Hello ladies
Have been away from MN for a few days - family over, weekend madness - the usual!
Had my appointment with the consultant at the hospital yesterday.
Well...I am OFFICIALLY in LIMBO!
I have killed myself to get my bmi below 35 - yesterday it was 33.7 but yet ....as i thought it was for nothing!
Consultant looked through my paperwork, we talked through the miscarriage and the dates, looked at past blood test results...and then she said it.
'THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO FOR YOU RIGHT NOW!'
WHHHHATTTT!!!!!
I told her that yesterday was a 'point' in this journey and something had to happen to push my efforts forward.
What did she give me? NOT CLOMID? NOT A LAP AND DYE!
A DISCHARGE FORM!!! She bloody discharged me from the subfertility unit! Told me to go and try for another 6 months ( as I managed to get pregnant in Feb ) and then if nothing happens to get the GP to refer me back to them.
I pleaded with her that there must be something she could do, but she was insistent there was nothing. She wasn't prepared to do a Lap&Dye until 6 months time.
OH MY GOD! I think I might jump in front of a bus or something! ( not seriously)
In tears, I was taken into a separate room by one of the nurses - Sharon a lovely nurse whom has always been kind and understanding. I sobbed to her and let it all out. I told her that was it! And that risk or no risk, if the NHS weren't going to help me then I would have to take things into my own hands. So I told her that I already had some 50mg clomid tablets and that I was going to use them as I have to do something! I am NOT willing to sit about and let another 6 months dissappear with no result.
Bless her, she understood the desperation and advised me on the dosage of clomid and the possible side effects and gave me a bit on info.
It is sooooooooooo crap though!
I mean.....what the!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRR...........................