Sausages and j*zz - Sep Bus 17

[Juno231]

June BFPs - 24
July BFPs - 10
August BFPs - 18

September BFPs so far:
@catherinettc - Sep 4th
@mrsi2020 - Sep 6th
@KateColx - Sep 21st

Testing dates:
@Missgoldilocks - September 23rd
@franklydear - September 27th
@SarahTTC2020 - September 28th
@Laceymermaid - September 29th
@galatea - September 29th
@clairey844 - September 29th
@Juno231 - September 30th
@hopeful110 - October 2nd
@mrsbear1122 - October 5th
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@minster2012 - October 12th

Oooh @Juno231 that does sound promising! I had nosebleeds first trimester with my first 🤞

Good luck this morning @lucyrp

@Minster2012 hope you are feeling better this morning x

Enjoy the last of the hols @Vil10

@Minster2012 yes definitely going to try and make it a thing, maybe like everyday Friday or Saturday have a shower together! So funny because OH says bonk too😂

@SarahTTC2020 your frer lines are so strong too, so happy for you!

@Juno231 holiday BD is always the best isn't it! Sorry for your bfn but 10dpo is still very early and your nose bleed sounds like a good sign!!🤞🏼 keep the faith lovely x

@Katao Thankyou!!

@lucyrp good luck!!

@Juno231 had no idea nosebleeds were a pregnancy sign... I've never had one so I wouldn't know what to do if that happened 😆 hope yours stopped quickly! Fingers crossed it's a good sign for you

@Juno231 thank you, yes I think the same, they should bloody just say nothing FFS I was furious all evening but as @franklydear said it's just them & I just don't talk to them as a result which is sad as it makes for a not close relationship really ☹️but I'm back to being happy again
Don't count everything on the IC lovely, hoping it's just too early 🤞🏻I'm hoping the nosebleed is a thing (totally didn't know that!)

@Vil10 live a good ol bonk!! You are the queen of the spoon shag too 🥰

Had my progesterone bloods and Covid test & OMG ladies I feel violated oh my god the nurses even said "I'm sorry we have to leave as watching makes us gag!" 😳🤮🤢Jesus!! I spoke to DH then & he was like "well you should have got more practise deep throating then 😂"
Urghhhh
Now a wait til tomorrow to get results

Everything is waiting for us all 🤨

And now we are all hoping for nosebleeds 🤪😋

@Minster2012 good luck with your results, about mums, her loss I think, mine is definitely regretting it now, that has little say on grandchildren lives, but neither me or db are about to ask for advice to be judge 🤷🏼‍♀️

@Juno231 my male colleague send a picture of his very large nose bleed, should I get him a test?
Hope it is a sign for you, and that I made you laugh

@Vil10 I'm not a huge fan of baths either normally, definitely not baths by myself, I always do them too hot and then pass out when I stand uk to get out 😂 I will take it as a compliment! Thanks 😏

@SarahTTC2020 yay so happy for you!

@Minster2012 thank you! Good luck for your tests too! Baths together are definitely a thing! Covid tests are not pleasant are they! 🤮

@Juno231 definitely a good sign! Fingers crossed 10dpo is too early for you.

@Katao thanks x

@Minster2012 you would think the nurses would have a strong stomach 😂 I imagine that covid test is bad... they have to rub the swab on each tonsil, right?

@lucyrp how the hell they get toddlers to do the test I've got no idea 😳

@2020mission yes she went "it had to go down your throat to your tonsil then down each side and turn it around 5 times, then up each nostril til you feel resistance" and OMG cos mine was in the morning it was just after my one coffee and breakfast I don't think that helped 😬Literally she was stepping away gagging too 🤮

So on the bath front we are very lucky coz we designed our house we got a "slightly faulty" VERY large copper bath which is great for accommodating the 2 of us 🥰 but after my transfer on weds I'm not allowed baths until after TWW they say as they are an infection risk with using the pessaries (I still don't understand that but hey) so tomorrow night I shall have a bath & calming glass of wine assuming it goes ahead! My main bathroom below except not showing separate shower bit

This is a very negative thought but I can't stop thinking about it so needed to write it down to get it out of my system. I am SO desperate for a baby BUT I am also SO scared about getting my BFP and then losing it 😭 where I work we see families all the time and every day I text OH and I'm like omg I'm so desperate for a baby, then we see friends who have babies and my ovaries could literally burst because I want one so much. But then I realised I'm actually really scared of getting a positive because of the weeks after where it could all go terribly wrong☹️ sorry for the rant but needed to get it out of my system!

@lucyrp I feel you! I'm trying to take each day as it comes but just keep expecting to start bleeding or this not to be my time.... I'm not sure the anxiety will ever go away 💛

@Minster2012 your bathroom is the dream 😍😍😍 we redone our house from scratch (it's just a terrace, not some sort of Kevin Mcloud job) but our bathroom is huge and I really regret not getting a free standing bath. You wouldn't get me out of yours 😂🥰 the covid test sounds vile!

@lucyrp I've been very cautiously excited since I got my BFP. I love this group here but in general MN has been an eye opener to so many things that can go wrong that I half wish I didn't know anything at all, ignorance is bliss and all that. But I just keep snapping myself out of it, I'm pregnant and right now there's no reason to worry so I need to enjoy it. I am also booking an 8 week scan though 😂🤷🏼‍♀️

So I rang my doctors this morning and was transferred to the midwife centre, and the woman was SO rude. She asked for my postcode and then didn't understand why I'd been put through to that centre because it doesn't fall within their area. I said my doctors is within that area and I'm only 5 mins outside, she wasn't happy and then asked me what hospital I wanted to have my baby at, I was like oh errrmm, and then she was like 'I can't do anything until you decide which hospital, did the doctors not tell you this?' 🙃 fair to say I'm going to the one not in her area now 😂😅 x

Girls I get it completely. Im 7 weeks on Wednesday and defo more panicky this time. Theres been some bad news on the grad thread that has made me so terrified for my scan on Wednesday 😪. I think its the amount of information available to us now, years ago I lived in ignorant bliss and did 1 test maybe 2 and if it showed pregnant then I was happy enough with that, no questions asked or worrying xx

@Minster2012 you do have a fabulous bathroom just how id describe you! Fabulous!

