TTC - Ovulation etc.

[MrsRosaline]

@newtolineofduty @hoola23 @LittleDoveLove @wannabeamummysobad

Think we need a new thread as I tried to post on the old thread and it wouldn't let me!! Please tag in anyone else I've missed who may want to join us here!

@MrsRosaline hi lovely, I've been thinking about you lots. I hope you're ok, it really is such a hard thing to go through. I still think about it a lot but I'm just trying to push through and trying to be as realistic as I can about things. There is no right or wrong way to be so please let yourself grieve.

Well I thought my ovulation was going to be delayed this month but then it suddenly came on. I think I was 1-2 days delayed in the end and ovulated cd15 normally I'm 11-14.
My bleeding only lasted maybe 2 days and it certainly was not a normal period at all. Extremely light so somewhere between spotting and AF so I just think this cycle is a bit confused. When AF starts then maybe it will reset and I'll go back to an earlier ovulation. Because of the later ovulation, my cycles are longer now so this month should be a 29 day cycle and I'm normally 25-26. I have little hope for success this month due to this but that's ok, it know it will happen again and I just have to stay positive. Xx

@hoola23 @plantbasedlondoner had a lovely chat with DH and we're just going to stop the tests again, I'm not going to check my cervix and we're just going to DTD when we want to. I may not even track CM and just see how I feel. I think my body clearly isn't in the frame of mine and I'm trying to force it, which isn't the best thing.

Also ordered some serums and cleansers for my face from my favourite website (tropic) so I get to do a mini facial every morning and evening before bed. Also decided to spend time each night ready a book or a magazine and not on my phone all the time. Taken up Pilates again on a Thursday so really focusing on my mental health 🙂

@wannabeamummysobad honestly it's all such a huge journey and you're constantly feeling every pinch or twitch. I was TERRIFIED when DD wasn't moving and then found out she was dead lazy 😂😂

Oh that's interesting. Mine was slighter heavier bleeding, but like a normal period. Lasted about a week, so was slightly longer than my normal period too.

It's so good that you can think positively like that. I go through patches where I get excited thinking 'Well it'll happen again at some point' and then other moments where I'm not OK at all. I am using the Clearblues again, and they've all been "low" every morning. It's so frustrating! Did you try much this month or were you more relaxed? I hope you get your bfp soon xx

@MrsRosaline I wasn't as far along as you though so that's prob why. Think I was 4+5. Oh believe me, I have those days too hun. It all feels so unfair doesn't it. I try to limit my emotions on it and think realistically in that this is our bodies way of protecting to an extent. It's usually because something is wrong and I would much rather know as early as possible than learn something was wrong later down the line. I really just have held onto the fact that I got pregnant because I was convinced I never would get there. I still feel sadness but it's more around the not being pregnant part rather than the loss. But it is hard, so it's completely normal to still have those feelings. Just think how incredibly special and loved your baby is going to be when you get there. Keep the faith!

Yes mine were low for ages too! I usually get a high cd6 or 7 and didn't get my first high until FD 12 I think! Then I quickly got peak. I'm normally high for about a week so that was odd! We did try but I wasn't militant about it 🤣 I think we managed DTD 3 or 4 times and missed my second peak day as I just wasn't really into it this month so don't expect much. Was way more relaxed and that allowed me to actually enjoy sex for the first time in about a year. I'm actually not dreading the next fertile week now as I really do feel more relaxed. Well I will when this bloody week is over! The TWW will always be my enemy!! Sending you a massive hug! X

@MrsRosaline lovely to hear from you chick! How are you doing? Are you looking after yourself? 🧡

@MrsRosaline lovely to hear from you-I've been thinking about you lots and wondering how you've been coping. It's just so awful. I'm so anxious at the prospect of a loss that I'm almost worried about being pregnant! I'd echo everything @hoola23 has said though especially in terms of finding out early but I know it can't make it any less sad.

@CShandy01 that's so lovely you've had a lovely chat with DH and your mental health plan sounds great. I did the same with temple spa stuff when we moved out whilst renovating our house and it was lovely-i used to put spa music on too and it felt like proper self care-even had a face massager! I need to get back in to it! Great news about the gym too. I've started up combat again and feel so great for it! Xxx

No symptoms for me yet-will let you all know if my coffee tastes like piss at any point! 😂

@CShandy01 that sounds like a fab plan! Check you out! I'm sure you will feel better even just after making a plan! Whatever works for you is what you gotta do! X

@MrsRosaline lovely to hear from you and sending you strength - it is such a tough thing to go through as no one else knows at that stage so the ups and downs are so natural. I hope it gets better with time. As @newtolineofduty says, the prospect of the loss is so worrying but I think that fear can really hold us back and it seems like there are generally so many tricky points to navigate throughout TTC, pregnancy and after.

