Sausages and j*zz - Sep Bus 17

[Juno231]

June BFPs - 24
July BFPs - 10
August BFPs - 18

September BFPs so far:
@catherinettc - Sep 4th
@mrsi2020 - Sep 6th
@KateColx - Sep 21st

Testing dates:
@Missgoldilocks - September 23rd
@franklydear - September 27th
@SarahTTC2020 - September 28th
@Laceymermaid - September 29th
@galatea - September 29th
@clairey844 - September 29th
@Juno231 - September 30th
@hopeful110 - October 2nd
@mrsbear1122 - October 5th
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@minster2012 - October 12th

@notyetamumbuttrying ah I must have missed that, was the first sa low then? What do they do if that's the case? Lovely! Love a bit of Turkish grub.

@lucyrp love a bath together! How do you guys get it in so much with a littlun running around? 😂 I struggle with just a puppy!

@Minster2012 yes yesterday! Wow what a difference, great pic though. Is that your house? Looks lovely x

@Vil10 yay! Sounds like you're having an awesome time. If you're not up the duff after all that shagging I'll be surprised haha.

@Amy00 I can't imagine what you've been through but sending big hugs x

@Amy00 thanks il keep you updated but have to wait a week for the results!

@notyetamumbuttrying ❣️❣️❣️

@Newbie0818 he goes to bed at 7pm so there's quite a lot of time in the evening and on weekends he goes for a sleepover sometimes either with my mum or my nan and he goes to see his dad so 🙈

@Newbie0818 yeah first SA, get next one in Nov. He's been referred to a urologist and also we've got a referral to a clinic. So just waiting around as per. Tbh I'm not hopeful that it'll improve much as he wasn't smoking the first 6 months of us ttc so I don't see it making enough difference to get me pregnant now so I've already started looking at private clinics for ivf with ICSI. Don't really have time to waste waiting for the nhs. We've agreed that if there's no improvement in the second SA then we'll go private in dec. I'm just sticking around on conception threads as I started with you guys and the infertility ones are just too depressing. How's your weekend been?

Hey all, I've been off here for a week while I was on holiday (if you can call it that... I was only in Edinburgh 😆 ) Posting so I can keep track and catch up again.

@Newbie0818 soz didn't answer you! Yeah so he has a low count, motility and morphology. Only thing normal was vitality and his volume was high which I've always known as he produces a lot of cum for a small man 😂 but sadly the swimmers don't know where the hell to go! They're either going in circles or backwards 🤦🏾‍♀️

Sorry I've been quiet ladies, but abit shit my end. I've not said too much about my background but OH owns a nightclub & basically Boris has fucked us, so looks like he's going to have to shut😣 it's not looking good! I'm still looking at all your comments, but can't comment as not in the right headspace atm. Selfishly I'm gutted as TTC might be put on the back burner as got to watch the pennies now x

@Amy00 so sorry for your loss. I am also a returnee. It’s awful but does get better, I remember feeling the same, getting the negative Result so you can try again. Wishing you lots of luck x

@lucyrp nice!

@notyetamumbuttrying ah ok, hope it is better this time round then. Yeah I'm on one infertility one for pcos and tbh it is depressing! This thread definitely helps. It's been nice thank you, though after lockdown, normal weekends seem to go so quickly now! How about yours?

@2020mission hello again :) how was your break away?

@Chlo2701 sorry to hear that! That really sucks. Hugs x

@Chlo2701 that really sucks! Hope you can ride the storm...

@Newbie0818 it was good thanks 😃 Although the bars/restaurants stopped serving at 9.30pm after the government announcement so we had quite early nights! Probably for the best since I was starting the 2WW though. I just read back that your GP was telling you to try for another year - definitely don't let them leave you to do that. I don't know why they think that's acceptable 🙄

Sorry to see you back @Amy00 I recognise your username from a previous bus BFP list. Hopefully you'll be pregnant again soon!

