2023 TTC 35+ Part 5

[VixFromThe6ix]

Hi lovelies,

New thread!!

Please tag whoever you can so everyone knows we are here.

@Bumblebee413 😂😂 yes that's exactly how I see it! When I move it about and zoom in and out/tilt it. Both in person and the picture.
I suppose having done that yesterday morning if it is a bfp then today there's a chance my hcg levels haven't risen enough yet but I can't shake the feeling that it's an indent because the same thing happened again this morning. Well I guess I'm still not out until af shoes so the waiting game continues 🤷🏻‍♀️ thank you for replying though 😊 xx

I see a shadow....did this come up within the 5min mark? I find it hard to believe your have indents two days in a row

Shows* wouldn't want af in your shoes 😂😬

@VixFromThe6ix yes it did, both days within 5 minutes 🤷🏻‍♀️

Fingers crossed @spacewitch10 🤞🏻🤞🏻 !!!

@VixFromThe6ix thank you 😊 😩🤞🏼

@H0pefull did read the last few posts and saw yours, really hoped this was it for you. Fingers crossed its not over yet. The 1 year milestone is an awful one isn't it, you just reflect on what you don't have. Never would have thought it would take this long.

@VixFromThe6ix it could well be too early, just because it was picked up early in the previous ones I guess it doesn't mean it would next time. Will hold off testing until Sunday.

@Bumblebee413 thank you. Interestingly my hubby said why don't we just try listening to my body next cycle and dtd the day I have the most CM. This is off the back of 1. Only having 4 more Clearblue OPKs and really don't want to spend more money on them and 2. Being convinced the day I had the most CM would have been our best chance but without testing I really don't know. We didn't dtd that day as we'd been up since 4am going on holiday so I was shattered. I seem to have one day where I get a lot of CM then the next day I feel quite dry again 🤔

@CurlyWurly1991 it's worth it just to feel like some of the pressure is taken off you. It's a hard slog at times when you feel your life is taken over by testing.

@spacewitch10 fingers crossed for you.

@RoseH36 welcome back! Just thought about you the other day and wondered how you were getting on. Good to hear your updates, although I'm sorry you're a bit down/unsure about it all just now. We do put ourselves through a lot don't we.

@spacewitch10 I definitely see a shadow... keep us posted!! 🤞🏻 p.s. glad you found the thread again! I came across it by chance early on!

@SnookyPook thank you. We certainly do! I've bounced back this evening to trying to be more positive but it's such a roller coaster of emotions all the time. Hope you're doing ok?

Thanks you @SnookyPook 🤞🏼

@RoseH36 Hi, such a good idea to take some time out and not test in the last cycle. At the very least it’s good for your headspace but know that we are all here for you. It sounds like you’ve had a very tough year ❤️ Monday and Tuesday are still a few days away so like they always say, you’re not out until AF arrives. In the meantime I hope now that you’re under specialists they can provide more information to you/support/treatment if needed. You’ll be in good hands.

@H0pefull I really hope you’re ok today too and taking it easy. Hoping AF doesn’t arrive for you. Maybe plan something nice to look forward to the day that it comes to take your mind of things.

@spacewitch10 🤞🏻it’s your BFP

@BucksOxonMum welcome! 💕

I’m 3/4 DPO and going to test this weekend. I’m trying not to symptom spot as implantation wouldn’t have even taken place if I was lucky enough to have conceived this time around! @FigandHoney i know the feeling of wanting to wait to DTD until the week around ovulation so as not to exhaust yourself! I have a toddler so trying to manage all of that was quite something!

