Month 12, 6 DPO, fed up and loosing hope

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Hi all,

I apologise in advance if this post is negative but I'm so so fed up with TTC. We have been trying for 12 months and haven't even had a hint of a line. My three best girlfriends (and soon to be bridesmaids) have all announced they are preggers this past month. Whilst I'm genuinely ecstatic for them I'm hurting so much as I don't believe it will ever happen for me.

I had to take a few days off work at the start of the week when the third told me they were preggers as I was just so overwhelmed and upset. A few days eating rubbish and watching Netflix made me feel a bit better but I have just lost hope that I will ever see a second pink line let alone have a baby.

I'm currently 6DPO and even though I know I won't be pregnant I'm still working myself up about it. I (stupidly) did a test today which was obv a BFN but it's like I can't help myself. It like a weird form of self torture!

I'd be so keen to talk to any hopeful mummas in a similar boat - let's keep everyone sain!

xxx

@Loops01 100% and adds more pressure too. Like if it was that easy I’d be holding a baby by now 😂 This is cycle 14 for me and I swear if someone who knew that said “I think you’ll be pregnant next month” I’d lose the plot!

If the book Jen is talking about is the one written by a couple, one part by him and one part by her, I think they were on that BFN podcast. If it’s the one I’m thinking of it’s all about IVF for couples though not general TTC x

@Amy259 that's good he's at least had work to keep him busy! A family wedding and a trip to Jersey sounds lovely! Yeah that's a lot for you to do on your own! And you must have missed him lots! Honestly; sometimes you think about Covid and it's just like, this is crazy!

My jeans are a tad on the tight side right now haha so I need to pull myself together ASAP!

I was spotting for about a week after HyCosy but nothing since!

@Loops01 the book is called "Get a life, his and hers survival guide to IVF". So yeah it's specially IVF but i did some searching the other week and there are others for general TTC. I really enjoyed it though and read it in a few days. Now my OH is reading it and I think it will really give him an insight. Even I didn't quite know all that was involved, it's a lot!

Glad you had a lovely time in Edinburgh! Any recommendations? I hope you had some nice weather down there too! Xx

@HJen22 I just always base it on the jeans - they never lie, even when I want them to 😂

I only spotted for a couple of days, but I got the occasional cramp/twinge for about a week. I felt very traumatised from it if I’m honest haha, every wee twinge takes me back to the pain! She put her in notes that “extra pressure was needed to force the dye in the right tube to spill over” - you don’t say 😂😂

That’s great that the book has given you loads more insight, hopefully it means OH can understand it all better too. I think DH would need that, he tries so hard to understand but how can they when everything is so focused and aimed at the woman. They don’t get given a chance to understand! Xxx

@Amy259 I know, leggings (which I'm always in) are too forgiving! The jeans don't lie, sadly 😂😂😂 I put on a pair the other day and they were so tight they were painful haha but the kick up the butt I need! I'm enjoying getting back into the gym and means I can see my friend more too!

Ouch it sounds so traumatic! I was a bit traumatised after mine and it was no where near as bad as yours! But at least it's over and done with! Are you tracking with OPKs this month did you say? I'm going to leave any tracking and just DTD when we fancy. I really haven't been in the mood after the news but will try and pull myself together after this months AF.

I know you're so right! The book actually talks about that; how the mans job is regarded as easy and simple, and it's so interesting to read from a man's point of view. I will now be aware to not make my OH feel like that. Supporting me emotionally is a HUGE job in this journey, I often feel very bad for him having to put up with me! Xx

@HJen22 yeah I think I might, just in case the hycosy changes things - but I doubt it will/can though?? I loved not tracking last month so I’d rather not but my body feels a bit different (is that mad? 😂) so I don’t want to just rely on the normal signs. I won’t be logging them for the values or anything, I think I’d just feel better to see a dark one around when I think it should be dark.

I’ve definitely been guilty of getting frustrated at DH in the early days about how I (as the woman/obsessed one) am the one who tracks, symptom spots, pees on sticks, sees the bfns etc etc. But he gets it now, and importantly he gets that he can’t possibly “get” it from my side. And likewise, it’s so much pressure for them and I was guilty of forgetting that at the start xxx

@Amy259 yeah it's been nice not to track for me too, although the aftermath of the appointment not so good! I know people still manage to get pregnant waiting for IVF and we will still try, and I know I usually ovulate between days 9-12 so will just try and DTD as normal. But I don't want the pressure I normally put on it.

