Congratulations ladies. These are so lovely to see. I’m sorry that you’ve both been having a worrying time @Mrsspoon3 and @FigandHoney. Although I really, really loved your view on enjoying every bit of this pregnancy that you get @FigandHoney. My friend had a really high miscarriage risk and she focussed on cherishing each bit. She said if it was going to happen, it was going to happen and she was just going to enjoy what she could. Definitely easier said than done when you’re carrying past experiences, but it always stuck with me.
We’ve just moved my three year old out of the box room into her newly decorated ‘big girl room’. Incidentally we’re still with the same bare floorboards and grubby walls in our bedroom that we’ve had since moving in, but the guest room is nice now, as are her two(!!) bedrooms… But, it’s got me a little today.
The last time that room didn’t belong to anyone I was decorating it for my baby. I have the most beautiful cloud and star lampshade that I chose and such a lovely mobile with mountains on. It was a room put together with love and anticipation and now it’s empty but there is no-one in existence to go into it any more. There is no baby to fill it. It’s just an empty room where my baby was.
Today’s disclaimer: I know I’m lucky to have had a baby and to have had any of that. I know that there still may be a baby. I’m just a little flat right now. But that’s also probably the emotion of the last few days and him being home catching up with me too. But it’s hard to say to friends and family that you’re sad that you aren’t pregnant but also alright really.
So, thank you guys for being my safe peace today x