TTC after chemical pregnancy

[LucyCL]

I had a MC this Jan , 6 weeks and 1 day. Then I had a CP last Tuesday, 4 weeks and 6 days. I finally stopped bleeding today. Two pregnancies and two MCs so far.

I would like to know what your ttc experiences were like after CP. I admit I felt so lost when I saw the line getting fainter and I have been feeling very low and anxious for the last 7 days. However it is not healthy and it is time to be positive! So, I will be trying again this month. That is why I decided to start this thread.

My scan was okay 🥹🥹 I thought I was 7w6d today but measuring 8w3d, strong heartbeat and no signs of bleeding or any issues. Still a long road ahead but feel like I can relax a little bit tonight 🙏🏻🙏🏻

Hoping these spring babies are our lucky ones xxx

That is positive! I am glad that your scan went well! 💝

Interesting discovery of the day
I got LH peak from LH strips on 12 dpo then LH level started to increase a few days later.

I hope everyone is doing well. I am thinking of all of us and feeling hopeful and positive for the ones who are still waiting. I can totally understand the feelings of the ones who are still waiting, it is a tough journey and it might seem endless... I will still be here for whoever wants to share their feelings or just updates! ❤

How are you doing xxx

I got a dye stealer yesterday, 18 dpo. I did say that I would stop testing however I will keep testing to see if it remains like that. Will do it for the next 3 - 4 days. Will also call EPU to ask if they could book an early scan for me because I will turn 35 this Nov and had two early losses this year. I know that getting a dye stealer DOES NOT guarantee a viable pregnancy but it makes me less anxious. Also I plan to do a hcg beta blood test tomorrow then another one this Wednesday to see if it doubles. If not, I will know something is wrong. My nipples started to get sensitive 3 days ago. My plan is to be calm and patient with hope and positive thoughts, wait until 8 weeks to see if there is a heart beat. At the same time, I am feeling calmer because it does not look like I will have another CP which is a temporary relief. How have you been? 😀

Thought of the day:
I have decided not to do any hcg blood tests. The reason why I wanted to do them so much was because I wanted to gain some control over this. CP definitely has made me being obsessed with doing more blood tests which can only provide me some information.
Instead I will sit and wait patiently until my week 8 scan. There is really Nothing I can do to change the outcome. So why shall I waste more energy and money on something which is out of my control?
Now I have calmed down and I don't feel anxious anymore.

@LucyCL that sounds like a good idea. Only three weeks to go? I hope it all goes smoothly for you.

Trusting our body is the key. I am now learning how to reconnect myself to this new pregnancy and now it is so much easier after I decided to let it go last night. I hope everything will go well for you too! 💛

Thankyou. I keep having cramps but otherwise I am ok. I know it can be normal in pregnancy I just haven’t had them in my past two. So it’s new to me.

This time I started to have sore nipples 4 days ago 1 week after my BFP. For my first one, I got them 1 week before. Also I had a soft lump on the lower part of the left breast two nights ago. Both things are new! 😅I just got a message about my first midwife appointment which will take place on 3/9/24 and I will be 7 weeks and 3 days.
My next milestone is 27/8/24 and that would be the same timeline when my 1st MC happened. So if I could get past this day, I would be relieved for the second time. 😶
Have you self-referred yourself yet?

Your midwife appointment is before mine, @LucyCL 😆 I've got booking in on the 5th and my first appointment on the 9th, I'll be 8+2 and then 8+6.

Good luck, @Blue2020. I've had some stretchy cramps too, they're very disconcerting.

@LucyCL Im glad to hear you are doing well and feeling relaxed, I think it’s a good decision to decide not to do the tests. Only a week to get through the 27/8 and then you can concentrate on your first appointment. You’ve got this!

@Blue2020 I had a week of cramps in this pregnancy and had loads at the start with my little boy, definitely completely normal and your bodies way of adjusting for everything that is about to happen. ❤️

I’ve just had my booking appointment via video call, we don’t get an actual appointment as well in my area. Now waiting to receive a letter for my 12 week scan so that will be the next hurdle. Trying to hold off having another private scan before then, will see how I go! Im feeling sick 24/7 so that is a good distraction (albeit not a nice one!!) - have stopped testing for a while now, progress! Xxx

@YouveGotAFastCar @CJ2021 its good to hear that it can be normal. I never had it with my mmc or DS, that’s the main reason I’m slightly concerned. Absolutely nothing with those. All that being said this is after having DS so maybe my uterus is slightly different for this pregnancy. I had a csection too but the scar feels fine.

@Blue2020 @CJ2021 @YouveGotAFastCar Actually I can also feel mild cramps starting from this week, similar to the ones between 8 dpo and 11 dpo. I was worried that something was wrong and I could have an ectopic pregnancy. Though I said I shall trust my body, I didn't because of the mild cramps. Today I went to the same clinic where I did the first transvaginal ultrasound (4 weeks and 4 days) for my 1st pregnancy to check if this one was in the right place. When I saw the clinic from far away, I suddenly felt grief for the first pregnancy. 😥After seeing this one being perfectly fine (5 weeks and 2/3 days), I felt like I killed the first one when it just started to become an embryo (I lost it at 6 weeks and 1 day). I didn't expect this to happen but it did, my grief for the 1st one.

