🌈 TTC after miscarriage thread 9 🌈💕🤞⭐️

[bunnykins123]

@LuckyMoonstone @MrsCristiano @Astar21 @curliegirlie @emhope @HoneyPea @FfayeN @Mabelledox @Indianna2006 @mummatara @Skylark1990 @theblueflowers

New thread ladies - please add anyone I've missed 💕

@bunnykins123 thanks, I really hope that's the case for me. It's just a horrid limbo waiting game to see what the outcome will be. EPU need a referral from GP so I can't contact them directly, despite my previous losses. I'll call GP in a couple of days again if it gets heavier or doesn't stop. Hard to stay positive! I don't even have work or toddler to distract me today because I'm a teacher so it's school holidays for me while DC is at nursery. It's that horrid limbo waiting game.

@bunnykins123 not too bad thanks, although today I'm having back ache similar to when AF is about to arrive. I'm 9DPO so not sure if it's good news or she's on her way early with this months different shorter cycle 😒. Time will tell I guess. Now I wished I'd temped to have an idea.

@Margo34 I echo what @bunnykins123 said but it's so hard not to panic and you want to protect yourself by being prepared. I really hope the progesterone works and eases it the spotting 🙏🏼

@Westsussex count anything! I had one CP and 2 MCs and just said it was the 3, I know some don't include CPs but that's madness! You have to do what you need to to get answers. You should be able to get a good head start with the NHS. I really recommend getting the app so you can interrogate your results too, make sure they're optimal for conception not just within the guidelines 😘

@Indianna2006 how are you doing lovely? It's a new week and at least we will have our answer by the end of it whether we are in or out. Any idea when you're going to test? Xxx

Hey ladies,

Just wanted to introduce myself as I've been reading through some of your messages and it would be nice to talk to people who are going through the same thing.

Been ttc since October, got a bfp after 8 months of trying and mc about 3 weeks ago at 9 weeks 😞 it has been the saddest most difficult experience of our lives as I'm sure you can all relate. Going through the different stages of grief regularly, it hasn't been a linear process for me at all. Last few days I've started to feel more positive about the future though.

One thing that terrifies me is the thought of this happening again though. A part of me wants to get pregnant again very quickly and another part of me is scared to do so in case the worst happens.

I spoke to a counsellor about these feelings and she told me it's best to just try again as soon as possible and not to be stuck in this 'in-between' place.

Sending love to all of you xx

I’ve been a bit quiet on this thread this weekend as I’ve been so busy!
I’ve started to get this really insidious feeling that this is just never going to happen, I’m never going to get pregnant again. Up until now I’ve still felt hopeful, like it will happen soon if we keep trying. And now I’m starting to feel like it just won’t. And then when I imagine never being pregnant again, and never having another child again, it’s so painful 😕 but I genuinely just feel hopeless now. Maybe I’ll feel a bit better once I see a doctor (If they even offer to help).

@Margo34 I’m sorry spotting has started. Hopefully it is just pregnancy spotting. Did this happen in any of your other ones like the same?
EPU would only see you after 6 weeks anyway for a scan. But some GPS may check HCG for you before then.

@FfayeN 11dpo today. I’m really not sure. Haven’t decided yet. I am just thinking just awaiting period. I don’t want faint lines to quiz over. If it’s not gonna be it’s not gonna be. I either want a bold line or just get my period tbh.

@LuckyMoonstone I know all that feeling too well. The desperation. It’s what causes it.
but you don’t need to despair yet. I know your cycle haven’t settled quite as right from mc. But I’m certain there’s lots can be done and it may just be time it needs. And also stress could be affecting some of it. It’s a lot to go through.
you fell straight away an so neurally after like 5/6 months it feels like it will never happen as I was the same. But I’m certain it will.
not trying to downplay your emotions. Just trying to help keep that irrational fear in check cos otherwise we run away with it. An actually it doesn’t help us at all 🙈🙈

im crap at doing it for myself. But quite good at for other ppl. I have the same wobbles. It’s gonna prob take us 11 cycles like it did before or longer and each month if torture. And that’s just the first hurdle.

@Indianna2006 yep all my previous losses started the same way with light spotting. I just sought out my diary from pregnancy with DC1 and, although I don't recall it now, apparently I spotted at 5, 5+2 and 5+5 (once each day). I don't remember that at all though but I wrote it down at the time so must have done!

Really hoping for a happy ending for us all ❤x
@LuckyMoonstone sorry you are feeling low today ❤We all hear stories from people around us who get pregnant first time each time they want a kid and all goes smoothly (really happy for them), so for us it starts feeling like eternity when things take longer and when miscarriages happen - that is just too cruel :( Did you get pregnant quickly the first time?

