Nov Bus 20 - CD1 can suck hairy b*lls

[Juno231]

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June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs
October - 5 BFPs

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@Sausage1990 ah sausage I'm so sorry. That must be mentally exhausting to not be able to move past something so upsetting. I really hope they can sort you out asap so that you can move forward and start looking forward.

Period just arrived - odd time of the day and no forewarning from either RHR or temp today. CD1 does suck but here I am cycle 11 :)

@Sausage1990 so sorry to hear what you are going through. It’s awful isn’t it my mmc went on for about 5weeks. And as awful as it sounds you just want to get it done with so you can move on. Hopefully the epu can get you in soon so you can get your closure x

@Sausage1990 thanks I've found the app now! Will have a look at it and see what I think.

That's exactly how I feel about it, me and my OH (usually) like eating out as date night and just to spend time with each other enjoying each other's company and the food so when on SlimmingWorld we didn't go out too much because I would always feel bad for eating "bad" and then we were lacking thag social time together.

Oo that's very interesting regarding the bread! I always choose multiseesed loaves now I actually hate white bread unless its fresh from the bakery I.e tiger bread 🤤

I'm thinking about actually starting to eat eggs for breakfast. I really should eat more egg I haven't eaten much at all lately I go through phases of liking something and then not and its probbalt to do with eating too much for a few weeks and getting bored of it 🙈 one of my fave breakfasts is porridge made with oat milk and a spoonful of Nutella 😬

Yesss I love it!💓
I'm so sad because I was such a nice size before and the year before last me and OH ended up living with his dsd for a while for various reasons and we ended up getting takeaways a lot of the time for ease to avoid using the kitchen when his stepmum was at home and when she did cook it wasn't ever very nutritious and not our cup of tea. I always used to be one of those girls thag I'm jealous of now that can eat anything and stay the same size😔 its obviously caught up with me! I am worried aswell as my mum is quite a large woman and when I started putting on weight she got worried for me as it was the same age she started putting weight on too so didn't want me to struggle like she did. I've become more used to the idea now that I'm not actually overweight I just need to tone up a bit more but I do sometimes think maybe I'm kidding myself to make me feel better. I'm 11 stone 4 ish and about 5.4 so🤷🏼‍♀️

@Sausage1990 it's always the mental load that lasts a lot longer that's the physical. I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way. Sending you lots of hugs 💓

@Sausage1990 oh love that's so awful. You poor thing it must be so hard seeing those tests and nothing much changing. I hope you are out the other side soon x

Hi, just spent my whole commute catching up on 5 pages!I have no energy to respond, but hugs and love to all of you, goddesses

Aw @Juno231 sorry about af, that did sneak up on you didn't it. I see what you mean about charts not necessarily being a good predictor at the end, i really thought yours looked good from my limited knowledge.

Speaking of which I am considering temping , where do i start? 😂 anyone recommend a beginner's guide or is it just download ff and go from there?

@Katao just order a thermometer I personally use the femometer one and then the app to go with it. And make sure you have it on your bedside table and you need to take it at pretty much the same time every morning before you even so much as move. I have an alarm set up for mine. I am thinking about taking my temp vaginally next cycle as its normally more accurate but I take it orally at the moment. X

@lucyrp yeah I did slimming World on an off for years and eventually it just took away my pleasure for food. I was eating food that was "free" simply because it was on plan. I bearly ate any of my favourite foods for years (peanut butter & apple slices and avocado are my favourite foods that I cut out), and I feel so much freedom now being able to eat what I want. Plus were exactly the same with eating out - it was date night, a night for me & OH and I'd choose plain steak or chicken with jacket potato & salad and a diet Coke then no dessert... When I really wanted some chips or pepper sauce and a lovely glass of wine. Life is too short to not enjoy a meal out🍷