I know, I was the same. Many of times I was like you don't understand; how can you, you're a man, you don't have to do these things etc. Poor guy! My OH has also been so supportive, in the past it's been my fault for not saying how I felt until I reached breaking point just expecting him to know. He really deserves a medal for putting up with me!

I got my letter through about counselling today. I'm going to see that as the next step and try and stop waiting for post and worrying, one step at a time I guess. I can't worry constantly for the next 4-6 months and then god knows how it will all be when the process actually starts. Bit worried I'm not going to cope emotionally but I'm trying to do all I can to relax and not stress. Xxx

@HJen22 you will cope! You're doing great and I think the fact that you're open to counselling will be really good. You will have a chance every month (although it might be harder or slimmer than when you have ivf). It's not guarantee but if you're still healthy then you have a chance. A good chance. We have all thought and said those things to dh! I still quiz him about my cycle to see if he knows roughly what day I'm on or what's to come. It may be harsh but at least I know he is tracking and caring in a sense. Before the last maybe 3 cycles he had no idea because he just didn't think. Not in a nasty way and it's not that he didn't care but he just doesn't deal with anything that requires much thought or emotions.

I have one friend who is also ttc (by not really doing much in my opinion as in doesn't know much at all/research in any way) and when I do speak to her about not being or getting pregnant she still speaks to me adoption and it kills me. It's an option and I get that but in my eyes there are so many different things out there. I wish people were more supportive and understanding. This should be something spoken about and educated. Ivf shouldn't be seen as a 'oh she can't get pregnant this is her last chance'. It's not. It's a chance. Like the chance we have every other month. It's great that it gives healthy folk (like yourself and maybe me!) and those who have real difficulties a great chance. I wish people understood better and made us feel better about it.

@Amy259 when is dh free and when is it you're away again? Hopefully you can keep off ttc stuff and relax!

@HJen22 I’m so jealous of your early ovulation 😂 mine is day 16-18! The time between af and ov drags so much.

Counselling will be so great - it can only be good to be able to vocalise all your fears and worries to someone without worrying how it’ll affect them or if they’ll dismiss it. Is there a waiting list for it or will it start fairly soon?

@Loops01 that’s so funny that your quiz him - my DH would be like Amy wtf? 😂 I would bloody love to be ttc without researching, your friend must be so chilled. To me it’s mental to even think about adoption at this stage - there are literally so many things to choose to try before that. I wouldn’t even entertain thoughts like that!

We are free from tomorrow! But are back together in the same room now haha, which is so lovely! I’ve not gone 9 days without hugging him since 2016 - and I don’t plan on repeating it any time soon. It’s Sunday we go to Jersey, just for 2 nights but I can’t wait to chill by the sea with some seafood and a glass of rosé!

@Amy259 I have quite short cycles and mostly have since coming off the pill, but I think that's a sign of what I now have been told I have and the fact my AF seems to have come lighter. Nevertheless we'll keep trying as as they say, it just takes one good egg!

I have my first counselling session 24th September and I just emailed about it last week so a month wait isn't too bad! I've got the nutritionist call tomorrow (might have a sneaky mcds tonight then haha) then acupuncture 13th September then call 24th so it's making me feel a little better things are planned.

Aw yay I'm glad you guys are back together 🥰 that must have been so hard! I hope your OH is feeling back to normal too! And you've your family wedding and jersey to look forward to ❤️

@Loops01 I can't believe your friend would so flippantly (and obviously not really be thinking about it) speak about adoption at this stage! You are right, so many different options and we all need to be positive! I know, lots of people really don't understand the struggle of TTC when sometimes some lucky people have a stress free time trying. Of course we'd all love to have had that nice easy journey to pregnancy but sadly, we don't. I'm sorry she doesn't sound very understanding of what the situation xxx

@HJen22 to be honest I haven't really found many folk to be supportive. They don't want to admit that it's difficult for different reasons. Like family are desperate for me to have a kid (I'm an only child). Dhs family have his sister who is due in a few months so they don't really ask (they are super positive people who never speak about anything negative as it just doesn't exist...!). My friends who aren't at the ttc stage are great as they are going through break ups etc so they get the misery loves company thing but don't really get the ttc difficulties. My other friends either have kids (from a lot of trying or barely any literally one of them had one of their ovaries removed and conceived within a few months) and they oddly enough just say 'it'll happen when it's meant to' etc. My friend that I'm talking about doesn't want to think of anything being difficult as she has a lot of mental health problems so when she is down it's not good. I do worry about her mentally coping with a child but her family are supportive. Work are all pregnant or have had no issues so they don't ask.