@LucyCL thats good that this one is in the correct place. I didn’t know anywhere saw you before 6 weeks though?

Please don’t blame yourself. Miscarriages happen, most of the time it’s chromosome issues and your body realises it early on and it stops.

I used a different place for a scan for the second pregnancy. I couldn’t face going back to the same place that told me that there was no heartbeat and it was measuring too small.

Unfortunately the place I went to is the only one which does 5- 11 week early scan. 😕I didn't know I would be triggered in this way.
I booked my week 8 scan in another place so I hope I will not have to experience the same unexpected grief again.

Now I can totally understand why you chose a different place. 😔

Hopefully the next three weeks go by quickly for you. I think I will book a scan at 8 weeks too, I haven’t yet because we are planning a mini break that week so it’s figuring out times first.

Thought of the day:
I am going to stop using easy at home strips to test Hcg progession. Also seeing low figures on Mira can cause unnecessary panic. So I will only use RHR/CBT/BBT for monitoring purpose. I shall trust my body. Symptoms come and go. Positive thoughts!💙

I wonder how everyone is doing today.
I have not been feeling great. Lost my appetite 3 days ago which is a new thing to me. Today and tomorrow are the dates of my 1st MC (6 weeks and 1 day). That made me feel very uncertain about my body. I know that people on this thread have also experienced MCs 😢and it is definitely painful to remember these anniversaries. I really hope all of us are doing well and I am thinking of all of us here.

Such a tricky milestone to get through, sending love ❤️

I’m okay but have Covid 😭 so stuck in bed feeling rubbish with nausea on top of it all! Panicking a bit as with my CP I was really ill in bed with tonsillitis for a week and then started bleeding straight after. Giving me flashbacks I think 😢

Ah I am sorry to hear that you caught covid! Personally I don't think I have been tested positive for Covid however I know it is painful. Covid plus nausea and loss of appetite sound so bad. 😨
I am sorry it triggered your memory of loss. 😔
It is really hard to stay positive when you are suffering. Try to relax and do something you like to distract yourself. I hope you will recover soon! 💙

Thought of the day, not negative or positive
I have passed two milestones. Good news. But I am not enjoying this pregnancy experience because of sleepiness and loss of appetite. I am feeling not like myself and sometimes I wonder if I can make it this far and how women can carry their pregnancy to full term. I am at the stage where I don't want to read anything about pregnancy. It sounds negative but I am also grateful for not bleeding. That sounds like the lowest standard for a wish.

I have also done some research on MMC, another type of MC where you don't find any heartbeats but your body still thinks you are pregnant. I am doing this just to prepare myself for the worst if it happens in the future.

Even though I am thinking of the potential of having a MC, I still say this to myself "Today I am grateful for ...". This is to remind myself to be positive and take it day by day.

Ah @LucyCL. I'm really tired, too. The first trimester can be really hard, especially if you're on progesterone - I can't remember if you are.

You may find it gets better from 12 weeks, but also, it's absolutely fine to not obsess over it at this point and to put it on the back burner. It's growing away but it's really difficult to live it every day, and there's SO many days of pregnancies.

If I'm honest, I'd stop the research now, keep going with the grateful mantras if they help you, and get through the first 12 weeks. I'm trying to do the same thing. Nobody can control what will happen, but each week is a new milestone, and we'll get there. In the meantime, not letting it consume you might be really helpful. It's really hard, but I've found it gets easier - I started on Monday and today I'm finding it much easier. It's not easy yet, but it's getting easier.

I'm sending lots of hugs. It's so hard after a loss, and the road feels so long. My phone likes to remind me that I've got 33 weeks left every morning... that's so long! 2/3rds of a year.

I feel you completely! To be honest, it is hard not to see something MMC related because I occasionally check on mumsnet just to see how everyone is doing and I am also a part of a FB April group. I have seen one or two posting their sad news such as just finding out the baby passed away. I am feeling sad for them.

Also I really really really don't like feeling not myself. I am grateful about how I am at the moment and know that it will get better after 6/7 weeks. The bright side is I am not on progesterone and hopefully I won't need it in the future.

I used be a huge food lover and delicious food could make me so happy. Now the joy has been taken away from me and it really sucks. I am searching for a list of possible food options which I can enjoy. The combination of an empty stomach, sleepiness and loss of appetite is the worst! I found that out yesterday.
I woke up at 7 a.m and felt hunger but still didn't want to eat anything and wanted to sleep badly. Unfortunately, an empty stomach and loss of appetite forced me out of the bed and I had to quickly brush my teeth and made myself a cup of instant hot soy milk drink.

Nowadays I live on kiwis, oranges and brioche. Occasionally I eat one or two cherry tomatoes to remind me of how delicious food used to be. I also feel bloated and yawn a lot. I am only 6 weeks and 2 days. What will become of me???😶