I'm so confused.... just tested again, cause why not?
Top test is from yesterday (not fmu), second test is from today (not fmu, but smu), lowest one is from today at 6pm.
What boggles my mind is the fact that last cycle I only saw a false positive at 6dpo and then it was blanks. But now it's 8dpo and I still see the line and it seems darker now in the afternoon??
I just don't know at what point this is trigger shot HCG and at what point would I be seeing my HCG because with my son I saw a line at 8dpo.
It's probably all trigger shot but it gives my stupid brain a hope that maybe it's mine. I have no symptoms.
Just wanted to vent.

thank you so much for all your messages yesterday, so nice to have this group and not feel so much on your own. Spent most of yesterday quite upset but No AF so expecting it today, will test tomorrow if still nothing 🤞🏻

I agree @VixFromThe6ix your bottom line definitely looks darker, everything crossed that it’s not from your trigger shot and the line continues to get darker for you 🤍🤍

hope everyone else is doing ok xxx

Currently 5dpo I think its so hard not to test and that I just want to wish the week away...onky 2nd month trying but its mentally draining ..been using preeseed this month aswell

@VixFromThe6ix I hope this is the start of something!! I would be trying to sit on my hands right now because if you test again in a couple of days you can be fairly certain it won’t show the trigger…. Wishing you loads of luck !!

13dpo possibly 14dpo here. Had ewcm here and there since ovulation. Bit paranoid I didn’t even ovulate when I thought I did (again) but have felt distinctly luteal phasey so fairly sure.
Last night I had a drop of red blood in EWCM which probably signals AF is on her way. Was feeling a bit different this cycle and allowing myself to get hopeful but… it is what it is.

Fingers crossed for you @CurlyWurly1991 🤍 hopefully you’re not out this month xxx

@Cressie2 thank you. I've been trying not to symptom spot as last cycle I was convinced I must be pregnant but clearly wasn't. All week I've had a dull aching sensation and a bit of lower back ache but also telling myself it means nothing as I've had that before.

@VixFromThe6ix the bottom line definitely looks darker. Everything crossed it's your time x

@RoseH36 i can totally relate. Last cycle was anovulatory for me and I put myself through the wringer convincing myself I was pregnant when AF was a day, then a few days, then weeks late. Vowed I wouldn’t do it again but then here I am symptom spotting again. I have that dull ache pressure but like you say I know this doesn’t mean much. DH has banned me from saying anything to him because I’ve got his hopes up before. It’s so hard!

I deffo see something! could be an indent, but then again maybe not, finger crossed for you

I have everything crossed @VixFromThe6ix and @CurlyWurly1991 xxx

Please all note how just yesterday I was sharing my tactics of keeping the crazy away. Today I am CD 24, best guess around 10DPO, due a week today and I’ve just had slight spotting in my CM.

So obviously my brain is going “Implantation bleed!! No way!!”. 🤦🏼‍♀️ so I think we can safely say that my crazy is now officially here to stay. I’ve been pregnant once before, but it was a surprise and I only took a test because I wanted to continue(!) drinking and just wanted to be sure my sore boobs were just my period coming. So I don’t know if I’d have even noticed last time. Who knows.

Only other thing is that we DTD this morning, so actually I may have just irritated my cervix. But implantation is a far more exciting thing to think, so I choose that! 😂

@Bumblebee413 I am crossing my fingers and toes for you!!! Isn't it nice to know that when we share our crazy with each other it's not actually all that crazy???

Speaking of crazy.... I'm obviously filled with hope now that I'm still seeing a line. I tested today and it's the lowest one. Kind of same as the third from the top when I tested yesterday at 6pm.
My crazy is long term.... I'm already thinking that when we are on vacation end of November it will be around 3mos mark and I should buy my son a big brother t-shirt for an announcement.
Make my brain stop, please. The highs are high (albeit delusionary) and the lows that follow are pretty low (mostly self inflicted due to too much hope).
Sorry I don't mean to be in anyone's face... I'm just confused. This medicated IUI situation is weird af. My LH levels finally went down the other day, then seeing the positives while knowing it's not my body making a he HCG it a mind fuck on its own.

It's ok to be hopeful. I think it's a healthier way to be than being negative. Yes, disappointment sucks afterwards but it makes the TWW a bit more bearable, imo. I also believe that you get what you put out. So please stay positive ❤️

@H0pefull crossing my fingers for you!!! No AF = still a chance !!

it's completely normal to let your mind drift, I do it myself. I always tell myself not to get my hopes up and not think too far ahead, i's human instinct.

Big hugs and baby dust to you xx