POAS: bodies are weird and stupid 🤦🏼‍♀️

[bringmearainbow]

@FfayeN @MrsJGrealish @LuckyMoonstone @Indianna2006 @usedtolovenaps @monsteramunch @bunnykins123

Thank you so much

CM has been much more than usual until today when it's been only a little bit more than normal. I hate this word but best to describe it is probably creamy. Boak at that word 😂

Thank you, it's so helpful to hear about other people's experiences as it's an absolute minefield mentally trying to navigate all of this isn't it

It's been a year and I've not had even the palest of lines yet so really am hoping this might be our month 🤞🏻

Getting my day 3 and day 21 blood results back this week which I'm nervous about but at least means we can adapt plans / tactics if necessary.

Also just realised that while I usually get acne in the few days before my period and a few days after, my skin is crystal clear... if I do say so myself! Probably just symptom spotting but it's so hard not to.

Well I did another this morning after chatting to DH last night and another line but I'm really not sure you know this one really looks like an indent imo. I think I might have to wait a few days. I might skip tomorrow and try Tuesday morning or even Wednesday. What are the chances of getting 2 indents in a row 🤔 the one yesterday def had a pink tinge to it but not until it had dried so I don't think it's reliable. IC still stark white but they are def not sensitive ones

@bringmearainbow Can you take a pic to compare the two?

@TheBirdintheCave I don't even think todays will show up on a picture it's a real squinter IRL. I was very thirsty before bed and def drank a lot of water which is not like me before bed so could just be too diluted 🤷🏼‍♀️ maybe ill do a 4 hour hold and try one more today because I'm just an idiot 😂 then leave it until tues/weds. Don't know why I got sucked into DH excitement I was going to wait until monday 😂

Best I can get. Top is yesterday and is still pink today is just hard to see so no idea. Yesterdays didn’t turn pink until much later at this point I think I’m in complete limbo 😂 why do I do this to myself

@bringmearainbow realistically, you are still so so early. I've seen many ladies on here have bfn at 8dpo and then have a bfp a few days later. I would probably step away from the tests for a few days and test again at 10dpo which will give you a better indicator of whether it's a true bfp or indent. Do post the pic though so we can take a look for you!

@bunnykins123 I know and do you know what I'm totally blaming DH for testing today 😂

Ok guys I feel a bit embarrassed to actually post this because I kept saying to myself don’t do another don’t do another but I did a wee it was dark so I thought fuck it and did another there’s a line and it’s def pink in person. Obv still very very faint. I feel like I can now leave it until Tuesday morning at 10dpo. I’m sorry for testing so early and making you listen to my is it isn’t it 🙈🤦🏼‍♀️ wish I was strong and could hold out till missing AF but I just can’t

@bringmearainbow That's definitely darker than yesterday! :D

@bringmearainbow 🤣🤣🤣 I knew you'd crack lol. It's deffo positive. I hope hope hope that it's a truly sticky one for you 🙏🏼 xxx

@TheBirdintheCave now let's hope this one sticks around 🤞🏼 how you feeling today?

@FfayeN I know I know I'm so predictable 😂 don't know why I kid myself really 🙊 gah me too I'm so nervous xxx

I think todays test is a smidge darker than yesterday but I’m not sure. I’ll let it dry a bit more then post a pic (only just done it, DS let us have a nice lie in haha)

@bringmearainbow I can defo see it on that test! Got everything crossed for you 🤞

@bringmearainbow your second test this morning is loads darker than the first, so it’s a good job you caved otherwise you’d be panicking 😅

@LuckyMoonstone just ignore my other message on the other thread you've updated here 😂

@LuckyMoonstone it just goes to show how much dilution matters esp in the early days 😳 I'm glad you got a lie in ours seems to have given up on his 9am starts and has reverted back to 7 this morning it was 6.40 🙄

@bunnykins123 ❤️

@bringmearainbow ill still reply on the other thread, for all the other people on there who love being bored to death by my ramblings 😂

Pic of todays test alone and with the others. It is getting darker the longer I leave it. But don’t forget all the others have dried up and gone a bit lighter so it’s probably making todays look really dark by comparison.

@bringmearainbow No more pain today and just some brown spotting so I'm hoping that's all I'll have.

I've been signed off from work for two weeks but am already feeling massively guilty about it (as there's technically nothing wrong with me) so will probably go back after one I think.

Mentally not so good today. There are so many possible reasons as to why I've had two MMCs and no way of working out what's causing them.

I don't want to do IVF but I feel like we have no choice as we're just completely out of time and it could be years before it happens naturally again for us because of how rubbish my husband's sperm is.

But even if we go for it (and had genetic testing done on the embryos) it could just be money down the drain if the root cause of the miscarriages isn't found first :(

And then even if by some miracle we did get pregnant via IVF I read that the likelihood of a live birth (even from a genetically sound embryo) is only 50/50 which is nowhere near the 75% chance with naturally conception. So... what's the point in even trying? 🤷🏻‍♀️

@LuckyMoonstone That is definitely darker than yesterdays.

@TheBirdintheCave it is soo hard not to feel guilty, but you need some time off. Take the whole two weeks if you need them. It’s an emotional thing as well as a physical thing don’t forget.
I feel the same as you, about the MC and IVF thing. I’m obviously getting pregnant, so I really need help with staying pregnant, IVF is pointless without that.

@LuckyMoonstone @bringmearainbow both your tests are darker..! How are you both feeling?

I'm thinking I might have a cyst. It hurt to DTD last night and my boobs are starting to get sore which weirdly is a negative sign for me.