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Hey @Danni2019 @Mumofboys17 @LAnna20 @lv1987 @katie1109

I don't know if I missed anyone sorry!! Please tag others of you notice any missing xx

I got my peak two days late today is cd17 but I got it thank god along with a lot of ewcm today. Didn't manage to dtd last night I fell asleep and my OH didn't wake me up grrrrrr but we dtd from cd13 to cd15 and will dtd twice tonight! Hope that does it!!

@Ange211 @LAnna20 thank you ❤

The Doctor rang me at 9 she was really good, she as referred me to get my bloods done (this is done at another clinic) so sent me out a letter which I should get in the next couple of days to book my blood work, then the results will go back to my doctor, she said we will go from there, she went through a few of options and things she wanted me to get done which gave me alot of trust and reassurance in her x

How is everyone doing? Haven't been on in a while. Just got to the end of af so here we go again into another cycle. @Boo2020 glad you got somewhere with your doctor it's so hard the not knowing. Just takes so long to go for all these tests and wait for the next thing.

To be honest I'm just so sick of this now. I do have my next step with tests at the end of April which is a scan and they insert some water thing to open up the tubes to see if they are working properly. So I feel like that's a good step as at least I will know all is well.

Sorry having a rant tonight and here is the only place I can really do it. Just feeling down this week. Would just like to go back to focusing on something else in my life and to be able to have sex because I want to not because of where I am in my cycle. Don't get me wrong I do want to but somedays I feel like I have to for where I am in my cycle. Then after ovulation I just feel relieved and then I no longer feel like having sex because I've given all I have in the week leading up to ovulation but feel guilty thinking am I only have sex with my oh in order to get pregnant so try to motivate myself in those 2 weeks as well. Then the thinking comes oh this could be the month and oh this could be a symptom. Oh maybe I shouldn't drink too much coffee or have a glass of wine just in case. For then af to arrive with all of its symptoms bringing you down and then the whole thing starts all over again and this has been my life for 2 years now! I could take time away from trying but can you really go back to not trying now! After so long it will always be there in my mind and I know my cycles so well now that I couldn't not know I'm trying.

Well just have to get through this cycle and then the next cycle I have my scan thing which will hopefully help or it won't and then its just back to keep on trying and hopefully one month it happens for us. It just takes over your life and I know I shouldn't let it but it does. This lockdown doesn't help as nothing else to focus on or look forward to trips etc or meetings with friends. Work keeps me going and my son but it brings me down thinking he is an only child and I just wish I could make him a big brother.

Sorry for the long post of my ramblings but needed to vent for 5 minutes. Hope you guys are in a better place than me this week x

@Danni2020 so sorry your feeling like that 😔..but your not alone, unfortunately your right lock down does play a part in making you just focus on baby making..I mean what else have we got to focus on?! Its been roughly 2 years for me and a miscarriage! I know its easier said then done but I'm trying focus on getting fit and healthy, I'm not over weight and I'm only 5.2" and 9 Stone but I thought I'm going focus on myself for a bit!..

I get my results tomorrow from my bloods so I will keep you updated! we will get there lovely so try not he to hard on yourself 🙂 xx

@boo2020 thanks so much for your reply sorry I've taken so long to reply myself. Was just feeling sorry for myself on Monday I think but what you said about focusing on yourself and health is the right way to go. Took your advice and the last few days as the nights start to get lighter now been out cycling with some music on and its definitely made a difference to my mood. Had a lovely couple of days with my DS and just focusing on making the most of my time with him as he won't want to spend this time with me as he starts to get older. Just focusing on getting to the end of this month and having my scan as at least then I will know everything is ok and know it can happen x

@Danni2020 ahh that's so good! Especially spending time with OH!! I've got a canal just at the bottom of my house, I go for a walk everyday, put my music on and go for a half hour stroll or run! You feel so much better afterwards 😌 even focusing on different meals and going food shopping for them keeps me going! Let me know how your scan goes!? I've got to wait till Tuesday for my blood results, fingers crossed for the both of us xx

Hi ladies sorry I've been a bit AWOL but nothing changed here
@Boo2020 did you get your results?
@Danni2020 hope your feeling a bit better? I can completely relate with how you feel x

