TTC first baby thread 26

[Annny27]

Hello all, setting up a new thread for us old timers to keep up and stay sane on the ttc journey!

@ConfusedNewbie21 that picture is a BFP

@MIW01 absolutely gutting ♥️ how are you feeling? Xxx

@MIW01 ah, I’m so sorry. It really fucking sucks, more so after all this time. If you want to vent we’re here to chat to.

Thank you @Annny27 @thislittlebird jist feeling completely numb atm

Oh @MIW01 im so sorry 😣 thinking of you & we are all here if you need to chat xx

Morning all, sorry for my massive absence, have just had some time out and enjoying married life and non lockdown life while it lasts.

@MIW01 I’m so sorry to hear that it was a bfn, it’s so unfair when you’ve been waiting so long. Will you be doing another round?

@Annny27 @XjustagirlX how are you ladies?

How’s everyone else doing?

@MIW01 so sorry. It’s so unfair. Are you able to do another round?

@Lozzlepop I’m just waiting to tk my egg transfer. So this cycle after egg collection is all messed up. I’m on CD 28 and I haven’t ovulated yet. Either I will ovulate soonish or I won’t ovulate at all and my period will arrive soon. I think I will ovulate and just have a really long cycle. I need to wait for this next period and then I start ET on the period after that.

@whatsthecraic91 thank you, support is much appreciated

@XjustagirlX we have 1 more round on the NHS. Fiancée getting his varicocele repaired on the 22nd September so next round will be January 2022. Hope AF arrives soon and doesn't keep teasing you.

Welcome back @Lozzlepop hope you're enjoying married life. We get 1 more round via NHS funding. Fiancée getting varicocele repaired on 22nd September so next round in January 2022.

How is everyone? I hope you’re feeling a bit better @MIW01

I got a positive OPK for the first time ever which is slightly exciting. POAS and me aren’t friends. I did the trigger shot (I’m doing ovulation induction) on Friday night and an OPK was positive today so I hope that means I’m actually ovulating rather than it just being the trigger, since it was lighter yesterday.

That's great news @thislittlebird I'm glad you have had some positive news.

Still just very "meh" about life and everything here atm. Started taking antidepressants for mental health and nerve pain as I'm really not coping very well at all tbh. More pregnancy announcements not helping. Just read that "biggest mistake of my life" thread hoping it would help put me off having kids but hasn't helped.

@MIW01 that’s understandable. Are you feeling any better on the antidepressants? The pregnancy announcements just seem to get harder, I’m lucky to avoid them lately but I wouldn’t be shocked if my friends were having a second soon.

I’ve not read that thread because I tend to worry that I’m not making the right choice enough as it is. I have a bad family and mother, no support network bar my husband (and his family who are six hours away) and friends are few and far between now they’ve all moved on. I worry I’ll do all this and then I’ll be like my own mother. I worry I’m not cut out for motherhood and so on. I think if I read the worst mistake thread it might make me not want to do any of this, my anxiety will take over as such. It’s a really hard journey.

@thislittlebird this is all just so hard. The antidepressants knock me out at night, which is a good thing as I have an awful enough time sleeping as it is, but even harder to function during the day atm and I'm not even working so we'll see how it goes.

@MIW01 I imagine some work would have been a distraction at least, sorry it’s so shit, totally understandable to feel like you do right now.

I got my nhs letter with my protocol yesterday. 150 of gonal f. I have mixed feelings. She went from wanting to put me on max doses to the lowest and I was hoping for something a tad higher or a varying dose but this is better than 300 doses. My fear is I won’t respond with something like a 38 afc and 31 AMH. AMH was 36 back in Feb. Do you think they’ll adjust my meds if I’m not responding a few days in?

What was your centrotide 250 for @XjustagirlX? Was that a trigger?

@thislittlebird I’m quite similar to you with follicles of 34+ and Amh was 45. But amh is less important than actual follicle count. I had 150 (the lowest dose) of ovaleap.

The centritide is a fixed amount of 250 so it doesn’t vary. It’s not the trigger. I took centritide from day 5 to day 10. I think it is to stop you ovulating naturally.

I think you will respond fine but they should up the drugs if you don’t.

@XjustagirlX I do wonder if some of my follicles are empty (particularly this month since I had more than normal, previously had 23 and 28) but who knows I suppose, and the age vs afc thing worries me, my quality could be terrible. Ugh. That’s why I’m conscious of making sure they adjust it in time.

