Hello ladies,
Mind if I join you?
I can see a few familiar names from the Due in May 2008 thread. It's such a shame.
I hope you don't mind, I have to get this all off my chest, please don't read it if you will get upset.
My DH recently had stomach cancer, went through the treatment, and then a few weeks ago was told he just needed blood tests to check. Great news! Even better was when we got our BFP on September 10th.
I had my first MW appointment last Thursday (4th Oct) and mentioned I had had a tiny amount of brown blood. She wasn't worried.
I started bleeding on Sunday, just a tiny bit, but it got worse and worse, and by Tuesday I was worried enough to phone and got an appointment for a scan on Wednesday.
I was 9 weeks and 2 days, but the scan showed that the sac had stopped growing at 6 weeks. Although there was a yolk, I couldn't see a baby on the screen.
I was told to go home and wait for it to miscarry naturally, and just take paracetamol. Couple of hours later I passed a blood clot the size of my hand. Not much pain, and that was pretty much it that night. (Well, apart from drinking a bottle of red wine.... ahem!!).
Woke up in agony on yesterday. I mean pain so bad you don't know whether to sit, lay down, stand up, cry... called the emergency MW and she said to take Nurofen!! To her credit, she did call back to check, and after 6 hours of this pain told me to go into the EPAC. The pain subsided in the car on the way over (bloody typical!) but getting out of the car on arriving was fun as I had a gush of blood.
They didn't do another scan but checked things out internally with the good old speculum (sp?) managed to trap my pubes in it to add to the hilarity. They wanted to keep me in as the cervix was open, but I was so upset and confused all I wanted to do was go home. They did give me some stronger painkillers.
On arriving back home I could feel something needed to come out iykwim, but I had to push... it was the placenta and sac etc. Very upsetting, and DH bless him cuddled me while we wondered what the heck to do with it (do you bury it or flush it?) but we decided as it actually wasn't a baby to flush.
Been bleeding and passing smaller clots since, but the pain is more bearable.
However, DH has told me this morning that he found out on Monday that the cancer is back, but he didn't want to worry me with everything else going on.
Just how crappy is life supposed to be!!!
We are going to try to have a baby as soon as we can though.
If you have read this far, thank you for listening to me go on. I just needed to tell someone.
Grinningbee