I feel like a silent reader but I actually prefer reading and helping others instead of talking about myself. I am not running away form my emotions, talking to DP each day about all what happened, I talked to other people a lot at the beginning e.g. friends, people at work, counselor, but right now my brain and heart are going through a state where I want to turn away from my own story just for a bit. Basically, almost everyone annoys me these days and I am trying to figure out how to continue life without alienating every single person that I know 😅

@Pancake92 yeah pretty quickly all 3 times! Oh god I know what you mean about being annoyed by everyone but not wanting to alienate people, I have to battle with that every day too!

@Mariabombia hi lovely. I think I was on a ttc thread when you announced your pregnancy..im so sorry for your loss 💔 for me im absolutely terrified of another bfp, miscarriage or the dreaded brown spotting so am just taking it one day at a time now and going through the motions. Only CD5 but am about to start cycle tracking. That will do for now Xx

@Mariabombia I'm so so sorry for your loss 💔 I also miscarried at 9 weeks with my first pregnancy back in February, it is truly truly heartbreaking, I was shattered so my heart goes out to you. Nothing can prepare you for the shock of it, even when you know there's a possibility.

I took a month or two off ttc after that just to recollect. I got pregnant again very quickly once we started trying, but miscarried at 6 weeks in June. The second one i have to say was much easier. I didn't know what to expect but it being earlier and me being a bit numb after my first experience made it much easier, and I bounced back quicker. But now I'm stuck in that same limbo you're describing.

I am trying again but each month I don't conceive I find it really hard and I think that I just need a proper mental break from it all and to take a good few months off. That's sooo interesting what your therapist said though about the in between. I think that's such a good point. When I got pregnant the second time I just felt like order had been restored, it felt great, so I know I'll be happy as larry if I conceive again. As dark as it is I also feel if I'm gonna have another MC I just wanna crack on with it, I'm 34 and I desperately want at least two children so I feel the weight of the ticking clock pressing down on me...

Sending you all the love in the freshness of your pain, it's a journey but you've got this xxxxx

@Westsussex I think it depends on what trust you are under. I think the wait tends to be around a couple of months but could be sooner. You have nothing to loose. Do you have regular periods?

@Margo34 how are you doing today? 💕

@FfayeN hoping that AF stays away for you 🤞 ahh I think temping adds to the anxiety!!

@Mariabombia @Tor88 welcome to the group, I'm sorry you've found yourself here. 💕

@LuckyMoonstone i totally understand that feeling. I do think hormones play a part in how you feel as some days I feel ok and others I'm at a total loss at what to do next. Have you heard anything from the GP?

@FfayeN 😱😱!!

Well ladies, due on tomorrow. Hadn’t ordered any frers so I wouldn’t early test…

12dpo today. Took a cheap strip test. They are 20 mui sensitivity though so not early ones.

what do we think?! DH agreed he think it’s something.

@bunnykins123 thank you 🙏🏼.

@Indianna2006 I couldn't resist either and tested this morning with a FRER but nothing yet, 10dpo. BUT OH MY GOODNESS!!! I see something too! I really really hope this is a sticky one for you 🥰. Tentative, but also very very heartfelt congratulations. Got everything crossed xxxx

Morning to those of you I haven't said hi to yet, sorry you find yourself here, either for the first time or back again 😔.
@Pancake92 don't worry, do what feels right for you. I think we all go through cycles of wanting to tell our story and get advice and also those times when to offer help to other people helps us just as much too 🥰. Sometimes I can definitely out talk myself about this journey and it can become all consuming so I know how you feel.
We appreciate you here in whatever capacity you feel comfortable 😘 xx

Maybe a slightly clearer image.

come on lucky sunflowers 🌻🌻🌻🤞🏼

gonna try get a more sensitive test from savers and test again in the morning. Not sure I can be bothered to order FRER. I’ll see 🙈🙈

@Indianna2006 I see it! :O

@Indianna2006 I see it too 🤞🤞❤️

@Indianna2006 I can definitely see it!

@bunnykins123 no I haven’t been to her yet, it’s next Tuesday

@Indianna2006 yes I see it! xx

Oh god 🙈🙈 honestly not sure I believe it.

took us 11 cycles to fall before. An although I had a chemical straight away. Figured that was just a fluke.
this is cycle 3 since the chemical and expected months and months of BFN.

I darent almost even hope tbh but 🤞🏼🤞🏼

Sorry ladies I hope it's ok if I comment I couldn't just leave the thread I'm invested in your journeys and I just want it all to go well for you ❤️ @Indianna2006 eeeek I see it 🤞🏼 I really hope those sunflowers have given you the most amazing sign 🌻

@Indianna2006 I see it!! 👀 Fingers crossed for you 🤞🏼✨

@mummatara it's good to hear from you and hope all is going well 🥰.
@Indianna2006 are you having any other symptoms at all? xx

@FfayeN I’ve felt a bit crampy with backache yesterday and today. Like something is going on in there..

but otherwise nope nothing. Boobs normal. Feel normal otherwise