POAS: bodies are weird and stupid 🤦🏼‍♀️

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@FfayeN @MrsJGrealish @LuckyMoonstone @Indianna2006 @usedtolovenaps @monsteramunch @bunnykins123

Amazing how everyone has such different PMS and pregnancy symptoms! My boobs are usually a little bit tender before AF but last month they were so sore it felt like they'd been punched by a boxer - felt all bruised and hurt to touch even just to get dressed!

I hope so much this is the case for me and that this cycle is a good one for all of us

@monsteramunch I do sometimes get sore boobs around AF but early-pregnancy boobs are on another level 😭 my poor nipples 😂

I have my booking in appointment next Monday! And I've booked a private scan for when I am 10 weeks so in 3 weeks time. I'll be so nervous I'll probably cry in the waiting room 😅 now I've thought about it I might move it forward to 9 weeks... but then I'll spend all my time between 9 and 12 weeks worrying that I'll lose it in that time.

@LuckyMoonstone It's going so quickly! :D The next scan will be here before you know it.

@monsteramunch I get sore breasts from around 9dpo. Every month it changes in its intensity though, I've had some months that they have been so sore and was certain it was a bfp (it wasn't)

@LuckyMoonstone how are you feeling? 10 weeks is a good call I think as it's much closer to that 12 week milestone.

@bunnykins123 I'm OK thank you :) nausea is strong for a few days, then goes for a few, then comes back etc. But the sore boobies are constant 😭😂

Opk still not peak but higher than this morning was really thinking it would peak tonight 🤷🏼‍♀️ maybe I'll ovulate Monday now who the devil knows 😂 guess there's still time for it to peak in the night in fact actually I think last time it was getting there in the evening and by morning was peak

We dtd for the last time this cycle last night. I am so tired of it and my insides hurt this morning so I'm very glad we have to stop 😂

Husband has to give a sperm sample on Monday so abstinence is required tonight 👍🏻

I've had two temp rises following that huge drop now. Surely I have to get cross hairs tomorrow 🙏🏻 The scan is around 2pm I think so I so hope I get it confirmed that way too. Just want to be in the tww 😂

Oh also, I've caught my son's cold 🙄

We finally have a bloody peak 🥳🥳🥳 i reckon that had I not drunk last night I would have had my temp drop this morning as it was in normal range still and I drank quite a bit. I'm not going to drink today 2 days on the trot is enough for me I can't do another day of drinking 😂 I'm a horrible lightweight 🙊

@TheBirdintheCave oh I hope you get that crosshairs 🤞🏼lol I hope you enjoy the break I remember feeling that way back in July after I had O I was like do not come near me for at least a week 😂

@bringmearainbow hooray thats great! What's your plan for dtd?
@TheBirdintheCave hope you get O confirmed with the scan

@TheBirdintheCave

Yay for DTD, fingers crossed for O and boo re catching the cold!

Do you have to drink lots of water or anything before the scan?

@bringmearainbow

Hurrah! Happy peak day

@LuckyMoonstone well dtd today and hopefully I can get a bit of seduction in for tomorrow morning before we leave 🤞🏼 so that will be 4 days in a row should be well covered!

@monsteramunch thanks lovely at the start of the month felt like I would never get here 😂 but timings wise it worked out well so can't complain

Now I just have to decide if I can manage hold off testing 🙈 we all know I'm very very bad at not testing 🤦🏼‍♀️

@bringmearainbow I knew it would happen this weekend for you 😎 Shall we make a pact not to test early?

@monsteramunch Nah it's an internal scan so empty bladder. Woohoo! I hate not being able to wee for ages 😂

@TheBirdintheCave ok ok pact made but DH has a birthday at what would be 12/13dpo depending on when it happens so I think I'll aim to test the day before his birthday 🙊 what a nice surprise that would be 😬 and tbf my lp is 11/12days so really I should know by then

Oh is it bad I much prefer an internal scan just so I don't have to have a full bladder 🤣 a full bladder scan is the absolute worst imo

@bringmearainbow @TheBirdintheCave 🤞 girls xx

It's come a bit out of nowhere but feel panic attacky again with the fear of it never happening for me. I really don't know if I'll be able to cope if it never does. I don't think I will. Sorry to be a downer.

@monsteramunch you're not a downer at all, I'm sure we've all felt like that at one point, I know I have. It's hard not to let it overwhelm you. Can you do something nice today to make you feel a bit better xx

Thanks @LuckyMoonstone

It's this sort of constant fear. We're TTC#1 and if it doesn't happen in some way, I really don't know how I will cope 😞

With my lovely mum today and she's given me the green light to regress into being a teenager and get taken care of! I'm so lucky to have her.

@monsteramunch aww that's lovely :) have you had a conversation with your partner about your options? When we were struggling to fall last year and had another MC we both agreed that we'd be happy to adopt if it came to that. But there are other options as well

@LuckyMoonstone

Thanks lovely

It's definitely something I'm open to as I'm actually adopted myself - my lovely mum is basically a guardian Angel bless her!

I have a physical health condition and long term injury that make me worry about getting approved. Both well managed and I still work full time, but mean I assume we wouldn't be top of the list by a long shot. He is concerned (for want of a better word) about the fact that bonding with an older child may be difficult and I don't want to downplay his concern about that as we've always known lots of adoptive families and every experience is unique.

More than happy to use donor egg / sperm / both too, DNA definitely isn't important to either of us, I think because I'm adopted, but completely understand other people feel differently.

If we do go the adoption route I've just realised I might live my whole life never meeting anyone related to me! I'm lucky that it doesn't bother me but what an odd experience that would be!

Hi everyone. A little update, I took another internet cheapie this evening and it was still positive 🎉 Although hard to compare with the one on Friday as I’d been drinking loads of water and pee therefore very dilute, it looks a little darker..
The anxiety over this is insane. Don’t want to test again but can’t help myself.

@pangolin84 fab line 😍x

@pangolin84 that's a great line lovely ❤️ it's so hard isn't it. How many tests do you have left? I found it much easier to step away from them when there were just no more to do

@monsteramunch The panic about having children is something I can relate to. It took us over a year to conceive our DS (after a MC) and the rollercoaster of emotions over that time was just another level. I’m pretty sure the stress of it messed my cycle up.