Tww torture.....

[Penguinmumma]

Anyone else feeling the torture?! This is only my first cycle but it took a long time to make the decision after a traumatic experience with DD. Now I’m just anxious to know so I can prepare myself I guess.
Feeling tired but could I hell sleep last night! Didn’t get to sleep until almost 5am and only slept for 3hrs
Boobs are aching a bit and I’ve had cramp and backache for a few days. App says 6dpo but I do tend to ovulate early from what I remember so could be more than that.
Ordered tests online to make myself wait til they get here before I test. My attempt to try and drag out the time

Was hoping to get some replies to this post as I had none on my first one.

Nevermind.

Actually feel pretty low and lonely today. Terminally ill relative that now has hours left and Im getting paranoid about the pain in my right boob. Pretty sure it’s where my blocked duct was that I had an infection in when I was bf’ing DD so guessing it’s that same duct causing the pain. Early pregnancy sign 🤷🏻‍♀️ Paranoia pain as relative has breast cancer 🤷🏻‍♀️ Who knows at this point.

Need to make dinner but have no energy to do so at all right now.

Heyy love awwh i know how you feel going through the 2WW too ... dont feel lonely you have all of us to talk to... just try and not overthink it... make sure you keep yourself busy with positive thoughts it really helps.

I'm on 2ww too. It's going to drive me insane! I'm feeling really positive this month (even looking at prams online - I've clearly gone mad!). I swing from feeling positive to being worried about massive disappointment. And I'm 41 so anxious about that!!
Now, my youngest dc is 13, and I'm sure I remember having sore boobs as one of the first signs I was pregnant. That and I was thirst y for milk and I hate milk!! Fingers crossed for BFP for you!! When are you testing?

Thanks @sadz just having a down day I guess. Can’t really talk to DH about this right now as it’s his relative that’s terminally ill so he’s stressed enough right now.

@ClaraBean I’m 39 so I feel that worry!

This is my first cycle and tbh my body was such a mess when I conceived last time I didn’t even realise I was pregnant (mc then mc a twin without knowing it was a twin but DD hung in there!). Just thought it was my hormones settling still. Lol.

Just had a shower and my boobs look different 😬 bigger and a bit veiny. Even my nipples look swollen 😬 fingers crossed it’s a good sign and a sticky one at that!

I ordered tests online (small town so no secrets here!) so shall test when they arrive. AF’s due around the 12th.

I’m on it too, absolutely hate the wait! Have been feeling sick and very gassy (lovely haha) and cramping but worried I’m completely imagining it all. I’m due AF on Sunday. Tested this morning BFN but I guess too soon. Or maybe I’m just not this cycle!

Sorry to hear about your relative. My dad has terminal cancer and found out my partners Mum has breast cancer last night :( sending love xxx

Awwh i think youll be just fine.. im currently 13 dpo i tested on 11dpo but it was negative so im just waiting it out and probably will test 15 dpo to see if anything comes up.

Hello can I join! In my first TWW af due around the 14th so along wait to go!

@CJ2021 fingers crossed for Sunday! Hopefully my tests will have turned up by then and i can get peeing! Lol. I have cramps too. Have done since I ovulated so i keep getting paranoid that I have an egg stuck trying to explode out of my ovary still 😂
This is breast cancer recurrence. was caught too late because of covid delaying appointments 😞

@sadz I hope so. I hate this waiting around. A tww while waiting for someone to pass away is beyond crap!

@MayDay27 of course you can 😊 your due af a little after me. How are you feeling atm?

Hey @Penguinmumma I’m so sorry about your terminally ill relative. That’s a really hard journey to be on 😣 hopefully you get some good news with a BFP soon that will cheer everyone up 🥰 I’m in the TWW - AF due around the 13th but my body seriously has a mind of its own so who knows. I don’t trust my app either 😂 TTC sure can be a lonely journey too. Even with a supportive DH / OH.. sending love, hugs and baby dust. Keep us posted when you get your tests!! xx

Thank you @Farfaraway1 it is beyond crap. I feel awful for ttc when we’re about to lose someone ☹️ But she’s be mad if she knew that. We can’t get to see her either thanks to covid (closed borders) which makes it extra hard.
Hopefully tests won’t take long but the post here is diabolical 🤦🏻‍♀️ Oooh your af is due around the same day as mine so fingers crossed for us both! When are you planning on testing?