I feel your pain with the weight gain. I have gained alot over recent years, I actually really struggled with binge eating & the binge/restrict cycle and felt a real failure because I was a dietitian who was the biggest hypocrite but I went to counceling and realised that's not the case and I did the work and I've not binged in that way for about 18months now. I am heavier than I was but I'm also more at peace with myself. I will not sacrifice my mental health for a smaller dress size. I'm currently a size 18 with an obese BMI and yes I would like to be less and I will be one day BUT at my pace and in the way that's possible for me.
I don't think family history is a given either BTW. Just because your mam is heavier doesn't mean you will be, just make better choices and be kind to yourself. 💕

Oh and BMI is actually a load of BS and it not a good indicator of health. I really don't use it in my job at all. Unfortunately it's still used in some areas and used alot in criteria for things like ivf but don't be hard if yourself... When I was at my lowest weight and in a size 10 clothes my BMI was still 27 which is overweight so don't worry 🙈

Thanks for your kind words girls 💕@runnergirl1 @Katao @Juno231 @lucyrp

It's alot and I've just had a good cry to my mam on the phone as DH is working late tonight. I'm going to call EPU in the morning and see what my nurse says. I've had the same nurse follow me through it all which has been really good for continuity & she knows the whole story which is good. So I'll chat to her tomorrow morning and see what the next steps are. I'm assuming a scan then probably needing surgery but we will see. I'll keep you guys posted.
God i feel knackered and it's not even 6.30pm... 🙈

@Sausage1990 I only really did it properly for a year if that and I struggled within that time. I'd be good for weeks then I'd have a week where I just ate loads of rubbish because i wouldn't let myself have bits here and there so I'd have a week where I eat it all and then would feel the times worse when it got to weigh in on Monday. We hardly used to go to our fave local restaurants because all the food there would be so rich and tasty and I could never guess what was in it, so we'd end up going to nandos and I'd have a butterfly chicken with tenderstem broccoli and maybe chips if I was lucky because they were about 15 syns so if I saved all my syns until the evening I could just about have the chips and I couldn't eat the skin on the chicken either. Shocking really what we do isn't it 🙈

I think it is hard as you get older because you still think of yourself as the same you and expect yourself to stay the same but like I'm comparing myself to how I was when I was 16-20 but now I'm 23 so I definitely shouldn't be. My boobs and my bum have got so much bigger, also I still have a small waist but I just have this pouch on my belly I can't get rid of!
I think I've reached the stage where I'm more at peace with myself and the same as you in regards to not sacrifice my mental health for a smaller dress size. I'm sure I used to be a size 8 but now I'm a 10/12. I wasn't sure about genetic weight issues but I've always been worried.

Omg isn't it just! Weightlifters are normally classed as obese and they're definitely not! That's what my current bmi is now I think I'm a 27 i remmeber reading the charts on the wall when I went in for my booking appointment before my CP☹️

@katao get the cheap femometer thermometer and download FF (set it to advanced). Take temp same time each day, don't move beforehand, make sure your mouth is closed before and during lol. I only say the last bit as I sleep with a mouth guard in and find i sometimes wake up with my mouth open 🙊. Oh and you need to have slept 4 consecutive hours minimum!

It sounds like a lot but is actually super easy once you get going :)

@Sausage1990 I'm so sorry it's not an easy ride for you, I was basically the same too, but I got a negative so they didn't want to scan me but I had bleeding for 5 weeks then off and on with only a week & then 10 days in between for nearly 2 months after. Every time I thought I got over it it came back & smashed me again. It's just mentally exhausting. As @lucyrp says, if they want you in for surgery I believe it's best option to move on & should be quick & painless - sending you ALL THE LOVE AND HUGS (whilst we ALL go look for that app!)

@Juno231 that gym sounds fab! What do you do? And you wear a mouth guard too? I do as well and never thought that's why my temping might not work!

@Runnergirl1 8 out of 10 have Covid?! Gosh! Did you all go together? 🤔and a BFN 😩

@lucyrp my "pouch" is on my hips, soon as I put on weight I get muffin top!

