been ttc #1 since forever...

[nomoremagnolia]

Feeling very fed up with failing every month and wondered if there's anyone in the same boat? It's a lonely boat on a journey to nowhere at the moment, but if anyone else wants to join me, some company would be nice

(((orchidgirl)))

HI all... sorry for my sudden absence, was sulking But went to Selfridges and brought 12 Crispy Cremes and loads of clothes... so feel a bit better!

Hope everyone is well... I need to read through the posts I have missed, but at work and my home broadband seems to have died again, so will try and post properly later.

I also have a link to an article on surrogate babies in India... Interesting reading!

www.atimes.com/atimes/South_Asia/HF16Df03.html

orchidgirl - so sorry you are going through this. I must admit we are doing IUI and its hard going emotionally. You are right you need to be emotionally strong... (((HUGS)))

Thanks for looking for me Ready. I'm just lurking. It got quite quiet there for a while, I am just getting used to everyone and catching up with where you are all at. How long have you all been trying now?

nomore......have you had any other treatment?
I had IUIs like Rah before being recommended for IVF but I can't remember you circumstances (sorry!)

My DHs semen analysis' were all good and (apparently) nothing is wrong with me! So not quite sure why we have been ttc for 8 years then/

I'm quite happy for you to stalk follow me around! Ask me any IVF questions that you want (although I'm fairly ignorant myself and only know a bit ahead of what I'm doing - less scary that way I find!!!!! )

Yup.....big day tomorrow....could be an exciting beginning....or the end if nothing has happened....

Coggy - have you been tested for NKC = Natural killer cells, apparently it is a cause for infertility and miscarriage but not tested for automatically. I've not been tested, but I'm going to ask my doctor about it as they treat it with steroids. One of the other girls from another forum told me about it.Have you ever heard of it?

Hi Ladies, just spent an hour reading the thread - was looking for some help cos have been reading DHs sperm count and results look poor and he is going to come home all excited cos doc said vol fine - but he couldn't interpret rest and please take to consultant for our first infertility appt in 2 weeks time - well I'm no expert but it doesn't look good to me - may feign ignornace though cos DH has heart and soul resting on this and may never recover....was so pleased to read orchids post cos maybe not that uncommon?

Sorry should introduce myself - I know some of you ladies - gilly in particular. We met on the MMC thread last year. Yes I am now the only person I know in RL who is still not PG. I have super long and irreg cycles and was hoping consultant would throw some clomid my way cos seems to work for most but this sperm count thing had knocked me for six howl howl

Anyhoo - fab to read all your posts cos I have so much in common with you all (hmm poss not a good thing ). I have had 6 PG announcements from close friends in jan (yup everyone is at it over xmas grrrr) and 2 births.Feels like world weight on my shoulders. I too have considered ADs but have decided to hand my notice in instead and see if that helps. Am a stressy person and always work too hard so have decided have to do something to put a stop to it as may help ttc - you never know eh? prob is I have been holding out for maternity leave for over a year since MC so leaving job is scarey incase i do get PG and have to give up every treat that has kept me going...need a mantra to tell self am doing right thing - I know everyone is RL thinks I am ttc mad and shouldn't be doing anything so drastic but I can't see any other option.

Well weekend is here - just 9 days til see the docs - hoping i can last til then without being committed to funny farm

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I can?t ramble on as I normally do as I supposed to be drying my hair, and getting ready to go out. We are out tonight for a friend?s birthday meal, some Thai place, should be good

Thinking of you Coggy, I hope that everything went as hoped today. Really hoping it is the exciting beginning, fingers and toes crossed.

Lottie, where?s this name change? and tell us about the supplements?

Orchidgirl, I know exactly what you are saying about not feeling strong enough for IVF. That?s how I feel. I seriously think I have a phobia.

Nomore, how are you poppet?

Rah, CRISPYCREMES ? Enjoy them, you deserve plenty of treats.