Interesting what you say about your AF! I had no idea. Mine are shorter and lighter than before pill but otherwise my ov is 16-18 days in also!

@Amy259 apart from sex he won't speak, research or do anything regarding ttc. Mainly cos he is like the rest of his family and likes to stay positive and when it's not positive he says nothing! He's a difficult nut to crack at times!! So if I don't give him anything to do then he will act like nothing is happening. I can't deal with that!!

Roll on tomorrow!! Your plans sound great!! Bet you can't wait!

@Loops01 oh it is hard when no one seems to understand 😔 I'm sorry you don't have much of a support! That can't be easy! You have us girls though ❤️ it's such a hard thing to go through and people just don't get it unless they've experienced it. It can be so lonely and I often feel like I'm going mad!

I mean I've read that on google so it's not exactly what I've been told by a Dr and also when I googled there it says heavy menstrual cycles which I def don't have, so who knows. So don't take what I'm saying as gospel!!

@Amy259 our chat with AZ has closed! It says thread is closed. I don't know if we've just been posting too much. Do we create another one or tag AZ in here????

@HJen22 how have you been now? I've still not had a letter through for hycosy, do you remember how long yours took? It's been over a week now. Prob just thinking too much about it!

@Loops01 hey 👋🏻 how are you? I'm good thanks, AF arrived a couple days later than expected but I'm feeling ok as didn't try this month, didn't need that added thought after the appointment!

I've taken a look back, I had my first call 1st June, I called a few weeks after, think about 3, to ask and they said the letter was on its way and to call when I received it. Think the way they work it is to send them when the appointments open up for that month and there's a 2/3 month wait, from my start or June referral I had an an august appointment. So hopefully you'll hear in a week or two if they expect your appointment to be in October? Xxx

@HJen22 thank you! Very much! I'll give it another week then I'll call if I don't get anything. They did say 3 months but I was hoping to try and get it a wee bit sooner but we shall see! Do you know why AF was late? Hycosy maybe? Do you know how many dpo you have in general? I'm also 10dpo and I'm 9 today. Had a few twinges but it was the same last month. Going to get back running again as of tomorrow morning (hopefully if I'm not held on again!) so tested today and it was a negative. Thought it would be! Just don't know how to keep going on every month. As in is it worthwhile just paying for some sort of treatment now instead of waiting another 15 cycles. It'll be just more than double what I've done already. The thought!

@Loops01 I doubled checked and yeah the letter was dated 21st June so it was more on the 2 month wait than 3, it was just that I couldn't go til half way through August cos of AF! I hope you hear soon! And if not yeah just give them a call, whenever I've called they have been nice 😊

I googled and I'm not sure it should make a huge difference, I didn't track or confirm ovulation but it was better at a 27 day cycle rather than 24! DPO chops and changes, think normally 13+. I'm so sorry you had a negative 😔 it sucks doesn't it!

I know, the waiting is the worst! I think for private tests it would require looking further afield but im sure Glasgow would offer it? I know Aberdeen doesn't offer HyCosy private cos I asked for the same reason; I wanted answers quick!

I miss my old self, the relatively care free happy person without major worries. I had my nutritionist call on Friday; she's got me on a gluten free, dairy free, alcohol, caffeine, sugar free no fun diet 😂 she organised for me to do bloods to check all sorts of things and I'm waiting for another kit to arrive that's a urine sample for testing hormones. I've a follow up in a month - of course all of this was at quite an expensive added cost but at this point I'm willing to try anything!!!

@HJen22 I totally understand you! I don't know who I am anymore. I know it'll be worth it but it's also like I'm just a shell of myself. I cope but life is difficult to find happiness that isn't a dependency. Eg yeah in happy in my relationship but there's not really have many happy moments any more. Not sure if I said but I'm getting a role change in work that I asked for so I'm hoping that means I can see dh and friends and family more often! It's happening on Nov 22nd so it is something definite to hope for any look forward to.