@CShandy01 Sounds like you are doing exactly the right thing and taking care of yourself right now - modern life really sets us up to be chronically stressed so I love the idea of switching off and actually making time to do things like facial/ massage. I am trying to put away my phone earlier, light a candle, relax in the evenings and then having lots of warm herbal teas too... DH likes to sleep late so trying to get him into a pattern of earlier nights now it is so dark already too!

Thank you @hoola23 for sharing your experience. I get what you mean about not being pregnant. I'd just wrapped my head around the pregnancy and then it was gone overnight! I've got my fingers crossed for you anyway. They do say you are more fertile after a miscarriage..

@newtolineofduty @CShandy01
thank you! I get what you mean. Part of me wonders whether to just stick with my daughter and not try again as it's all just so much!!

@plantbasedlondoner are you vegan? So am I.. although it has crossed my mind that could be interfering with things. I was simply a vegetarian when I had my daughter four years ago!

@MrsRosaline thanks for sharing, yes I am vegan and am also a nutritionist (don't know if that is TMI to share on here... wanted to avoid saying it!) so definitely don't have any worries about that :) I have seen hundreds of ladies in my clinic practice conceive without an issue and have healthy vegan pregnancies (lower risk of pre-eclampsia, gestational diabetes etc). Although no diet guarantees anything with pregnancy of course... It is irresponsible to say so. Key thing is to get a variety of whole grains, beans (e.g. tofu), fruits, veggies, nuts and seeds and room for some treats too plus a good prenatal, regardless of whether one eats meat/dairy/eggs/fish :)

Can I just say guys that you have all really got me through these last few cycles when things have been really tough, or when I've felt down and had no one to really talk to. So thank you for listening and saying such lovely things. It really is important to build each other up, and we all do just that 💖💖💖

@CShandy01 That is so lovely to say and I feel completely the same 💖 This is such a special and nice part of the internet!

@CShandy01 I completely agree! This is one hell of a rollercoaster but knowing you can offload or talk things through really makes all the difference! Especially for all those times we are driving ourselves crazy!! ❤️❤️

Aww @CShandy01 you too! We really do have a good little group going!

Soooooooooo are we team morag or Luke now!? And franky and marilyse wtf!? X

@newtolineofduty i missed tonight's episode. Will watch on catch up but I still dislike morag a lot!

I still need to start watching this!! Kids at school are setting up groups depending on their teams! 😂😂 it's like team Ange or team Jen all over again!!!

@CShandy01 haha wow! X

Morning everyone! How are we all doing? Think I've caught DD's cold so I'm currently sneezing like a trooper....trouble is, and this is FAR TMI so sorry...every time I sneeze it's like AF comes out full force 😂😂😂 I'm a walking wreck!!!

Thank you lovely ladies for your well wishes and support- this one of the things I appreciated the most on the original thread.

Everyone keeps saying the stress only gets more but different when baby arrives as you are then hoping you don't mess them up/they become fully functioning members of society. Upside to that.. DH experiences this as well 🤣. Right now he is a great support (emotional, chores etc) but given he does this drinking wines I personally selected and can no longer drink... we aren't in this together 😂

@wannabeamummysobad I was so jealous every time DP ate blue cheese or pate! 😂

I'm hacked off this morning! Me and DD were in contact with someone at the weekend who has tested positive so at home trying to work with her whilst we figure out the implications! X

@newtolineofduty oh no! Do you have any laterals to check?

I'm safely saying I'm out this month so there will be no "observations" or testing by me at all. Just want AF to arrive now

Oh no @hoola23 what makes you say that?

We have some LFTs which we've done but I don't think they're very reliable! Apparently we don't need to isolate but we need to be cautious and work want me to work from home etc x it's definitely taken my mind of off TTC/pregnancy though which is nice! X

@newtolineofduty hopefully they stay negative! Oh I just know for sure I'm not, can't explain why just trust my gut. It's 99.9% always right!
It's this week that I hate, I usually make up my mind by 9dpo and know what the outcome will be. Never been wrong once yet!🤣

I'm feeling really pissed off today. I don't know why I just feel bloody irritated and unhappy. Possibly because I've accepted this month was a fail and then the thoughts of is it going to be another year before I conceive again?! I know that's ridiculous and I need to get a grip! I didn't think I was that bothered about getting pregnant this month but maybe I am? I just feel confused. Defo the hormones! Think I'm just crabby!