Ok to stop you ovulating makes sense. She said I would need to do two injections per day when we were in the appointment, which was very confusing, but that was before I protested the max dose so I’m not sure what that was for.

Just placemarking so I can keep up with you all :) nothing much going on here - just ovulated, in tww

Overall waiting for endo surgery :)

@thislittlebird @XjustagirlX the mantra 'quality' not 'quantity' rings true here. Obviously I'm biased with how low my numbers are but have heard several stories of people with lots of eggs but no successful IVF rounds and on the other end of the spectrum someone who only had 1 egg retrieved and is now in 3rd trimester of pregnancy!

@Annny27 wishing you lots of luck and hope they get a move on with the Lap!

@MIW01 yeah the quality is my worry. I don’t need 25 immature eggs being taken out.

I have to test on Friday which I hate but I’m not really very bothered, I feel like I know it hasn’t worked. My body doesn’t even seem to notice I’m on daily progesterone suppositories.

@thislittlebird I know lots of people who tell me it feels no different to a normal cycle, didn't even know they were etc. I know it's easier said than done to not worry about it though. For me I had very few "normal" PMS symptoms, spotted for 2 days which is unusual for me, then AF arrived bang on time. So straight back to normality. For me I question whether my womb lining is thick enough to support implantation and apparently there's nothing they can do about that!

Fiancée had varicocele repair yesterday. Apparently it was a bit more serious than it appeared and he had to have mesh put in to support 5 vessels including some associated with his kidneys! Which may explain why he was feeling so much pain! So very good job he had it done irrespective of the fertility stuff. We are keeping everything crossed that this helps.

@MIW01 did they give you estrogen for the womb lining? Someone on another thread is on that for her lining I think. How much progesterone were you on FYI? I know mine is low anyway, I’m on 400mg cyclogest until Sunday.

I’m getting more nervous about the test now. I was fine until yesterday and now I feel anxious about it, even though I’ve seen these horrible negatives before, it can’t hurt me.

Great news on his varicocele, must be a relief for him to know it’s sorted.

I’m on letrozole cycle number 2. My mood is very low so far, my hopes for this one aren’t high and I just want the nhs to tell me when we might start.

I’ve had a bit of a break after ivf so not been active on here. My period finally arrived after ivf and it was a 43 day cycle but I don’t think I ovulated.

I would be due to have ET mid November now however we have decided to wait until the cycle after. It just means I have enough time to get my second vaccine and it will line up with me being off work for Christmas and hopefully relaxed and happy.

@MIW01 glad the varicocele went well.
@thislittlebird did you test? Are you any closer to a date and plan?

For the lining I have been told there is g they can do. But then I have also read that people are given estrogen. For my ET I will be taking estrogen so it must help with the lining a bit. My lining has been 3mm and 5mm and thé for ivf it went to 8mm then reduced down to 6mm.

Hi @XjustagirlX. So are you looking at mid December now?

I finished one letrozole cycle and obviously the tests were negative 🤪. What else would they be?! I thought we were approaching IVF but I realised my end of month cycles will hit the Christmas cut off and closures. So that’s frustrating. I emailed the clinic and they said they’re working through June patients, I was added 31st August so essentially my funded round is VERY unlikely to be happening until January, probably the end of January. Knocked me for six a bit, I was so excited to have my funded cycle and a “2-3 month wait”. I think we might go ahead with a private ivf cycle next month if the second letrozole cycle I’m doing now is negative again, which it likely will be, if they can fit us in.

I had my second scan today, I have two follicles (1x 20mm and 1x 14.5mm) and I’m going back for another scan on Friday. In the meantime I need to do OPKs and I assume I’ll be triggered on Friday, unless a third follicle has popped up. My lining was only 6.4mm triple layered but it is also only cycle day 8. I think if it’s still too thin on Friday they’ll give me some estrogen maybe, but it’s usually ok so I’m hoping it’ll catch up. It was something like 10.4mm on day 10 last month.

Morning ladies,

How are we all doing?

@MIW01glad to hear that your OH got his varicocele fixed- hopefully he’s in less pain now.

@Annny27 have you got an appointment for your endo surgery yet?

@thislittlebird so frustrating that everything shuts down at Xmas, fingers crossed you get a date soon!

I have been on levothyroxine since June now. Had a chemical pregnancy last month (our 5th loss). Quietly optimistic that this is eventually our rainbow 🌈