TTC after chemical pregnancy

[LucyCL]

I had a MC this Jan , 6 weeks and 1 day. Then I had a CP last Tuesday, 4 weeks and 6 days. I finally stopped bleeding today. Two pregnancies and two MCs so far.

I would like to know what your ttc experiences were like after CP. I admit I felt so lost when I saw the line getting fainter and I have been feeling very low and anxious for the last 7 days. However it is not healthy and it is time to be positive! So, I will be trying again this month. That is why I decided to start this thread.

@CJ2021 How are you ?

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Perhaps it is because of the nausea or the fact of having 2 MCs already, I have been really conflicted. I am leaving it to fate. I hope everyone is doing fine. Thinking of all of us.

Lovely to hear from you, how are things?

All okay here so far. I’m 11w2d and will have my nhs scan on 18th Sept (13w2d) I have contemplated getting another scan before this but haven’t got around to it, and now considering just waiting I think.

Im absolutely exhausted and still very nauseous. I get into bed most nights at 6pm after work or toddler duties! Totally surviving on beige food.

Send me an update, hope all is well ❤️

I’ve been thinking of you, I thought you were quite quiet.

I hope you’re okay. If you want to talk about feeling conflicted, you’re welcome to message me, if you want to.

Thinking of you too x

I am glad that everything is well for you apart from the pregnancy symptoms. I hope your next scan goes well! I have been feeling unwell since the symptoms started. So I am trying to feel how I feel every day. Sometimes sluggish, sometimes normal and sometimes bleh, totally unpredictable. Will have a scan this Sunday, 7 weeks and 4 days/8 weeks.

Hope you are all ok. I have just caught up on this thread. Good luck with your upcoming scans ladies.
Personally, I am now in the watch and wait mode. I dont usually have masses of PMS symptoms, occasionally just sore tingly nipples but far from every month. This is one of those months so I've had that from about 4 doo.
This week I am feeling incredibly tired and weirdly have developed realky painful boobs which I had in my first MMC pregnancy from about six weeks and also came on suddenly in my Chemical at 4 weeks exactly. I will be 14 dpo on Monday and have got a BFP before at 12 but I am thinking it's probably just a nice new PM symptom for me.

Yes, there is a good reason why I have been quite... I feel confused about the changes happening to my body and also I feel like I don't know my body anymore. Everyday I observe what is happening to me and I also had my 1st midwife appointment yesterday then I was overwhelmed. I couldn't do the things I wanted to do because the symptoms were making me feel unwell. I thought I would feel better and more normal last night based on how I have been feeling since everything started but I was unwell instead. Also this morning I was feeling sick and I thought I could not eat dinner due to loss of appetite but I almost finished the whole meal. So, I don't know what to expect. In the past two weeks, I did a lot of thinking. Very silly thoughts, to be honest. "It doesn't even know its existence so I am the only one who can make myself feel better" "Why is my body prioritising it over me?" "I feel like I cannot predict how I am going to feel tomorrow" "I have to eat because I don't want to die due to loss of appetite'". "I used to love food and now it is taking it away from me. Very sad." "I like walking and now I cannot walk for hours..." You know, all kinds of silly things.
I have never been this far before so I find everything overwhelming and cannot imagine the future. I also don't want to read anything related to it. I can only think about what is happening day by day so I don't get panic or feel something negative. At the end, I decided to stay quite.
Today I went to the GP and she prescribed me something to help with the symptoms. Overall, I am grateful but I really have to get used to the changes and I shall not have any expectations of feeling normal at certain times of the day.
I hope you are well.

Thank you for your update! I got a lot of symptoms during this 2WW and I also started to get sore boobs a week before I got my 1st BFP. But I almost had none for my CP pregnancy. So, I am feeling hopeful for you.

One more thing, it takes me more than half a day to feel normal so I generally feel better in the evening and I feel sick again whenever I wake up in the morning. That really makes me not look forward to every morning. It is like back to square 1. 🙄

Ash bless you. Just read your note above too. You can only take one day at a time and step by step and that is all anybody can do, especially those of us who have experienced the worst when we have not expected it.
You are in the midst of such a lot of change and bound to feel better some days than others. I will update when I get any news but hope you keep your positivity up. Sending hugs.

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Stark negative this morning in an early test so very likely out but guess you never know

Thinking of you x

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I did the scan and I am going to call it a gummy bear or a tiny chick because calling it an embryo still makes me feel overwhelmed and reminds me of not so good memories of being sick. Also I was prepared for both outcomes. Such a small thing could make me feel miserable physically for the past two weeks. I used to be very strong and could carry heavy things! Thankfully I have promethazine hydrochloride to help me. I love modern medical intervention!