That diet seems ridiculous 😂 and definitely not fun. I guess you don't mind paying the money as you know it'll benefit you and hopefully make you feel better. I definitely found that I felt better and had more energy when I ate well. It is expensive and difficult to keep up when routine changes! I'm intrigued to hear how you get on though! The headaches you'll get for the first week though 😂. What does she say about natural sugars like fruit - don't have too much or is it the only thing you can really eat haha

@Loops01i totally feel the same 😞 but I hope one day we'll look back on this time and see we were strong and didn't give up and that it was all worth it in the end 🥰

Oh that's really good, congratulations! And something to look forward to and focus on! Be great to spend more time with loved ones as I think it's what gets me through! I'm a bit unmotivated with work at the minute, it's been quite quiet so hoping it gets busier soon to keep my mind occupied!

I know, crazy! But if it helps me conceive naturally or aids IVF I'm willing to try anything. Although, it was a gift I'd perhaps not have done myself - as I knew it would be loads of effort. Fruit I'm allowed just limit to like 2 bits a day, I'll have fruit like berries and coconut yogurt and nuts for breakfast or an apple and nut butter as a snack. It's cost loads to get stuff as a start but in a way it's making me focus. If anything it will just make me healthier. I'm not even to have things like gluten free pasta or anything yet, but I'm allowed rice and organic new potatoes 😂 and she told me to buy a loaf of gluten free bread for when I need it! Oh and I'm allowed gluten free Nairn oatcakes haha. The no alcohol I don't really mind as I've not been that fussed for the last year and a half anyway other than on a sunny day really. This way I've been told not to so I don't feel boring leaving my OH to have a drink on his own. And he's being super supportive, saying I should give it my all as it's for sure worth a try. More so because I've been told I need IVF i'd like to try anything to perhaps avoid that.

Hi girls 👋 how are you all doing? I haven’t read this entire thread but relating so much to the OP I thought I’d jump in!

Currently 2 years TTC, awaiting HyCosy appointment at Aberdeen fertility clinic. I’m so afraid of the test itself, never mind the possible outcomes!

To top it off my best friend announced her pregnancy without TTC, I don’t know how much longer I can cope, I feel so alone and worry I’ll never get my BFP. Feeling comfort in reading some of you ladies posts xx

@HJen22that doesn't sound too bad! Every dayshift I have very similar fruit and yoghurt. It's my favourite. Other than that it's weetabix with fruit and nuts. I don't drink milk in any way so it's my only real dairy since I don't really eat cheese any more (cry). It is a certain type of rice or just any? Things like nut butters are so expensive and sometimes it takes a while to get used to them. I tend to make all my meals but do snack more often now on sugary stuff but I'm gonna try to get back to how I was! I get you with the alcohol. I was out with dh and his mates the other night after a busy shift and very little sleep and I wasn't going to drink then I thought I'm gonna need to if this goes on a while. Didn't have many though.

@User1400 welcome! What's your story? I'm liking that this is very Aberdeen heavy now haha. Have you got your hycosy date? I'm sorry to hear about your best friend. One of my best friends is trying and I'm dreading the day they announce even though I would be happy for them.

I keep looking at insta like #bfn or #ttc and I am struggling to find many folk who have been trying for so long without a diagnosis or a mc. I don't know how long to keep going for before I need to push for more. Like if all is OK then why is it not working. Unless it is genetic issues. Its mental! I have my SIL due in a month in a bit. It makes me sad that we were trying before her and now we are here...

@Loops01 Sounds like I may be similar to you, TTC #1 2 years and nothing! (No MC, no BFP). My partner and I have had the routine GP tests which came back fine.. if we’re fine, why hasn’t it happened?! How long have you been TTC? Sorry, I am sure you have already explained earlier in the thread.

I don’t have a date for HyCosy yet, I am so scared at the thought and potentially going through IVF etc, I just want it to happen naturally! (As I’m sure we all do).

Totally understand about your best friend, as much as I am happy for mine, it makes me sad for me 😭. I have other friends who are TTC and I just know they will conceive before me, I find myself dreading these conversations and having to hide my devastation. It makes me feel like a bad person!

I am not generally an emotional person but through my TTC journey I have been an emotional wreck. My partner is supportive but I don’t think he truly understands how much I am struggling, sometimes I just cry myself to sleep, it feels like everyone is getting pregnant but me. Even I am getting used to this hyper sensitive version of myself, so I can only imagine how hard it is for him to navigate.

Sorry, I feel like I am really laying it all out here, but it feels good rather than having to put on a brave face xx

@User1400 no lay it all out! I totally get it.