@SarahTTC2020 I'm sure you've got a very sticky bean who's going to hang on in there for you 🥰💗

@KateColx I know I'm the same! I wish I didn't know half of what I did but I guess it prepares you a little for if it does happen to you. When I was pregnant with DS I was so unaware of everything I didn't worry about anything not even labour! As you get older I find you worry about more stuff I don't think I even weighed myself at home until about 2 years ago and since then I've become so obsessed with numbers and losing weight etc. I wish I was ignorant to thag too! That woman on the pgone sounds like the midwife I had when I had a bleed with my cp I will 100% be asking NOT to have her next time !

@Catherinettc oh no!!! 😔 it's so scary when you hear about so much on here, but you've no reason to worry and I'm sure your little sticky bean is just fine in there 🥰 is it a private scan you have on Wednesday? I've been looking this morning, very tempted to book one of the early viability scans just to see that everything is as it should be. X

@lucyrp yeah some of my friends have had babies and were so laid back, I'm just such an over thinker it's awful. Yeah you're right, we defo have more info now! Oh I know tell me about it, I rejoined SlimmingWorld last week so I can try to have some sort of control over the pregnancy weight gain 😅 x

@Minster2012 I've always wanted a free standing bath yours looks fab. Sadly we have a bath right against the wall with shower over and a glass door on the side so it's not very comfortable for more than one person!

@2020mission our bath is the same but its pear shaped so works well!

@KateColx I think my time with slimming world is over. I've tried getting back into it and I just feel so restricted now which is weird as I never did before I felt like I could eat anything but I felt like I was looking at food as good food and bad food and it was just hot working. I tried calorie counting the last two weeks and I've been exercising but I've stayed the bloody sake weight! X

@Minster2012 good luck with the test results. Actually feel nervous thinking you are just 2 days from transfer all going well. I think those of us who have been here since the early days are very emotionally invested in this with you!

Totally get what you are saying @lucyrp pregnancy/conception threads are full of highs and lows and I think I miss being naive! I think when I finally hopefully get my bfp I will take a step back from MN as it's a bit nerve wracking hearing so many things that can go wrong

@lucyrp @KateColx & @SarahTTC2020 I think we all feel the same really & I too was in the total ignorant bliss thing but having had the heartbreak of losing a pregnancy early, and one that also I didn't actually bleed, it was "missed" (which I didn't know was a thing) so had to then be dealt with in the short time before I even got my viability scan at the IVF clinic which we get at 8 weeks then you get discharged into "normal midwifery" I was heartbroken let alone knowing about chemical pregnancies so I don't think any of us would feel safe really. If this IVF works I would get a scan this time in between even though early reassurance ones aren't suggested I would try get one for 7 weeks

The anxiety is real & I think we all need to help each other 🥰❤️

@Katao @Minster2012
I've been snooping on the grads bus every now and again and there's been some sad news over there and it just made me think of all the ladies that end up back on here and its so sad ☹️☹️

Hugs 💗💗

@lucyrp so sad today 😪😪

@KateColx its an epu scan mrs not private x

Oh no @lucyrp someone from here? Will you send me a message?

@Chlo2701 sorry to hear about your husbands business, I really do feel for everyone in those kind of sectors just now your hands are so tied ☹

Sorry I wasn't on last night @Minster2012 just reading your parents comments now. Hope you're feeling a bit better today thats very tactless of them. Its your choice to decide when you want to stop, no one else's. Dont look on it being a jinx, look on it as this time its going to be a big FU im HAVING another child and that little bean will firmly plant and grow just to make a point to your parents 😉

I had a wobble yesterday too. My boss txt last min to see if I could cover a different class today to deliver their sex ed programme and I just burst into tears at the thought of having to talk to them about pregnancy, I thought I was OK with it all this week but clearly I wasnt as I literally sobbed for most of the night after that 🙈 Ended up telling my boss about the CPs and that while I didnt mind doing their sex ed another time I was clearly just a bit too fragile to deliver it this week and luckily she was OK with it.

Hooray for the digital result @sarahTTC2020 hopefully that makes it feel a bit more real now.

That makes me feel sad to hear there's bad news on the grads bus ☹ I was blissfully naive with my first, I had a high risk pregnancy and I remember being so confused that all the docs and all the people that knew me were so worried for me and I was cool as a cucumber as in my head I was just thinking well I'm pregnant now so really I've overcame the biggest hurdle, I dont know what everyone's worrying about....so glad I was naieve!!! This time round has definitely been an eye opener but I'm glad to be on this group as the bad news of others doesn't scare me its strangely comforting. I don't know how to word that, that sounds awful I don't wish any bad news on anyone I wish we could all just fall pregnant first time and have sticky beans but I mean it makes me realise its not just me struggling or its not just me that has set backs if that makes sense? Tho I think if I ever get a BFP that finally turns into a sticky bean, I won't be as calm as my first pregnancy, I think I'll be worried for the entire pregnancy and not able to breath a sigh of relief till they're actually born!

@Catherinettc I feel really down in the dumps for her 😭😭

@Minster2012 sent you a message xx

@DKDK123 j know exactly what you mean!!