Gilly, good link! How?s things?

Ok? so this was me not waffling

Hello everyone I haven?t mentioned

I?m off. Hugs everyone x

Okay none of that made sense - am obviously deranged...
Summary of ttc chez pops to date

started Nov 06, PG Jan 07, MMC March 07, TTC since then with no luck and a considerable amount of madness

MC runs in family (now they tell me!), DH great but SC doesn't look good

Have appointment with new boss monday to tell him thanks but no thanks on the 1 year secondment to cover maternity leave for his centre manager

Want to stop clock, turn it back and start again and wipe all the shit I have been thru...trying hard to stay positive but all friends have new babies or are PG so a bit lonely chez pops at mo

Off to cook a stew - always helps to pretend am fab mum already

Crossed with you Perkypopsy, and whilst I do really need to run, I wanted to say hello, and welcome. x

have a good night out!!

Hello ladies,

I just wanted to let you all know that I am ok. I am meeting up with friends tonight, some of which know about m/c others not. Anyway they have finally worked out that I have been "abit" distant since August when I had m/c no 1 and are pleased I am coming out to play tonight

I have been shopping lots, spent £50 in M&S today just on pants! plus spent £150 last thursday on new clothes. So although v depressed that I had to buy size bigger at least I am wearing sexy undies

Sorry if I can't mention you all individually but welcome to the new members and I hope some of us get paroled to a new thread soon with positive news.

Oh and I bought dp a durex buzzey ring from Sainsburys just because things had become a bit routine with "oh my god I am ovulating trousers off now hun" . I am a very, very happy lady...... and he thinks we are going through a 2nd honeymoon phase

Been out for the day doing family things (dh?s family), his nan is hilarious, so an enjoyable afternoon I am now totally stuffed and sitting down for a bit of an MN catch up

Soooooo? how is everyone? T?is very quiet on MN at the moment, well, some of the threads I frequent, certainly? have we all got the winter blues?

Has anyone had snow ? we were away in Staffordshire in the week, and we had a smattering of snow in the carpark the next morning, but as soon as we got back to east anglia, nothing, nada, zilch ? and I usually get snow on my birthday, so I am hoping it?s coming here next

Coggy, any news from you?

Rah, how are you sweets? When do you go for your first scan for this cycle? You are right behind me in CD aren?t you, so it must be soon?? Sorry if you have already said.

Nomore, sending the biggest hugs I can find. It?s not the same without your input on here ? but totally understand why you?ve been away, lots to think about. Have you heard anything from the powers that be yet?

Kd, your post really made me smile. I am pleased that you sound so happy. PMSL at the buzzy ring, and second honeymoon comment . You go girl

Perkypopsy, wanted to say sorry that I was just running out when you posted. You didn?t sound deranged at all Good luck tomorrow with your boss, I think you are brave taking a step away from work ? it isn?t an easy thing to do. I am now going the other way, having purposely not worked as I thought I was going to get pregnant, and now am waiting to hear if I have got the job I interviewed for I reckon if you can afford to take some time out, then good for you!! Enjoy it, and I hope it does the trick for you Sorry to hear your dh analysis was not what you thought it would be. Good luck with the consultant

Bucky, lurk away, and don?t feel obliged to post, I just didn?t wanted to let you know I was thinking of you This is my 18th cycle trying, and amazingly I am still optimistic that this could be my month I wonder when the enthusiasm will bite the dust??

Gilly, I had heard about Zita West, there are a couple of celebs that got pregnant with her help, but I had never really looked at her stuff ? the vitamins do look pricy, but when compared to my pregnacare, the %s of stuff is way more ? so I wonder if pregnacare is enough??

Everyone else, big hugs

Just popped on to see if anyone's about/ if anything's happening.

Scan on Friday wasn't brilliant - not ready to go so I'm back down tomorrow for another one.

Hopefully LOADS of follicles which are are good size.

I will let you know.....