Ooh bless you. So glad you saw your tiny chick :). Hope you get to feel less unwell soon.
I had a massive temp drop today so I am defo out x

Seeing a BBT drop is always disappointing. I find it easier to do the things I like which is great to distract myself. Stay positive and enjoy living.

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I am still slowly getting used to the changes and I do understand that there are so many people who are still trying to conceive. I don't really want to sound like I don't appreciate this and I am not grateful. Today someone asked me how I was in an old thread because they were in a similar situation like me. When I check the titles of the threads in the conception section here, I remember the hard and frustrating ttc journey I had been through. It took me 10 months and 2 losses to get here. I still feel for people who are ttc'ing , especially the ones who suffered losses. I totally understand their feelings. I really hope they will eventually get what they want.

Hi @LucyCL hope you are doing well, how many weeks will you be now?

Its CD1 for me today after a very long 40 day cycle 🤯, I'm presuming it was anovulatory although no way of knowing for sure. I had stark white pregnancy tests from 14dpo up until getting AF. Very frustrating and disheartening but I was just happy to come on in the end. It's cycle number 4 for me since CP. Trying to remain optimistic.

You don't sound ungrateful at all, for a lot of women pregnancy is tough - I was so unwell during my pregnancy with DD severe nausea and vomiting/hyperemesis until 5 months and then carpal tunnel, SPD and severe heartburn after that 😂. I'm so desperate to be pregnant but also terrified of feeling so unwell again whilst also looking after a toddler.

I hope everyone else on the thread is doing okay and hopefully more of get BFPs soon 🤞

I am 3dpo 3 weeks 6 days post surgical miscarriage.
I am praying for a BFP and hoping to be a success story if BFP after loss. I don’t think I will be that lucky and I don’t know how I will feel when/if AF arrives.

@LucyCL you don’t sound ungrateful. I was so poorly when I was PG and hated it , feel so guilty feeling like that when it ended in loss. Hope your doing ok xxx

I hope you are doing okay @Joleyjojo surgical management is tough 💐. I had an MVA procedure for a missed miscarriage in June 2020 and conceived DD in December 2020 she was born Sep 21 😊. Currently TTC baby number 2 after a chemical in June this year. Be kind to yourself, sending baby dust your way x

Hi all, hope you are all doing ok. My CB digital has now been flashing for over a week now. I am hoping it will become static in the next day or two, which will make this one of my longer cycles but not much I can do about that. My shortest over the past 9 months has been 29 days and my longest 34, apart from my Chemical month which was, of course, pretty undefinable.

Can I have some chart temp advice please. I am sure I ovulated around CD25 as I had positive LH tests which have always worked. I then had 2 rises one duo and another rise. Checking on previous charts it’s the highest temp I have had after ovulation. It hasn’t confirmed ovulation, do you think I have ovulated? Negative LH since the positive. I know it’s 3 temp increases but it’s so high and im not ill. I am 3weeks 6 days since miscarriage not sure if that makes a difference. Thank you xxx

I will be 10 weeks and 5 days this Saturday. I will do a NIPT test and scan on the same day and I will be grateful if there are still heartbeats. A 40 day cycle sounds like you have been very stressful lately. The longest one I had lasted for 38 days and I was very stressed. I remember I kept testing and getting negative. So I know how you felt. Try to relax a bit and maybe you will have good news soon. I got my 1st BFP the next cycle after the longest one. I hope it will be the case for you too!
Being pregnant and having to take care of a toddler sounds tough but I am confident that you will be well prepared when this happens. I have never experienced a full term pregnancy before so I don't know what is going to happen. 😶

I also wouldn't be able to know how I'd feel if I were you. It must have been really tough for you to go through the past 4 weeks. I hope you had a nice get away holiday after the procedure. I am thinking of you.
I am coping with the changes day by day. Most of the experience has been negative so far and this is what I am trying to overcome mentally. I probably would feel guilty if this one ends in loss.

I remember I had 9-10 days of flashing before I got the static smile. I believe you will get it very soon. I found drinking grapefruit juice useful to raise the estrogen level (high level of estrogen equals flashing and when estrogen is high enough, it will become a static smile). The first two cycles after CP were really unpredictable for me as well. Then the third and the 4th one were more normal-ish.