Tactical seduction and POAS addicts

[FfayeN]

Hi ladies. I have started to feel a little overwhelmed with our usual thread and we are at different stages of our journeys now. Please feel free to leave this one if you don't feel the same but I feel so invested in your journeys and don't want to miss any news. Hoping this is ok, I don't think you can do DM as a group?
Hope you are all doing well and if there's anyone I've missed from the usual bunch feel free to add 😘😘😘

@MrsCristianoX @TheBirdintheCave @Indianna2006 @theblueflowers @bunnykins123 @LuckyMoonstone @mummatara

@TheBirdintheCave ohh amazing! How are u feeling? Have u got any early scans booked in? x

@calimc83 I feel ok, just very sore boobs and a tiny bit of nausea (but not enough to be reassuring). Scan is on the 20th at 9.30 :)

@bunnykins123 I went to the toilet half hr later and it totally fell out so can safely assume it wasn't in at all 🤣

@MrsCristianoX oh nooo 😢 they are really hard to get in! 30mins was probably enough time anyway for the spermies to get where they needed to so I wouldn't worry too much!

Anyone else feel like you just can't cope with all the plates you are spinning at once? I feel like I'm about to have a total breakdown as every single one is just crashing around me. I'm a total people pleaser and everything seems to just be going wrong with everything atm I can't do anything right but I'm being pulled in so many directions it's no wonder really. Sorry to be a Debbie downer I just don't know what to do with myself

@mummatara yep that's why I'm 100% done with December. I haven't anything bought for Christmas, haven't a decoration up and can't even be bothered to DTD. I feel for you lovely

Oh @mummatara I feel the same which I know doesn't help you but just want you to know you're not the only one.

I'm so preoccupied with it and feel very panicky a lot of the time as we are TTC #1 and I'm 35 so I feel like I don't have ages to wait.

Having some tests next month which I'm looking forward to in one way but also terrified of as I'm not sure how I'll cope with bad news.

So I'm a Debbie Downer here too

And  to you too @MrsCristianoX

That was meant to show for you, obviously!

@MrsCristianoX I'm having such an arse time at work, I'm getting the brunt of mums crappy mood as she's struggling a lot and seems content to take it out on me, I can't be bothered with Christmas which is awful because I love Christmas but I'm dreading it and wish it wasn't happening, I've been trying to sort out my finances and although I can see a tiny dot of light everytime I look at the figure I'm like 😭 and DH although he is wonderful works a lot of hours so I'm effectively working full time with a 2 year old and trying to keep the house together and do everything by myself with the occasional help here and there. Im finding it hard to plaster a happy smile on my face everyday when I just want to tell everyone to fook off. Doesn't help I'm ill and my first due date is approaching on the 16th. Oh and I'd love to punch a few people at work too 😂

@monsteramunch surprisingly my TTC is about the only thing I don't feel like is slipping probably because I know I'm just waiting for AF at this point and nothing will happen until she does. Tests are hard as much as you want to know you equally don't want to know too ❤️

@mummatara @monsteramunch massive glass of wine for me tonight. Finally a weekend I'm not working. (With you on the punching a few people) my first due date is the 5 dec

Hugs for you both 💕

@TheBirdintheCave I'm excited for your test result! I have hope that everything will be ok 🥰

@mummatara yep...Debbie here too hun!! I don't want to go back to work, I am trying to plan New York, I feel like I'm stuck in a rut at home just waiting for these test results too and another 2-3 months of not being able to TTC, it's all just so shit isn't it!! I struggle with not really having many friends near where I live so get quite lonely too. Wow...that's not Debbie...I'm Barbara at the Bottom 🤣🤣🤣

@MrsCristianoX haha if it fell out it def wasn't in enough 🤣. I do the same as the others and give it a push up whilst pulling the tail, then squeeze my pelvic floor in the hope it'll suck it up more 😂. It's also taken me 4 days to put up my tree...small stints to get through it lol x

@monsteramunch with the majority of results there's something they can do to assist TTC or preventing miscarriage as much as possible! What tests are you having? I find knowing so much easier as then the guess work is taken away xx

I think I’m going to join the Debbie Downer club as my test line has disappeared (along with my sore boobs), so that’s chemical number 2 after the MMC 🙄

@mummatara sounds like you have a lot on your plate hun. It’s so hard sometimes. Especially juggling life with little ones. They do take such a demand. Zero free time like ever.

@MrsCristianoX deffo shouldn’t fall out. Be lucky if can get it out normally 🤣🤣 I found I could put it in and almost support it whilst I flipped it so it didn’t pull out further. Then once it was flipped I’d try push it deeper?

@pangolin84 oh no hun 😩 was it same tests you took where line has disappeared?

@pangolin84 what the actual f**k?? I'm so sorry hopefully it's a dodgy test but if not, you don't deserve this. None of us do. 😢

@Indianna2006 I mean it wasn't in right. I knew it. Didn't wanna fiddle too much. I'm sorely tempted to write this month off. But DH is being pure lovely to me ❤️

@Indianna2006 Yes just one of the same internet cheapy ones. On one hand I question why I keep testing early but I’d prefer to find out earlier rather than later.
Not sure how much more of this I can take.

@pangolin84 oh hun I'm so so sorry 😢 sending big hugs your way. It just isn't fair xxxxx

@pangolin84 I've just seen your update lovely. Have u had any bleeding at all? When was AF due? Really hope it's just a dodgy test xx

@MrsCristianoX I've gone for ice cream because my only wine option is red 🤢

@FfayeN oh hun it's so crappy when are you meant to go back? Can you take any extra leave? ❤️ if you want to dm I'm always happy to share my number we might be close by you never know and that goes for any of you ladies 💕but totally get if you want to be anon too

@pangolin84 oh no lovely im so sorry ❤️Are you sure it's not just a dodgy test I really hope it is big hugs

@Indianna2006 I know I'm usually pretty good at managing everything but I think everything's just come to a head this week and they've all crashed at once 🤦🏼‍♀️ I just took the dog for a walk which helped nice bit of fresh chilly air to help me cough my guts up a bit more 😂

@pangolin84 I'm really sorry :(

@calimc83 No bleeding yet and temp was still high this morning but my last chemical was exactly like this. The test got lighter then a couple of days later I started bleeding.
AF is due tomorrow - today is 13 dpo. Got some mild cramps too.

@mummatara bless you lovely, same goes for you! I'm back to work Tuesday, got an ok week to be honest, westlife Wednesday (don't judge 🤣) then our work christmas do Friday, I am just wanting to start the new year with some answers so wishing life away almost! I'm sure most of us do that for half the month! Glad the dog walk managed to clear your head a little 😊 xx

@mummatara 🤢 for the red wine too. I don't know what is wrong with me but I think if I had the morning after pill in front of me now I would take it 🙈 Just feel a bit like I can't do this again. Obviously I work in a pharmacy and didn't take it. Work is draining me too. Do you work in retail? Customers are dickheads. I was shamefully cheeky to a man on the phone today actually ringing to complain he couldn't get through to his doctor and could I sort it for him?? Yea sure I have his mobile 🙄

Im really sorry this is my rant over today

@FfayeN I have no close friends nearby either. I work 10 hour shifts and don't even get an uninterrupted lunch break. One of my closest friends messaged today and said it's been ages since we chatted and that just about sums it up ❤️

@FfayeN take that are my shameful secret 😂