@Penguinmumma I’m so sorry to hear that lovely :( she’s got her scan on Tuesday but she’s waited 6 weeks for it. Hoping so much it’s not too late.

I’m sat in work with the most awful acid reflux - my mum works for me so I’m trying to be discreet!! Such a weird time, can’t believe I only just realised about this two week wait. 33 and thinking you’d just get a positive result instantly haha

@CJ2021 once you click on to tww syndrome, you never get out of it 🤦🏻‍♀️
Oh yuk! I had reflux with my first so feel your pain! Try eating dry cream crackers, or similar, and milk. Disguise the milk in a travel coffee cup so she doesn’t suspect too much! The crackers help soak up the acid and the milk should neutralise the rest.

Let me know how the scan goes lovely. Aunty had just been given the all clear and they dismissed it as side effects at first. By the time they realised it potentially wasn’t, covid had hit and here we are. She didn’t get a scan for 4 months.

So sorry to read about your relative @Penguinmumma but I think you're doing the right thing not putting ttc on hold xx

I so wish we could test straight away this is day 1 of my TWW and I'm already over it! I have a short Luteal phase 10/11 days so I'm not sure how that will affect my fertility. I am determined not to test early and wait for af to be late. I'm saying to myself I'm not going to test until the 16th but I doubt that will happen!

@MayDay27 - I'm day 1 of 2ww too

It's agony. I went out and bought tests yesterday even though I'm telling myself I won't test until I'm late 🤣
Do you have any palms for distracting yourselves over 2ww this month?

@Penguinmumma Thanks so much for the tips xxx I’m so sorry she didn’t get one for 4 months, that’s just so so unfair. Life is too cruel :(

I’m now determined not to test until next Monday but we’ll see how that goes!! How to pass the time!

@ClaraBean I'm going to try and forget about it at least for the first week (definitely not going to happen!) I'm drinking all the pomegranate juice though apparently that helps and I'm going to buy a pineapple 😂 just tips I've read and probably mean nothing but it makes me feel better thinking I'm doing something to help!

Feeling so so sick this evening it’s awful 😫😫😫 don’t want to get excited...but ahhh this wait is rubbish!!!

I’m halfway through the tww now and it’s felt like the longest week of my life 😂
Back at work tomorrow but I’m thinking it might end up as bereavement leave so maybe not. I guess that and work would both be distraction enough really. And moving house next week 🤦🏻‍♀️

@CJ2021 no nausea thankfully but my god do my boobs hurt! I still have cramp and started getting lotion like cm yesterday. I was laid in bed last night and thought I’d peed myself or came in early but nope. Was just a load of cm 😬 hopefully that’s a good sign!

Have taken to obsessively checking my parcel status that has my tests in. Lol.

I'm just entering into my first TWW. First month TTC too. Finished my last pill on 17th Dec and took one 30th & 31st as we were unsure if we'd wait longer but I'm off work til March probably with covid so we thought why not!

According to my Flo app I ovulated yesterday so there was some BD the last 3 days as I only started using OPKS then.

I know it a long shot but I have myself so hyped up. Fingers crossed for everyone here!

Hi @Rd123 fingers crossed! May as well make the most of the lockdown! Especially if you conceive quickly. You can be at home to deal with any morning sickness instead of trying to hide it from everyone. Lol.

@Penguinmumma that's it exactly! I had a little poke earlier (sorry TMI) and my cervix seems quite lot and still EWCM, think we'll BD tonight just to make sure! DH is loving the BD

So sorry to hear that your relative was waiting 4 months for her scan this COVID situation is a joke, things like scans and operations should never have been pushed back especially life determining ones xx

@Rd123 deffo get another BD in to give you a bit more of a chance! My cervix had dropped down (I think) and I’m sure it’s gone back up. It’s retroverted so can be harder to find. That said, my cm has gone like a thick white lotion so 🤞🏻

I know 😞 I can’t even explain how angry I am. We don’t live in the uk now but all our relatives do. Covid means we can’t get back to say bye or for a funeral which makes it even harder. It’s so unfair. Yes covid kills but so does cancer and numerous other conditions. They should have been kept as a priority too. So many more lives will be lost now.