I'm going into cycle 14 on Thurs. No whiff of a positive. No mc. No pain or symptoms of anything apart from cd1 where I bloat a bit and a walk or hot water bottle for a bit helps the little pain. Had scans and all fine. Dh checked and he was better than fine. I don't get it. How long are your cycles? I'm roughly 28-31 days with a 10 day luteal phase. I've tried EVERYTHING (apart from vaginal steaming). I'm looking forward to the hycosy as in my eyes it'll either explain why it's not working or it'll all be fine and hopefully clear out anything in the tubes and make them better 🤷🏼‍♀️. I don't mind the pain aspect or anything like that. I actually can't wait to give birth (to this baby I don't have 😂). Ive always had a high pain threshold and just like to bare things out really.

I get you so much with dh and I have been there. We've had such arguments I told him I'm happy to end the marriage as I felt so little support. He isn't a talker nor a negative person whereas I am. He was keeping it all inside and just broke down when I said that. It was clear that we were both dealing with it differently and couldn't understand each other. It's horrible and I hate what it's done to me as a person and my relationship. It's still strong as we were able to talk and work towards going through this together but it is not easy and I still think that he doesn't truly understand but it's not his fault for being different to me. We've worked together so now I pee on the sticks and he records them. I ask him where I am in my cycle so he knows what to expect. We've done it for 2 months now and it's really helped me. He just doesn't speak about the fact that it doesn't work and it's like we aren't trying at all in a sense because he doesn't openly speak about it. Some

I mentioned before that in the past 7ms now I think I've had 16 pregnancy announcements. One is SIL, a few are friends (not close) but the majority is work. I'm literally surrounded by them. It's really tough. Some days are better than others. I don't cry every day now but I did for a good space of time. I've just kinda accepted that it won't happen and we are going to plan for ivf privately or just wait til 2023. Personally I'm not fussed about ivf it's more it not working that gets me. It's fine to wait in a sense but waiting for something that doesn't work will really throw me off.

Keep your head up. It's OK. I hope we all get there soon and people on here are so supportive. I don't know how I would have managed without this!

@Loops01 yeah to be fair its not THAT bad, although I only started on Friday! I am going to treat myself to some gluten free bread at the weekend haha oh the excitement! Your diet sounds very healthy! I am just so up or down, I'm not very good at the whole "maintain", its all or nothing it seems! Brown or white rice which is good, and new potatoes so it's not totally carbless thank goodness! Yeah there have been weeks when I haven't drank at all, then some days or if we've had stuff on I've had a few, but I also don't think a lot of the time I am in the right mindset, I either end up crying or falling out with my OH after a drink! Which is never ideal!!

Welcome @User1400, another Aberdeen lady :) I am sorry you are struggling with TTC like us :( please know that you ARE NOT alone, we are here to chat and it really does help!

If you have any Aberdeen specific questions I can help as I am a little further forward in that I have had my internal and HyCosy and as I am sure you have read, been referred for IVF due to low egg reserve (at this point we are on Cycle 20, no BFP ever either). I am trying my best to get the healthiest and most relaxed I can, and will continue to TTC naturally in the meantime. I go through a mix of emotions daily!

I am so sorry to hear that your best friend announcement her pregnancy, I have also had a lot of friends have babies in the time we have been trying to, it kills me a little every time when I first hear, its hearTbreaking isn't it and it's also so horrible to be sad when it's such happy news for your friends, I have major guilt about those feelings. I tend to get a bit better as time goes on, the initial finding out is when I am most upset.

Also, I have been THE most emotional person, I feel awful that OH has had to put up with me crying, being down, being upset and then being upset he doesn't realise I am upset (I think I expect him to be a mind reader/think the same as a female!) and I spend a lot of days crying, sometimes at just hugging the dog haha! So please know, that we feel like this too. Don't apologise, we totally understand!!

xxx

@Loops01 My cycles are roughly 27-33 days, one cycle was 38 days.. I was devastated when AF arrived and promised myself I would stop obsessively testing after that. My periods are regular but so short/light, I can’t find an answer online, my fertility doctor didn’t say much about it when I told her, so I don’t know if I’m one of the lucky ones or if it’s a concern! I just had to google vaginal steaming.. is it normal to think it looks super relaxing😂. I know what you mean about just wanting to find out what’s going on, I have mixed emotions about my HyCosy appointment coming through because I just want an answer, but then I get another wave of emotion about how I am going to handle all of this! Fingers crossed you get some luck and don’t have to reach HyCosy stage ☺️

Sorry to hear about your struggles with dh, I am definitely in the same boat here. My partner is so relaxed about the whole situation and thinks ‘it will just happen’, which gets me even more tense! That’s great your partner is getting involved with the tracking, a lot of the TTC burden does fall on us as women, which is probably why they don’t truly understand!

