TTC after chemical pregnancy

[LucyCL]

I had a MC this Jan , 6 weeks and 1 day. Then I had a CP last Tuesday, 4 weeks and 6 days. I finally stopped bleeding today. Two pregnancies and two MCs so far.

I would like to know what your ttc experiences were like after CP. I admit I felt so lost when I saw the line getting fainter and I have been feeling very low and anxious for the last 7 days. However it is not healthy and it is time to be positive! So, I will be trying again this month. That is why I decided to start this thread.

Interesting discovery!
It is true that LH strip gets darker because of a rise in HCG however it doesn’t mean LH is increasing.
In fact My LH is really low but the LH strip is really dark.
So we could use LH strips to test pregnancy if we don’t have any pregnancy tests.

I finally (reluctantly!) made my online referral for midwife at 6w5d but haven’t had an appointment through yet. I was thinking of going for a scan this weekend (I’m 7w1d) but have decided to hold off until next weekend. Totally dreading it tbh! Xx

Look how anxious I was yesterday! RHR says it all. This is the highest RHR I’ve ever had. Not good at all!😑

How are you managing your anxiety ? Because I still find myself sometimes thinking about what if my body tries to get rid of this one. Any good advice?

I’ve really been struggling tbh because my symptoms have been very on and off. I’ve continued testing daily with easy@ home strips just because it makes me feel in control really. I initially thought this was really unhealthy (and I’m sure many people would tell me it is!!) but when I see that strong line I feel like I can get on with my day as normal.

I have been feeling much more nauseous this week so actually naturally stopped doing the tests the past few days. So that feels like progress…

I’m not going to lie, I have been feeling quite low throughout but trying my best to take it one day at a time. During my CP and this pregnancy my best friend told me she was pregnant so that’s been really difficult, especially as she doesn’t seem to have a worry in the world and wants to talk about it constantly! I’m just doing my best to get through the next few weeks now… I’m finding it hard to see a positive outcome still but fingers crossed 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

Your friend is a very lucky person and I bet she has never had a MC. I wish she will stay like this and have a viable pregnancy. To be honest , I don’t think getting a BFP is the end of TTC journey. The truth is it is only the beginning. All of us here have suffered from losses and understand anxiety never goes away. We will get more anxious when this journey continues because we have experienced the pain of MCs. Anyone who are waiting for their rainbow BFPs or have got their BFPs are free to share their feelings, both good and bad ones. All of us here will face more challenges and hardships than the ones who have never had MCs on this ttc journey. We support each other whenever the others feel like they are struggling because we know that we are not alone.

I thought I would have a good cry and tears of joy after getting a BFP but instead I cried before I knew it would happen to me. But this is because I was convinced that it would not happen this cycle after all the hardships which I have endured. I know there are so many women who have suffered more serious MCs than me so I totally understand their pain, desperation and loneliness. So, instead I didn’t cry at all and it was replaced by my anxiety and fear.

I’d definitely agree a BFP is only the beginning. It’s the next milestone but it’s just the beginning.

I mentioned my pregnancy to my GP, and she’s referred me. I’ve already had appointments through for 8 weeks - booking in and my first midwife appointment two days later. I think we’ll book a scan that week. I want to do it earlier but if it’s inconclusive in any way, I know that will panic me more.

I purposefully didn’t wear my watch so it couldn’t track BBT last night, and I didn’t test this morning. That feels like a big decision. I hope it’s the right one! I’ll be 5 weeks on Tuesday.

It’s strange, this bit. I’ve been so anxious all week but making it past the day it all went wrong has helped a bit. I’m still anxious. I’ve got more pregnancy symptoms this time than I’ve ever had before; even with my son, so that’s reassuring in a way. I’m so bloated, and I have on and off nausea. I’ve looked shattered since midday today, too 😅

Pregnancy after a CP is tough.

Once again, we are in the same boat. It is good that you are making plans already to manage your anxiety. In my case, I already can see the potential of slowly increasing anxiety in the future so I have been searching for ways to manage it if it gets worse. At the moment, seeing the line progression helps temporarily. I find it difficult to trust my body because it got rid of my second pregnancy for me but I know I have to trust it. Still it makes me sad when I didn’t see the heartbeat for the first pregnancy. So doing hcg progression blood test and booking a scan at 6 weeks and 4 days will help me ( which I haven’t done yet). I really hope that I will be lucky enough to see the heart beat. I also truly wish you have a viable pregnancy. Nowadays I don’t say “Congratulations “ to anyone who has just got their BFP, instead I wish them have a viable pregnancy. Because I know that is the important part !! Ah, also I have downloaded pregnancy after loss app and the baby loss guide by Zoe Clark-Coates audiobook recommended by a nice lady who had a CP and is currently 20 weeks. I am going to see if they help or not. I’d be happy to know how your pregnancy goes in the future and it’d great to share any thoughts and updates. Getting a BFP is only the beginning… I did get anxious when I was trying to conceive after losses and this time is another level.