@LAnna20 got my results back today and all come back normal, so LH, FSH etc, such a relief but I've asked for a follow up appointment just so go over a fees things! So I suppose i just keep trying..x

Hi ladies haven't posted for a while but need your advice. Have never had this before and a bit worried. I had a bleed on what I think was 4dpo didn't opk this month so not set on this. Was bright red blood but only a bit when I wiped and now since then I have pink discharge for 4 days after. No idea what is going on. In my craziness took a test this morning which was obviously a bfn as had in my head that maybe it was implantation bleeding but 4dpo would be far too early! Now worried I have some sort of infection or something. Anyone any ideas? X

Also to add horrible cramps tonight but I've had cramps this early before too but quite bad cramps tonight x

@Danni2020 I think you need to speak to your GP bleeding between periods is not normal. It may be something totally harmless - in my case it’s a cervical ectropian which I had to have (painlessly) treated with silver nitrate. I get cramps around ovulation and then on and off until af arrives. I’ve been told by my GP this IS normal.

@ange221 thanks I will speak to my gp. I have had ovulation bleeding before but not this lasting for a few days. I had really bad lower back pain last night too but better this morning. Will wait until next week and see what happens when af is due to arrive too. At least I have my scan thing at the end of the month to see whats going on too and I have just had my smear come back normal so I'm ok there too x

Sorry @Ange211

Well af has shown up for me today 2 days early so idea what was going on this cycle! At least I have my hydro scan on the 29th although was going to be on cycle day 10 so would have a chance to try this next cycle but not sure I will now as it will be cycle day 12. Might be able to sneak one try on time next cycle. Just hope everything comes back OK or if they find anything it is able to be treated like yours was @Ange211 x

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@Ange211 OMG OMG I am so happy for you!! Congratulations 🥳

Did yoy have any symptoms? Xx

I’ve had a sore head for a couple of days and sore boobs. I’m trying not to get too excited as I’ve had a few false starts in the past but it’s the first step I guess 🤞

OMG this is amazing news so exciting @Ange211. Is your af due date been and gone? Really hope this is the one for you x

@Danni2020 af was due at the weekend I believe but I’m not really tracking. I’m absolutely terrified tbh can’t even enjoy it. Hoping to get to 6 weeks so I can have a reassurance scan (due to my hx of recurrent mc)

@Ange211 stay positive lovely!! Still so excited for you..keep us updated 💗

I took a frer this morning just to be sure and it’s bfn - gutted beyond words.

So after the roller coaster that has been bfp followed by bfn I haven’t tested again (no tests left) BUT AF hasn’t arrived & kinda feel pregnant bizarrely...headache on & off, aching boobs, waves of nausea, constipated & full of wind 🤢 - lovely eh 🤣
I guess all could be explained by pms but time will tell. I’m trying not to get too excited or too down. Keep everything crossed for me ladies 🤞

@Ange211 just saw your message about your negative on a frer and sorry that your having a roller coaster of a time. I really hope it all turns out to be positive for you and the fact that your af is really late now has to be positive surely or have you had this before? Did you want to buy a clear blue to be sure as this is the one I always trusted to tell me the truth especially after af was late. I have had a clear blue digital for about a year now unused I worry it's now out of date if I ever actually get to use it. Really hope it turns out to be a bfp for you and everything crossed. Keep us updated 🤞 x

A tentative congratulations @Ange211! I know the next couple of weeks are going to be a worrying time for you but I have everything crossed!

@Danni2020 good luck with your scan next week! Hopefully a little flush out will work wonders for you :)

@Danni2020 @Fredthespider I’ve ordered a clear blue digital but I cancelled my prime membership because I wasn’t using it so will have to wait until next week 🤣 I do believe I am pregnant but it’s whether it’s a sticky one I’m not so sure. I’ve had cramp on and off which is different from my many previous early losses. My “normal” is sudden heavy bleeding with no pain at onset that builds after a few hours. My boobs are still killing me 🤞

I’ve started spotting 😭 should have known it was too good to be true. Not sure how much more of this I can take.