Hello everyone,
This is Sweetfudge from the home insemination crisis question of ages ago - Just want to post and say I'm hoping that the sore nipples then very sore boobs I've been having from 2 days after the inseminations mean only one good thing -that it has worked. I've had tummy cramps eight days post ovulation and am on day 11 now without cramps again. Normally, when I get cramps, AF knocks on the door the day after.
Boobs are like melons and dh is having a ball. He has been scrutinising them and says left boob is also larger than the other and there is a fine blue vein appearing. Ah! explains why I've been leaning slightly left into the wind lately.
Is that odd? Anyone else have lopsided veiny boobs as a possible good sign?Or am I turning into Quasimodo and eventually, the hump will make an appearance?
Dh wants me to test but I'm too nervous. The thought makes me sick actually. We've been zooming into London for months to pick up the sperm and high tailing it back to our place each time to inseminate - it has failed each time so far. The last failed attempt was particularly hard to bear since we thought it'd finally worked.
I'd become so frustrated at the time (an hour) it took between our donor producing the goods and it getting inseminated into me that we finally hired a van last time around (tried to make it cosy at back of the van but short of getting our bed in there, it was going to be quite uncomfortable) and we inseminate round the corner from donor's place. (I mooted the idea again of inseminating at his place but he was very uncomfortable with that - He explained that it was crossing a boundary for him).
Dh understands and I tried to. I know how much he is already helping by doing this for us and words will never adequately express how thankful we are for his caring. Yet some frustrated selfish part of me (the one that wants children so much) thinks "Crossing a boundary? We crossed that boundary 800 miles back! I'm being inseminated with your sperm, Man! This is no time to be squeamish!" It felt like I was being given the tools but not the means of using them effectively.
We were convinced it would work if we closed the time gap. I cried for days when it failed. Just sobbed like a stuck pig for days anywhere...in the shower, in the car, in the pasta aisle of Tesco, onto some paperback at Borders, you get the idea.
I think we'd reached the edge, looked over and just saw years of trying and failing whilst left right and centre, our mates were getting pregnant and having kids.
Anyhow, I'm going to wait till next Monday before I test - if AF doesn't come a knocking before then.
I think the signs are good so far - Any thoughts?
Send us good thoughts for this to work..finally. I send truckloads of babydust to all the members trying to conceive. May we all get the precious +ves we dearly want and dream of.
Sweetfudge