Pregnancy After Loss: A Day-by-day Plan to Reassure and Comfort You
Book by Zoë Clark-Coates

Hi ladies, AF arrived for me today. Always disappointing but just glad to have another clean start. Does almost certainly prove that I ovulated this time on the second surge found by the cheap LH strip and not the previous one found by the very pricy Clear Blue Digital!!

Keep well ladies and happy healthy pregnancies to you

I am glad that you found out that you ovulated after the second surge! Do you think you will ovulate once or twice next cycle ? x

@LucyCL super faint (and im 99% sure it's pink in person but cautiously optimistic).

these are all images of my afternoon test - i saw a shadow this AM so wanted to test again!

tomorrow will be 9dpo and i'll do a digital on tuesday maybe.

fingers crossd for both of us!

😭I can see the lines. I am so happy for you!

@LucyCL I won't believe it's positive until a digital 😭 I think because of the CP, my heart is telling me these could be indents or evaps 😂 but this test is already pretty much darker than my 10/11dpo last time 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

Cannot wait to hear your good news tomorrow morning!

@LucyCL will do a digital on Tuesday at 10dpo!

Can't access my DMs - have you been testing or holding off?

What does DM stand for ? Actually I have been testing twice , one in the morning with LH strip and Mira and another one in the evening for fun. Also seeing line progression helps to reduce my anxiety temporarily. I am not able to do hcg blood tests next week so currently I am relying on them to make sure everything is fine. At the same time, I am using CBT and HRH as additional reassurance. Will do hcg blood tests from the 19th.

@LucyCL direct message / private message!

Ooo are you ok to share a pic? Would love to see? Tbh, you could refer yourself asap and get a blood test then. Are you doing it via medicheck?

Ah @GreenPickle that looks like a line! My 9dpo was about the same this time. Fingers very crossed for the morning!

Day two of not testing or tracking BBT here. I think it's probably good for me to avoid the panic beforehand but I am finding myself wondering if everything is still okay, although I know the hook effect could cause chaos if I was still testing. I won't have any bloods/scans/reassurance until 8 weeks. I'd wanted a 7 week scan but my DH isn't keen, and we've got the 8 week one... it feels like a long time until early September!

Thanks so much for the book recommendations, @LucyCL! I'm glad you've found a system that's reassuring you for now. I guess they will evolve over time! When will you be 5 weeks? x

When are you due?

I had an assurance scan booked last time because I was so anxious (didn't make it that far though) so deffo booking one this time around for when I'm 7/8 weeks for my birthday!

Does the hospital do an 8 week scan? I thought it was only 12 and 20? I will probably do a gender scan as well at 16 weeks privately 😂 I'll be too eager and worried.

My line is a bit darker this morning which is good as it's only 11 hours later and my LH has risen which I'm also thinking is a good sign ❤️

Best of luck to all of us!

15th April, I believe!

As standard it's just the 12 and 20-week scans, yes. I'll get an 8-week scan because of previous issues in pregnancy, and I'm higher risk as I've had an organ transplant. We did a 16-week scan privately last time too, although my husband changed his mind about wanting to know so they wrote it down for us and then we never opened it 😆

I'm really pleased your line is darker! That's a great sign.

I had an urge to test this morning but held off. I think I'll take a last test tomorrow - I should be 5 weeks then - and then I'll try and avoid testing, and hold out for scans. It is so anxiety-inducing, though.

Yesterday I had a blazing positive on LH strip but my actual LH was really low.
I plan to go the the private clinic to do the hcg blood test on the 19th, the 21st and the 23rd. It is cheaper than medicheck.
I am still worried about the bad “what if”. I might wait until I am 6 weeks and 4 days to do self referral. 28/8/24. Do you think I shall self refer myself now ?

I drank a lot of water last night so I used SMU which was also very diluted and that is why the figures are low on mira and Premom.

I will be 5 weeks on 17/8/24 and that would be my CP date.🙄So I am still feeling anxious about it

Yes, I am thinking of doing a 7/8 week scan too and that is when you definitely see the heart beat! Fingers crossed for all of us !