16 announcements, ffs! That is so tough. Has it been hard watching your SIL go through her pregnancy journey? At the minute I just want to avoid my best friend, which I know isn’t a solution. I feel like she has ‘over taken’ me, it hurts to think she is getting to experience this before me when I have been yearning for it for so long now. Rationally I know it’s not her fault and that it’s not a race, but the green-eyed monster keeps rearing it’s ugly head!

I am worried too about having IVF and it not working, I thought it was a ‘sure thing’ until only recently, it really added to my anxiety about going through something so emotionally intensive!

@HJen22 Hello fellow Aberdonian!

How did you find the HyCosy, was it painful? I’m sorry to hear about your low egg count, although at least you are getting to the bottom of things. Did they tell you how long you will have to wait before starting IVF? It seems like you are about 2 months ahead of me in terms of appointments etc.

How are you finding getting healthy? I’ve been told I need to loose weight if I am to receive any treatment from the NHS, which is an added stress! My BMI is too high and I need to loose around 7kg. The irony is I usually work out every day and eat relatively healthy, now I am cutting back my food I don’t have any energy to exercise, I feel rubbish and so tired every day! Exercising does wonders for my mental health and I know this is not the healthiest route to go down, but I just can’t seem to shift any weight without really cutting back the calories.

It’s so hard seeing others start their pregnancy journey isn’t it, just knowing they have had a BFP and gotten to share the moment with their nearest and dearest makes me so upset that I haven’t had mine. I try my best to focus on the positives that comes with the freedom of having no children, looking forward to holidays in particular (if COVID would kindly f**k off) and then as soon as I find out someone is pregnant, it sends me straight back to square one of crying and not being able to focus on anything.

Lol, I am totally the same with my partner. I need to actively remind myself that he’s not the enemy. I guess they are just the first person in the firing line when you are having a bad day. Sigh!

Whewww I am so glad I have found this group, I feel like a weight has been lifted already xx

Hi ladies, just caught up. Not much from my end, didn’t think we would get to try this month cos of timings but ended up day of peak and day after. Can’t say I’m hopeful though since we didn’t get a chance in the run-up. Fertility call edging closer, depends what they say ofc but plan is to give it to the end of the year and then go private. Do not want to spend (waste) another year like this one! Just couldn’t go through it either, mentally I’m not strong enough.

@User1400 Hey, welcome! Am I the only one here not in Scotland 😂 Completely understand how you feel, been struggling myself with the unfairness of it all and sometimes all you can do is cry. I am a total wreck most of the time so don’t be afraid to lay it all out here - we all get it!

@HJen22 Christ that diet sounds tough! Did they really say cutting all that out would improve chances? You’re a stronger lady than I am, I eat pretty healthy just feel I need my treats to get through this! Is your OH getting into it too?

@Loops01 Good news about the role change! Does this mean more chances each month? I’m like you at this point, if it has to be IVF so be it but I’m terrified of it not working. Like it’s the last resort then what?

@Amy259 How are you doing? Also well done on getting through your week of isolation!

Xx

Hello lovely ladies! Sorry I’ve been absent, been on holiday but I think I’m all caught up now.

@Loops01 I just discovered our thread closed too before I came on here.. I don’t know if it works if we try to tag AZ though? Maybe I should DM her to suggest she finds us?

@User1400 welcome - you’re in good company with the Aberdeen gang! I’m in Falkirk/Glasgow and have been ttc for 14 cycles now, one chemical exactly a year ago and nothing since. Had a hycosy last month, and all other routine tests that come before that - nothing so far wrong, and have a fertility call on 29th of this month. Always feel free to rant, celebrate, and anything else here ♥️

@HJen22 how are you doing? That new health regime sounds intense but I’m sure it’s great to feel pro-active. I go through phases, all our meals are freshly made and I would normally have weetabix, fruit, nuts etc for breakfast anyway and we stopped drinking ages ago, but I do enjoy a sweet treat!

@suzy124 how are you feeling? What date is your call again? I’m good thank you. Similar to you, we only dtd once when it really mattered I think this month (wasn’t tracking as on holiday) plus 3 days before that, so I’m not overly hopeful either, but I suppose it only takes once! And both times were very lovely, non-baby making type - actual sex just cause we wanted to!! - so I’m okay with it (ask me again in 2 weeks though 😂).

Hope you’re all well! Xxx