@Franklydear we know you love us!

@Minster2012 mine is literally where us ladies are supposed to have a pouch already but its enlarged from what it should be 🤣🙈 mine gathers around my hips too slightly but I do still have a small waist so no idea 😂

@Sausage1990 so sorry to hear your having such a rough time hun. Sending virtual hugs.

@Juno231 sorry to hear AF arrived without prewarning.

@Juno231 and @lucyrp thank you girls x
It sounds a bit rigid for me which is why I haven't done it yet but I just adore the charts!😂 so am thinking what have i got to lose. I'm just not the best sleeper so worry about the consistency but its worth a whirl 😉

@Katao it definitely feels rigid for the first few weeks when you do it.Like they say takes 14 days to make a habit ! Ibe got so used to waking up and taking mine this cycle x

@lucyrp that's extortionate!! Can't believe that!! I think prepping is definitely the way forward, I do that and it makes life so much easier!! Yeah that's fair enough, I don't get my fruit and veg from Aldi either it's so shit isn't it!! I go to aldi for main bits then the butchers for our meat then asda for fruit and veg😂

@Juno231 that is good actually!! I might start looking at it!! So sorry about af, isn't it a shitter when you get no warning!X

@Sausage1990 I'm so sorry you're feeling so shit! I can't even imagine how you're feeling with it going on for weeks, sending you hugs❤️

@Sausage1990 hugs, darling, and we are here for you, come and vent as often as you like
@lucyrp I am a size 18/20 but still have a tiny waist, in comparation, so very hour glass, big boobs, big hips, I am not dieting as such, but since back at work, I move a lot more and have less chance to snack and have coffees, so nearly at prelockdown weight, but a lot slimmer, judging by my uniform, so the number is the scale is not everything either
@Minster2012 my soul sister🥰

@Katao I was worried about the whole "it's out of whack if you've had a drink the night before"...I was attempting it during lockdown with a toddler, after miscarriage where I was surviving on a couple of glasses of wine a night not gonna lie 😂🤦🏼‍♀️now back to binge drinking at the weekend so alllllllll good 🙌🏻😋🤪🤫(though that needs to change if I want to lose weight)

@lucyrp we all have that right?!

Bloody hate it when AF sneaks up like that @Juno231 the proper bitch 😂

@Vil10 yeah so I gave up when he told me that😂 I've seen some cute videos on tik tok of a girl prepping her boyfriends lunch box and it make me want to prep too🤣 yeah honestly it's so crap, it never keeps and the choice is appalling. Sainsbury's keeps for like 2 weeks! Yeah I like aldi for everything else! X

@Franklydear I have learnt that the number on the scales doesn't necessarily mean everything and I've learnt to see where I've put the weight on or where I haven't even tho the scales say I have

@Minster2012 I think most of us do 🙈🤣

@lucyrp very funnily, since I came off hormonal contraception, I feel more comfortable in my skin, I don’t know if it’s related

Thank you girls for the commiserations. I messaged OH about it from work to keep him in the loop and he hasn't acknowledged it at all 😅.

@minster2012 I work for an asset manager in the City so the office is pretty swanky 🙊

@lucyrp hahaha I've been fighting not getting tik tok because I know I'll spend hours on it😂

So my friend who has 2 children and 1 stepchild openly said a few months ago her and her partner were trying, I have a feeling she's pregnant, she put a video on Instagram in her bikini because she's on holiday and she's usually tiny like size 6 but she had a belly and not like a food belly, like an early stages baby belly, and I'm so happy for her but not gonna lie, part of me is like wow so selfish save some fertility for the rest of us🙄😂 and I don't even feel guilty for saying that because when she told me she was trying I said that me and my OH were thinking about it (we were trying but haven't told people) and she said "well I know I'll probs be pregnant first, I'm just really fertile" bully for you hun👍🏼 I realise I probably sound like a cow but you know when you just need to vent