@Newbie0818 thanks! Yeah they do don't they. Mine was nice. Saw my SIL yesterday which was nice. Had a very lazy day today! Watched films and stayed in pjs very late. Just finishing last series of the fall now.

@Chlo2701 that REALLY sucks, I never thought about the clubs (being over 35 I'm not often in a club, like, never 🤦🏼‍♀️😳) have you taken ALL the loans, grants, small Business tax breaks etc? What the fuck are you meant to do??? That's so shit I'm so sorry. On TTC if you are off contraception you can just forget about it & see 🤞🏻

@Newbie0818 I know right! Beautiful pic, no it's my DH'cousins house which is at the bottom of a hill to my MIL. They built it themselves, it's stunning. It's a strange one, my in laws live in a wood on a small hill & their cousins (my father in law Is the brother of her mum) live down the hill & have a duck farm. So like 30 seconds away. So I was at the top of the hill at MIL taking the pic of DS then we went down the hill to theirs to their field & jumped on the hay bales in the bales. Was crazy.

So ladies. I need a hand hold. I'm angry & upset.
I've just seen my brother, his girlfriend & their 5 month old son second time since lockdown & my parents. Lovely.

My parents know about our miscarriage (missed miscarriage we did & told them after. So they know about IVF attempt 1 AFTER IT HAPPENED) only because they were going on holiday the week it happened & it was a callous comment from my mum about "well...we don't want any more babies thank you" that sent me to book a private scan at 7 weeks at a place near my oncology hospital as I hadn't felt right & felt nothing much since I got BFP & I wanted reassurance. It hurt me.

At that scan they saw a sac but nothing (I then dinked my car crying at my oncology appointment) so sent me to EPU which started a spiral of events leading to medicated miscarriage but in a hospital where I'm treated for my oncology which was 1.5 hours drive each way and I had to go every other day for bloods and scans as my IVF clinic then wouldn't see me as I hadn't gone to their EPU.

Anyway, so they know about that. AND since then I have said "we have embryos left, we would always pursue them, NOW even more as I have a yearning" but they have always said one is enough & they are scared for my health. For their child. I have EXPLICITLY said I get that, but all of my teams have given the go ahead for it, so it's medically safe, and that's good enough for us, and they have to respect that.

Tonight, BOTH my parents said again "there's no more babies" so I let it go, then my dad to me said "I have to enjoy this stage as they'll be no more babies, we don't want more babies"

🤔😳

I said "dad, you know we have more embryos in storage & ive said we would always pursue those so talk about fucking jinxing us before we've even started how can you say that"

I was trying hard to stay lighthearted
Fight back tears it's those comments that sent me to the scan in the first place

Having seen my nephew in a vest that was my sons that I sent in a box in floods of tears to my SIL instead of keeping because we thought we needed them again come the end of the year

I'm struggling
They might not want more babies but I do
I know jinxing isn't real but 🤷‍♀️

I woke up this morning dreaming about the MC
Sorry 😔❤️

@Minster2012 that's tough. I'm sorry you had to hear that from your parents. They just worry about you like all parents do, their concerns come from a good place, which you already know, I appreciate it's massively frustrating for you though as they're not you. They can't tell you how to live your life. Did you tell them that you're going for it this week?

@notyetamumbuttrying no I didn't tell them. Split decision but based on a few things really. it was the end of the night as they had to leave to get baby to bed (staying at theirs) & SIL & brother don't know about other IVF & miscarriage, & so wouldn't want to explain at that stage. There's nothing they can do to assist or change matters so no point at this staff 😔not with that attitude

@Minster2012 I'm sorry. I think @notyetamumbuttrying has said pretty much what I was thinking too. It's a shame you don't have their support but have faith in your decisions. They haven't jinxed you.

@Minster2012 sorry you've had a rough evening but @notyetamumbuttrying has said it all really. They are your parents and are worried about you ultimately but it's not fair to say what they have said when they know you want more. They won't have jinxed you. You have all of us ladies for good luck ❣️

Another voice to the same @Minster2012, that sounds like something my mother would say, and then she wonders why none of us three tell her anything...

