. Life can be so unfair

Rah Glad you are surviving, particularly after losing Bertie. Life can be so unfair

Thanks KD XX

Thanks minxi - how are you, hows tricks? Hope all is well. XX

WERE IS EVERYONE???

I have my appointment with the consultant tomorrow, so need lots of positive vibes!

Gilly - hows everything going, when are you due at the clinic next? Fingers crossed for a positive.. XXX

Thanks KD XX

Thanks minxi - how are you, hows tricks? Hope all is well. XX

WERE IS EVERYONE???

I have my appointment with the consultant tomorrow, so need lots of positive vibes!

Gilly - hows everything going, when are you due at the clinic next? Fingers crossed for a positive.. XXX

Rah, please accept a sack load of positive vibes sent with love from me and bean

Sorry Gilly to hear about the BFN hope you are ok
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Oh Gilly.... so sorry {{{HUGS}}} I found IUI really hard work... its so hit and miss. I am a lot more positive about IVF.

Well went to my appointment yesterday and have agreed to start IVF after my next period... so just need to wait for that. MC nurse told me it should be 4-6 weeks, so lets hope my body kicks back into shape.
He has also agreed to put me on heparin and aspirin.
But things are getting a bit complicated as they have found the following so far and they just don't know the implications on pregnancy, obviously something is causing my problems...

so yesterday after seeing the hematologist in Aug who did some specialist tests they found low Von Willebrand's and consistent low platelets and packed cells.. all have come back below normal. Plus they found a abnormal level for IGa which is an immune disorder.

But the Von Willebrand's has the following symptoms... which totally fit, as the bruising etc is why I was referred to a hematologist, plus I have suffered so bad from nose bleeds.

• Easy bruising
• Frequent nose bleeds
• Bleeding from wounds that takes longer than normal to stop
• Excessive bleeding when teeth fall out
• Heavy or prolonged periods
• Bleeding from the gut or bowel
• Bleeding into muscles and joints in more severe cases

BUT the consultant was unsure on the effects of pregnancy with any of what they have found, so he is finding out if we need any more med's whilst pregnant.

I am going back to the clinic on 30th Oct..

Gilly - More than likely it contributed to Bertie's prem birth as it was to do with the excess bleeding that ruptured my membranes so early. SO if they can help the bleeding not progress into clots then I'm sure we could get further. Its strange as the blood tests show my blood to be thin, but in pregnancy it bleeds excessively but also clots excessively, so its like the clotting reacts to the bleeds. Which is strange...I think... but your blood changes in pregnancy. So the concern is not so much bleeding its the clots that caused all the problems as it caused issues with the placenta etc.. So although it says not to use blood thinners with what is showing up in my blood, they think blood thinners would help. So will just have to trust them.

I'm on day21 since the MC and dont think I've ovulated yet. GRRR but she did say up to 6 weeks. I'm then starting my IVF drugs on day 21 on that cycle.

Gilly your so right about the short notice. I found it so hard with IUI, especially when my poxy eggs where so different every month. We did 5 months in the end and only managed 3 cycles. IVF is so much more structured and precise as they use all the drugs and basically take the eggs and then put them back in. The most stressful time really is finding out how the eggs are developing and if they are any good.. etc..Well from other people telling me anyway... as obviously not experienced it for myself yet. Well we can be IVF buddies...WOOOHOOO

Your so right about M/C, it is hurtful and painful and I find it so hard that you have nothing... least with Bertie I had him and I have all his things that he used etc... but with this M/C its just emptiness. Basically you feel like you just have to move on...and quickly.. I;m trying to stay positive though, but must admit this week has been a struggle and been feeling some anxiety about the whole thing.

Anyway... hello to everyone else... what has happened to our thread... everyone is too busy! Lots of love Rah Xxx

Hi both
I'm still lurking but with DH away M-F at the moment the ttc is rather hit and miss! Have started taking Clomid again as we won't be in a position to do IVF until April 09. I don't think the Clomid will work, but the IVF doc said it wouldn't do any harm to try it in the meantime.

I'm still here, lurking away. Got my first appointment at IVF clinic tomorrow, so will have to write a mumsnet-style list of questions. To add to the stress, I sprained my ankle today, so getting to the clinic is going to be tricky.

Had a dirty weekend in Brighton, around ov time, and we managed to do it SIX TIMES! Surely a record. There's something about hotel rooms that get you going, aren't there. And now a new crazy symptom - a red blob of blood in pants this morning, but no trace in my hoohah. Implantation bleeding? Imminent death? Who knows...

Hi everyone!

It's very quiet on here isn't it. Hope everyone's doing ok. Have you had any more news about your ISAs / IVF / house Gilly?

I've been thinking I need a namechange because now there's an EachPeachPearMum who posts a lot, so I think it's a bit confusing if I post on the main boards. Any suggestions? I'll let you know if I come up with one!

Thinking of you Rah (and everyone else)

xxx

Hi all... hope everyone is well... EachPeachPearPlum ... looks like you will have to do a name change... that is confusing!

WHERE ARE YOU ALL!!!!

I'm here.

Bit of a weird one. Currently waiting the Aunt of Doom so I can start beginning of IVF. Have to have FSH/AMH blood test on day 1-5. However, I'm still waiting for her to show. She was due between three and five days ago. I've got right sore tits, sorer than normal, and cramps. I also feel quite sick.

If she doesn't turn up by tomorrow, I won't be able to get my blood test before we go on hols on Wednesday. But maybe she's not going to show for the right reasons.... Don't want to do a test, as either way it's too much of a headfuck.

My boobs say 'up the duff', then I get a cramp and think 'don't be ridiculous'. But usually boobs deflate a day or so before Aunt of Doom's arrival, and they show no signs of doing so. Get the odd dizzy spell, too.

OHHH... I get cramping like period pain, like your due on and then it just vanishes and no period. Does it come and go? You can get that for a few months.

H - YOU HAVE TO TEST! If your due on + symptoms and your late... go for it. Especially as your going on holiday. Praying for you XXXXX

Herb... fingers crossed for you x