Coggy, fingers and toes crossed, flower!! I am thinking of an abundance of follicles Come on follies - do your stuff for the Coggster

Sorry to hijack girls but I just wanted to wave hello to Coggy
Long time no see.. How are you??

Hi Peachy....I'm fine thanks.
Started IVF now.
Went for a scan on Friday but I only had 6 follicles (still ok but I wanted more being greedy!!!) and they were quite small.
Supposed to be having my egg retrieval tomorrow but I've got to go down for a re-scan instead.
Here's hoping to LOTS of HUGE follicles tomorrow and then egg collection Weds or Thursday I hope.

SCARY........but exciting.

How are you?

Good. Work is going well now I'm three days and I really like my new role.
We are really happy in the new house (although we have been in it since May)
Things seems to be really moving with the IVF now I really hope your follicles will be huge!!

Thanks for everyone's kind thoughts and hugs earlier this week. Feeling a bit brighter now. Been to see friend's latest arrival and was really pleased for them.

Still feeling a bit odd though. One of the reasons I had thought I was pregnant this month was the very swollen and tender breasts that started about 7DPO. I am CD5 now and they are still sore although not as swollen. I do hope this is not the start of v. bad PMS... that's all I need.

morning all...

Hope everyone had a good weekend.

coggy - good luck at your scan today. Wow 6 eggs is still very good! What size are they?
I went for my scan on Saturday morning and had two eggs but they were 9mm and 11mm, so not viable yet. I'm back for my rescanning on Tues.

orchidgirl - Hoping its not bad PMS for you! (and your DH! )

Ready - I take pregnacare, I stopped taking it for a few months when I ran out and I think I could tell the difference..
Went for my first scan on Saturday morning, 2 follicles but small at the moment, she said it looks like I will be having a long cycle this month . But did get a high on my monitor this morning, so fingers crossed I will ovulate in 5-6 days time. But I have a bad feeling I might end up with small eggs this month, like a couple of months ago when they could not do the IUI. Oh well whats another month out of 3 1/2 years!

kd73 - LOL at your new ring...glad you are enjoying yourself! .. Do all Sainsbury's sell them???
Retail therapy is also very good...well done you! I had a big spend out last month after my IUI failed... my husband might be hiding my credit card this month if it fails again!

perkypopsy - welcome to the thread... sorry about the shit time your having... Hope the meeting with your boss went well!

Bucky2008 - Are you still lurking? I've been trying for 3 and a bit years...we have had one pregnancy in that time, but was born at 24 weeks and was too ill. So we started TTC again ... How long have you been TTC for?

gillydaffodil - thanks for the info on Zita West, the new acupuncturist I found trained at that clinic, so I am hoping to start with her after this cycle .... what did you think of the article I posted on Fertility in India?

nomoremagnolia & Londonlottie.... hope you guys are OK...XX

Better go, hope I have not missed anyone.. Love to everyone XX

I have my fingers and toes and everything crossed for big fat juicy eggs all round this cycle!!!! BFPs together would be amazing wouldn't it

Hi Ladies, Thanks for the welcome - hoping those eggs are doing their job - mmmm makes me think Easter is coming and hope I get a G & B one again this year yuuuuum

Just realised lots of me old MC chums are on here - wheely, herby, Gilly, Jess - popsy waves at them and gives big virtual hugs

Got my meeting at 1pm...am sh*tting my pants

Just got a phone call from his secretary saying he has concussion so go easy on him f***ck will have to whisper I'm leaving then run away

Phone call from stpedad last night to let me know he and my mum think I'm making a massive mistake ..Cheers!

orchid I've also had sore (.)(.) all month - weird? Some months are fine but have been a nightmare this month and cramps ughhhhhh. Have this tiny hope that maybe something went right this month but am at stage where can't bring myself to test anymore cos AF can be 48 days so no point getting hopes up

one week til seeing specialist soooo excited!!