Thank you, that's just it, @franklydear my parents in general have such a negative stance on everything it's like why would i tell you things when you just say "don't". I realised it when I was about 18 & we discussed abortion, my mum is vehemently against it, & in just a random conversation was like "if you ever had one I would NEVER forgive you" I said "wow, what if I got pregnant now with a boyfriend who hit me (he did, they hated him) you are basically making it so I would never tell you or ask for your help /support through really hard things...are you sure?" She said yes I couldn't forgive it. And that set the tone for me never discussing things. They aren't mega strict or anything, it's really weird. But we aren't "close". So meh. But DH is sooooo close to his. & I'm close to MIL she assumes I'm close to my mum & during surrogacy pregnancy everyone focused on my best friend being pregnant asking how SHE was, then miscarriage it was so lonely.

Sorry, I'm a real pity party tonight ladies 😔I thought it might have changed after I told them their comments hurt me last time ☹️

Thank you all I mean 🤗❤️🥰@lucyrp @Katao

Well ladies morning of my bloods and my temps have gone to shit again! Had a lower temp again today as opposed to a higher one. It's just tentatively sat on my cover line but was expecting it to have shot up again but hey ho. Was thinking I had a lie in this morning then forgot my bloods were ar 8:45 before work 🤦🏼‍♀️

@lucyrp we shower together sometimes but never bath, but I'm not a huge fan of baths, but maybe we should try it some time!! It sounds so nice and relaxing that!! Hahahaha poor OH, getting dizzy spells from bending you over, take that as a compliment girl😂

@Amy00 Thankyou!! It's our last day today I'm gutted!! It must be awful what you're going through! Glad you've got your libido still though🍆

@Minster2012 ive always said it but you're positivity is unreal, even in shit times!! I'll be thinking of you at your appointment!! Also I hate threads that make you feel like you're doing something wrong, this one has made me so welcome and complete opposite of judgemental!

@notyetamumbuttrying I feel like it would take all the phone out of it and I'm not putting my life on hold for TTC when we might even need help for it to happen further down the line anyway!!

@Newbie0818 Oh god you're telling me😂😂 I just hope it carries on when we get home!!

@Chlo2701 so sorry to hear that, all this covid is fucking everything up for so many people!!

@Minster2012 that's so sad, I'm sorry they said that, sometimes parents say things without realising it and you can guarantee when you have another baby they'll love it jusr as much as the others no matter what! They won't have jinxed you❤️

Ah @Minster2012 I'm sorry to hear that, parents can be the worst sometimes at saying what they think without considering feelings 💛

I've gone and done a digital...the flashing wait sign seemed to last forever! Might start letting myself feel it now but I have zero symptoms whatsoever!

@Vil10 I think after your holiday you will be showering together more!! 😉you could always suggest it after you get back for holiday times sake to keep your bonkathan going 🍆🌭

We shower and bath together, when we can without DS! Note to self to do that more often!

I went to bed in such a grump but Back with the positivity now 🤞🏻and good luck with your bloods @ucyrp

@SarahTTC2020 that's great! From what @Catherinettc says enjoy the lack of symptoms!

@vil10 you have no idea how jealous I am of your holiday BD!! That's the DREAM

@Minster2012 I'd be furious with your parents tbh - even if they feel that way there is zero need for them to be repeating it or pushing it on you if you have made it clear that's not what you're intending to do. That's very disrespectful and rude at that point as far as I'm concerned.

@amy00 I really wish you didn't have to join us again... I'm so sorry. Big hugs from us all.

Girls I caved and tested with an IC today at 10DPO - BFN. But I just had a big nosebleed in the office and that is legit the first nosebleed of my life so I am inevitably getting my hopes up seeing as it's an early pregnancy sign!! Dammit body for trolling me.